Swing life awayGoodbye my dear old friendSwing life away1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
How I wished it did not have to end
How we laughed and sang
Together with the whole gang
Goodbye my dear friend
How I wished that changes that now impend
How we once compared our scars
How we once gazed at the lone stars
Goodbye my friend
How we stood together till the end
How our days were filled with laughter and joy
How you made fun of me being a mama’s boy
Our time was not misspend
We will meet again one day
And we shall swing life away
ScarsStanding in the showerScars1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Skin turning redder
I stay still and soak it in
This water won't erase my sins
Scars stand out bright white
Burns and cuts all in sight
The real scars cannot be seen
They reside inside of me
I wonder if all I will be
is a creature scarred eternally?
InsomniaWaking in the dead of nightInsomnia1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wondering about my life
All the things I've left undone
How did things go so wrong
I lay here drenched in sweat
Haunted by the old regrets
Trying to stay awake
Frightened by my dreamscape
Stay up until the dawn
Go to work with face drawn
I struggle on through the day
People curiously glance my way
I finally make my way home
Wait for the cycle to go on
FightThe fight of the lifeFight1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The life of the fight
You’ll die tonight
I’ll die tomorrow
You lost your fight
I've gained my sorrow
What doesn't kill us makes us stronger
As time goes by we’re getting older
But we’re getting weaker everyday
In those battles we lost our strength
We fear ourselves cause we are monsters
Though we'll shine brighter than the solstice
And we are beautiful in horrific way
But still getting weaker everyday
We fight because we love
We love that’s why we fight
We will remain in shining glory
In the name of war and endless sorrow
And we’ll be fighting for immortal life
Fighting till the end, until we all die…
numbersi can watch the shadows shake like my muscles jump and my neurons laugh at the taste, but i'm not sure we agreed to stay and the monster beneath my skin is begging for delay.numbers1 year ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
i might give it all just a little more time to settle but the next step is explaining to four why twenty-one is crying and seventeen has angry smiles and eighteen is dangling from the rope, engorged with pills, and choking.
something about burning but twenty-one, twenty, and nineteen all love the fire. they all hate the lighter after seventeen, but who knew?
sixteen is confused and tired of playing puppet and fifteen is still trying to find the easiest slice.
fourteen keeps her eyes open but can't accept anything is different, but the way they stopped eating after thirteen is noticeable and someone else's cancer is going to find those missing pounds.
they jumped inside her veins, but that's exactly why she tried to cut them out, and twelve sees forty-two as the end and doesn't know if hiding from him works
Dreaming of YouEvery night I dream of youDreaming of You1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
wishing upon a star
that you were here for real
Every night I lay in bed
a dream so wonderful
cause you are in it
I dream of being with you
to grow old together
a day never apart
only you are in my thoughts
A feeling so wonderful
it is in my heart
the love that grows
stronger each day
Every night I think of you
our love is for real
you are always here
I dream of happiness
being with you all the time
a dream so magical
that everything seem so real
you are here with me
keeping me safe
throughout the night
After all it is just a dream
but I promise you
that one day it will be real
So for now I will just dream
of seeing you in sight
cause some day it will happen
that you will be in my arms
AnxietyIcy fingers in my aching gutAnxiety1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Throat swelling completely shut
I lay shake and leak out tears
Unable to escape my fears
I don't even know what they are
The things that have driven me this far
I hold my hand to the burning incense
My only solace in pain intense
The cracking flesh relieves my mind
Helps my anxiety to unwind
Silent LoveI see through the windows of your soulSilent Love1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
And although the silence has never been broken
And the words have never been spoken
Your eyes tell me all.
I never did feel as comfortable as I did with you
I know you felt good, too.
I won't forget your eyes open wide
To the beauty of a sunset tide.
When I needed you, you were always by my side
In the dark you were my guide
The best friend I could have,
You always had me in awe.
But your eyes, they warned me that friendship is all you could give,
I never thought you wouldn't forgive.
Now I spill my sorrow in room of black
But that won't bring you back.
The silence has been broken
And the words have been spoken
There are bars of steel on windows
And your eyes are telling me nothing at all.
With or Without YouYou have been standing there behind this glass for a long timeWith or Without You1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I see you standing there, wanting to be free
Wanting to be free from your own situations
I see you waiting there for me to return
Nothing more than an emotionless face
Just starring there, a glare of emptiness
Now, only if I can make a smile
Only if you can believe me that I still care about you
Only if you can believe me that try my best to cherish you
Only if you can believe me that we can make this work
Look deep, down in your heart
There is pain that you have
Pain that is unbearable but you still carry it
But it is neither a pain of misery nor a pain of sadness
It is a pain of missing, to be without
It can't be irreplaceable
All you have is hope, hope that something will change
A burden to be lifted, no let it be found by joy and richness of others around you
To be fulfill with me
So I put my hand the glass, gently yours comes up too
I feel that you are so close but yet so far away
Looking at your long black hair, your
because i have toimpaledbecause i have to1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
& wreaking havoc on these
more than endorphins &
planes out of control
pretending that if
instilled in bedsheets
DancerDancer in my mindDancer1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
You used to dance so beautifully
You now spend your days sitting there
Dismantling my life
Why can’t you just stop?
Let things go back to how they were?
Well, I can’t handle you anymore
Destroying me from within
So I am telling you now
Today is the day I let you go
Go dance your magical dance
Somewhere other than here
For you are no longer welcome
Goodbye, dear Dancer
Live Joyously with someone else
PerfectionPerfection.Perfection2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
She lodges her fingers down her throat.
Clasping onto the wall as she recklessly chokes.
She reinserts her fingers back in forcibly.
Deliriously trying to make her body thinner.
She swoons and slumps to the floor nauseously
As she attempts to regurgitate her dinner.
Her throat aches as she screeches out coarsely,
With her hand covering the image in the mirror.
Her head now rests on the on the rim of the toilet seat.
She wants to eat but she just has not got in her.
She desperately begins to scream out inaudibly.
Her mouth now tastes of something pulpy and bitter.
She examines the red color of the fluid cautiously.
Realizing that she has become too focused on her figure.
Her friend then knocks on the door thoughtfully.
She shouts out, "I'm okay I don't need a baby sitter."
Her friend continues to knock and waits outside awkwardly
Replying, "You promised me, you said that you are not a quitter"
The tap begins to run as she disguises her cough distortedly.
She knows her friend
the clockwork liari. we dusted dreams off people like the first snowflakes of the season. you'd take one and rest it on the center of your tongue because you hated the taste of ice cream and wanted to reset what cold tasted like to you.the clockwork liar2 years ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
you taught me that the cold could be bitter, and so could people's dreams.
you drank out of out-of-order wells because you believed they still worked and that the government was keeping it all to itself.
i never realized how insane you made me before i wrote this all down.
ii. i wished on the sun because i ran out of shooting stars.
and just to spite me, you began wishing on raindrops because you believed that they were so many, one of them was bound to remember you.
but we both ended up laughing hysterically with protruding knives on a bloodstained floor, didn't we?
iii. i talked to clockwork towers and told them to lie because if they stopped for just a while, all the time in the world would seize.
one human, two human
SoulsPure thought and emotion,Souls3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Existing only to live,
After a troubled death.
Unable to store memories,
They wander without destination,
Beings whose only experiences,
Were created in the past.
Sometimes they are trapped,
A single moment in time.
Most find peace, however,
And cease to subsist.
OblivionI would like to drink tonightOblivion1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
For no reason just like that
One glass or maybe two
Just not to think about you
Sometimes I wish to not be sober
To not remember you at all
To forget when we were over
When we stopped being in love
I want to drink a little more
To get drunk up to my soul
To get so lost in alcohol
So it won’t hurt me anymore
A glass of wine and shot of vodka
I still remember, it won’t get over
It hurts like hell and cuts like knife
No matter how hard I will drink tonight
Far AwayI don’t see how you could want anything from me.Far Away1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I’m cold and I’m gone and I won’t ever be
There for you, even though I know how you
Need me to; it’s what I want too.
But I’m lost in a land far away from all others.
It’s dark and unknown without my sisters and brothers,
So I scream out. Why am I lost in this way?
Why do I watch you all suffer and do nothing every single day?
I know that all that I am to the people around
Is a cruel twister of words who brings everyone down.
That’s all I am to me, at least.
But there are people who stick around this cruel beast.
So I can’t be all that terrible, right?
If so, why do I feel like a pitiably sad sight?
A GODDESSA GoddessA GODDESS1 year ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
full of beauty
full of grace
full of love
full of kindness
full of good
full of pureness
radiant like the sun
warm like summer
shining like the stars
smooth like silk
sparkling like the stars
dazzling like the blue ocean
sweet like music
enchanting like a symphony
divine like the world
eternal like the universe.
is a Goddess
always and forever.
Copyright © 2012 by Philip Brocklehurst
All Rights Reserved
You cannot save me from my lifeI lie face down on the railway tracks.You cannot save me from my life1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Screaming out his name.
You say you can save me,
But I am not something you can reclaim.
Discarded needles and empty cans,
Fill my space and steal my time.
They do nothing to take away this pain,
That grates away at my sanity
More and more these days.
Silhouettes of a life long dead,
Dance in the corners of my mind.
Flaunting what could have been,
In front of my cold eyes.
You told me you would be gentle.
You told me you would teach me how to breathe again.
You promised you would save from my pain,
You promised me a life; you told me I could live again.
At first you were a distraction,
An illusion showing I could be repaired.
Though the cracks broke through
And I fell down again.
I lie face down on the railway tracks.
I am waiting on the train.
To come and take me away.
He is calling out my name.
I told you from the start,
My fire was dying out.
I am not something you can reclaim.
You cannot save me
If tomorrow I don't Wake upI wonder what would happenIf tomorrow I don't Wake up2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If I was never to wake up
Would people even care
I wonder if a commotion would erupt
Would anyone even notice
That I wasn't alive
Would my mother even mourn me
Or could she guess that I wouldn't survive
Well I'm still not dead
But I can barely call this living
I feel like a corpse
That hasn't given up on breathing
But I wonder what would happen
If I was actually to die
Would anyone be bothered
Or care enough to cry
Maybe everyone's just used to
Me living like a corpse
So no one would be bothered
Or life change the slightest off of course
But if I would never wake up
There's no way to know what happens the next day
Won't know if people really care about me
But..maybe it's better off that way
L.O.V.E.L.O.V.E.L.O.V.E.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
It swallows you whole,
Exceeds your control.
Apprehends your soul,
Until it has taken its toll.
It’s an overwhelming feeling.
That is made to be appealing
And you can’t help revealing,
The doubts you are concealing.
It’s an undefined dimple
And a well known jingle.
But only when you are single
Does it all seem so simple.
It is one of life’s many gifts,
That empowers and uplifts
And can lead you adrift.
Should you miss your shift.
It is impossible to describe it.
It is impossible to fight it.
Because once it is ignited
And once you have tried it.
It will take your independence.
You will become used to its presence.
You will become addicted to its essence
And include it at the end of your every sentence.
It exists even in the hearts of its haters.
It is a taste even they will savour
And although its duration wavers.
There will never be a feeling that is greater.
Everything I have said and more.
I am merely repeating what you already know.
To Fight the DarkFrom the light in my room,To Fight the Dark1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I see the night outside
As it eats and consumes
On its treacherous ride
Everyone screams and cries
Giving into the night
None ever even try
To be brave for the light
There are those who stand,
I myself am included,
That won’t give into the hand
That won’t ever be deluded
Alone, we fight for days and weeks
Searching for a soul to share the pain
Once found, we can end the days so bleak
Once found, everyone will know our names
Obsession -AkuRoku poem-The sea-salt dripsObsession -AkuRoku poem-3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
off those soft pink lips
All I do is stare
but pass it off as a glare
His green eyes glare back
and my mind goes black
I undress him with my eyes
and hold back deep sighs
He talks but I don't hear
I just look on with fear
because this confession
could ruin my obsession
He stands and starts to walk
I grab his arm "Can we talk?"
He nods his head and I start
"Axel, I love you, even if I have no heart."
His green eyes open in shock
but then he leans forward til our lips lock
and now my obsession
has a new profession.
Five minutesA stare, a smile,Five minutes3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In five minutes you can fall in love,
A shout, wrong words,
In five minutes you may die,
Start to feel the hate,
Or maybe say a lie,
Do you see now?
Do you believe me how?
Only five minutes to destroy it all,
Only five minutes to let it fall.
In five minutes your whole life can simply shatter,
As mine, believe me now,
I'm about to explain you how,
To tell you a story about my soul,
About only five minutes,
Only five minutes to destroy it all,
Only five minutes to let it fall.
In five minutes my world has been destroyed,
In five minutes he erased my smile,
That I tried to make real by a while,
In five minutes he came back,
Made in my heart one more crack,
Only five minutes to destroy it all,
Only five minutes to let it fall.
In five minutes a soul can be smashed,
The "so loved" one, or the "best friend" can be trashed,
In five minutes you can lose your mind,
Give up on your dreams,
Pretend to be blind,
In five minutes your memories c