Letter to Anyone w DepressionI wrote this because I'm depressed and I don't want other people to feel like how I'm feeling, so I wrote this letter to try and give them hope.Letter to Anyone w Depression4 years ago in Letters More Like This
Yes, you. I don't know your exact troubles, but I do know one thing. Depression, even suicidal depression,is something most teens and young adults have been through. No matter what lies your depression tells you, there is always someone who loves you and that you need to live for. So, are you saying why do I have to live for others instead of for myself? Don't worry. I think everyone whose suffered from depression has had those kind of thoughts about only living because other people want them to and feeling like there's nothing they can get out of their own lives. I know it's hard to live only because others want you to,but over time forcing yourself to live for others and see the value other people have in your life will help you realize how valuable your life is. All life is precious. No matter what you think of yourself, you're not
This Is Why We Can't Be In LoveThe day we first met, she was naked. The empty gallery had turned the A/C off and she said, "it's hot, too hot for clothes," and she stripped down to skin. She was pink and raw from sunburn, shiny plasma peeking out of translucent cracks in her epidermis.This Is Why We Can't Be In Love3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"How many times have you done this today?" I asked her. "Also, hello."
I know I flushed pinker than her, fully clothed in my capris and navy fingerless gloves even though it was already July-- burning for her, because she didn't seem to notice her own skin.
She smiled, asked, "Am I beautiful?"
"I don't even know you."
"Okay," she said.
"I have to go," I said.
* * *
She was still naked, our second encounter. I was eating a blizzard in the Dairy Queen and she was sitting at the counter with the tall stools. I tried to avert my eyes, to focus on whatever was outside the window in the parking lot, but she caught my gaze in hers and trapped me. As I watched her, she grinned and twirled, bare feet on the linoleum floor,
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 4Chapter 4I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 42 years ago in Romance More Like This
Jake, C.C and Jinxx had been waiting for nearly 20 minutes until C.C finally lost his patience.
“This is retarded we should of heard back by now.” Jinxx was about to reply until C.C called over a near by nurse. “Excuse me! Nurse lady!” C.C yelled. The nurse with brown hair and blonde bangs quickly made her way over to them. She smiled as she approached them.
“Umm what can I help you gentlemen with?” She asked nicely. Jinxx got up standing facing her.
“We showed up here about 2 hours ago with our band mate Ashley. He fainted while on set but we were escorted out of his room for some reason do you have any information on his condition?” Jinxx explained trying to be calm but jake and C.C could tell that his blue eyes were filled with worry. The nurse looked through her clip board looking for Ashley’s papers. She then smiled huge facing the guys once again.
“Purdy is officially one week pregnant congrats
MeI put myself in a fantasy world.Me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The real world just doesn't compare.
I get on better with boys than my own gender.
I'm just not into the girl's life.
I have such a dry sense of humour.
People think that I'm cruel.
I've been in love with a friend,
for over six years.
And I'll be damned if I tell him at all.
I block out my feelings.
I have a face for the world.
It's different to what I am truly.
I stick up for my friends.
No matter the cost.
No matter what trouble I'll get into.
I'm wierd and I'm wacky.
That's why I'll never be popular.
Society just doesn't fit with me.
Or maybe I don't fit with society.
I am who I am.
I accept everything.
I'll accept everyone.
No matter what they believe,
No matter what they do.
My anger stays hidden.
I keep it at bay.
You don't want to see,
All of my rage.
This is me.
Most is good.
Some is bad.
But who can't say that?
I'm embracing it,
I'll tell myself this.
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 18Chapter 18I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 182 years ago in Romance More Like This
Beep. Beep. Beep.
I opened my eyes to a fuzzy looking white room. Am I dead? I turned my head slightly to my left to see wires and blood fusions to be going in my arm. What kinda of fucked up heaven is this?
A oxygen was secured on my face and my neck was secured in a neck brace, but it felt slightly cold in this room. I turned over to the right to see Ashley still in his hospital clothes feeding Denise from a bottle with my mom sitting next to him. . he decided months earlier that he would rather feed through a bottle rather then his chest stating that it feel odd ( and hurt too much for his comfort.) He looked up to see me looking at him. He gasped seeing me awake handing Denise over to my mom.
“Andy how are you feeling?” He whispered softly, looking worried. Weakly I brought one hand up to his face stroking it slowly.
“I am fantastic but can we turn up the heat in here my head feels cold.” I complained. Ashley’s expression we
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 9Chapter 9I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 92 years ago in Romance More Like This
“You two are having a baby girls congrats!” The nurse announced smiling at us both. Ashley covered his mouth in surprise and started crying.
“We’re going to have a daughter Andy! A daughter!” He yelled happy. I smiled kissing his lips. I then looked up at the screen to see an outline of small baby ... my daughter.
“If you look here,” Dr. Armstrong stated pointing at the baby’s head,” Her head right now is pointing up near Ashley’s ribcage, while her feet are pointing somewhat down.” I watched the screen closely still smiling brightly and feeling tears in my own eyes now.
“And lastly here is her heartbeat.” Me and Ashley stayed dead silent hearing a thump dum sound filling the room. Probably one of the most beautiful sounds I ever heard.
“And that is it for your ultrasound. If you two have any concerns or questions about your baby or any specific b
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 19 Part 2Chapter 19 part 2I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 19 Part 22 years ago in Romance More Like This
I walked calmly out of my room followed by all the groomsmen that accompanied me. I stepped into the church waiting for the wedding to officially start. I looked at aisles of seats that I had all my and Ashes family and friends and several bands that we have toured with for quite a few years.
“Ready Andy?” Jake asked standing by my side in front of the pastor.
“I’m nervous, excited and terrified at the same time. God I hope I don’t mess anything up Ashley deserves to have the best.” I answered back in hasty voice. I heard the pastor laughing slightly at my nervous behavior giving me a small smile.
“Calm yourself my child. Just by the look of your manner I can already tell you two will have quite a few happy years ahead of you.” The old man responded looking at me with reassurance in his eyes.
“Thank you father.” I said feeling himself more calm. Truth is marrying Ashley isn’t the whole reason
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 20 - Part 2Ashley POVI'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 20 - Part 22 years ago in Romance More Like This
A foggy haze. I opened my eyes to see nothing but fog and white everywhere. I felt no aching pain anywhere and nothing was around me. I was about to get up until I felt something on my back, I flinched feeling something small being pulled out. I froze seeing in my hand was a black feather. Shit am I dead?! I walked around I circles to still see nothing. I felt myself grow weaker as I fell to the ground.
“ANDY! DENISE! Anyone! Come back ... C-C .... COME BACK!” I screamed in agony and vain falling down on my knees crying in my hands pounding my fist on the floor ... or whatever the fuck I was hitting ... I kept my head down until I felt a pair of arms hugging my neck. I lifted my head up to see brown eyes like mine met mine. The owner of the wood eyes was a lady with tan skin and long flowing black hair ... it can’t be ... she dies years ago ...
“Mommy?” I asked in shaking voice. The woman kneeled down in front of me smiling at me gently noddin
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 3Chapter 3I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 32 years ago in Romance More Like This
~ One Week Later ~
A week had nearly passed since me and Ash sneaked into the hotel without the guys knowing. But something ... weird had happened. The last few days Ashley had been sleeping more and was irritated with everyone over the stupidest shit. Thankful today we had a day break before tomorrows show, so maybe I can calm his nerves before he gets on the rest of ours.
I walked over tot he bunk to see Ash laying on the bed watching the signs on the road. I bent down smiling kissing his jaw. He turned smiling at me lifting his arms up. I grinned from ear to ear sliding my arm under his legs and shoulders walking to the couch. C.C who was sitting at the end quickly got up.
“Whoa I’m not sitting next to him!” He shouted pointing at me and Ashley. Ashley glared at him intensely.
“Come on C.C his PMS will pass soon ... hopefully.” Jake said saying the last part more to himself.
“Guy’s Ashley is that ba-.”
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 11Chapter 11I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 112 years ago in Romance More Like This
Oli walked back into his apartment that he shared with a few other bandmates laughing uncontrollably to himself. He sat on the couch earning confused glances from his bandmates.
“Why are you laughing so hard?” Lee asked looking curious. Oli finally calmed down facing them.
“Ok so you know those fags live in that apartment not to far away from L.A right? “ His bandmates nodded listening closely.” Well I wrote a message saying that if Ashley doesn’t die from the baby I would kill him, I attached a stone to it and threw through their window! Ha ha ha! You should of seen Purdy’s face it was priceless then he almost stabbed that fag with a piece of glass thinking he was being attacked! Ha ha ha!” He finished explaining laughing.
The other guys looked disgusted and shocked at the story. Oli kept laughing until he felt a sharp pain come across his face. The whole room went silent at the sound of the slap. Oli
Between the stallsAmung the sinks and filthy tilesBetween the stalls2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I stay between two dirty walls
I really just need to be here alone
No where but here amung the bathroom stalls.
As I sit upon the toilet lid
I can see the water between my knees
I glare into this toilet bowl
And all I find is a circular sea.
I watch as they drip again and again
The tears come streaming down my cheek
They fall into the bowl directly below
And vanish into the water so bleak.
This is the place I come to hide
This is the place I always go
Where theres a place I can be myself
And not my emotions' puppet show.
I hear the tap of my shoes echo the room
But its shushed asleep by the sound of the flush
This way I can drown my emotions dead
To finally get them to shut up and hush.
I use my sleeves to wipe my eyes
And walk out from between these walls
I walk with nothing but a smile to show
Like nothing happened, even at all
I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 13Chapter 13I'm Pregnant?! - Andley - Chapter 132 years ago in Romance More Like This
“What about Andrea?” Jinxx suggested for our daughters’ name. I look at Ashley, shaking my head rapidly.
“No I just don’t really feel like its right ..” I said. Today was 7 months of Ashley pregnancy and we still have not officially picked a name for our daughter ... I know its kinda pathetic ...
“Ashley?” C.C suggested snickering at Ashley. Ashley flipped C.C off mock laughing the suggestion. I signed in frustration. This was harder then I thought ...
“Can we just do this some other time?” I asked frustrated. Ashley exchanged a slight glare at me.
“You can write songs for two separate albums yet you can’t think of a name?” He asked nonchalantly. His eyes then widened sitting up quickly looking excited at me.
“What is it Ash?” Jake asked looking curious at Ashley. Soon everyone went silent wondering why Ashley was so excited out of the blue.
“What about Denise? It
Poetry,Poetry,Poetry,2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
it’s like cultivating a greenhouse
with broken fingers.
Our Simple TaskWe are deepened by our dark souls, sealed within the bloody and banished scrolls.Our Simple Task2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Damned by the morning and by the light, our eyes lurk gloomily in the path of night.
We whisper tears throughout your sight, paralyzing your intelligence and fear of flight.
Alas flight is what you truly need, hence why your fate is for us to read.
In the air your body is thrown, whisked upon the dead; let your soul hear them moan.
Thrust forth and forgotten by the stain of blood, absorb the monstrosity from within the flood.
Bested by glasses and long dark coat, your flesh reeks a stench; thou shall be thrown in the moat.
Left to freeze and burn from the flames, thou is forevermore forgotten; the end of our games.
ChildThe bloodied scissors rest in my sweaty palm, completely out of place, yet they seem like they have always fit. My victims quake in terror, crying out for help as I advance towards them, but I don't hear them. Soon, when I awake from this nightmare, I will realize what I have done and collapse under the stress- however, with my Master guiding me, I do not understand the severity of my crimes. I simply follow orders.Child2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
The night wears on. The people's screams have become a numbing background- melodic, actually, compared to the eerie silence of the forest. City lights glare at me in every direction, even with the sun rising. Soon, I am too weak and exhausted to wear on.
I drop the weapon to the ruined carpet of the apartment building, slowly staggering to the end of the hallway. A fog-stained window lies there, and I lean my form against the cool glass. My breathing is rapid and heavy, even for my standards. Even though I can barely move at the moment, I lift a trembling arm and draw a sha
I wish...I’ve been sitting on your doorstep for three days.I wish...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Here are the nothings I left under the mat:
i.I do not feel like a lion anymore,
an alpha wolf, a hyena or
any other strong-willed beast.
I want to take my scars
out to lunch,
feed them your eyes,
& your tongue
until it bleeds sorrow,
and “please forgive me’s”.
iii. You wish I never existed
as you grind those words
into my wrists like they are
red hibiscus blossoms.
& I’ll have you know
I am a flower, bloomed,
rooted deep into the soil.
You are just a combination
of 26 letters-
an “I wish…”
TrulyLet me be honest,Truly2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
strip me of all poetic license,
of mellifluous language
and literary devices,
bare my soul
and let it stand naked in truth...
I am in love with you.
I cannot crawl inside your mind,
there is no way I can know
what thoughts, what dreams
across each synapse
and where your psyche,
where your heart elects to place me
inside your vast universe but,
I know that
you are in love with me.
You are beautiful,
not just those luscious amber eyes
or those silken ringlets,
but beneath the skin,
at the core from which your heart bursts,
your soul flickers like candle light,
the way you touch me
with your words, with your motion,
with your very being...
my adoration springs eternal
for your every piece.
There is no shadow of doubt,
there is no question
that I love your dark
as much as your light and
do not dream of you
as anything other than who you are,
of what you are,
in all your flawed perfection
are the one my soul seeks;
Just One MoreJust One moreJust One More2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just a cut.
Just a scratch.
"What's that mark.?"
"It was the cat."
Just an excuse.
Just another lie.
"What's with all the bracelets.?"
"Just fashion, why.?"
Just a tear.
Just a scream.
"Why were you crying.?"
"Just a bad dream."
-But it's not just a cut, or a tear, or a lie. It's always 'just one more' until you die
Deadlock- 12Deadlock- 123 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The ceiling was boarded and low, even lower than Nessa remembered it being. The knots in the wood made the surface appear rough when she knew it was smooth and her numb curiosity urged her to reach up and touch it. But maybe that's because she'd been staring at it all night. Not that the night had been that long. By the time she'd finally gotten Will back into the car and Sky had pulled into the Sanctuary driveway, sunlight had bled into the horizon like a negative picture of ink leeching into fabric.
Will's leg was broken, bent in an unnatural shape, and he had a dislocated shoulder so he'd passed out the second they'd hauled him into his room. She'd stayed during the majority of the bandaging, Kale and Lucy placing the glowing bands over his bruises and cuts, but when they had to manually reset his leg and pop his shoulder back into place, Nessa had left. Every minute since--excluding that hot shower she took--she'd spent staring at the ceiling in her room, thinking of her mom, her l
MomYou nursed me as a babyMom8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And brought me up as a child
You gave me what I needed
Love, warmth and your encouraging smile
You were w/ me every step
Through all the good and bad
You taught me and I learnt
From all the mistakes that I had.
The Batter of the Milky WayI.The Batter of the Milky Way1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
She is a beautiful tragedy
because slices of her celestial soul
dissolved on my tongue
like powdered sugar
Kisses taste like the melted sun
dripping blazing wax
and it's true: nothing can compare
to the fervent fire burning
in your rib cage
(No wonder you're always
desperately grasping for stars-
the smoke is so thick that
I am gasping for breath)
Stardust, moon rocks and sugar
are in the batter that makes up
the Milky Way
But shooting stars are dying things,
so grant your wishes
with your own two hands
Pickaxe and bag -
I can mine you for
the stardust between your bones,
the jewels in your eyes and
the things you have thrown away
to make it this far
and yet you'll never run dry
I am Native AmericanI am Native American5 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Poem: In the beginning i was here,
Long before the white man and his diseases, his religions, and his warlike ways.
I lived upon the land for countless moons in harmony with the Great Spirit,
Honoring all life around me.
In this land called Kan-tu-kee, the great meadow, the dark bloody ground,
I was known as Shawnee, Cherokee, Iroquois, Creek....
I AM NATIVE AMERICAN.
Rayne was good friends with the chief's daughter. She had no parents so the chief took her in as his won daughter. Rayne and the chief's daughter, Skye, always played
Teasing?Dark Don was many things. A person who easily admitted to having awkward feelings was not on the list. Grumbling irately, he typed away on his computer. Despite the fact that most computers were touch-screen now, there were a lot of people who still preferred to keep the keyboard. On his computer, he was testing himself to figure out if he was feeling what he thought he was. Of course, he had devised all the tests for his brothers, seeing as Dark Mikey had prodded him into it.... The purple clone paused, his finger above the enter key. He didn't need a damn test to figure out what he was feeling, but he would like to be sure... He pressed it, and the results flashed on-screen. He immediately minimized them, and leaned back in his hoverchair. So, he WAS in love. For sure. And his discovery was a double-one, seeing as it also meant he was gay. The purple turtle rubbed his forehead. He was positive that Donatello was not gay, so why him? "Well I AM his opposite," he grumbled. He was prettTeasing?4 years ago in General Fiction More Like This