Letter to Anyone w DepressionI wrote this because I'm depressed and I don't want other people to feel like how I'm feeling, so I wrote this letter to try and give them hope.Letter to Anyone w Depression5 years ago in Letters More Like This
Yes, you. I don't know your exact troubles, but I do know one thing. Depression, even suicidal depression,is something most teens and young adults have been through. No matter what lies your depression tells you, there is always someone who loves you and that you need to live for. So, are you saying why do I have to live for others instead of for myself? Don't worry. I think everyone whose suffered from depression has had those kind of thoughts about only living because other people want them to and feeling like there's nothing they can get out of their own lives. I know it's hard to live only because others want you to,but over time forcing yourself to live for others and see the value other people have in your life will help you realize how valuable your life is. All life is precious. No matter what you think of yourself, you're not
Wind's ApologiesAnd at some point, I could disappearWind's Apologies6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
not because I hate you
not because I'm tired
I will disappear
for I'm like water
for I'm like wind
to keep me
you have to bottle me
you have to close all the windows
and then, for what it's worth
I'll stay with you forever.
My Bleeding HeartMy Bleeding Heart4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My heart is bleeding
Try sleeping with a broken heart
The nails are deeper than I ever thought possible
Didn't even know there was flesh there
The air I breathe is toxic
The food I don't eat can't heal me
Everything slowly kills me
Insomnia haunts me
Pieces of my heart keep shattering my dreams
Try living a never ending nightmare
Pain and fear my faithful companions
I have made them a special place
Where they can spend the night comfortable
I swim in darkness cause my misery blinds me
I know where the light is yet I don't want it
My cries and my sobs by all go ignored
They look at me but the truth is in codes
They can't read what's written on my soul
That the love is almost over and so is the hope
What am I supposed to do? How do I get back to where I belong?
I know he's somewhere, I can feel his presence
Yet I can't hear him, I can't see him
The knowledge gives me courage, the strength to endure
I'm still not ready to lose
But there's not much you can ask of these broken p
It only hurts because we both feel the same wayDuskIt only hurts because we both feel the same way3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And in the depths of this never ending twilight my mind retraces its steps,
Following the veins along your arms and across your chest.
Counting the memories as they slip between my finger tips,
Remembering when times were good
And you said you’d write a love song for every one of my tears.
But those days are long gone, now fading stars in the darkest of nights.
When our souls were light and our days care free,
We would watch the leaves as they fell from the trees.
Each one a dying light, like a firework that streaks through the night
But we built a fire so big and so bright,
An undying passion blazing in the night.
I found heaven in your eyes the murky blue like stormy skies,
The curve of your lip like a mountain range,
I could sit forever and gaze at you this way.
My piece of heaven in the depths of hell,
Your light reached out to me and healed all my scars.
When you said that every breath I take is a tiny gift to you in a miraculous way, I welled up i
Our Simple TaskWe are deepened by our dark souls, sealed within the bloody and banished scrolls.Our Simple Task3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Damned by the morning and by the light, our eyes lurk gloomily in the path of night.
We whisper tears throughout your sight, paralyzing your intelligence and fear of flight.
Alas flight is what you truly need, hence why your fate is for us to read.
In the air your body is thrown, whisked upon the dead; let your soul hear them moan.
Thrust forth and forgotten by the stain of blood, absorb the monstrosity from within the flood.
Bested by glasses and long dark coat, your flesh reeks a stench; thou shall be thrown in the moat.
Left to freeze and burn from the flames, thou is forevermore forgotten; the end of our games.
What Monsters Haunt YouWe caught the scent of a grand monster,What Monsters Haunt You3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
So we set out on its trail.
The path was wicked, but we were both broken,
So how could we ever fail?
Now you’ve gone north
When I went east;
I just kept searching
for a lethal beast.
And all the beautiful, broken, bitter beasts
That I chased and hunted and sought
Turned out to be so much more monstrous
Than we ever could have thought.
Well, I swore that I could tame them—
Instead they tore my heart to shreds;
But I suppose that’s just the way it goes
When you hunt the things you dread.
I love you, but I envy you,
Up on that higher road;
You’ve left the wilds of this world
For a place I cannot go.
I am stumbling forth, on my own—
This wicked land is no place for a lone child—
But you’ve left me alone to hunt monsters
And I’ve lost myself within theirs wilds.
And now, you see, they have bested me,
Their only pleasure is from this gain;
I knew and they knew all this time
That I was just hunting for my
My Winter Bride Hush, my loveMy Winter Bride3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Not a word
Not a sound
Let me kiss your breath away
as I lay you to sleep in the frost covered ground.
I shall dress you in a wedding gown
of lilies so pure and white
Pleading my vows of love eternal
to you, my Winter bride.
Our wedding bed is covered
in a blanket of virgin snow
Stained only by the secrets
I have forced upon it now.
Sleep gently, my love
Not a whisper
Not a breath
Let me lie by your side
while I love you to death.
My Master's VoiceI screamed at him "I'm leaving!"My Master's Voice3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
He smiled and said "okay"
I said "no, for once I mean it
This time you wont make me stay"
But bags were never really packed
And that night in our bed I lay
The taste of blood on my lips
Still remained there the next day
I screamed at him "please stop this!
I am the Mother to your child
Baby, I know you have a temper
I know my ways make you so wild"
"But I promise I'll try harder
Not to push your buttons so much"
With that the beast resumed control
As I quiver at each stolen touch
They scream at me to leave him
To them it's such a simple choice
But it's been so long since I've heard
Anything but my master's voice
To the point that I no longer know
My own mind or my own heart
But today he said he's sorry again
And tomorrow will be a fresh start
Deadlock- 12Deadlock- 123 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The ceiling was boarded and low, even lower than Nessa remembered it being. The knots in the wood made the surface appear rough when she knew it was smooth and her numb curiosity urged her to reach up and touch it. But maybe that's because she'd been staring at it all night. Not that the night had been that long. By the time she'd finally gotten Will back into the car and Sky had pulled into the Sanctuary driveway, sunlight had bled into the horizon like a negative picture of ink leeching into fabric.
Will's leg was broken, bent in an unnatural shape, and he had a dislocated shoulder so he'd passed out the second they'd hauled him into his room. She'd stayed during the majority of the bandaging, Kale and Lucy placing the glowing bands over his bruises and cuts, but when they had to manually reset his leg and pop his shoulder back into place, Nessa had left. Every minute since--excluding that hot shower she took--she'd spent staring at the ceiling in her room, thinking of her mom, her l
Death Doesn't Happen To YouYour death doesn't happen to youDeath Doesn't Happen To You3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
No, you get peace for eternity
At the cost of a single cut
What you don't see,
Are all those people
Left standing at your funeral
Trying to figure out
How they'll be able
To live in a world
Without you in it.
Yet you have the audacity to think
You could take something as important
As your life away from us,
To put our hearts at stake
And throw your life away
Because you can't take
The struggle of living.
What you don't see
Is that your life isn't yours,
It belongs to me
It belongs our mom and our dad
Your growing number of friends
And that girl you wish you had
Your life never belonged to you
It is a gift that belongs
To those who care for you
And you think you have the right
To just throw that away
As if our love doesn't matter
That we could be cast astray,
Well i won't be
i love you too much for that
And whenever you try leave
I'll always bring you back
Because your death doesn't happen to you
It happens to me
To our mom and dad
Your growing number of
Castle of air.It broke.Castle of air.3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
My fragile mind shattered like a glass mosaic.
All the tiny shards fell out of my ears, nose, mouth and eyes until there was nothing left.
That's when the men in white came to take me with them.
They told me they would take me to a castle where I would be treated like royalty, and where servants would be looking for the pieces of my mind puzzle that I had lost.
They dressed me in a beautiful white gown and brought me to my chambers so I could rest after my long journey. The walls and floor were soft to touch, and as I stretched on my toes and reached up my hand, my fingertips brushed against the soft ceiling.
There was no need for a common bed.
The entire room was a bed!
Softer than any bed I had ever slept in before.
I do not know how long I slept, but when I woke up, a servant in white came with food and water for me. He told me that if I was behaving well, he would take me to meet the others. I was curious to know who else lived at the castle, and promised I would be nice
You're important to me: JisbonIt was a late Thursday night. The CBI team had just wrapped up another case, (Of course it was mostly all thanks to Patrick) and everyone was headed home. Well, everyone but Teresa Lisbon. Van Pelt and Cho said their goodnights and followed behind Rigsby who was headed for the elevator. The office was much quieter at night with the exception of murmurs from the people taking nightshift and the occasional phone ringing in the background.You're important to me: Jisbon5 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
To be honest Teresa hated working late nights, especially after finishing up a case, but ever since Minelli threatened to suspend the entire CBI team for not following his orders (They were just trying to help Patrick) Teresa had been trying hard not to irk him. Of course, he knew it was around 1 in the morning and he also knew she must be exhausted after the hard day, but his orders as soon as the team got back was for her to finish up a stack of papers and help with some files. She agreed, gritting her teeth the whole time. Teresa sighed; this was her
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 16Ashley P.O.VI'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 162 years ago in Romance More Like This
5 hours into labor -
The pain was past unbearable. After hours of being in the white sanitized room I seem to have somewhat gotten used to the pain that travelled trough my whole body. My grandma and Andy’s mom had gone out the waiting room to wait for my grandpa and Andy’s dad and they also called up our bandmates as well. The peace was ruined when we heard a woman outside our room talking.
“I am standing here at the south LA hospital where Ashley Purdy a american bassist is currently in labor with his and Andy-” God dammit she was reporting this! I looked over at Andy to see him looking ready to kill. He kissed my hand getting up from his seat next to me opening the door angrily shutting hard almost immediately after he went out the hallway.
“Get the fuck out of here! My fiance is in a hell of a lot of pain you have no business being here! GET OUT!” He shouted. I heard the hallway go dead silent. It was moments later which felt m
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 4Chapter 4I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 43 years ago in Romance More Like This
Jake, C.C and Jinxx had been waiting for nearly 20 minutes until C.C finally lost his patience.
“This is retarded we should of heard back by now.” Jinxx was about to reply until C.C called over a near by nurse. “Excuse me! Nurse lady!” C.C yelled. The nurse with brown hair and blonde bangs quickly made her way over to them. She smiled as she approached them.
“Umm what can I help you gentlemen with?” She asked nicely. Jinxx got up standing facing her.
“We showed up here about 2 hours ago with our band mate Ashley. He fainted while on set but we were escorted out of his room for some reason do you have any information on his condition?” Jinxx explained trying to be calm but jake and C.C could tell that his blue eyes were filled with worry. The nurse looked through her clip board looking for Ashley’s papers. She then smiled huge facing the guys once again.
“Purdy is officially one week pregnant congrats
AssassinAssassin2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I know who you are, walking alone
With that look in your eye,
And your own secret throne,
The secrets you hide,
You know that I know.
Don't know your destination,
Disgust of Assassination
I know why you're you, out in the dark,
With that look in your eye,
That electric spark,
That past that you hide,
It's no secret anymore.
Your not at all cliched,
Double blade, a maid,
Made to assassinate
I know your past, why you hide away,
The family and friends you lost,
The price you had to pay,
It's not really your fault,
Your not that alone.
You take a long time deciding,
Your striding, colliding
Your own world your dividing
I know you begged, when you were young,
In streets at morn, dusk and dawn,
To feed yourself, I know that it stung,
Scars in your heart,
Though of course you won't
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 8Chapter 8I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 83 years ago in Romance More Like This
Tour had finally ended without too much going on. Thankfully all the press and reporters were banned from entering the venues and tour buses, not to mention I also got a lot of security. Ever since the post came out about me being pregnant we still got negative response from haters and even a few of our fans that were homophobes. I got posts on my Twitter account like:
“Ashley you were so sexy to bad your getting fucking fat and are a faggot. I thought you guys were real rockers not fuck buddies.”
“You fucking freak!”
“ I hope you die you piece of shit. Being gay is a sin you and your “lover” will spend the rest of time in hell!”
I rolled my eyes laughing at the comments. Yeah people trying to sound like badass’s on the internet. yeah I’m the pathetic one. I closed my laptop shortly after feeling the bus come to a complete stop. I opened the curtain to see that we we
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 18Chapter 18I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 182 years ago in Romance More Like This
Beep. Beep. Beep.
I opened my eyes to a fuzzy looking white room. Am I dead? I turned my head slightly to my left to see wires and blood fusions to be going in my arm. What kinda of fucked up heaven is this?
A oxygen was secured on my face and my neck was secured in a neck brace, but it felt slightly cold in this room. I turned over to the right to see Ashley still in his hospital clothes feeding Denise from a bottle with my mom sitting next to him. . he decided months earlier that he would rather feed through a bottle rather then his chest stating that it feel odd ( and hurt too much for his comfort.) He looked up to see me looking at him. He gasped seeing me awake handing Denise over to my mom.
“Andy how are you feeling?” He whispered softly, looking worried. Weakly I brought one hand up to his face stroking it slowly.
“I am fantastic but can we turn up the heat in here my head feels cold.” I complained. Ashley’s expression we
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 9Chapter 9I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 93 years ago in Romance More Like This
“You two are having a baby girls congrats!” The nurse announced smiling at us both. Ashley covered his mouth in surprise and started crying.
“We’re going to have a daughter Andy! A daughter!” He yelled happy. I smiled kissing his lips. I then looked up at the screen to see an outline of small baby ... my daughter.
“If you look here,” Dr. Armstrong stated pointing at the baby’s head,” Her head right now is pointing up near Ashley’s ribcage, while her feet are pointing somewhat down.” I watched the screen closely still smiling brightly and feeling tears in my own eyes now.
“And lastly here is her heartbeat.” Me and Ashley stayed dead silent hearing a thump dum sound filling the room. Probably one of the most beautiful sounds I ever heard.
“And that is it for your ultrasound. If you two have any concerns or questions about your baby or any specific b
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 7Chapter 7I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 73 years ago in Romance More Like This
I opened my eyes feeling the warm covers cover me and andy. I looked over at the time “10:35”. I shrugged my shoulders swinging my feet out of bed, putting my Hello Kitty slippers on. I put on some baggy sweatpants and BVB tank. My hair was a mess so I just tied it up in a pony tail not really giving a shit right now. I snuck out of the bus carefully I decided to get the guy’s some breakfast food since I’ve been acting like a moody prick the last month or so.
I shut the door behind me and walked towards where the food stands that were for the bands. I was almost there until same camera people and reporters came up to me immediately shoving their mics in my face and blinding camera flashes taking 30 pics a second. What the fuck?
“Ashley Ashley! Is it true you and Andy are in a relationship?” One lady with brown hair yelled. I felt my heart stop cold. I began trying to walk away from them but they wouldn’t let me leave.
Leather Bound Birds When I met her, it was raining, so I offered my umbrella.Leather Bound Birds4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
'Here,' I said, touching the girl's wet shoulder lightly, 'Borrow this.'
A small smiled fluttered over her face, 'No,' she murmured, 'The rain, it's inspiring.'
I didn't understand, 'But, but... You're drenched!'
Slowly, she turned to look at me, her eyes were heavy with pity, 'I cannot take up your offer,' she said quietly, 'When the sky is mourning the loss of summer it is only kind to suffer with her. The summer is her child, and every year he vanishes. If we allow ourselves to taste the agony of a grieving mother on our lips, and recognize it for what it truly is, then we ourselves become stronger. More sentient.'
Still perplexed, I asked, 'But aren't tears meant to be salty? This rain is fresh.'
Quite to my surprise, the girl laughed, 'Oh! Don't be so silly!' Her tone wasn't mocking, but it bruised me all the same, 'Whoever said the rain was tears?' She continued, 'No, the sky
boys who love their grandmothersnever fall in love with a boy who loves his grandmother.boys who love their grandmothers3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
he will be too gentle with your lips,
too sincere when he whispers blessings into your ears
pleading that he doesn't deserve you.
his tongue will not slither between your teeth.
instead, the heat of his mouth will melt your scar tissue
until there is no trace of your travels.
never fall in love with a boy who loves his grandmother.
he knows patience.
you will try to convince him
that it is one of the many virtues
you don't yet possess,
but he will dig through the flesh in your ribcage
until he finds it lodged beneath everything
you're too scared to confess.
he will teach you forgiveness, remind you that you are not a mistake.
he will wipe the trails of tears that always seem to decorate your cheeks
and replace them with rose petals, saying that he chose the color red
to match the passion he knows flows through your veins.
never fall in love with a boy who loves his grandmother.
he will trace the freckles on your skin
Austria X Reader:: My HarmonyAustria X Reader:: My Harmony3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
It's too cold too dark
I reached out; extending all my fingers, hoping someone will come and rescue me.
My body felt numb as it soaked and fell down the lake. The waters were really freezing; the elegant blue shades of water fading down to dark grey as I sank underneath.
I tried to shout but I really can't I want to cry but I won't. I've vowed to myself I won't.
Someone Help Anyone
Moments passed, I was already out of breath--
It's the end I'm going to die now.
Smiling with grief , I pitied myself. Even though there's nothing to go back, my mind crazily spun with regret and sadnessif only I've said sorry and felt bad to those countless familie