When one door closes...I’ve heard the saying
When one door closes, another opens,
I felt the disconnect and the lock clicked shut
It closed for just a moment
Then opened so hard
That it spun me
I went down in a haze of mixed emotions,
Not over my loss but feeling for you,
My wants mangling each other,
Eating each other alive,
Until there was nothing left
When the tears stopped
and you were there, waiting
I ran toward you
Wanting change, wanting freedom
Embracing an uncertain future
Your eyes were like the ocean
A swirling punch bowl of blue and white,
So inviting in their dance
So severe was the pull of your undertow
That I dove right in
Without a life preserver
Through your door I swam
With a tail like a mermaid
Propelling me face first
Into your warm water embrace,
With a smile
Meant just for you
It wasn’t what I wanted
At the time...
It was unexpected,
It was love laid out at my feet
In a trail of hot sand
That burned my toes
Until you carried me
Keeping secretsHave you ever cried yourself to sleep?Keeping secrets1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
And if someone asked you that,
how would you answer?
Truth be told, I used to -
Just lie in bed and think,
think about every single thing
and how I felt about it...
what it meant to me.
But I'll just say no,
because I don't want you to know
about how weak I am.
And it is when all is silent,
the tears will slide slowly,
soaking your pillow.
Like a movie,
the scene plays out in your head
of all those times when you were
damaged and broken.
Replayed and replayed until
all the images end up blur and disjointed.
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yes, I have - many times, in fact.
But I'll just say no
because you're my friend
and if I were to tell you,
it would be the end.
TogetherWhen I'm with you it looks likeTogether1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
things are getting better.
But when I look outside
black clouds are raining fire.
When I look in your eyes
this world just slips away.
And all the nights' wars and famines
can't touch me in my Utopian day.
Hold me in your warm embrace,
I've found a place to hide.
Let's just be our own world,
and never look outside.
Let us be together
when it seems that we will die.
Let's hold each others' hands
while the clouds are raining fire.
Bipolar Affair.I've alwaysBipolar Affair.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
that make you
and with feathery touch
every raise and dip
in the texture
You make my skin
my thoughts go
like a great big wave
leaving me feeling
helpless and weak,
far too raw and far too exposed
tug of war
just to let the rope
I bleed truth
the heavier your breath
feels on my face,
the closer you come
to steal a kiss that
You like to leave me
out in the
watch my body
my lips turn
I get a sick feeling that
it warms you up
to see me getting the
AnxietiesHands over ears, screams hide the tearsAnxieties1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like monsters, they stand around, eerie and cruel
Grotesque and uncontrolled
They drive me to the point of collapse
So I do.
I’m the ground
I shake and tremble and tear everything down
I am the ground
I don’t understand how anyone stays around me
When I’m like this
I’m like a stone
Rolling out of control
Loud and predictable, we all know where I’m going
Down, as sure as water, I will fall
And as a boulder, I will tear down everything in my path
Hell Doesn't Even KnowI want to cry so much...Hell Doesn't Even Know1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Maybe I'm happy,
Maybe I'm sad.
I feel so alone,
Yet I've been with people all day.
I feel so unloved,
Yet I know I have people who love me.
I can't talk about these feelings.
I can't open up when the door is locked.
And the key is lost.
I want to inspire,
But I just recieve empathy.
I want to die,
But I keep on breathing.
I feel so confused, lost and all alone.
The feelings inside me are too strong for my body.
I don't want someone to understand.
I want someone to give me the answers to why I am like this.
And a solution to fix the massacre inside me...
A Walk Into An OceanShe's walking into a cold bitter seaA Walk Into An Ocean4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She can feel the icy water touch her on the knee
She continues to walk further and further
Then it starts to hurt her
Her vains freezing like ice
At first the coldness felt nice
But then it makes her vains turn darker blue
And thats when her uncaring thoughts grew
She's shivering and cannot stop
And soon she hears a pop
She falls deeper and deeper under the water
She starts to wonder if sombody saw her
Gasping for a breath and pleading for a rest
Sinking to the bottom and curled in a nest
With her eyes closed and unable to breathe
Then she sinks and goes deeper underneath
She's at her watery grave
It would of been better if she would of been saved
It's a walk into an ocean nobody will forget
Now she is laying in her underwater pit
Who am IWho am IWho am I1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
But a pile of thoughts and
Feelings served on golden plates
Who am I
But the darkness that surrounds me
And the light that penetrates it
Who am I
But a figure ducked in corner
Enveloped by melting fingers
I cry and shout
But nobody can hear me
I try to move
But space curls around me
Who am I
Deep inside underneath the clothes
Underneath the skin and flesh
Who am I
The being that exists
For itself and by itself
I cry and shout
And smile upon the sounds
I try to move
And split myself to pieces
And there is no one
To stop my rapid fallout
As the drops of me
Soak into dried earth
In The Darkness...In the DarknessIn The Darkness...1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can see You...
As if You were beside me
and had never let me go...
Even when I close my eyes
at night, You are there...
But I know you are holding and
being held by someone else now...
And it kills me,
every single time...
The heart wrenching tears that I cry,
should at least blur my vision of You...
To deter or hide away,
Your haunting beauty...
But they do not and
I carry on suffering...
I cover my shuttered eye lids
with the palms of my hands...
As if to deny,
all possible light...
I grind the heals into them,
but I start seeing bright stars...
And alas, You're still here
torturing me sadistically...
I scream in anguish,
but no one dares care...
As if in silence, a pain
only I can bear...
Desperately, I take my sharpened quill
and plunge it into my eyes...
Leaving only bare sockets to remain,
on my pride-less blood stained face...
Now blind and truly in Darkness,
I find my mind continues to see You...
There's no escape, no relief
and I am Forever Yours.....
A Moment Of Your TimeA moment of your time is all I askA Moment Of Your Time1 year ago in Short Stories More Like This
Would you kindly, if it’s okay, spend some time with me? I don’t ask for much time, only a moment or so, that is all I ask.
Would you kindly? People come and go so quickly in life, always rushing from one place to another without taking a second to slow down.
A moment of your time is all I ask
All through life we tend to be in a rush. A rush to grow up into an adult, a rush to work and fulfil a routine that really tends to limit what else we can do in our lives, a rush to simply rush around, usually for no reason at all but to appear busy.
So would you kindly? It’s only a moment of time, just a moment.
A moment of your time is all I ask
Spring is coming, you can almost taste it in the air. New life is appearing as flowers bud and animals give birth to new life, the cold is slowly being pushed to the side. Another year is over and another is on the way to fully beginning.
Silent LoveI see through the windows of your soulSilent Love1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
And although the silence has never been broken
And the words have never been spoken
Your eyes tell me all.
I never did feel as comfortable as I did with you
I know you felt good, too.
I won't forget your eyes open wide
To the beauty of a sunset tide.
When I needed you, you were always by my side
In the dark you were my guide
The best friend I could have,
You always had me in awe.
But your eyes, they warned me that friendship is all you could give,
I never thought you wouldn't forgive.
Now I spill my sorrow in room of black
But that won't bring you back.
The silence has been broken
And the words have been spoken
There are bars of steel on windows
And your eyes are telling me nothing at all.
My MindI'm afraid of my mind,My Mind1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
It always seems to find,
The wrong path.
Overpowering what is right,
All it wants is to end the pain.
But then again it loves to trick me,
It will never let me be.
This fight will go on and on and on.
I can never win,
And when all seems dim,
You make it worse.
You tell me to get the razor,
You tell me to get the pills,
You tell me to push them away,
You tell me to sway closer to suicide.
Why do you do this?
Don't you see I'm growing tired?
I can't take this much longer,
Living on the verge on death isn't easy,
Especially when you're already fucked up.
MessEverywhere I goMess1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Every single place
The troubles seem to grow
Every smiling face
Eventually frowns with woe
Why can't I do
I just screw
Up everything despite
The happiness I try to spew
Is it me
Am I the source of this ache
Does the pain flow free
Is this what I make
Should I go away and hide
Never to see others
Or the outside
But would I stop another's
Pain and be the only one that ever cried
What is a life with no grey
When everyone is sad
I'd give it all away
It wouldn't be that bad
I would finally be able to say
I saved a life
Yours, my loveYours, my love1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You are the light that still shines on me
FOr you I will pine eternally
YoU were the one who did set me free
YouR love will always my comfort be
RoseS smell sweetest, my fragrant plea
SouL unto soul and heart unto heart
FoOlish is one who would tear this apart
EVery love has hardhips right from the start
Eternity's for those who choose ne'er to part
Love is a PhoenixI have seen nothing more tragic,Love is a Phoenix9 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Than watching love die.
Enduring it’s painfully fade,
As it stubbornly clings to life
The slow death of a love,
That’s filled with years of life.
Or the sudden snap,
As it blinks away in a lover’s eye.
It doesn’t go easy,
And it doesn’t go fast.
It goes out fighting,
Because love was made to last.
It is a brilliant flame,
Drowned in water.
It clings to the air,
With all its dying embers.
Yes, I have seen no sadder sight,
Than watching love as it dies.
But I have been blessed to gazed upon no otherworldly scene,
Than watching love be born again, anew and free.
Beautiful CovenAs I take your hand in this circle,Beautiful Coven1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I no longer feel alone,
I've found where I belong,
And I grow strong.
Years on a vacant island,
But now I have returned home.
You drape a black robe as dark as the night sky,
Over my body as beautiful as a temple,
I see light twinkle in your eyes,
As you light the pink candle that resembles,
The love that is growing between the whole group.
We all link closing our eyes,
Saying chants to improve our lives,
Never will we cause harm,
Never will we follow the path of lust.
What we must do is give back.
Restore the tree branch we tore down,
Plant beauteous flowers in the ground.
And sit here in the angelic sound of silence,
Oh how it fills my soul taking me away,
For a visit with the Gods and Goddesses.
I sway into a trance of serenity and love.
I feel Eirene invading into me,
Showing the peace that is meant to be inside of me.
Frigg showing me what I will receive in the future,
From the better people I will come in contact with.
Hades showing me the love
I'm sorryWhen you tore my heart outI'm sorry1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
And threw it to the ground
That laughed at me
I reached out
To touch you
And you shattered
I know why too
It's because you were
And you thought that
If you accepted
Then everything would crash
But as it turns out
You were wrong
Because when I reached out
And you rejected me
All on your own
I pick up
Now I'll have to
Buy a new mirror
BrokenGo ahead and drive the blade into my heart,Broken1 year ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
go ahead and twist,
past the chipped paint,
past the dents and battle scars,
is my beating heart,
drive the blade in,
watch me fall,
better to be dead then to be broken,
am i just a toy to you too,
am i just a puppet to your strings,
when will i ever mean something,
when will i ever be good enough,
after all no one wants a broken toy
MercyYou're like a fallen angelMercy1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
A dusty doll on the shelf
Your eyes still to the ceiling
Counting the seconds
The spans between the rise and fall of your chest
Cutting through the torture
Tracing the bites on your stomach with shaking fingers
Drunk behind the gym during class
Yearning and mourning
Nothing but a scared little boy
Face pressed to the filthy bus window
Watching mommy wave goodbye
You're a broken wine glass
Shattered between stiletto heels
Branded with ruby lipstick and the stick of apple wine
Babe, don't try to shove your bruised knuckles in your empty pockets
Brush it off
Shake your blonde head and smile
Tell yourself that you're going to be fine
Not moving a muscle
Deceit in the corners of your eyes
No bend in the sides of your mouth
Begging for mercy
Sinking aloneGasping for every breathe I take,Sinking alone1 year ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Dreading all the mistakes I'll make,
I hope I do everything right
I don't want to lose this fight.
Each bad choice takes me away,
And every time I fade away.
I lose myself in this mess,
And sometimes I could care less.
Life goes on, I watch it go,
Some things I can't change, I know.
I try to hold on to every chance I get,
But I can't do it all, my time is set.
I must give up some things I would like
To look at things to live my life right
I don't care if you like what I choose,
Because in the end, I've got nothing to lose.
Rain Of ColorRain Of Color1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rain Of Color
All of the struggles I had to endure
I always desperately held on
It was a day after day ritual
Learning to stay strong
Different advice from the wise
I had to fuse it all together
And make sense of every voice
I couldn't allow my hope to wither
Believe in the soul
Embrace the heart
It's what makes you whole
It defines who you really are
Envision the dreams
As if they're real
Remember where you've been
Know that every wound will heal
Every scar tells a story / Every step is towards glory
There's always a chance to triumph / There's always a time for resonance
We always pick ourselves back up / There's no such thing as enough
Born to live free / Alive to feel peace
Hold onto that spark
Even if it's not much
It'll guide you through the dark
It'll help you when you're lost
Compare not to others
Live at your own pace
It always gets better
Faith never really fades
I've made it to this place
Where finally I realize
I've journeyed through the pain
And I have
LostDark Room.Lost11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can't see.
But I try.
But I cry.
No I don't.
I don't want to admit it.
I can't and I'll regret it.
I'm all over the place.
But I'm heavy.
I'm full of emotion.
And I can't get it out.
And the ones that work I can't do.
I don't know what I need.
But I want you.
I WantI want to be able to scream,I Want1 year ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I want to be able to talk,
But whenever I voice my opinions,
They’re left so deep in the dark.
I want to be able to cry,
I want to be able to smile,
But I only can in desperation,
So I’ll fake my emotions for a while.
I want to be able to stand,
I want to be able to laugh,
But whenever I manage to catch it,
It fades away from my grasp.
I want to be able to tell you,
But it’s harder than I first might have thought,
Because from my past experience,
I only became more distraught.
I want it to stop being complicated,
So for once, I can sit down and explain,
But for now I’ll just have to stick,
With hiding my tears in the rain.
I want to be able to scream,
I want to be able to talk,
But I can never find the right words to say,
So I’ll continue my long, lonely walk.
Friend Zone.Friend Zone.Friend Zone.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I just can never seem to get it right.
How can she say that I am not her type?
After the constant phone calls and the facebook messages
And listening to you talk about all of your annoying relatives.
I thought that you and I could’ve been something.
I know now you think all guys are just after one thing.
Especially after the last guy and what he did to you
And I thought since I was the person you came running to.
That maybe, eventually there could be something between us
And you would believe me when I say I am not thinking of my penis.
When I say I long to hear your voice, even if it's only for a little while
And I love the way your delicate dimples develop whenever you smile.
I even love the way you chew your nails wildly whenever you’re nervous.
So when my suppressed feelings for you begin to pierce through the surface
And I confess all of the affection held captive in my chest.
You say that you love me but you can only see me as a best...
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I Found You BrokenI found you broken,I Found You Broken11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Crumbled, laying upon the steps of life.
I wanted nothing more than to help you back up.
You had fallen from so high so long before.
I'd give my soul to carry you back up.
But no matter how hard I try,
I can't budge or lift you up till you decide,
To stand by yourself,
And when you do, I swear I'll be back right here.
But do you mind,
Just sit and wait with you a while?
While we both have the time.