Bits of Nothing 61On paper you're perfect.Bits of Nothing 615 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Isn't it a shame the world isn't made of origami?
TerrorYou canTerror4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Bits of Nothing 145When I feel alone I like to think about the people who mean something to meBits of Nothing 1455 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
like my mum and my dad
and that man whose only role in my life
is to be the person that I walk past every morning at twenty to six
and I imagine we both wonder where each other are going
(sometimes when he's not there I worry about him)
and sometimes at night I walk down the middle of the road
to see if a car will hit me and it never has yet
but I don't think I'll do that anymore
because I'm going to learn to drive soon and I can't stop imagining
how I'd feel if I was the person in the car.
When I was thirteen I used to stand on the tips of my toes
at the edges of bridges and sway
and imagine how it would feel when I hit the ground
and wonder if anyone would be able to fix me afterwards
(OK so it was only one bridge, one time, but it made me feel powerful for a second, like I was in control of my life or something)
Once you told me you thought broken heads could be fixed like broken legs
like you thought you co
Bits of NothingI don't remember what I was going to write but I know that it was succinct and beautiful and it summed up exactly how I feel with the necessary number of words and it wasn't fanciful or over the top or pretentious and now, dream-like, it's gone and I'll never be able to find it again.Bits of Nothing5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Instead, all I have is this and it's everything I didn't want it to be.
I Will Not Tell LiesAfter the fifth beerI Will Not Tell Lies3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
she would always
start to speak truths
and they said,
'You shouldn't drink beer,'
but they meant
'You shouldn't speak truths,'
and they would watch her slowly refill her glass.
Bits of Nothing 85I honestly can't remember ever having a week as happy as the one I've just hadBits of Nothing 855 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and you didn't start being in my life again until the seventh day.
I've come to a very important realisation:
I don't need you
I want you
and there is a beautiful and comforting difference between those two statements.
Bits of Nothing 158You told me you loved me onceBits of Nothing 1585 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but didn't remember saying it
because you were high on anti-depressants
and somebody else's perfume
but I remember
carrying you when you couldn't carry yourself
and holding him when I couldn't hold you.
Later I asked if you would have done what you did
if I hadn't done it first.
I think it was the most honest thing you ever said to me when you answered
"I don't know."
You invited me to her room afterwards.
I don't know if it was some kind of perverted humour
(you wanted us to be friends)
but I couldn't stay long
(did I ever tell you I'm allergic to perfume?)
Bruises are like magnets
(they're attracted to each other)
but they heal perfectly well on their own.
Bits of Nothing 95Last year was about holding onto things so hard that they started to break.Bits of Nothing 955 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
This year is about learning that everything doesn't fall apart around me if I let go.
Bits of Nothing 45Shit. This is real isn't it?Bits of Nothing 455 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Bits of Nothing 97You said that leaving me wasBits of Nothing 975 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
one of the biggest mistakes of your life
and that means a lot because
you've done some really stupid things.
Bits of Nothing 7I fell asleep crying on your floor last night and you didn't notice because you were fast asleep.Bits of Nothing 75 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I only came here because you said I wouldn't dare go home alone and you knew it would work
because you know that is what I fear the most.
If anything was going to convince me of the existance of god then it would be the existance of you.
Maybe, just maybe, you were made in his/her/its image
and somehow they managed to fuck up just a little bit when they made everybody else.
Note to SelfPeople aren't always either in a relationship or looking for love.Note to Self5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Some people never find love.
Some never even look for it.
Maybe this is obvious.
Maybe I'm just being an idiot.
(I envy the ones that don't look but find it anyway.)
Bits of Nothing 153I don't like cities and I don't like trainsBits of Nothing 1535 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but I like travelling.
I like people in text form
because I can switch them off or put them away if it gets too much.
I wish I could close my eyes and melt and be wherever I want to be
and I can
but when I open them I find I haven't moved.
I want to buy a boat
but not a big boat because big boats are scary.
(How do they stay above the water?)
I want a kayak
with two seats
because I'm not strong enough to row against the current on my own
(I'm working on it)
but I don't want to steer
I just want to drift
and I need to know there's someone there who can bring us back to shore.
I wouldn't even if I had the strength
because I'm far too attracted to the idea of drifting forever.
By the time I realise I'm just a tiny canoe on an unending sea it might be too late
and death by drowning is what my second seat is there to save me from.
ToddThere was a big fanfare when Todd came back. Even a couple of newspaper reporters showed up. It was only right I guess, what with him being dead for a year. At least I think it was a year. I mean, he was gone for eight and I'm pretty sure if a person is missing for seven years the government declares them dead or something. I know that his parents bought a tombstone from the place on First Street a while ago. They put it up in their family lot at the cemetery, next to his grandparents. I went to visit it after the funeral. It had his name and a little inscription. They left the dates off though. After that they took him off the missing persons list too. I know because I used to check it.Todd3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I'll bet that everyone was real pissed when they found out the truth. He got into town on Tuesday but nobody said a word until Friday. Then on Satur
ISLNDSyou like the wayISLNDS4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the i slants,
in a sea
in cropped crests
made to full-
in lost chests.
now a motive
and proceed greedily,
the leap's froth;
breath is only
as sweet as the
speech that breeds thought.
Bits of Nothing 43I think it's my fear of deep water that makes me love the sea so much.Bits of Nothing 435 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
SuperimposeHe doesn't look like a gymnast. He's all button down shirts and frazzled grey hair framing wire spectacles, a picture perfect professorial archetype down to the very tips of his frayed shoelaces. But he was a gymnast once, or so he tells us, and I believe him because he smiles like he knows something while he's chatting before class.Superimpose4 years ago in Sketches More Like This
It's strange to see that image superimposed over the current one the distinguished professor in pressed khaki slacks and a jacket, worn brown loafers exuding a faintly courteous manner (you can always tell them by their shoes), and a ring on the fourth finger of his left hand versus the athletic kid who went to college for a semester and grew nine inches too tall to keep doing what he loved so he took up a tennis racquet instead. Gymnasts don't wear suit jackets; no steel mill worker has such manicured nails. But the images are all there, flickering just under the surface and bubbling up again when he's recounting stories about his days in Pi
Bits of Nothing 49I'm heartbrokenBits of Nothing 495 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
or just broken.
I haven't decided which yet,
but just you wait till I'm fixed.
Bits of Nothing 157I tried to write a poem about mountains but when I looked at the page all I could see was 'you' crossed out seventeen timesBits of Nothing 1575 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and a jumble of nonsense that pretended to be about trees and flowers.
An Androgynous BeingWe sat and watched the tide go outAn Androgynous Being5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and time changed meaning.
It felt like we were watching a documentary
in slow motion
and I was David Attenborough
finding fascination in survival techniques.
But everything seemed to happen out of time
when we were looking the other way
(or at each other)
and I wondered which was more beautiful;
the way the sunlight bounced off the water
or the particles that made up your face
and then I realised that everything is just light
organised in different ways.
I've become fascinated by gradual processes
and hair growth
and falling in love.
Some are irreversible and some are perpetual and most are unavoidable
but I've noticed that they only happen if you aren't watching.
(Maybe I need to learn to look away.)
I went back to the harbour today on my own.
The river looked like a river this time
and it was surreal to think that the sand bank had become the sea bed.
I wondered if the gulls' footsteps had been preserved in the mud to document their que
Bits of Nothing 152I want to meet someone who loves the idea of a girl who scribbles bits of nothing on scraps of paper with highlighter pens.Bits of Nothing 1525 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want to meet someone who sees beauty in the awkward angles of my limbs.
I want to meet someone who notices that my gaze always falls a little lower than everyone else's eyes, and that when I raise them it means I'm really passionate about something.
I want to meet someone who isn't ashamed of being quiet when they don't have anything to say.
Most of all, I want all of these qualities not to belong to the same person otherwise they would be too perfect and I wouldn't know what to do with myself.
I want to meet someone who isn't in love with the idea of being in love.