ScarsStanding in the showerScars2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Skin turning redder
I stay still and soak it in
This water won't erase my sins
Scars stand out bright white
Burns and cuts all in sight
The real scars cannot be seen
They reside inside of me
I wonder if all I will be
is a creature scarred eternally?
Thank You, Dear FriendsWhy am I still hereThank You, Dear Friends2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I should be down
On the ground
Curled up in a ball
Feeling nothing but pain
Why are they still here
All of my friends
Surrounding me each day
Did I do something
To deserve to have them
I don't think so
But I am glad they are here
For without them
I would most certainly be broken
Thank you dear friends
For not turning your backs on me
Even when I am in my darkest hour
Swing life awayGoodbye my dear old friendSwing life away2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How I wished it did not have to end
How we laughed and sang
Together with the whole gang
Goodbye my dear friend
How I wished that changes that now impend
How we once compared our scars
How we once gazed at the lone stars
Goodbye my friend
How we stood together till the end
How our days were filled with laughter and joy
How you made fun of me being a mama’s boy
Our time was not misspend
We will meet again one day
And we shall swing life away
numbersi can watch the shadows shake like my muscles jump and my neurons laugh at the taste, but i'm not sure we agreed to stay and the monster beneath my skin is begging for delay.numbers2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
i might give it all just a little more time to settle but the next step is explaining to four why twenty-one is crying and seventeen has angry smiles and eighteen is dangling from the rope, engorged with pills, and choking.
something about burning but twenty-one, twenty, and nineteen all love the fire. they all hate the lighter after seventeen, but who knew?
sixteen is confused and tired of playing puppet and fifteen is still trying to find the easiest slice.
fourteen keeps her eyes open but can't accept anything is different, but the way they stopped eating after thirteen is noticeable and someone else's cancer is going to find those missing pounds.
they jumped inside her veins, but that's exactly why she tried to cut them out, and twelve sees forty-two as the end and doesn't know if hiding from him works
InsomniaWaking in the dead of nightInsomnia2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wondering about my life
All the things I've left undone
How did things go so wrong
I lay here drenched in sweat
Haunted by the old regrets
Trying to stay awake
Frightened by my dreamscape
Stay up until the dawn
Go to work with face drawn
I struggle on through the day
People curiously glance my way
I finally make my way home
Wait for the cycle to go on
FightThe fight of the lifeFight2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The life of the fight
You’ll die tonight
I’ll die tomorrow
You lost your fight
I've gained my sorrow
What doesn't kill us makes us stronger
As time goes by we’re getting older
But we’re getting weaker everyday
In those battles we lost our strength
We fear ourselves cause we are monsters
Though we'll shine brighter than the solstice
And we are beautiful in horrific way
But still getting weaker everyday
We fight because we love
We love that’s why we fight
We will remain in shining glory
In the name of war and endless sorrow
And we’ll be fighting for immortal life
Fighting till the end, until we all die…
DancerDancer in my mindDancer2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You used to dance so beautifully
You now spend your days sitting there
Dismantling my life
Why can’t you just stop?
Let things go back to how they were?
Well, I can’t handle you anymore
Destroying me from within
So I am telling you now
Today is the day I let you go
Go dance your magical dance
Somewhere other than here
For you are no longer welcome
Goodbye, dear Dancer
Live Joyously with someone else
Silent LoveI see through the windows of your soulSilent Love2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And although the silence has never been broken
And the words have never been spoken
Your eyes tell me all.
I never did feel as comfortable as I did with you
I know you felt good, too.
I won't forget your eyes open wide
To the beauty of a sunset tide.
When I needed you, you were always by my side
In the dark you were my guide
The best friend I could have,
You always had me in awe.
But your eyes, they warned me that friendship is all you could give,
I never thought you wouldn't forgive.
Now I spill my sorrow in room of black
But that won't bring you back.
The silence has been broken
And the words have been spoken
There are bars of steel on windows
And your eyes are telling me nothing at all.
Dreaming of YouEvery night I dream of youDreaming of You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
wishing upon a star
that you were here for real
Every night I lay in bed
a dream so wonderful
cause you are in it
I dream of being with you
to grow old together
a day never apart
only you are in my thoughts
A feeling so wonderful
it is in my heart
the love that grows
stronger each day
Every night I think of you
our love is for real
you are always here
I dream of happiness
being with you all the time
a dream so magical
that everything seem so real
you are here with me
keeping me safe
throughout the night
After all it is just a dream
but I promise you
that one day it will be real
So for now I will just dream
of seeing you in sight
cause some day it will happen
that you will be in my arms
SoulsPure thought and emotion,Souls3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Existing only to live,
After a troubled death.
Unable to store memories,
They wander without destination,
Beings whose only experiences,
Were created in the past.
Sometimes they are trapped,
A single moment in time.
Most find peace, however,
And cease to subsist.
With or Without YouYou have been standing there behind this glass for a long timeWith or Without You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I see you standing there, wanting to be free
Wanting to be free from your own situations
I see you waiting there for me to return
Nothing more than an emotionless face
Just starring there, a glare of emptiness
Now, only if I can make a smile
Only if you can believe me that I still care about you
Only if you can believe me that try my best to cherish you
Only if you can believe me that we can make this work
Look deep, down in your heart
There is pain that you have
Pain that is unbearable but you still carry it
But it is neither a pain of misery nor a pain of sadness
It is a pain of missing, to be without
It can't be irreplaceable
All you have is hope, hope that something will change
A burden to be lifted, no let it be found by joy and richness of others around you
To be fulfill with me
So I put my hand the glass, gently yours comes up too
I feel that you are so close but yet so far away
Looking at your long black hair, your
AnxietyIcy fingers in my aching gutAnxiety2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Throat swelling completely shut
I lay shake and leak out tears
Unable to escape my fears
I don't even know what they are
The things that have driven me this far
I hold my hand to the burning incense
My only solace in pain intense
The cracking flesh relieves my mind
Helps my anxiety to unwind
Dear MoonNothing is worseDear Moon2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Than when you are new
The night is so vapid
Without that delicate light
Being cast upon us
But it's not so bad
At least, not anymore
For now i have someone
That reminds me of your allure
When you are absent from the sky
I long for your return
So maybe you'll return the favor
And remind me of her
because i have toimpaledbecause i have to2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
& wreaking havoc on these
more than endorphins &
planes out of control
pretending that if
instilled in bedsheets
L.O.V.E.L.O.V.E.L.O.V.E.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It swallows you whole,
Exceeds your control.
Apprehends your soul,
Until it has taken its toll.
It’s an overwhelming feeling.
That is made to be appealing
And you can’t help revealing,
The doubts you are concealing.
It’s an undefined dimple
And a well known jingle.
But only when you are single
Does it all seem so simple.
It is one of life’s many gifts,
That empowers and uplifts
And can lead you adrift.
Should you miss your shift.
It is impossible to describe it.
It is impossible to fight it.
Because once it is ignited
And once you have tried it.
It will take your independence.
You will become used to its presence.
You will become addicted to its essence
And include it at the end of your every sentence.
It exists even in the hearts of its haters.
It is a taste even they will savour
And although its duration wavers.
There will never be a feeling that is greater.
Everything I have said and more.
I am merely repeating what you already know.
Obsession -AkuRoku poem-The sea-salt dripsObsession -AkuRoku poem-3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
off those soft pink lips
All I do is stare
but pass it off as a glare
His green eyes glare back
and my mind goes black
I undress him with my eyes
and hold back deep sighs
He talks but I don't hear
I just look on with fear
because this confession
could ruin my obsession
He stands and starts to walk
I grab his arm "Can we talk?"
He nods his head and I start
"Axel, I love you, even if I have no heart."
His green eyes open in shock
but then he leans forward til our lips lock
and now my obsession
has a new profession.
A GODDESSA GoddessA GODDESS2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
full of beauty
full of grace
full of love
full of kindness
full of good
full of pureness
radiant like the sun
warm like summer
shining like the stars
smooth like silk
sparkling like the stars
dazzling like the blue ocean
sweet like music
enchanting like a symphony
divine like the world
eternal like the universe.
is a Goddess
always and forever.
Copyright © 2012 by Philip Brocklehurst
All Rights Reserved
the clockwork liari. we dusted dreams off people like the first snowflakes of the season. you'd take one and rest it on the center of your tongue because you hated the taste of ice cream and wanted to reset what cold tasted like to you.the clockwork liar2 years ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
you taught me that the cold could be bitter, and so could people's dreams.
you drank out of out-of-order wells because you believed they still worked and that the government was keeping it all to itself.
i never realized how insane you made me before i wrote this all down.
ii. i wished on the sun because i ran out of shooting stars.
and just to spite me, you began wishing on raindrops because you believed that they were so many, one of them was bound to remember you.
but we both ended up laughing hysterically with protruding knives on a bloodstained floor, didn't we?
iii. i talked to clockwork towers and told them to lie because if they stopped for just a while, all the time in the world would seize.
one human, two human
Quietly, GentlyShy smiles and fluttering butterflies,Quietly, Gently2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
My heart would beat faster when I looked into your eyes.
Even then, as I held you warmly in my arms,
Every word you said put me under your charm.
Dozing off, I sent you a little smile.
And told you that it’s fine to fall asleep for a while.
When you awoke, the sun was setting for its own time to sleep.
So I pulled you close and breathed in so deep.
Quietly, in the dark, I slowly fell in love.
Gently in my arms, I called you my little dove.
unfortunate habitI have an unfortunate habitunfortunate habit3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
of pressing my fingers to my wrist;
or the soft warm spot in my neck
between the taut tendon and the rigid hardness
of the laryngeal prominence.
I think; although I am not sure
that I do this
to feel the steady thump the blood thrum
the flow the beat the never ceasing flicker of life
It reminds me.
It reminds me that I still function
that in all these broken parts
there is something that still works
something that operates the way it should
the way textbooks say it should and white coats say it should
and that I really am here
with the flutter of my blood in my veins
And then I remember.
This rhythm, this song
played through the neck of a little girl.
the acoustics were better in those days
A little girl, just six, seven maybe?
And I say to her
my dearest little starry-eyed girl
my hopeful little self with my hopeful little bobcut
I'm sorry. I am so, so sorry.
And life flickers on through both of us.
Screaming SomethingThere was something about your eyesScreaming Something2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That just screamed “Save me!”
If you could only just scream out to.
Everyone to save you from.
There are just so many to save you
From. How I wish I could help.
I tried to look in your eyes and say to you
“Trust me! I can’t stand watching you hate it!
I could never stand watching you hate me!”
But your eyes went blank; I could see how
You stopped to look, no longer searching,
And you glared at me, knowing that I couldn’t
Look at you.
Broken, you watch as my heart is broken,
With a blank face and screaming eyes.
Painful words slither out of your mouth’s
Barely open like the tears that wanted to
Stream down your face, while you scream
Out your hate for the world, instead you
Mutter your hate for me, and I scream instead.
Broken pleas are all I can hear.
Broken MirrorBroken MirrorBroken Mirror3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Looking at yourself
From a broken mirror
That jagged crack
Holds your deepest fears
Where nobody cares
And you're all alone
And no one can hear
Your cries, your moans
You judge who you are
With that rigid line
Your doubts, your faults
Are not hard to find
You've lost all hope
In believing again
Lose trust in your dreams
Trust in your friends
You destroy your life
Because of that crack
But along the way
You lose things you cannot get back
Focus on the things
The mirror still shows
Your smile, your heart
Because everyone knows
The mirror only broke
Because you expected
Because you had no faith
In the mirror you selected
ReconciliationHis brief passingReconciliation3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Left a residue,
Adhesive as water droplets
Whose surface tensions release,
Allowing them to trickle
Over a solid, smooth surface.
But I am overwhelmed
By its emotive trigger,
Absorbed by my very constitution.
Out pours its consequence:
Sweat I can't blot,
Stinging my eyes,
Salting my lips,
No matter how often
My hands smear it across my face.
Plans for change
To clot his effect
Seem so futile
When my breath stinks of beer
How easily I fathomed Lady Rebirth
Only one day before.
She stares me down the following morning
A whispered rebuke
Though it summons blood to my cheeks
And steals my breath
As though I were struck.
She leaves me to swallow my failure alone
And feel its festering pains
In my abdomen.
I take to pen and paper,
A reminder to honor her
When faced with temptation.
The burden unwittingly lifted
By its record.