"it's my insecurities that make me watch other people in a way they're not even aware of themselves , And slowly, although never on the spot, I am becoming their signs of beauty. I see myself in the mirror day after day and even so it takes some time to realize who I’ve become."
how do we get here ?
there is a place that i like to invite you all ,it will be my home from now on . this is a new artistic community called 500px . i am in here 500px.com/jyoujo
You burden me with your questions You'd have me tell no lies. You're always askin' what it's all about, Don't listen to my replies. You say to me I don't talk enough, But when I do I'm a fool. These times I've spent, I've realized, I'm gonna shoot through, and leave you.
You burden me with your problems, By telling me more bout mine. I'm always so concerned, With the way you say, You're always at stop, To think of us, Being one is more than I'd ever known. But this time I realize, I'm gonna shoot through, and leave you.
Jesse Fisher: Okay, that's not really a sound argument. Zibby: Why not? Jesse Fisher: Because it's like saying what if reality is all an illusion, then there are no consequences to anything, we're completely off the hook... and I believe in consequences. Zibby: No, you believe in guilt. Jesse Fisher: Maybe, but guilt before we act is called morality.
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you know watching Tv shows really makes you disappointed about life in the future . or any time really . actually , you don't even have to watch anything at all . you will be just disappointed anyways . but it's not to blame Tv shows because most of the time they capture the fun moments in life , and not so much for your working time . (mostly boring ) i can see why .
people say "not all those who wander are lost" . i "wander" if that's true : )
although it sounds cute . i think we are pretty lost . i dare someone say otherwise . cause if you say it , you are pretty blindly-lost yourself .
the thing i wanted to say today was , i met one girl this past weeks . We've been working together for a month now . She looks pretty hipster and she is always alone so , this for me was so unrealistic cause , in college you see those people surrounded by people , friends ( looks like ) and cool other whatever-it-might-looks-like things . I never knew what it meant to be/look hipster until someone called me that in dA . i don't think i look like it at all , and if you'd know me . You'd know .
Back to my point : We became a little closer because we are alike . yeah , don't you said you are not a hipster ? we are alike because mostly we are alone and ,we read a lot and we love music . it's not about looks or being cool . (whatever that means) . although she is pretty cute , she is shy and sits by herself anywhere. So this week i came forward and asked why she is not like those tumblr pages hipsters surrounded by . hmmm . . . things . people . happiness ? and boys of course , she is someone who looks like she would anywhere in the world .
She told me she used to hang around , having timeless fun getting drunk , drink tons of no-one-knows-what .surrounded by no-one-cares. feeling useless and happy all the same time . Then she realize start working , changing her environment ,made it all change too .
she looks like she looks cause this is who she is , there is no point in trying to make a point here . but time came and made those bubbles away , leaving her in her world of words , poetry ,books , music . not so many friends these days , not the ones she wants to be around . she told me a phrase i knew
" you should spend your time with people worth living for , because you never know with who you will die with" .
So at least she tries to cover this part , even though we don't know when , knowing that you are with someone you like yo spend your life with , makes it all made some sense . doesn't it ?
when i said she looks hipster and cool she said my definition of cool is very outdated . what does define cool these days anyways . i wonder that . society does really makes an awful job trying to blind us with everything . but we can't blame them . most of the time . we blind ourselves .
so i will just quote something now and , thank you for reading my nonsense words .
"I'm the type of person who enjoys being alone . I like to walk home alone with music. I like to stay home alone friday nights. I just like quiet and time to myself. but I don't like being alone long enough for me the bad thoughts to take over. I guess what I'm saying is that I like being alone , but I hate being lonely "
i guess now , after reading this . some of us are not feeling lonely . i know i didn't . although i am alone most of my time . i wasn't lonely today.
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"a lot of people around me are preoccupied with building a reputation, making a name, achieving success or at least getting oneself lined up at the entryway to one of the aforementioned paths. But we are so young. it doesn’t matter, not yet, and maybe ever. I beat myself up for not being able to give an answer that most adults want to hear and it’s useless. every now and then, I feel more wise than them. What is the point of this pressure? I’m still in school for another two years. I don’t know what I want to be but I know what I am doing. Why isn’t that enough? the next time a person approaches me and asks, “what do you want to do?” implying a future tense of my undergraduate degree and college experience, I want to try answering: “to learn.” I’m in college and that’s all I really want, or need, to do right now. learn, grow, know. that is enough. "