Soliloquy of MeEverything is dull, annoyingly monotonous.Soliloquy of Me9 months ago in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
Why did I end up trapped in this world?
The world created by the person I used to be,
A stranger to myself.
I want to be free! To have a taste of freedom!
I want to spread my wings and fly.
To break out of this prison cell
That has contained me for so long.
All this time, I have been living
In my imaginary real world,
Dreaming that everything's going right.
I did not realize, I kept everybody out.
Kept all these thoughts to myself,
My problems, my doubts and everything else.
I pretended to be alright,
Hid my true self behind a mask.
All this time, I've been masquerading
As a flawless character that will never be me.
I want to wake up from this nightmare,
The only thing left of what was once sweet dream.
I want to find all that I've lost years ago,
To mend everything I've broken,
To be unbound from all these illusions I've made,
To live once again in our volatile world.
RemembranceI saw your faceRemembrance9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
In the picture on the wall.
It reminded me of a story,
A story I totally cannot recall.
But I remember that smiling face
That always made my day.
But those moments are gone
And you're so far away.
HungerHunger8 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And only thought.
The need to sink
My all too eager teeth
Into fruit, meat or other things.
Whatever I can get, anything;
With my tired body
Sickened from desire;
That I don't
Have enough left anymore,
To continue to stay alive.
Wanting to nourish my emaciated body,
I feel my soul die,
Beneath the emptiness inside
Which overwhelms me,
Hungry to feel.
My speech slurred, confused;
I've lost sense and senses.
I can feel my organs stopping,
As I sit down, ready
Willing to let go,
On white snow.
Taming the TigerI believe in the power of selfTaming the Tiger6 months ago in Scraps More Like This
But the fire in her eyes is beyond
What I can control what I can contain
She stalks in the shadows
Unpredicatable and cruel
A rebellious jewel
with claws pressed into the mud below
Blood flowing from her teeth
Poison leaking from her fur
Burning pawprints marks her trail
Into my eyes she stares
Boring holes in my vision
Her tail flicking from side to side
She is the vixen from hell
A tempestuous belle
With claws immersed in viscious flame
Blood flowing from her eyes
Poison leaping from her tongue
I believe in the power of salvation
But there is none allowed for her soul
She is is beyond my understanding, beyond my control
I shine a light across her frame
The light sets her shadow free
I am staring at me
With curls flat against the ground
Blood flowing from my lips
Poison seeping from my pores
Startled I grab my rifle
Raise it and fire on instinct
A roar of pain fills the air
As satan's spawn falls to the ground
Devoid of power she screams
Blood pouring ou
The SongbirdsAcross the field of lavished greenThe Songbirds7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
We lie still and are unseen
Our heads against the blades so lush
You touch my cheek, you make me flush
The morning's dew along the ground
Like tears of joy the morning's found
Your eyes transfixed upon my own
Holding bright, a lighter tone
Above us fly birds of dawn
twittering and tweeting "The night is gone"
The maple leaves swinging low and light
The dawn birds above taking flight
Across the meadow the sun falls long
Blue Jays sing a bright noon song
The light glimmers against your eyes
We do not move, I softly sigh
The birch trees fine, long snowy whites
Throwing fine shadows, singing low plights
The wind blowing the soft scent of pine
Your lips smooth, pressed against mine
The trilliums encircle our immeshed frames
Their white petals sway to the wind's refrain
The golden bumbling bees hovering low
Hanging with us in natures flow
Soon, I'm afraid too, too soon
the sun sways away for the moon
In the shadow cries a lonely barn owl
Followed by an old
The Path of StoneBeyond these mountainsThe Path of Stone8 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Lies a path of stone
In darkness veiled
This pass of bone
You who enter
Cannot be found
For no one escapes
The path you seek
Leads straight to black
Entombed in darkness
Your spirit will crack
Be wary seeker
Of what you find
For your curiosity
Will kill your soul and mind
Do not follow this way
For beyond the path before
Lies a valley of darkness
only hell and more
If you survive the march
Into the depths of pain
Unable to return
There you will remain
Walking in a valley of Shadow
Death surrounding all within
You will fear evil
As you succumb to sin
Fear for your life
And do not pass
Fear for your soul
You will not last
For the moment you leave
Masked in shade and shadow
You yourself will fall away
You alone will slip below
The stars no longer shine above
Animals no longer crawl beneath
All that remains is the remains of bodies
Broken bones and jagged teeth
So heed this warning seeker
Return to whence you came
Do not be unwise and continue for
The PigeonThe Pigeon6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
You had better watch your step
Or you may step on the escaping breath
Left abandoned on the sidewalk
Watch that you do not bring your foot down
On the memory of the dead
where is the peace of rest for them
That no one quite understands
There are so many of them everywhere
But they are all different
They are all unique
So cry for the little soul
That was crushed by a sidewalk plow
Cry for the fallen
For he was someone's baby
Cry for the pressed lump
Of blood and feathers
Cry for the dead pigeon
How the World EndsThis is the way the world endsHow the World Ends6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
With souls broken and apart
Segregated and alone
Lost in a field of fallen trees
Lungs filled with smoke
And with a radioactive freeze
This is the way the world ends
Blind in the shadow of light
With birds tarred and feathered
grounded without flight
And friends turning against friend
With children taken in the night
This is the way the world ends
All is availible but nothing is known
All is seen but nothing is shown
Truths are masked as lies
And lies are accepted truths
Everyone living the fabricated hoax
Confusion covers the land
As thick as the smog that chokes
This is the way the world ends
As sudden as we began
All because we cannot control
All because we do not try
We ruin all we touch
We fear the wolves outside
But we are lions ourselves
Predators and self-appointed rulers
We roar and roam about
Killing and murdering
For the sake of ourselves
But as we rape and pillage
Our Earth, home and life
We bring about the end
For ourselves and all else
A Midnight WearyA Midnight WearyA Midnight Weary7 months ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Amongst twinkling stars,
Much like a cricket's chorus;
Types his essay:
"Failure is red,
My parent's say;
An Asian get 'B'
Is shameful display!"
Reflection(2012)She found the word that sounds just right,Reflection(2012)1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Hypergraphia, an overwhelming urge to write.
A thing in common of Van Gogh and Carroll,
two who are her inspiration and idol.
This similarity, though not as severe,
for she's not alone as it was to appear.
You don't know me,
though you think you do.
You're trying to be free,
if only you knew.
though no discontent.
The mystery of a diary,
reveals the hidden vocabulary
from an unknown lover gone shy
with the innermost wants to die.
Hide away your deepest desires,
protect them with burning fires.
Every day continue to grow
and stronger you will show.
We all have that potential
to achieve that deep down dream,
no matter how insignificant or essential,
To stand up strong and begin to gleam.
Let's forget the past of winter's words
and find the radiant truth of summer's song.
To discover hidden realms of our desire
as we get caught up in the swaying throng.
The chapters continue to write themselves,
Sleep...So here I am againSleep...10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Down and depressed
Don’t know what to do
I just want to go to sleep
Scabs and scars on my wrist
Knife trembling in my hand
A wavering heart that I call mine
I want to cry my eyes out
But I can’t, don’t know why
Now all I want to do is sleep
I have it all
I’m just useless, common girl
Not extraordinary in anything
Just a faker, liar, hater
With someone always better
And all I want to do is sleep
Failing at everything important
Can’t keep up with everything
Tired of all the stress
I guess I’m not that smart after all
Why can’t I just go to sleep
I’m so tired of everything
I wish I could just get away
Valentine's DayI hate the world todayValentine's Day10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hate it all
I hate the people today
I hate them all
You stole away my life
You stole it all
You stole away my smile
You stole them all
I will never forgive you
You are not forgiven
I can’t forgive you
You can’t be forgiven
Have you?Have you ever cried so hard that it hurt?Have you?10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
They say that if you cry your weak.
So you'll only see me laugh!
Have you ever screamed so loud that you lost your voice?
They tell you to be quiet.
So you'll only hear me whisper!
Have you ever wanted someone so badly that you'd do anything for them?
They say that if you want to possess someone than you are selfish.
So I'll never tell you I love you!
Simple JoysI woke to find one day,Simple Joys11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
the fire did not warm,
the water did not quench,
and the breeze did not cool.
I prayed to god and asked why.
Why could i not have these simple joys?
God said, my dear child,
you ask why the fire does not warm,
and the water does not quench,
but i assure they do!
It is you that will not be warmed
Let me in,
and i promise the joys will come,
for i am all the joys and more.
Busy, busy, busyBusy, busy, busyBusy, busy, busy11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Crumple the paper,
Put together with stapler
Such a busy day
"I should give my best!", I say
Color my notebooks,
Read my books,
Yes, it's quite tiring
Annoying and perspiring
I tried with all my might
But I should say goodnight
Only me...I'm fighting, I'm cryingOnly me...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm dying inside.
wont you take the pain aside.
I'm wading through the
shallow depths of my depression.
All I need to feel,
is some compassion.
Surely this is not right,
not meant to be.
I'm only me.
But I will be strong.
I will cope.
Even with all this wrong.
I will make my own hope.
This reflection in the mirror This reflection in the mirror is a monstrosity.This reflection in the mirror 10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just one more pound,
to become beautiful,
Just one more cut,
to be satisfied....
Just one more pill,
A Game We Hate to Play:A Game We Hate to Play:A Game We Hate to Play:8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I stand amongst a screaming crowd,
And you'll hear them shout it out.
"All this shit just isn't fair,
Life's a game but we don't care!"
Hear me, do you think I'm lazy?
When I talk I'm crazy,
Sorry I'm just hazy, but I-
Still think that I'm like Jay-Z
Rappin' here with Stacy;
The boys they call her baby; Haha...
And we're playin' this song for the killers,
The ones with no hope workin' shop at the tillers.
And if you think that we're just the fillers,
You wouldn't be wrong; we're just grain at millers - haha!
All this shit just isn't fair,
Life's a game but we don't care!
We're gonna change the game tonight,
C'mon let's turn out the light!
All this shit just isn't fair,
Life's a game but we don't care!
We're gonna change the rules tonight,
C'mon let's turn out the light.
Lights off, everybody nights off,
Walking through these streets of -
People drinkin' Smirnoff;
Prayers for tomorrows,
Whisper as they borrow
The Mourning DoveThe Mourning Dove7 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The ravens had gathered overhead.
Their circle of darkness loomed above.
Their cries were those of ones long dead.
The night hath murdered the mourning dove.
In the cover of night the birds of black flew,
Hovering and waiting just below the sky.
They hung above my frame as if they knew,
What was to happen and who was to die.
Like Democles' Sword their taunts hung.
Their feathers like a cloak sewn of shadow.
My last rites they left unsung.
Devil's eyes hallowed but hollow.
From bloodless beaks they screamed,
With cries of souls being devoured.
From this I knew it was not dreamed,
The wings of death - around me towered.
Neither daemons nor faeries have power here,
In this realm, the ravens are the devil's slaves devout.
They crooned "Nevermore" into my trembling ear.
From my skin crimson bloode began to spout.
I screamed and fought, trapped in the devil's gyre.
Their talons digging flesh away from brittle bone.
Their ravenous beaks formed a choir of fire.
My faded bible fallen... I was l
SheWhen she left homeShe8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
she would leave her doors unlocked
in the hopes that her life would be a little more exciting.
she would strut the streets at night
marveling at the neon dance of traffic lights and stars.
the photons would hypnotize her
and make her move her body in ways she never imagined.
She would kiss girls until her lips bled
because men's lips don't taste like cherry balm.
She would stop by the liquor store
and brush her hand on the bottle green glass
and end up buying coca cola.
When she finally stumbled home
she would shed her clothes like a snake sheds skin
strip teasing for an Invisible Man.
shaking her hips and touching her legs and
asking God why beautiful creatures spent so much time alone.
Her fingers would travel
and she would moan herself to sleep on the sheets
wishing that somebody--anybody--
would come and hold her
and stop her from dreaming alone.
but she was never alone.
I was always there
touching her with my eyes
and holding her with my mind
I cannot claimI cannot claim I fail to weepI cannot claim5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Such salty tears upon my sleeves,
I only wish to stay asleep
And fall as dead as autumn leaves.
I cannot say I do not cry
Niobe's tears like flowing streams,
I only wish to say goodbye
And shut my eyes in endless dreams.
I cannot boast that I love thee,
For I can not tell you a lie.
I only wish you soon lose me,
And leave me here to slowly die...
Truest HomeI took my mask off,Truest Home9 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
showed my true face,
but you threw it back at me,
called me a disgrace.
No one wants to see.
No one wants to hear
about my hopes and dreams,
my memories and fear.
They'd rather I stayed quiet,
shy and in my place,
but I can't stay behind.
I want to run the race.
"No!" They cry.
Stay where you belong.
No one wants to hear
your misery song.
So crawl back in the dark,
with your monsters and fear.
Sit there quietly,
year after year.
Never going to get out,
never going to get free.
This is where I belong.
This is the truest home for me.
Farewell to MeI search for the light,Farewell to Me10 months ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
but find only death,
can't find a way out,
can't catch my breath.
Will anyone come to help,
save me from this place?
No. No one will come.
I don't deserve their grace.
I will sit in misery,
drowning with each tear.
Day after day.
Year after year.
I used to hope,
think someone would help,
take me from here,
and I'd find myself.
But this is my fate.
I'll never be free.
This is my end,
my farewell to me.
The voice called himI feel so cold,The voice called him10 months ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
As she lashes out again,
A sharpness in her tone.
Why won't someone help?
My ears begin to ring.
I can't cry anymore.
The words lose their sting.
I know I am nothing.
I don't need her to say so.
I already want to leave.
I'm fighting the urge to go.
She can't hurt me.
The strongest hate is within.
The voice that loves to torture.
The voice I call "him"
He tells me to die,
that no one wants me here.
I know that he's right.
I shed another tear.
I'd leave but I'm afraid.
Afraid to go to hell.
So I listen to him,
and curl up in my shell.