In to me; see.
It calls me in the night
When I'm down and drunk
It calls me in the night
When the lights go down.
I hear it in my dreams
Echoes around my mind
The laughter of a baying crowd
A girl's unflinching sneer
This red man in my soul
He takes all over me
I see things through his eyes
When the dark rage is on me
When I'm standing on a bridge
Redman whispers at my ear
Drags me down with him
Takes me unto the brink
Don't hurt me anymore
I ask the man every time
Smiles wider than the sky
And takes over me!
He's me when I see a friend
In a happier mood than I
He snarls and drives 'em all away
And keeps me all to himself.
I see him in other people's eyes
In the lonely and the desperate
I see him smiling back at me
When ever I close my eyes.
Alaska is hiding behind her eyesA girl caught up in the same gameAlaska is hiding behind her eyes2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Where circus tricks and trapeze artists
Are nothing compared to the burning of lungs
Where insomnia stains the people’s smiles
In a pale wash of sea foam angst bottled up and thrown
Into the horizon where the sky meets the earth
In a disjointed seam
She had hurricane rage eyes
And wishbone sleeves pulled tightly across her chest
To suppress her Medusa heart from cracking
The stars open and drinking their flames
Ocean funeral where Chaconne
Is played to sirens and sea urchins
Coiled beneath the oily depths of seascapes
Where her kite string spines push against the thin membrane
Of split grin skies
That spews out dreams onto alleyways
Mixing with stale vomit and baby doll wishes
A penny for ...my thoughts.––Life is so fucking confusing. One minute your okay, the next your 6 feet under.A penny for ...my thoughts.2 years ago in Philosophical More Like This
––One second it all makes sense, the next… you forget why you're still around.
––A few months go by really fast, one hour doing something you dislike, is eternity.
––You are with someone, and they are part of you, then all of a sudden you're missing a portion.
––Life is so fucking understandable. One second you are here, the next you are not, everything that once 'is', will become a 'was'.
––Our time is relative, but really…we are alive for a blink of an eye, in the lifetime of existence.
––It all goes on at the same pace, but an hour of fun is pure distraction, and it slips through your fingers like water… an hour of angst is reality and suffering; it slips through your fingers like mud.
––You meet someone as an individual, able to live your lives just fine, but… then you find yours
White flagThese lies are killing me.White flag3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
This wretched pain drowns me.
This heart may be bleeding
but inside my mind im truly dying.
Maybe you cant see it.
But these tears should surly make you see.
That this heart is withering.
Just dying to be free.
Wont you please let me breath?
Cant you please just set me free?
This war keeps waging on.
These scars keep opening up.
I keep losing my heart and soul.
Set me free and let me go.
This cage keeps getting smaller.
This heart keeps breaking more.
This white flag keeps burning.
But inside im still fighting on.
But these wounds you make are getting sharper …
how much could one bleed on?
I created A Fallen AngelThis nightmare has resurrected into my finger nails -I created A Fallen Angel3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
peeling my ravenous desires off again.
I don't want to learn my lesson,
I need to learn the hard way by
letting you become my
I will always be a loveless vampire that
feeds on helpless romantics that try
to hide it.
I will grant thee a fresh heart
break it myself,
Clench your unraveling hatred into my skin,
I want to hate you as much as you loved me.
I need to cry your pain,
because you won't show
me how much I hurt
- these haunting whispers will stain my lips
when I think of you.
"Why can't I be the one for you?"
but i only needed your heart because someone
stole mine and never gave it back.
My suicide noteDont come to my funeralMy suicide note3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Dont cry over my grave
Dont say things you dont mean
She will be missed
She was so beautiful
She was my best friend
We both know none of that is true
Dont give me any pity
Dont give me any false remorse or guilt
Dont give me any fake affection
Dont say any lies
This is my resting place
Let me be in peace
Dont say any of those things
We both know
You never cared at all.
ForgottenMy heart like shattered glass lies broken,Forgotten3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
The fragments pierce my lung,
I grasp for words unspoken,
for feelings left unsung,
my skin it feels so cold,
why don’t I feel the pain?,
my bones they feel so old,
the steel against my vein,
perhaps in crimson tides,
will you remember my name
InsanityShards of glassInsanity3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A broken reality crumbling
Staring into a hopeless reflection
Everything stripped away
Lost in a dream
Waking moments fleeting
Reality blends with sick fantasy
Jagged edges of crimson hue
Darkness enveloping with little resistance
Mortification of the mind
Slowly accepting the inevitable
EmilieEmilie sits upon the shelfEmilie3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
A pretty doll in a shop
She sits and waits for her time to come
Until her loneliness stops
She waits and waits, full of false hope
That someone will come take her home
But when all the other dolls have been bought
She wonders why she's still alone
She spends her time thinking about
Her imaginary faults
Assuming that she's ugly because
Why else has she not been sold?
And to this day, she's wanted to say
Why am I the only doll that's still here?
She's fed up of loneliness, fed up of waiting
For something she once had that disappeared
Emilie sits upon the shelf
A pretty doll in a shop
She sits and waits for her time to come
But her loneliness never stops
She's so fed up that she's stopped trying
To be the perfect one
Because deep down she already knows
Her perfect one has been and gone
Hero ComplexI bartered my soul awayHero Complex3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
For the boy with wolf eyes
He locked me behind his teeth
He carved snake bites into my lips
And tore apart the gilded edges of my lashes
In an endeavor to uncover some semblance of my siren words
He broke apart my ribs in an attempt
To find my landmine heart
Which held no sound
Girl in the GlassI hate this girlGirl in the Glass3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With the sneer on her lips
Her fingers knotted in her pretty hair
Her eyes are wild
She's so curvy it's almost sad
She can't hold down a diet
She keeps yanking down her sleeves to cover those pathetic scars
Her eyes are droppy
Her legs too wide
Ink stains on her finger tips
And pentagram's drawn on her sneakers
She has a silver ring and leather coat
She's so desperate to worm into some else's skin
I don't want to hate her but I do
Who is this, stupid bitch who's smiling like she doesn't have a clue?
Putting on a brave face? Ready to face her accuser?
He's waiting in the car outside
A man she should call father
Looking in a mirror is forgein to me
Trying to contact that girl in the glass
This useless bitch staring at me
Who are you?
And why would anyone want you?
Evening childWe’d sit on porch stepsEvening child3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Insecticide burning our lungs
Awkward and gangly attempting to grow into our limbs
You with freckles dusting your nose and I with a small dot on my cheek
You called it a beauty spot and I said god was too lazy to give me freckles
We were 15 and lust driven amnesiacs
Dissolving our flesh with cheap gin in your tree house
Throwing pebbles at the sky hoping to shatter it
We were an epidemic of the underdog prognosis
Playing encores to an audience of cowards
For some reason we’d always rush across rail way tracks
Metal bars quivering and our broken sneakers stumbling
We were branded in mistakes and embellished in thin silvery scars
Battle scars we’d say laughing because there was nothing else to do
PoisonI'm a poison.Poison3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I took an innocent girl,
and stole her from the light
I made my darkness glow
I appear as an angel before her eyes
But I'm a repear,
Covered in my own blood.
I'd never hurt her..
I love her.
I hate me.
I punish me, and give her gifts
I don't want to ruin her.
I'm using her
She makes me smile
I can't resist her beauty
I want to know
I need to know
I love life
I want to die
Miserable and never ending
I've gone numb and given up
She holds my hand
She's warm to my cold blood.
I cling so tight
Crying hiding the tearing in my hair
I cut off the hair
I don't want to hide them
I love you..
I want you to smile
I want you to avoid me
I don't want me
To be your future
I want to be in your future
I can change
I can heal us both.
so let me touch
Your beating heart
I love you.
Our Simple TaskWe are deepened by our dark souls, sealed within the bloody and banished scrolls.Our Simple Task3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Damned by the morning and by the light, our eyes lurk gloomily in the path of night.
We whisper tears throughout your sight, paralyzing your intelligence and fear of flight.
Alas flight is what you truly need, hence why your fate is for us to read.
In the air your body is thrown, whisked upon the dead; let your soul hear them moan.
Thrust forth and forgotten by the stain of blood, absorb the monstrosity from within the flood.
Bested by glasses and long dark coat, your flesh reeks a stench; thou shall be thrown in the moat.
Left to freeze and burn from the flames, thou is forevermore forgotten; the end of our games.
The jigsaw boyThe girl sits on the dusty floor,The jigsaw boy2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Surrounded by odds and ends.
Holding the jigsaw boy, trying to put him together again.
He fell from a very great height,
She sobs for him every night.
None of the pieces fit.
He looks up at her with empty eyes,
The colour of faded blue skies.
His skin is covered in scars and cracks,
Maps that lead her to nowhere
Round and round in circles, like a merry go round.
His soul is scattered around her like glass,
She cuts herself trying to pick the pieces up.
She tries to be distant, she tries to be kind
But in her heart she knows she broke this boy
That lies in pieces at her feet.
She crushed his heart in the palm of her hand
And now she doesn’t know what to do.
She knows that she doesn’t have much time,
Before he falls over this ledge.
He builds these walls between them,
That she will have to climb.
Life has lost its colour and time has lost its grace.
Where his heart was is now an empty space,
Pain consumes his soul.
40810If only you were soulless.408103 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If you were mindless, blind,
you and I could make a beautiful disaster.
The press would write of our brief affair;
they'd paint me (the woman in red) as pathetic.
They will not consider how I need your love
or how it pains me so deeply to throw myself at you.
I will not be remembered as a poet warrior.
I'll be the eternal survivor no more.
All who think of me will shake their bowed heads
and tearfully remark;
If only you were soulless.
If you were mindless, blind,
You wouldn't have been such a bloody disaster.
On reality and other fictitious thingsI chewed out a pieceOn reality and other fictitious things2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Of the sky
Spit it back out, again.
Maybe I’d be better off
From my fingers
Wiping down your
Bed frame spine
And collapsing your easel
Joints like a puzzle.
I swallowed the
Rains sticky heat
Like a shot
And it burns
Just the same.
My Inspiration, My MuseI hope and wait patiently for you to find meMy Inspiration, My Muse3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To hear me calling out to you with every fiber of my being
You haven’t met me yet, you don’t know me
But I want you to know how undeviating you have been to me
From this distance
You gave me passion
You gave me hope
You gave me a light to grasp on to
You made my life like a song
You are like the notes to my life’s melody
Melancholy and bittersweet
I will write you a book
Full of rhymes and rhythms
Words written just for you
You are inspiration, my muse
And it has been you that has inspired me to live
To listen to this worlds song
So I will fight, to live
This unwavering battle with myself
And I hope that someday you will hear me say
Thank you, for saving me from myself.
For Gospel girls who think they know about loveThere are days which I've hollowed outFor Gospel girls who think they know about love2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like a corpse, those days remind me
Of when I was 9 I was told to kneel before god.
In churches on worm holed pews,
And a little later when I was 14
I did the same thing but to boys behind parked cars.
The gravel cutting into my knees
Was surprisingly pleasant even when
Sea sonnet for the girl with ocean eyesShe was southern Californian stormsSea sonnet for the girl with ocean eyes2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
On a good day
When the skies nursed the shoreline like a wound
And the rain tasted like two scoops of mint chip ice cream
She held the nebula in her palms
And poured it out onto the sidewalk
So that the gutters would have something
To talk about at night
She swallowed the ocean
And held it in her eyes
Of mountain rock blue straining against the sky
The bluest eyes I’d ever seen
Sparrow girl with the breathless wings
Embellished in vinyl’s and cassette tapes
Gramophone gilded lashes and half-moon wrists made up
Paper tapestries taped together with Shakespeare and Green
Sunday morning tea always tastes sweeter when
Her limbs hang off the curb knees scuffed
Watching faces pass and giving them names
Whispering secrets to the wind
Reality bites so I decided to chew it out instead Solar plexus girl ate the night skyReality bites so I decided to chew it out instead2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To try and fit constellations into the spaces between
Her paradise bones and salted palpitations
Where ghosts remain curled between
Her starlight vowels and daisy chain half smiles
Waiting for the daylight to burn away the
Galaxy bruise spread across her eyes
Fingers bent back to fit into the juncture of her spine
Searching for summer nights hidden behind the mulberry bush
Lightning smiles collapsing into half-baked expectations
She lingers in the woodwork
Climbing the entrails of forgotten trees and damaged fortresses
Looking glass girl chasing rubies and gold
With the angel sin hair and loaded gun smirk
Longs for moonshine and wild nights spent
Hijacking constellations and drinking liquid thunder
To preserve the last of her aching soul
She eats neon spider webs and ravens song
And traces acid signs on the hoods of cars at dawn
To try and leave behind a legacy
Of a girl with the whiplash grin
Blood Stained Bathroom SinksIt's like blood lust in dark alleywaysBlood Stained Bathroom Sinks3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Leeching off of the souls of the homeless
The burned out
Like walking along silent streets
Trapping yourself in a hushed room
Where every head turns to look at you
And sees that every ounce of interesting has left your bones
As you wake each day abandoned
A shadow of yourself lingers in mirrors
Taunts you in dimly lit hallways
Screams at you through the minds of those penetrating eyes
Laughing at you as you cough up every last drop of blood
Minute after minute
Seconds seconds seconds
Wasting each tick of the clock
With useless knowledge
And worthless kicks
The mirrors keep laughing at the pathetic, boring creature you've created
Sloth permeates your sweating skin
You lay blankets over dreams
And scratch away filth growing on your mind
Because every speck of life has been rubbed off on the ground by your shoes
You dig your rotten nails into the bathroom sink
Thinking of each step you took
Each time you tugged and tugged at the hands aro
Slipping Into InsanityThere is no darkness inside the lightSlipping Into Insanity3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No frantic ramblings of twisted fright
No bleeding wrists of barbs held tight
No screaming fangs prepared to bite
No demons gathering in dark delight
To torment you every day and night
Such bliss in these flames alight
Until insanity snuffs out your sight
Dance the dance within the day
No letting nightmares have their way
Refusing to look beyond today
Closing your eyes in hopes to stay
To dance within the light's bright ray
Feeling the cold being held at bay
Ignoring the winds that tear and fray
Until insanity comes into play
So much for light and smiles dear
Happiness forever lost inside the fear
Within this cold no friends come near
You are very much alone without a cure
No gentle voices will you now hear
No arms to hold and sunlight cheer
Just the welcoming demon's sneer
No denying insanity is right here
The older we get the better we used to beAll we ate that day were 3The older we get the better we used to be2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To stifle the anxious shaking
Of our palms or
At least produce excuses for
The anxiety rustling beneath
Our scarred veins
When did the diamonds
Leave your bones
And for how long have
You been expiring without them
When did the construction
Of your false reality
Finally fall through
The fragile infrastructure
Of your factitious commentary
Lack the physical manifestation
Of your laboured breathing
Perhaps it's best if we ache
For magic and other childish things
Because the world hurts our eyes
And I don't want to see anymore
The skies are pressing against
Our glass houses and
The sun is bleeding over the rim
Of the bathtub
It's slow dripping
Pelting out a funeral song