Can You Heal My HeartPlease don't leave me alone
But don't stand by too close
I'm scared of the silence
I'm being haunted by ghosts
The past lives in my head
Displaying where my problems arose
Walking down the same road as my father
Is what I'm scared of the most
Never had someone to guide me
Someone who'd show me the path
The only lessons I've had
Showed me to be controlled by my wrath
Little by little
Its been eating at my heart
But who needs to feel
When I'm only embraced by the dark
I need to rub alcohol on all my wounds
So I'll press this bottle to my lips
Every shot is medication
That helps my thoughts become eclipsed
I'll use my pills
To turn my brain a dark abyss
Maybe all I need as medication
Is for Death to come and drop a kiss
Can you fight off these demons
Can you heal my heart
Prove my life is still worth living
Before I fall apart
I don't have much time
Please save me from the dark
To anyone who hears me
Please come and heal my Heart
I'm scared of this life
I'm scared of the pain
The End of the WorldI'm tired of hearingThe End of the World2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"Its not the end of the world"
That I need to cheer up
That "she's only a girl"
But these people don't know
That I've tried to move on
But these feelings won't go
I don't like faking a smile
With every "Hello"
But goodbyes are the worst
Every time I feel like I'm cursed
I know that I overreacted
When you said that I wasn't your first
But you lied
And that's when I realized
That what I thought was divine
For you was just another time
Inside It felt like I'd die
I was enraged and I cried
But now that I've lost you
I'd die to again say that you're mine
So please look at me now
Say that we'll make it somehow
That you'll love me with all
that your heart will allow
Please say you'll come back
That we'll get back on track
That you'll come to me
Before my heart completely turns black
Alone I BreakI need to wake upAlone I Break2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I've been oblivious for too long
Just open my eyes
Though all along
I've known that I was wrong
I pushed everyone away
Wouldn't open up to anyone
I'm so broken up inside
I can't keep acting like I'm strong
When did I become addicted
To punishing myself
Purposely contracting sickness
So I can ruin my health
Then make myself believe
That its the fault of someone else
But I've known all along
I built this hell for myself
Is this what I want
To die all alone
Bathed in this darkness
Feeling cold to the bone
Its easy to picture my death
Maybe I've just always known
I'll die on my own
With my sins left unatoned
Missing YouSince I woke up todayMissing You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I've been struggling to breathe.
Choking on your name
Asking you not to leave.
It happened again,
I saw you in my dream.
I'm still trying to catch my breath
Trying not to scream.
I need to wipe these tears
I need to blur your face.
Force this heart back into gear,
make it regain its normal pace.
So I'll go get my pills
And I'll bring out the liquor.
Keep on lying to myself
Saying "today I really don't miss her".
But I'm haunted.
Can't get you off my head.
I wish that I would die,
For you to be the one suffering instead.
Why did we fight that night?
How could I let you drive away?
If i knew that you'd been drinking
I should have forced you to stay
is the anniversary of your death.
I've been trying not to think of you,
But I'm crying, still short of breath.
I take out my wallet
Where I still hold your picture.
Wondering if I'll meet you soon
Thanks to this pill and liquor mixture.
But I feel nothing
I've been drinking this all morning
My heart still hasn'
If tomorrow I don't Wake upI wonder what would happenIf tomorrow I don't Wake up3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If I was never to wake up
Would people even care
I wonder if a commotion would erupt
Would anyone even notice
That I wasn't alive
Would my mother even mourn me
Or could she guess that I wouldn't survive
Well I'm still not dead
But I can barely call this living
I feel like a corpse
That hasn't given up on breathing
But I wonder what would happen
If I was actually to die
Would anyone be bothered
Or care enough to cry
Maybe everyone's just used to
Me living like a corpse
So no one would be bothered
Or life change the slightest off of course
But if I would never wake up
There's no way to know what happens the next day
Won't know if people really care about me
But..maybe it's better off that way
Hating to Love youLife goes byHating to Love you3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Its nearly the end of October
Eleven months since you left me
And I still can't seem to keep sober
Drink after drink
Living off of intoxication
Can't mend this broken heart
But its the best medication
Holding on to the past
Feels like I'm stuck in one place
Still being haunted by your voice
And that last look on your face
I'm starting to hate
Everything I once loved about you
Like the thickness of your lips
And how your eyes would shine blue
The sound of your voice
The accent when you'd pronounce my name
What I really hate
Is that no one can pronounce it the same
I hate that I love you
And can't seem to forget you
I hate that I'm broken
And can't seem to get through
I hate that I lost you
I hate you're not here
That every day I'm lonely
And living with fear
But I no longer love you!
Or so I would love to say
But I will always love you
Just hopefully not always like today
I'll Never Love AgainI remember when I first saw youI'll Never Love Again2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sitting by the ocean's bay
There was no words that could describe you
"Perfect" was all I thought to say
But you were so much more than just "perfect"
It was like you were cut right out of my dreams
A rollercoaster of emotions
My heartbeat started turning into screams
I can't believe you used to make me feel so happy
So much that everyday felt like my heart was having an attack
I can't believe a heart can beat so much
I wish that I could have those moments back
Everything was going great
But chasing dreams was really tough
It was so hard to stay on course
Who would of thought that love just wasn't enough
And I've been trying to move on
Ever since I lost you
But the problem is that I love you still
I've got no hope..
Because I always will
So I don't think
That I'll ever love again
I'd just get hurt
And It's way too much pain
I've got nothing more to gain
there's no other girl
Who'll make me feel the same
Who can make me shiver
With the way she says my nam
Behind Her SmileI love her smileBehind Her Smile2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The way her thick lips
seem to bend
the way her top lip
falls onto the bottom one
And makes the
perfect angle at the ends
I love her smile
It makes me feel content
I love the mix signals
That it sends
But why does it always feel
Like her smile is just pretend
Why do her eyes
Feel like if she's crying
There are no tears
But her expression feels like if she's lying
Did she cry
and her eye's are just now drying
She's awe inspiring
She wears a smile
But I wonder what it's hiding
Its a disguise
she's hiding it inside
I can see it in her eyes
That her smile is full of lies
She can keep on faking
Like she tries
What does she hide
She wears a mask
That I just can't despise
I wonder what she's hiding
behind that smile
I wish that she would show
every once in a while
Moving onI need to stop...to stop being MeMoving on3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Change who I am...and become the man I need to Be
I need to leave my past..and just throw my worries to the sea
Hope the pain doesn't catch up to me..so I can finally be Free
But before I move on...my.own heart I must Master
Because these demons inside are all full of Laughter
Laughing at me for being a walking Disaster
With no dreams ....and no future.. and no idea of what I'm After
But I must move on...and Just accept that you're Gone
Get back into the world from which myself I've Withdrawn
Throw away that past that this heart keeps dwelling Upon
When the night breaks dawn...I will be a different man...I WILL have moved On
Dreaming of the wrong GirlI've been dreaming about the wrong girlDreaming of the wrong Girl3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'll admit I've been dreaming about her
Though I should be dreaming about you
For..you're the one that I prefer
Restored my hope in happiness
When she left me all alone
I'm still here feeling hopeful
Even though you too left me on my own
I'm feeling hopeful
But I really don't know why
Am I just tired of feeling down on myself
Every night just cry..wishing that I'd die
Or Maybe I'm hoping that you'll change your mind
Hoping you'll come back
Hoping that you''ll just appear here in my life
And restore everything I lack
But I'm still dreaming about her
When I should be dreaming about you
I'm still being haunted by the past
And babe I don't know what i should do
i don't mind hurting
If the reason for it's you
You can always shatter me
For in the end you're still my glue
Behind these WallsHello my sonBehind these Walls2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I wonder how you have been
Not many news come from outside
In this cell that I'm in
But I'm hoping
That you have been fine
Can't recall since I last saw you
It's impossible to keep track of time
Despite all that I've sent you
There's been no reply to my letters
Are you ashamed of your father?
Is it because I'm chained by these fetters?
I miss you, son
I miss your sisters and your brother
I've been missing all the little things
Like waking up each morning to the smile of your mother
The news did reach me, though
That you're about to have a daughter
I hope you've grown as a better man than me
Its the only wish I have as your father
Do what I couldn't
And take care of your family
Be a better man than me
And do everything I knew that you could be
Son, I'm not sure if you still read my letters
Or If they're just thrown away
But in the chance that you're still reading
There is something that I just need to say
My time has already come
That I must tell you goodbye
I want to ask y
Just A PoetI never realized I cared so muchJust A Poet3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
about what other people thought
I always thought I wrote
because it gave me the outlet that I sought
Was I not writing to vent out
wasn't every word that I thought out
meant to fight the urge I had to shout
Wasn't that what this was all about
When did losing fans
start to inflict in me this doubt
Wasn't this pen
meant to be my voice
a crescendo of agonizing screams
heard without making a noise
No. Its more than just my voice
It was meant to live a dream
When pain molds into beauty
And starts to fix a broken self-esteem
But when people cheer your name
it starts getting to your head
I forgot to write for me
and wrote for them instead
But that wasn't me
so it all came crashing to the ground
I asked myself why I was writing
but there was no answer to be found
Losing sight of who I was
Or the reason I was crowned
started feeling insecurity
In the darkness where I was left to drown
This pen fits perfectly inside my hand
Its still linked to my heart
and has to
In my Web of DarknessI've buried all the secrets of my sinsIn my Web of Darkness3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Moved on from my past...and I..haven't looked back since
But the past seems to be catching up to me
And my past troubles seem to be..something I can't flee
I'm at a standstill I can't run.
I'm forced to look back at what I've done.
There is no sun in sight. No longer can I hold on with all my might.
I'm spun in a web of darkness with the people I hurt so much.
Im surrounded by the hurt...and drowning in the hate
An so come the painful memories..that my breathing start to complicate
Im here dying alone....because I abandoned all my friends
Doctors say today I'll die....so today all of this ends
I wanna cut this web and make amends before my life ends .
I want everyone to know I didn't mean to break their heart
because of this I was alone in the dark.
So I use my last breath with all I have left
Just to say I love you all I'm sorry
Save meHeart, please tell me why.Save me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm still waiting..by my phone
Waiting for a message that'll never come
Sitting here alone
Just watching the time run
Do you remember how we used to be?
I wonder If like me, she's feeling lonely
This depression doesn't want to set me free
Heart, I'm begging you to cure me
Because time doesn't seem to numb the pain
The heartache when I hear her name
These tears don't seem to stop the flame
I'm begging you to set me free
Oh heart, you turned out to be a traitor
Let her go so we can save her
Knowing we'd regret it later
But her happiness was not with me
The past is where my mind now dwells
As I suffer here all by myself
Knowing her kiss now belongs to someone else
And now she'll never smile for me
Oh heart, please let her go
She wont come back, we both know
And no matter how much we wish it wasn't so
Only she can set me free
In my Father's StepsForgive me Father...for I have SinnedIn my Father's Steps3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I denied you....And let myself get lost within
Tried to pretend your blood wasn't in me
But right now it just keeps begging to be set free
It was this blood that always kept me strong
Every time a person left...it was what let me move along
Well...Maybe it's more like...I pushed them all away
Maybe this blood remembers...that every one will eventually betray
So tonight I'll let it out..and I'll follow in your steps
I'll have anything and anyone I want..just like you had always meant
Maybe that's the reason that you cursed me with this gift
Yeah..I can make anyone fall....at the price of my own heart becoming stiff
So I'll get lost in the lust..and throw the pain away
Whats the point of feeling love...if in the end nobody will stay
So let me be like you...and throw away my life, dad
Ensuring that I die alone....to prevent anyone from being sad
Bad GuyPlease tell me you hate meBad Guy1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because I hate me too
Tell me you wish that I would die
For all I've put you through
Please tell me that my lips didn't mean anything
Tell me that you don't love me
From all these hurtful things
Why does it hurt the most.. When you say sorry
Please go ahead and make me out to be
The bad guy of the story
Or pretend that you don't
Just do anything that helps
To set you free
And I'll pretend that I'm not lonely
Act like I'm the bad guy only
I'll play any role because
I don't want you to be suffering
Losing HeavenWhat happened to the heaven in which I used to believeLosing Heaven3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What happened to..that happiness...I prayed never to leave
It seem that since you stopped smiling my way..all I can ever perceive
Is grief....it deceives...And I just get no relief
And it feels like this happiness is going on a steady decline
Instead of heaven I'm going to hell...since you're no longer mine
And your smile that would shine...can no longer be my lifeline
Even if it's divine..and brings chills down my spine..
If it belongs to someone else..it wont make me feel fine
I lost my opportunity..now your smile belongs to someone else
And every time I see you with him I keep getting angry at myself
I destroyed my heaven...and I'm now stuck in one of hell's ..many cells
All because every time I tried to say I loved you...I always stumbled on the "L"s
Today I'll Give UpToday I'll give up ..on usToday I'll Give Up3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'll speak to this heart..and say that it must
Tell it that there's no...more hope
That it'll have to find a way to finally cope
And no matter how much..it tells me "no"
Today is the day..I'll force it to let go
I'll let go of this heart
The feelings I had
The desires I felt
And I'll move on
There's no more hope for what was
It will never be what we used to have...
What we had is dead..but only you moved ahead
Im stuck alone in bed..as memories haunt my head
I live staring at my phone...old text make my heart as heavy as stone
I see you in my head..but still feel so alone
And I know..that your essence has to go
Because I should have let go...so many moons ago
I toss and turn at night with the image of you
I cry out your name
just to hope that you hear me and wrap your arms around me
I know I shouldn't feel this way anymore
Because what we had is long over
But Im scared to let it go
Im scared of feeling so lonely
Inside it feels like this heart ca
One Last KissI'm always thinking back to usOne Last Kiss3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Mostly happy showing love..but other times just loving to discuss
Yeah these words we loved to cuss...never making a big fuss
We hurt each other to make love...that's just how it was
Loving, hurting, playing games..the heartaches were a plus
A relationship that's so fucked up..but..baby that was Us
But you stayed stuck on that mode...of just wanting to hate
Complaining about the small things..from clothes to the food that we ate
So to please you..I started working so late...13 hour shift from seven to eight
And you hate that I'm home and I'm barely awake...we wont last at this rate
I just want to make you happy..but things begin to complicate
We start hiding..and lying and begin to deceive
Until the foundation of our relationship were the webs that we weave
But you've finally had enough..and decide that you'll leave
I hurt and I grieve...without you..its just pain i receive
But all I need is one more kiss...so I can start to believe
Yeah..I just want one
Waking up to YouI woke up today..and I felt the warmth of your bodyWaking up to You3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And the breathes you exhaled where all landing on me
And the weight of your body...as you laid on my chest
I've had good mornings....but I'll confess... today was the best
All night while we slept...I held you in my arms
I was telling myself..I was protecting you from everything that harms
But it was an excuse ...I just wanted you Near
While you slept ..whisper in your ear....that you're what my heart holds most dear
And its only been a few months...and I can't picture my life without you
In such a short time..we both grew so much because of all we've been through
You gave my life purpose...and soon became more important than water
This is just a poem to tell you that I love you...my beautiful daughter
My Country BoyI'm in love with a country boy.My Country Boy2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Farming the land is his joy.
He knows what he wants to be.
To him the future is plain to see.
Only he understands when I'm down.
He belongs to this small, small town.
I only belong here when he's around.
He has grown up on this very ground.
I know I could be a farmers wife.
What if I want to live another life?
With him I know I get what I see.
I'm still hoping to somehow find me.
His dreams are driving his tractor.
I'm still trying to find what I'm after.
I feel so lost without him near.
But I will never belong here.
I watch the small town in the car mirror.
I won't let the memories disappear.
I will always love my country boy.
But now it's my turn to find joy.
I'm Alive..?Don't try to see the good in meI'm Alive..?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Cause it's hidden behind lock and key
I never let anyone inside
Won't let them wipe the tears I've cried
I don't think they'd really care
If they knew of all the scars I bear
They try to make me feel less worthless
But I know that I deserve this
For still having a beating heart
I'm trying not to fall apart
Just take me
Make me feel
Erase these lies
Tell me what's real
Hold me close
Hold me all night
Make me feel like
Wake me up whenWake me up, when crying is only for those moments that are unbearably beautiful.Wake me up when2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wake me up, when helping someone else, is done genuinely and joyfully.
Wake me up, when society becomes less interested in falsities and more aware of truth.
Wake me up, when equality is real, apparent, strong and inevitable.
Wake me up, when children's innocence is untainted with maturity.
Wake me up, when control is dead and freedom roams wildly.
Wake me up, when poverty only exists in bad decisions.
Wake me up, when money is last, on the peoples to get list.
Wake me up, when power belongs to us, and not the self-proclaimed.
Wake me up, when we heal the earth from our selfishly inflicted lacerations.
Wake me up, when respect is our international anthem.
Wake me up, when love is all we know, and fear is suffocated by it.
Wake me up, when strength is nurtured and weakness buried.
Wake me up, when beauty is appreciated for all its imperfections.
Wake me up, when conformity is drowning in an ocean of imagina
GlitchStatic arises along her face. Her eyes are altering to a haze. Her expression is drawn to blank as she becomes part of a faint memory.Glitch2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I sit beside her, her static hand held in mine. I don't know if this is reality or a lucid dream. But the anguish I feel is my castigation.
Her hair slashes at me when the breeze becomes a tempest. And her static body develops zigzag lines across her torso and face. She gives me a reassuring smile. But within my mind, that smile is a suppressed secret. Digital fragments of her body break away and dance with the tempest.
“Where do you think we go when we glitch?” she asked before she knew her life would end.
Above the twilight sky,
Beyond the violet horizon,
Is a firmament depicted perfectly.
Do not let your worry become so high.
That firmament is displayed so vividly, blazon.
And its welcome erupts abruptly.
Release your grasp from me.
And let its light wash you away
Into the embracing sea
And rest aside your fray.
She twists he