When one door closes...I’ve heard the saying
When one door closes, another opens,
I felt the disconnect and the lock clicked shut
It closed for just a moment
Then opened so hard
That it spun me
I went down in a haze of mixed emotions,
Not over my loss but feeling for you,
My wants mangling each other,
Eating each other alive,
Until there was nothing left
When the tears stopped
and you were there, waiting
I ran toward you
Wanting change, wanting freedom
Embracing an uncertain future
Your eyes were like the ocean
A swirling punch bowl of blue and white,
So inviting in their dance
So severe was the pull of your undertow
That I dove right in
Without a life preserver
Through your door I swam
With a tail like a mermaid
Propelling me face first
Into your warm water embrace,
With a smile
Meant just for you
It wasn’t what I wanted
At the time...
It was unexpected,
It was love laid out at my feet
In a trail of hot sand
That burned my toes
Until you carried me
Keeping secretsHave you ever cried yourself to sleep?Keeping secrets2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And if someone asked you that,
how would you answer?
Truth be told, I used to -
Just lie in bed and think,
think about every single thing
and how I felt about it...
what it meant to me.
But I'll just say no,
because I don't want you to know
about how weak I am.
And it is when all is silent,
the tears will slide slowly,
soaking your pillow.
Like a movie,
the scene plays out in your head
of all those times when you were
damaged and broken.
Replayed and replayed until
all the images end up blur and disjointed.
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yes, I have - many times, in fact.
But I'll just say no
because you're my friend
and if I were to tell you,
it would be the end.
Bipolar Affair.I've alwaysBipolar Affair.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that make you
and with feathery touch
every raise and dip
in the texture
You make my skin
my thoughts go
like a great big wave
leaving me feeling
helpless and weak,
far too raw and far too exposed
tug of war
just to let the rope
I bleed truth
the heavier your breath
feels on my face,
the closer you come
to steal a kiss that
You like to leave me
out in the
watch my body
my lips turn
I get a sick feeling that
it warms you up
to see me getting the
TogetherWhen I'm with you it looks likeTogether2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
things are getting better.
But when I look outside
black clouds are raining fire.
When I look in your eyes
this world just slips away.
And all the nights' wars and famines
can't touch me in my Utopian day.
Hold me in your warm embrace,
I've found a place to hide.
Let's just be our own world,
and never look outside.
Let us be together
when it seems that we will die.
Let's hold each others' hands
while the clouds are raining fire.
AnxietiesHands over ears, screams hide the tearsAnxieties3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like monsters, they stand around, eerie and cruel
Grotesque and uncontrolled
They drive me to the point of collapse
So I do.
I’m the ground
I shake and tremble and tear everything down
I am the ground
I don’t understand how anyone stays around me
When I’m like this
I’m like a stone
Rolling out of control
Loud and predictable, we all know where I’m going
Down, as sure as water, I will fall
And as a boulder, I will tear down everything in my path
In The Darkness...In the DarknessIn The Darkness...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can see You...
As if You were beside me
and had never let me go...
Even when I close my eyes
at night, You are there...
But I know you are holding and
being held by someone else now...
And it kills me,
every single time...
The heart wrenching tears that I cry,
should at least blur my vision of You...
To deter or hide away,
Your haunting beauty...
But they do not and
I carry on suffering...
I cover my shuttered eye lids
with the palms of my hands...
As if to deny,
all possible light...
I grind the heals into them,
but I start seeing bright stars...
And alas, You're still here
torturing me sadistically...
I scream in anguish,
but no one dares care...
As if in silence, a pain
only I can bear...
Desperately, I take my sharpened quill
and plunge it into my eyes...
Leaving only bare sockets to remain,
on my pride-less blood stained face...
Now blind and truly in Darkness,
I find my mind continues to see You...
There's no escape, no relief
and I am Forever Yours.....
Hell Doesn't Even KnowI want to cry so much...Hell Doesn't Even Know3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Maybe I'm happy,
Maybe I'm sad.
I feel so alone,
Yet I've been with people all day.
I feel so unloved,
Yet I know I have people who love me.
I can't talk about these feelings.
I can't open up when the door is locked.
And the key is lost.
I want to inspire,
But I just recieve empathy.
I want to die,
But I keep on breathing.
I feel so confused, lost and all alone.
The feelings inside me are too strong for my body.
I don't want someone to understand.
I want someone to give me the answers to why I am like this.
And a solution to fix the massacre inside me...
I'm sorryWhen you tore my heart outI'm sorry3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And threw it to the ground
That laughed at me
I reached out
To touch you
And you shattered
I know why too
It's because you were
And you thought that
If you accepted
Then everything would crash
But as it turns out
You were wrong
Because when I reached out
And you rejected me
All on your own
I pick up
Now I'll have to
Buy a new mirror
Silent LoveI see through the windows of your soulSilent Love2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And although the silence has never been broken
And the words have never been spoken
Your eyes tell me all.
I never did feel as comfortable as I did with you
I know you felt good, too.
I won't forget your eyes open wide
To the beauty of a sunset tide.
When I needed you, you were always by my side
In the dark you were my guide
The best friend I could have,
You always had me in awe.
But your eyes, they warned me that friendship is all you could give,
I never thought you wouldn't forgive.
Now I spill my sorrow in room of black
But that won't bring you back.
The silence has been broken
And the words have been spoken
There are bars of steel on windows
And your eyes are telling me nothing at all.
Sinking aloneGasping for every breathe I take,Sinking alone3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Dreading all the mistakes I'll make,
I hope I do everything right
I don't want to lose this fight.
Each bad choice takes me away,
And every time I fade away.
I lose myself in this mess,
And sometimes I could care less.
Life goes on, I watch it go,
Some things I can't change, I know.
I try to hold on to every chance I get,
But I can't do it all, my time is set.
I must give up some things I would like
To look at things to live my life right
I don't care if you like what I choose,
Because in the end, I've got nothing to lose.
A Moment Of Your TimeA moment of your time is all I askA Moment Of Your Time2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Would you kindly, if it’s okay, spend some time with me? I don’t ask for much time, only a moment or so, that is all I ask.
Would you kindly? People come and go so quickly in life, always rushing from one place to another without taking a second to slow down.
A moment of your time is all I ask
All through life we tend to be in a rush. A rush to grow up into an adult, a rush to work and fulfil a routine that really tends to limit what else we can do in our lives, a rush to simply rush around, usually for no reason at all but to appear busy.
So would you kindly? It’s only a moment of time, just a moment.
A moment of your time is all I ask
Spring is coming, you can almost taste it in the air. New life is appearing as flowers bud and animals give birth to new life, the cold is slowly being pushed to the side. Another year is over and another is on the way to fully beginning.
It only hurts because we both feel the same wayDuskIt only hurts because we both feel the same way2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And in the depths of this never ending twilight my mind retraces its steps,
Following the veins along your arms and across your chest.
Counting the memories as they slip between my finger tips,
Remembering when times were good
And you said you’d write a love song for every one of my tears.
But those days are long gone, now fading stars in the darkest of nights.
When our souls were light and our days care free,
We would watch the leaves as they fell from the trees.
Each one a dying light, like a firework that streaks through the night
But we built a fire so big and so bright,
An undying passion blazing in the night.
I found heaven in your eyes the murky blue like stormy skies,
The curve of your lip like a mountain range,
I could sit forever and gaze at you this way.
My piece of heaven in the depths of hell,
Your light reached out to me and healed all my scars.
When you said that every breath I take is a tiny gift to you in a miraculous way, I welled up i
A Walk Into An OceanShe's walking into a cold bitter seaA Walk Into An Ocean6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
She can feel the icy water touch her on the knee
She continues to walk further and further
Then it starts to hurt her
Her veins freezing like ice
At first the coldness felt nice
But then it makes her veins turn darker blue
And thats when her uncaring thoughts grew
She's shivering and cannot stop
And soon she hears a pop
She falls deeper and deeper under the water
She starts to wonder if somebody saw her
Gasping for a breath and pleading for a rest
Sinking to the bottom and curled in a nest
With her eyes closed and unable to breathe
Then she sinks and goes deeper underneath
She's at her watery grave
It would have been better if she would have been saved
It's a walk into an ocean nobody will forget
Now she is laying in her underwater pit
I Found You BrokenI found you broken,I Found You Broken2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Crumbled, laying upon the steps of life.
I wanted nothing more than to help you back up.
You had fallen from so high so long before.
I'd give my soul to carry you back up.
But no matter how hard I try,
I can't budge or lift you up till you decide,
To stand by yourself,
And when you do, I swear I'll be back right here.
But do you mind,
Just sit and wait with you a while?
While we both have the time.
Cry of an ArtistThey tell me I’ll understandCry of an Artist2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
when I’m older.
That I shouldn’t be an artist.
I want to be those crumpled papers
in the corner of my room,
and the late nights I stayed awake
blinking at the moon.
And even though I lack the supplies
and ideas are far away,
I feel artistic blood
running through my veins.
I’m that empty spray can
left in the shadows of the walls
where street art’s been made
but the name’s not there at all.
And I’m that lonely artist
who fears of sticking out
because all the art critics
feel the urge to not speak, but shout.
And I’m that girl standing by the window,
wanting those paints and brushes,
pencils and pens,
and the city that hushes
when my art makes its
LostDark Room.Lost2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can't see.
But I try.
But I cry.
No I don't.
I don't want to admit it.
I can't and I'll regret it.
I'm all over the place.
But I'm heavy.
I'm full of emotion.
And I can't get it out.
And the ones that work I can't do.
I don't know what I need.
But I want you.
Who am IWho am IWho am I2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But a pile of thoughts and
Feelings served on golden plates
Who am I
But the darkness that surrounds me
And the light that penetrates it
Who am I
But a figure ducked in corner
Enveloped by melting fingers
I cry and shout
But nobody can hear me
I try to move
But space curls around me
Who am I
Deep inside underneath the clothes
Underneath the skin and flesh
Who am I
The being that exists
For itself and by itself
I cry and shout
And smile upon the sounds
I try to move
And split myself to pieces
And there is no one
To stop my rapid fallout
As the drops of me
Soak into dried earth
Without youWithout you,Without you3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I just don't care
The world falls apart
But with you is no good
With you is destruction
With you is depression
And with you … sucks
Still I miss you
I always will
'Cause you are what matters
When nothing else will
Rain Of ColorRain Of Color3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rain Of Color
All of the struggles I had to endure
I always desperately held on
It was a day after day ritual
Learning to stay strong
Different advice from the wise
I had to fuse it all together
And make sense of every voice
I couldn't allow my hope to wither
Believe in the soul
Embrace the heart
It's what makes you whole
It defines who you really are
Envision the dreams
As if they're real
Remember where you've been
Know that every wound will heal
Every scar tells a story / Every step is towards glory
There's always a chance to triumph / There's always a time for resonance
We always pick ourselves back up / There's no such thing as enough
Born to live free / Alive to feel peace
Hold onto that spark
Even if it's not much
It'll guide you through the dark
It'll help you when you're lost
Compare not to others
Live at your own pace
It always gets better
Faith never really fades
I've made it to this place
Where finally I realize
I've journeyed through the pain
And I have
To an Artist's EyeA world so large,To an Artist's Eye2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A world so full,
A world so busy
Does contain so much more,
But in my mind,
So small and confined,
I hope for light
So that I may paint
Pictures full of delight.
Skies become swirls of fire,
The land now lost in color.
The World’s light divides
Into the strokes of Monet
And to the thick expressions
Of Vincent van Gogh.
The World’s scenery becomes,
To what an Artist’s eye may see,
Not only a mere depiction
Of what can be seen,
But into a desperate plea.
A call for expression.
A call for understanding.
My mind reaches out
Toward this world
So large, so full, so busy.
Reaching to find meaning,
Yet realizing that I,
So lost in fanciful dance,
Lost in the symphonies of thought
That amplify my existence,
Have finally found
The complex harmonies of expression
That allow my interpretive mind,
So content in the observation
Of such a place,
To enlighten and contribute
To such an immense
And saturated world.
StormyBreaking down,Stormy3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Slam my fist against the wall
When I can't take it anymore
Will the sun shine on me again?
Wind blow, rain fall
I face it all, there is still hope
Soon enough it will pass
Boom, crash all night
I fight with myself
Just dark skies out
Every kind of silence
It is killing me
It took me long to realize that I am still here
Hide, run but can't leave
Losing my grip on life
Only a miracle can help me now
It's Christmas Eve and I am all alone
All I wanted for Christmas was something you couldn't wrap
Something that truly came from the heart
No ordinary gift can help
It needed to be special
Special enough to make my troubles go away
Then it happened you walk into my life
I knew you were different
A vibe that makes you feel like having a smile on your face all the time
I think I got to the point I have found myself again
I have called and you've answer
I have fallen and you pick me up
That gift is...
MercyYou're like a fallen angelMercy2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A dusty doll on the shelf
Your eyes still to the ceiling
Counting the seconds
The spans between the rise and fall of your chest
Cutting through the torture
Tracing the bites on your stomach with shaking fingers
Drunk behind the gym during class
Yearning and mourning
Nothing but a scared little boy
Face pressed to the filthy bus window
Watching mommy wave goodbye
You're a broken wine glass
Shattered between stiletto heels
Branded with ruby lipstick and the stick of apple wine
Babe, don't try to shove your bruised knuckles in your empty pockets
Brush it off
Shake your blonde head and smile
Tell yourself that you're going to be fine
Not moving a muscle
Deceit in the corners of your eyes
No bend in the sides of your mouth
Begging for mercy
BrokenGo ahead and drive the blade into my heart,Broken2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
go ahead and twist,
past the chipped paint,
past the dents and battle scars,
is my beating heart,
drive the blade in,
watch me fall,
better to be dead then to be broken,
am i just a toy to you too,
am i just a puppet to your strings,
when will i ever mean something,
when will i ever be good enough,
after all no one wants a broken toy
Am IAm I invisible?Am I3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because you ignore me,
Am I that shadow on the ground?
Because you're walking over me.
Am I camouflaged?
Because you deliberately turn your back on me,
Am I alive?
Because you act as though I don't exist.
Am I dead?
Because you look at me as though I'm a spirit,
Am I just a colour?
Because you judge me as though I am.
Am I unwanted?
Because you make me feel that way.
Am I just a fish in the sea?
Because you caught me, but then you let go.
The colour of my skin doesn't defy the person inside,
Whether I'm Brown, Black, Yellow or White;
The words you use to hurt me,
Cannot take away my pride.
Like BreathingYour Kiss..Like Breathing2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
One is just not enough
For it puts me in a rare bliss
Going without it, is just so rough
For every time I see you
I just want to kiss you, its just so hard to resist
Because its all I want to do
For that one time we had kissed...
Was like a drug, so addicting
But also like breathing so natural
Why is it so contradicting
I just hope these feelings are mutual
For all I want now is your kiss