These Hands Are So Red...These Hands Are So Red...
These hands are now red and so slicked with this blood,
I can't even wash it in a basin of mud...
As I scrape at the skin of those demons I chase,
I am left with a smile mixed with pain on my face.
Since I swore I would savour this blatant disgrace,
Let perversion be writ in these scars I will trace.
From the tip of my shoulders to the base of my tongue,
Are the names of those sleepers so cold and so young...
-Chen Yuan Wen, 15th March 2013
.i feel in a language.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
i don't understand,
and the wings of the bird in my kitchen, they
won't get to feel the sky anymore -
and sometimes doesn't it feel good?
to put two fingers round the neck
of a flower and
hear the petals scream for
their withering limbs,
then start choking
.i am child.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
i am sister
i am baby and bitch,
every name but my own stuck in my skin
like needles, thick venom slides through -
my veins and into my chest, to my heart -
that warm gift of your flesh and blood i gave
you to unwrap, stale
i lay in a field of opium, red
and on fire, i think he was angry, he handed
me salt and the tusk of a boar and said wait
for me to call you,
and i did -
eat the land
drink the sea, i opened my mouth and saw
nothing but white feathers fall to the ground,
he grabbed my hand and held it to his own lips
(she says there will be no more poems here)
last night I was inspired."Last night I was inspired.last night I was inspired.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
It was a sad, cold, lonely night. Thoughts screaming, yelling at me. I literally wrote nonsense on the wall for hours, about beating hearts, fragility and failure. About skeletons that had no legs and hissing fangs that glared at me.
Once again my cruel best friend arrived, embracing me with its gleaming coldness. She was dressed in silver and scarlet; our favorite colors. She danced as I wrote and sang as I cried. And then I was suddenly left in the dark; lonely, hating her -hating them-, and crying.
Yet it was strange that what I only got to feel then, was inner peace."
"Anoche fui inspirada.
Era una triste noche, fría y solitaria. Pensamientos chillando, gritándome. Escribí cosas sin sentido en la pared durante horas, sobre corazones que laten, sobre fragilidad y fracaso. Sobre esqueletos sin piernas y colmillos siseantes que me mataban con la mirada.
Una vez más, mi cruel y mejor amiga llegó,
master of decadence.Although it might not seem so, she had been the killer in the crowd; that night she had come to hunt them all down. No mercy, she did it one by one. Surprised? Allow me to explain, such devil, such wicked heart, black and untamed. Afraid? Listen close now; her show is about to commence.master of decadence.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
She hisses, she snarls, and she whispers, and she laughs. She's the prettiest of all, with evil mind, sweetly to prowl. Bony fingers of long sharp nails, her lovely hands were made to tear flesh. But fragile she is and one day she might break. Just a beautiful sinner now wasted away. Oh, such enchanting cadaver, dancing and dead.
And as she keeps dancing she starts pulling you down. Down into a dark place you alone would never have found. You shout, stupidly unbowed. But sadly at night, only silence is loud. And as her silhouette continues to skulk, twirling around, you finally understand. She's the master, a queen with no crown.
And although her heart is cold and her teeth are sharp, she once had be
In Memoriam:iconrowanelle:In Memoriam3 years ago in Personal More Like This
She's gone ...
Sleeping her eternal sleep
Her spirit wandering
through the pastures
of that beautiful afterworld
She's gone ...
Having opened many hearts,
filling them with warmth
Changing people's lives
She's gone ...
May your spirit be free
and at peace
in eternal happiness
Knowing you're in our hearts forever
She's gone ...
So now it's time for me to go ...
.tonight.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
the moon is rotting,
my hands are not my own
my blood is howling
(treetops glow silver)
.if these.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
then i'm sure
to hold you
(been too busy dreaming to get any sleep)
Letter from mission!!!here is :iconpixiecold: again!!! ive got an email from my brother sanguis!!! he told me he wants to let you know the newest newsLetter from mission!!!2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Here is the message:
"Hey my awesome fans This is sanguisgelidus speaking. I am doing well on my Mission, sometimes it is like a rollercoaster ride, it is not always so easy to be far away from home and my loved ones, but still I enjoy the time and I learn so much!! I feel God`s love for me and all of his children everyday, that is what keeps me being motivated, even though there are some People, who are quite rude sometimes. But well, that is life I guess! ^^ I miss you all a lot, but I am still practicing my drawing/painting skills whenever I have some spare time. I just started rediscovering my love for pencil drawings I am looking Forward to the time, when i can start my career as a freelance Artist, but till then I still have some work to do to find those People, who really Need the hope of the love of God. I love you all and I than
.my thoughts want to.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
flee, but there is no fire
escape, no guide to the
exit of my head, and they
consider digging a hole
there, i feel it, maybe a
crack just wide enough
to crawl through, drop a
rope through the back
of my neck and climb
down, prise open the
earth - a tremble turns
into an avalanche, and
a snowflake in the flurry
wonders am i the same as
all the rest? he coughs and
splutters and chokes on
it - i wake in the early
morning, heart lodged
in my throat, that red
bird in that chimney, he's
going to starve there and
i'll be spitting feathers;
i won't claw the inside
of my neck again for
nobody, i'm past that,
pick me up by the
scruff and drop me
wherever you're going -
but wait, when lightning
strikes a tree, well isn't
that love? and when the
rain pelts the ground,
well what about then?
when you miss the ache
of wounds as they're
healing, is that it? well
when your nose bleeds,
that's still love right?
cos i've got an entire
pack to get through -
and what a funny
thing it is
Charles Snippy: DreamsEntry 382:Charles Snippy: Dreams4 years ago in Personal More Like This
My personal online psychiatrist is making me narrate this nonsense down on the chip embedded in my tooth in hopes that someday I may be cured of my "incompatibility" with ANNET, or at least possibly reduce the "mild psychosis caused by work-related stress" as she calls it.
I know that it's not going to happen. The problem is something genetic and while those goons in the genetics department would love to get their machines into my brain, I prefer the lack of sleep and headaches to lobotomy.
I seen the reports on their test subjects: "total neural shut-down", "subject resists integration with the net, increasing the signal strength lead to damage to the 85% of the frontal lobe."
Call me old fashioned, but I like my brain the way it is.
I've had that day-dream again. Day-mare is more likely.
A flash-mare? Not sure what to call these, really.
The transmitter towers dotting this bloody city are making my life difficult, but not as difficult as the fact that everyone expects me t
Selfies vs. Self-PortraitsI don't think people understand the difference between a self-portrait and a 'selfie'.Selfies vs. Self-Portraits2 years ago in Personal More Like This
I've been taking photos of myself ever since I got into photography. Actually, I remember the day I took my first self-portrait. I had always been a landscape/ nature photographer, and I had woken up one Saturday morning with the intention of going to the woods to take some nature shots. But it was pouring out and my mom, being afraid that I'd get sick in the rain, insisted that I stayed in. I listened, but I still wanted to take photos.
So I decided to take some photos of myself.
Portraiture had always intimidated me because I felt that there were elements in it beyond my comprehension. With landscapes, if I saw a pretty scene, I would just photograph it. That came natural to me. But when it came to photographing a face/ body, suddenly I had to worry about the way the light was hitting the face and if it was the right angle for the model.
But lo and behold, I enjoyed taking self-portraits that Satur
A letter to myselfDear Yourself,A letter to myself3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Doesn’t’ this seem odd to do? First off writing yourself a letter to talk to your subconscious mind. Feeding it with more depressing thoughts so it can feast on your happiness and well being? To accomplish what? What does this kind of behavior result in?
It’s not always easy being on the other side of the glossy display on your shiny new Mac you’ve dreamed about. Did you think by purchasing this computer you would fill the internal void that grows each day collecting cancerous dust particles of negativity and hate? How this constant feeling of emptiness originates from thoughts like the picture above.
You clearly cannot let go no matter who stumbles into your life, it’s not that you don’t want to try....
You are physically and emotionally unable to give someone else a chance.
This girl, she holds my heart in the air everyday as if it is some trophy maybe one of many she collects.
When you needed your family the most, they were
Devious Journal EntryIf you say "gullible" slowly it sounds like "oranges".Devious Journal Entry4 years ago in Personal More Like This
The BIOSHOCK SongYou can watch it here or over on YouTube at the following http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VIwC9_VCZCY&featurelayer_embeddedThe BIOSHOCK Song3 years ago in Personal More Like This
The song is currently available for $0.89 cents at this http://brentalfloss.bandcamp.com/releases until a iTunes version becomes available.
Remember when I said there was a "surprise" coming on Thursday? Here it is! This is one of the projects I've been working on these past few weeks. My job was to make the "Joe" inserts used in this video.
The Return of the Pirate :3Greetings Ladies and Gentlemen,The Return of the Pirate :34 years ago in Personal More Like This
Me name be Chenbeard and as I promised, the revolution has officially ended as of yesterday. Now, I'm quite aware that there are a few things I owe and I'll start by stating them:
4 days worth o' Faves fer all Classes - This will be done tomorrow after I'm home from college
A poem by Reaper: This will be his swan song, as he is permanently away from writin' or so he's stated to me. I will also post this up tomorrow. I don't fully know why he has asked me to do this and I'll ask no questions, he's crew and for that reason I will not pry into his life.
NEW CREW MEMBERS - I'm well aware that several of ya have applied fer crew membership. I'll be sortin' through all ye proofs of loyalty tomorrow, acceptance will be done up on WEDNESDAY. So please be patient alright ^^
Now then, onto the general matters:
1) As far as I can tell, literature spots on the front page seem to be doin' alright. If yer work gets shuffled it SEEMS to clear up in five days (at least
Naruto the movie:Road to Ninja Update 3! Poll 3!Naruto the movie:Road to Ninja Update 3! Poll 3!4 years ago in Personal More Like This
Sorry this is a little late but those who don't know here's a heads up!
Celebrating 10 years of Naruto anime, series creator Masashi Kishimoto will be providing the story and character designs for this summer's Naruto movie, Road to Ninja. According to rumors, the movie will not feature the characters as we've come to know them. And, new illustrations of a Sasuke redesign seem to support this.
According to the buzz, its Sasuke may be kind-hearted and loyal to his friend Naruto, while Kakashi will be a bit less cool and calm, and instead more heated.
Apparently this is the movie's Sasuke. Is this an alternative, friendly rival Sasuke?
Quick Reminder + Lit Love + Important NewsQuick Reminder:Quick Reminder + Lit Love + Important News4 years ago in Personal More Like This
My dear co-captain has informed me that some people aren't quite understanding the concept of the filler releases.
Essentially, I am currently no active on DA. My co-captain :iconLugiaLuvr13: is running my account for me and she is posting rejected work or poems that we've left unreleased (for whatever reason stated in the author's comment) as a way of bridging the entertainment gap, until I officially return to DA (once my schoolwork is settled).
For this reason, it is HIGHLY recommended that you read the author's comment section of the poem, before posting a comment on any poem released. Chances are, the problems you pick out with the piece, would have already been identified by the both of us at Word of Chen and it is for that reason that the piece would have been unreleased during the themed week it may have been intended for.
So please, just take one moment to check the author's comment and take note of why the piece is a filler. Thank you ^^
End-of-year Premium membership giveaway! [Closed]End-of-year Premium membership giveaway! [Closed]2 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
Congratulations to :icondeathgoddess231: who won the giveaway.
For those that didn't win; keep following my journals.
There are more giveaways and features coming in the near future
Like some of my old watchers know, I have a premium membership giveaway for watchers at the end of every year.
In most of the previous giveaways, I always asked my followers for a good reason why they'd want a premium membership. I used to read all of the messages, and picked the one that touched me most.
However, with the current amount of watchers and messages I get on a daily basis, I realize this will be hard to keep track of. Let alone picking just a one from that huge group of people. Because I'm sure there are many of you that have interesting story's, and all of you have your reasons to want such a membership.
That's why, this year, I'm going to do it in a different way.
If you want to join, read along!
What will I give away
New Naruto: Road To Ninja Trailer!!!http://www.tv-tokyo.co.jp/anime/naruto/movie12/movie_maeuri.htmlNew Naruto: Road To Ninja Trailer!!!4 years ago in Art Features More Like This
Oh this is gonna be so much fun to watch!
I did a thing!I told you guys I was going to do it, and I did.I did a thing!2 years ago in Personal More Like This
It's my graduation/Christmas present to myself.
My emotions are all over the place; I can't stop crying.
This means so much to me.
I suppose I'll write up a better explanation and story behind this later. I just feel like I'm floating right now.
Dear Poetry isn't just my username, it means too much to me to be only that. Poetry has honestly saved my life. Sometimes people ask me where I would be if I wasn't writing, and I tell them dead. There has been so much wrong in my life, and always kept it so hidden before someone told me to write it all down.
And last night, everything just seemed to click together. It was spur of the moment, and I walked into this tattoo parlor only seeking a price quote. The owner asked me how much I had on me, and personally did my tattoo for 25 dollars. I wanted to cry right then and there because he was being so nice to me. I think he could tell how much this simple tattoo meant to me. A
Artistic insecurityIt's funny how people seem to think that I'm all that great, just because I make the art I do, and I voice my opinion here in an occasional journal-article. Like any other artist out here, I have my own doubts about my art, and I have a hard time facing them every now and then. I'm not perfect. I'm far from where I want to be. And lately I'm quite uncertain of where I want to go with my art. It's something that is bothering me quite a bit, and blocked my creativity.Artistic insecurity2 years ago in Personal More Like This
When I started doing art again, somewhere at the start of 2010, I used to very very insecure about my art. I never joined contests because I'm terribly afraid of failing. Honestly, I would feel bad about myself for weeks if I didn't at least end up in the honorable mentions. I never made tutorials because I was afraid one of DA's members would come up and say to me: "Why are you teaching this shit? You don't know anything about art!". And although I never liked to do fanart, I wouldn't probably have dared to do it either. A
imgonnacryso I know this isnt journal worthy but I just wanted to share my new distraction with you guys-- his name is Artyom AND FEEL HOW ADORABLE HE IS IM GONNA DIEimgonnacry3 years ago in Personal More Like This
saul sceneDespite this, it was a nice affair: the family was overjoyed to have Saul with us and it was the first time I had dined anywhere else besides my room, which pleased Adele to no end. It was wonderful…until I walked Saul to the front gate.saul scene3 years ago in Personal More Like This
"Why?" I asked him as I watched his crutch kick up dust into the warm night air.
"Why do you get that look in your eye when you speak to Daniel? Has he offended you in some way?"
Saul bit his lip, but didn't respond.
"It isn't him, is it? It's Benjamin. You dislike him because of his brother. Why do you hate Benjamin? He has done nothing wrong!"
"Sara, don't you understand that he did this to you?" said Saul, his voice stretched. "I know he was a nice boy and that you loved him, but you've turned him into a saint in your min. You've canonized him, and you don't realize that if it weren't for him, none of this would have happened to you!"
"It is not his fault that he was persecuted for something so out of his control," I spat, sudden anger s