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The longer I stand here
The louder the silence
I know that you're gone but sometimes I swear I hear
Your voice when the wind blows
So I talk to the shadows
Hoping you might be listening
But I know that you can't hear me any more
- Skylar Grey
Pages turning, lights are burning
See what you could not see
It's plain as the day
The night makes you pay
For what was hidden underneath
Longing to leave But begging to feel that
Something will make you stay
Gotta believe that this all leads
Somewhere we've never been
Tired of the guilt
Tired of being sorry
Well, haven't we suffered enough?
everything is broken ...
you can see in people faces ,
every single one of them .
but you see . . .
that's also how the light gets in .
so don't you give up .
Cause real Darkness, is something more
than just a lack of light.
what if I fall and hurt myself
would you know how to fix me?
what if I went and lost myself
would you know where to find me?
if I forgot who I am . .
would you please remind me?
Someone I loved once gave me
a box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand
that this, too, was a gift.
- Mary Oliver, Thirst
Someone I loved gave it to me. The darkness was actually disillusionment,
disappointment, and despair. The box was full of meanness, lies, and deceit.
The first thing I did with this box was glorify it. I gave it pride of place in
my emotional world. I let it consume my thoughts, my heart, and my
mind. Every so often, when I was feeling at my most vulnerable, I opened
it up and peered into the darkness, where I would wail and cry in despair,
pitying myself for being dealt such a dark and horrible blow.
Time passed, and I found myself opening the dark box less often.
Sometimes, I was just too busy with other things to spend the time I knew the
darkness required. Other times, I simply didn’t have the energy to
deal with all those dark emotions. Eventually, I was just bored with the
dark box and it’s perpetual whining.
Then came the day that my thoughts drifted toward the darkness, and I
realized the dark box was no longer there. For a few frenzied moments,
my mind searched for it, but I simply could not conjure it up. A deep sigh of
relief welled within me, and I knew the darkness was gone for good. In
it’s place was a very quiet sense of understanding. peace, and
forgiveness, a sensation that I had never before known, but one I wanted
very much to store up and treasure.
At one time or another, life will hand each one of us a box full of
darkness. It’s important to keep that box around for a while – but not for
too long. Buried deep inside this box is a wealth of insight, compassion, and
self-awareness. When you dig deeply enough to reach this layer,
you’ve found the real buried treasure – the true gift that’s hidden in the darkness.
“If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be;
and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger.”
― Emily Brontë, Wuthering Heights
I sought, and soon discovered, the three head-stones on the slope next the moor
— the middle one, gray, and half buried in heath — Edgar Linton's only harmonized by the turf and moss,
creeping up its foot — Heathcliff's still bare. I lingered round them, under that benign sky;
watched the moths fluttering among the heath, and hare-bells; listened to the soft wind breathing through the grass;
and wondered how anyone could ever imagine unquiet slumbers, for the sleepers in that quiet earth.
" ... it was nice to be alone, a relief to stare dejectedly out the window at the
sheeting rain and let just a few tears escape .When life offers you a dream
so far beyond any of your expectations...
... it’s not so unreasonable to grieve when it comes to an end...."
there is a place that i like to invite you all ,it will be my home from now on .
this is a new artistic community called 500px .
i am in here jyoujo on 500px.com
what if I fall and hurt myself would you know how to fix me?
what if I went and lost myself would you know where to find me?
if I forgot who I am, would you please remind me?