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Hayns. How to characterize these creatures from a far away world, Esvarra, in just a single word?
Empaths. Yes, this concept is a foundation of their culture, but it only answers “how?” and “why?” questions and not “what are they like?”
What does an empathy mean for a hayn? An ability to read minds of other's, an ability to feel their emotions. Inability to become distant from other creature's pain, great compassion toward other's suffering. A weird combination of collective intellect and individual reason.
Intellect and reason are not synonyms, at least in hayns' case. For example, let's take a computer: intellect is it's capacity, operative memory. Reason is all programs that use an electric “brain” as their main source. Intellect is capacity, reason is an algorithm. First one is impersonal, it's only responsible for complicated processes that a brain is capable of processing. Algorithms can be changed, overwritten and corrected. New pr
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I held onto my crying daughter watching Ashley with sad eyes. I would have lost it and let my feelings burst out but my daughter needed me more. I must stay strong for her. Ashley would have wanted me to be strong. A felt Denise moving slightly poking her head up at me staring at me with her eyes. I frowned seeing that they were filled with panic.
“Daddy is mommy going to heaven with grandma?” She asked in a silent voice. I shook my head hugging her tighter.
“No sweetie. Mommy is just resting. He is very weak so please be pacient with him ok?” I asked in soft voice kissing her forehead. She nodded her head wrapping her small arms around my neck. I breathed in the scent from her hair running my hands through her black hair.
“Please Ashley. Please wake up. We need you.” I silently pleaded to myself. I rocked Denise till I felt her breathing deeply indicating that she had fallen asleep. I stared at Ashley whom was wearing a hos
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After a good hour or two of my grandparents and Andy’s parents talking about the baby my grandparents decided to rent a small house so they could stay here the whole time until my son or daughter was born. Andy’s parents would return about three months later after me and Andy come back from tour.
I was in the living room packing up some few extra stuff including my hello kitty plushes from fans. Yes I bring them with me sue me. I was about to carry it out until a pair of arms wrap around my waist. I looked up to see sapphire eyes.
“Ashy you shouldn’t be carrying that i’ll do it for you.” He said taking my suitcase away from my grasp. It was sweet ... but it was gonna get annoying very quickly. I grabbed my jacket following andy out the door to our tour bus that was right outside. We were greeted by the guys waving at us.
“Soo .... how did it go?” Jake asked awkwardly. Everyone went silent waiting for an answer.
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Tour had finally ended without too much going on. Thankfully all the press and reporters were banned from entering the venues and tour buses, not to mention I also got a lot of security. Ever since the post came out about me being pregnant we still got negative response from haters and even a few of our fans that were homophobes. I got posts on my Twitter account like:
“Ashley you were so sexy to bad your getting fucking fat and are a faggot. I thought you guys were real rockers not fuck buddies.”
“You fucking freak!”
“ I hope you die you piece of shit. Being gay is a sin you and your “lover” will spend the rest of time in hell!”
I rolled my eyes laughing at the comments. Yeah people trying to sound like badass’s on the internet. yeah I’m the pathetic one. I closed my laptop shortly after feeling the bus come to a complete stop. I opened the curtain to see that we we
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Month 8 -
I was sitting on the couch reading a Kerrang magazine over my huge belly. One more month .. I don’t think I would last .. I’m already huge I’m surprised I haven’t popped. I was nervous cause I was told serval times that I could go into early labor this month since my case was so rare. Luckily my grandparents weren’t far away same with Andy’s parents and Andy was always with me.
“Hey Ashley I’m gonna go grab some stuff at the store ill be back in an hour.” He told me kissing me on the cheek. He got up grabbing his jacket from the coat hanger while I began to feel some panic.
“Wa-wait so you’re’ leaving me alone?” I stuttered feeling my face pale.
“ Babe i have my cell and it will only be an hour. I’ll be back soon ok?” He said smiling at me reassuringly. I turned my self on the couch so I was laying down. I closed my eyes resting my h
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Jake, C.C and Jinxx had been waiting for nearly 20 minutes until C.C finally lost his patience.
“This is retarded we should of heard back by now.” Jinxx was about to reply until C.C called over a near by nurse. “Excuse me! Nurse lady!” C.C yelled. The nurse with brown hair and blonde bangs quickly made her way over to them. She smiled as she approached them.
“Umm what can I help you gentlemen with?” She asked nicely. Jinxx got up standing facing her.
“We showed up here about 2 hours ago with our band mate Ashley. He fainted while on set but we were escorted out of his room for some reason do you have any information on his condition?” Jinxx explained trying to be calm but jake and C.C could tell that his blue eyes were filled with worry. The nurse looked through her clip board looking for Ashley’s papers. She then smiled huge facing the guys once again.
“Purdy is officially one week pregnant congrats
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“In the end as you fade into the night! Whoa oh oh! Who will be the one to till the story of your life?” The music abruptly ended showing a girl with curly brown hair holding a mic.
“And that was our exclusive sneak peak of Black Veil Brides coming sometime in early 2013! Please stayed tuned for-” I turned off the TV looking down at my little girl in who was sleeping comfortably in my lap with her fuzzy pink blanket wrapped around her securely. It amazed me that she is already two years old before you know it i’ll be arguing with over the car, boyfriends and her curfew ... damn I’m getting old.
I left my thoughts when i heard the door creaking open to see Andy walking into the house seeing me and Denise on the couch. He smiled throwing his shit on a comfort chair leaning down to kiss me on the lips. He then noticed Denise and kiss her on the head. I felt her beginning to move slowly opening her eyes exposing her br
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Forth Month - Ashley P.O.V
I sat on the couch in the living room with a blanket wrapped around me and some hot tea in hand. It had finally come to 4 months with my pregnancy. I was getting more and more excited as the months seem to blow by. tomorrow I’m going to be visiting my doctor to talk about how I’m suppose to give birth since I’m one of the first recorded males to actually go full term. I waited for Andy while watching some TV.
“Ugg nothing good is ever on.” I groaned to myself . I then turned to the music channel only to see the words “ Ashley Purdy updates.” What the fuck? I turned up the volume.
“ We currently still have no word on what gender the couples baby will be. But we do have a trusted source telling us that Mr Purdy is currently in his forth month. We asked some fans to see how they feel about the situation.” The screen then cut to some girls with blonde hair.
“ Their baby is gonna be the
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Nearly 3 hours later it was dark outside but the party was still alive. I was about to tell Ash I was ready to leave until my parents made an announcement.
“Everyone can we have your attention?” My mom yelled over the commotion.
“As you all now Ashley and Andy are going to be having a little girl in just a few short months and before we officially rap up this party we would like to give them their last gift from me my husband and Ashley’s grandparents and the three bandmates from Black Veil Brides.” My mom then came over giving Ashley a small envelope thing. We exchanged confused look’s watching him open it up gently. It was a long piece of paper with what looked like multiple documents. As Ashley read the page tears started to well up in his eyes. I quickly put a arm around him.
“What what is it?” I asked feeling concerned and anxious. He then turned to me smiling brightly showing me the paper. I felt my jaw d
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Beep. Beep. Beep.
I opened my eyes to a fuzzy looking white room. Am I dead? I turned my head slightly to my left to see wires and blood fusions to be going in my arm. What kinda of fucked up heaven is this?
A oxygen was secured on my face and my neck was secured in a neck brace, but it felt slightly cold in this room. I turned over to the right to see Ashley still in his hospital clothes feeding Denise from a bottle with my mom sitting next to him. . he decided months earlier that he would rather feed through a bottle rather then his chest stating that it feel odd ( and hurt too much for his comfort.) He looked up to see me looking at him. He gasped seeing me awake handing Denise over to my mom.
“Andy how are you feeling?” He whispered softly, looking worried. Weakly I brought one hand up to his face stroking it slowly.
“I am fantastic but can we turn up the heat in here my head feels cold.” I complained. Ashley’s expression we
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“You two are having a baby girls congrats!” The nurse announced smiling at us both. Ashley covered his mouth in surprise and started crying.
“We’re going to have a daughter Andy! A daughter!” He yelled happy. I smiled kissing his lips. I then looked up at the screen to see an outline of small baby ... my daughter.
“If you look here,” Dr. Armstrong stated pointing at the baby’s head,” Her head right now is pointing up near Ashley’s ribcage, while her feet are pointing somewhat down.” I watched the screen closely still smiling brightly and feeling tears in my own eyes now.
“And lastly here is her heartbeat.” Me and Ashley stayed dead silent hearing a thump dum sound filling the room. Probably one of the most beautiful sounds I ever heard.
“And that is it for your ultrasound. If you two have any concerns or questions about your baby or any specific b
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~ One Week Later ~
A week had nearly passed since me and Ash sneaked into the hotel without the guys knowing. But something ... weird had happened. The last few days Ashley had been sleeping more and was irritated with everyone over the stupidest shit. Thankful today we had a day break before tomorrows show, so maybe I can calm his nerves before he gets on the rest of ours.
I walked over tot he bunk to see Ash laying on the bed watching the signs on the road. I bent down smiling kissing his jaw. He turned smiling at me lifting his arms up. I grinned from ear to ear sliding my arm under his legs and shoulders walking to the couch. C.C who was sitting at the end quickly got up.
“Whoa I’m not sitting next to him!” He shouted pointing at me and Ashley. Ashley glared at him intensely.
“Come on C.C his PMS will pass soon ... hopefully.” Jake said saying the last part more to himself.
“Guy’s Ashley is that ba-.”
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A foggy haze. I opened my eyes to see nothing but fog and white everywhere. I felt no aching pain anywhere and nothing was around me. I was about to get up until I felt something on my back, I flinched feeling something small being pulled out. I froze seeing in my hand was a black feather. Shit am I dead?! I walked around I circles to still see nothing. I felt myself grow weaker as I fell to the ground.
“ANDY! DENISE! Anyone! Come back ... C-C .... COME BACK!” I screamed in agony and vain falling down on my knees crying in my hands pounding my fist on the floor ... or whatever the fuck I was hitting ... I kept my head down until I felt a pair of arms hugging my neck. I lifted my head up to see brown eyes like mine met mine. The owner of the wood eyes was a lady with tan skin and long flowing black hair ... it can’t be ... she dies years ago ...
“Mommy?” I asked in shaking voice. The woman kneeled down in front of me smiling at me gently noddin
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I walked calmly out of my room followed by all the groomsmen that accompanied me. I stepped into the church waiting for the wedding to officially start. I looked at aisles of seats that I had all my and Ashes family and friends and several bands that we have toured with for quite a few years.
“Ready Andy?” Jake asked standing by my side in front of the pastor.
“I’m nervous, excited and terrified at the same time. God I hope I don’t mess anything up Ashley deserves to have the best.” I answered back in hasty voice. I heard the pastor laughing slightly at my nervous behavior giving me a small smile.
“Calm yourself my child. Just by the look of your manner I can already tell you two will have quite a few happy years ahead of you.” The old man responded looking at me with reassurance in his eyes.
“Thank you father.” I said feeling himself more calm. Truth is marrying Ashley isn’t the whole reason
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5 hours into labor -
The pain was past unbearable. After hours of being in the white sanitized room I seem to have somewhat gotten used to the pain that travelled trough my whole body. My grandma and Andy’s mom had gone out the waiting room to wait for my grandpa and Andy’s dad and they also called up our bandmates as well. The peace was ruined when we heard a woman outside our room talking.
“I am standing here at the south LA hospital where Ashley Purdy a american bassist is currently in labor with his and Andy-” God dammit she was reporting this! I looked over at Andy to see him looking ready to kill. He kissed my hand getting up from his seat next to me opening the door angrily shutting hard almost immediately after he went out the hallway.
“Get the fuck out of here! My fiance is in a hell of a lot of pain you have no business being here! GET OUT!” He shouted. I heard the hallway go dead silent. It was moments later which felt m
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“What about Andrea?” Jinxx suggested for our daughters’ name. I look at Ashley, shaking my head rapidly.
“No I just don’t really feel like its right ..” I said. Today was 7 months of Ashley pregnancy and we still have not officially picked a name for our daughter ... I know its kinda pathetic ...
“Ashley?” C.C suggested snickering at Ashley. Ashley flipped C.C off mock laughing the suggestion. I signed in frustration. This was harder then I thought ...
“Can we just do this some other time?” I asked frustrated. Ashley exchanged a slight glare at me.
“You can write songs for two separate albums yet you can’t think of a name?” He asked nonchalantly. His eyes then widened sitting up quickly looking excited at me.
“What is it Ash?” Jake asked looking curious at Ashley. Soon everyone went silent wondering why Ashley was so excited out of the blue.
“What about Denise? It
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Oli walked back into his apartment that he shared with a few other bandmates laughing uncontrollably to himself. He sat on the couch earning confused glances from his bandmates.
“Why are you laughing so hard?” Lee asked looking curious. Oli finally calmed down facing them.
“Ok so you know those fags live in that apartment not to far away from L.A right? “ His bandmates nodded listening closely.” Well I wrote a message saying that if Ashley doesn’t die from the baby I would kill him, I attached a stone to it and threw through their window! Ha ha ha! You should of seen Purdy’s face it was priceless then he almost stabbed that fag with a piece of glass thinking he was being attacked! Ha ha ha!” He finished explaining laughing.
The other guys looked disgusted and shocked at the story. Oli kept laughing until he felt a sharp pain come across his face. The whole room went silent at the sound of the slap. Oli
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I opened my eyes feeling the warm covers cover me and andy. I looked over at the time “10:35”. I shrugged my shoulders swinging my feet out of bed, putting my Hello Kitty slippers on. I put on some baggy sweatpants and BVB tank. My hair was a mess so I just tied it up in a pony tail not really giving a shit right now. I snuck out of the bus carefully I decided to get the guy’s some breakfast food since I’ve been acting like a moody prick the last month or so.
I shut the door behind me and walked towards where the food stands that were for the bands. I was almost there until same camera people and reporters came up to me immediately shoving their mics in my face and blinding camera flashes taking 30 pics a second. What the fuck?
“Ashley Ashley! Is it true you and Andy are in a relationship?” One lady with brown hair yelled. I felt my heart stop cold. I began trying to walk away from them but they wouldn’t let me leave.
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~ 6 months later ~
A man with white priest robes made his way down the hallway towards a room that was marked “Andy B” with a soft smile on his face. He knocked on the door opening it slowly seeing the room filled with around 7 men including the groom.
“Are you ready Mr Biersack? Miss Purdy is all ready to go. I must say she is lovely bride. And your daughter is simply adorable.” The priest said with pride and happiness in his voice. Andy looked away from the mirror giving a small grin. His black hair has then grown back but he still kept one side shaved having grown attached to the new style. He wore a black suit with a black silk tie and white rose attached.
“Im ready.” Andy said looking at himself in the mirror.
“excellent please march out in 5 minutes another priest will assist you.” with that the priest left the room leaving Andy and his grooms men alone.
“How did you convince ash to wear a dress?”
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Finally me and Ashy get to leave the hospital and return back to L.A in our apartment. ... And call the parents and grandparents about .. our latest discover .. joy. As we were getting ready to leave I noticed Ashley sitting on his bed looking down at the ground. I kneeled down in front of him placing my head on his lap making him smile.
“Its going to be ok outlaw.” Before Ashley could speak the nurse with brown hair came in with a wheelchair signaling that we could officially go. I picked Ashley up bridal style making him squirm.
“Andy I don’t want a wheelchair I got two legs.” He whined. I rolled my eyes placing him in the wheelchair. The nurse giggled at the scene, while beginning to push Ashley down the hall.
“Sorry sweetie it hospital procedure but once you get to your vehicle you can walk around all you like just give us a call if you have any questions or concerns ok?” She explained smiling at
My Bleeding HeartMy Bleeding Heart3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My heart is bleeding
Try sleeping with a broken heart
The nails are deeper than I ever thought possible
Didn't even know there was flesh there
The air I breathe is toxic
The food I don't eat can't heal me
Everything slowly kills me
Insomnia haunts me
Pieces of my heart keep shattering my dreams
Try living a never ending nightmare
Pain and fear my faithful companions
I have made them a special place
Where they can spend the night comfortable
I swim in darkness cause my misery blinds me
I know where the light is yet I don't want it
My cries and my sobs by all go ignored
They look at me but the truth is in codes
They can't read what's written on my soul
That the love is almost over and so is the hope
What am I supposed to do? How do I get back to where I belong?
I know he's somewhere, I can feel his presence
Yet I can't hear him, I can't see him
The knowledge gives me courage, the strength to endure
I'm still not ready to lose
But there's not much you can ask of these broken p
Letter to Anyone w DepressionI wrote this because I'm depressed and I don't want other people to feel like how I'm feeling, so I wrote this letter to try and give them hope.Letter to Anyone w Depression4 years ago in Letters More Like This
Yes, you. I don't know your exact troubles, but I do know one thing. Depression, even suicidal depression,is something most teens and young adults have been through. No matter what lies your depression tells you, there is always someone who loves you and that you need to live for. So, are you saying why do I have to live for others instead of for myself? Don't worry. I think everyone whose suffered from depression has had those kind of thoughts about only living because other people want them to and feeling like there's nothing they can get out of their own lives. I know it's hard to live only because others want you to,but over time forcing yourself to live for others and see the value other people have in your life will help you realize how valuable your life is. All life is precious. No matter what you think of yourself, you're not
in our minds we rot.my lips taste like soot.in our minds we rot.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
i realize that we
are nothing but hell-brought fire,
the seven deadly sins
(you be lust, i'll be pride)
and a mess of upside down picture frames.
my teacher once told me
that most writers are introverts;
we drink in the world
and spew it back in ink and titles.
we tattoo words
across the inside of our eyelids--
but somewhere in the process
i must have drawn you
inside the convex of my irises,
because all i can think about
is your wind-shaken frame
flames licking across your hips.
you turn black
beneath my hands.
i can't write about that.