I Can't Sleep.Jealousy overtakes me
To the point where I can’t breathe
But I don’t want to breathe
I’m filled with hate
And I don’t want to be
But I am
And it helps me breathe.
My love is the fuel
To this fire
And for the sake of love
Get me to see the truth
I know the truth
But I can’t think
Emotions never cared about logic
I scream to myself
It has to be me
No one else can help me
I’m stuck in denial
Like a paradox
Now I think I’m okay
But I’m not.
Why can’t I see what you mean?
Why can’t I hear your words?
Why can’t I believe?
Open my eyes…
Make me breathe
In your words
And forget my own
I say to myself.
Life of a fallen angelI am a fallen angel,Life of a fallen angel10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I fell from the skies of
and landed on Hell.
I was lost,
until I met you,
you were a perfect weapon
You and I were unbroken,
we even decided to
set the world on fire.....
Until the day betrayed
I was so upset that
I even lost my wings,
In the end I realised
that you were using me,
and for that I will never
let you seal my coffin.
I hope you remember
my last goodbye,
because that is the last
good memory you will
I hope you burn in your home,
in the fires of Hell.
Silent LoveI see through the windows of your soulSilent Love9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
And although the silence has never been broken
And the words have never been spoken
Your eyes tell me all.
I never did feel as comfortable as I did with you
I know you felt good, too.
I won't forget your eyes open wide
To the beauty of a sunset tide.
When I needed you, you were always by my side
In the dark you were my guide
The best friend I could have,
You always had me in awe.
But your eyes, they warned me that friendship is all you could give,
I never thought you wouldn't forgive.
Now I spill my sorrow in room of black
But that won't bring you back.
The silence has been broken
And the words have been spoken
There are bars of steel on windows
And your eyes are telling me nothing at all.
Broken AgainI am broken, okay?Broken Again10 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I'm just broken again
And I'm falling apart
Like the night turns to day
Every sunrise that comes
Every war lost or won
I lose more every day
And the fight's never done
I am breaking in two
In this life I will lose
As I can't take the hurt
That keeps scratching on through
I will never again
Call you up to complain
You've done all you can do
But I'm broken again
The Path to NowhereWhen love holds no thrillThe Path to Nowhere10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
and death has no sting,
When your darkest dreams
live in daylight,
If you question your character
and find yourself lacking,
If you collapse at the day's end
and hope it will be your last,
Know that I am here with you,
and the swarmy clouds of night
shed tears on traveled souls,
We are headed for the path
that leads nowhere.
Hold my hand; hold your head.
Walk with me into the lake.
Rapunzel, RapunzelDreaming of her rescueRapunzel, Rapunzel1 month ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Rapunzel sat in her tower
Day after day
And hour after hour
Her hope washed away
As the days turned to years
Her cheeks every day
Were dampened with tears
And so Rapunzel let down her hair
From her prison finally free
Her lovely corpse hanging
From her hair for all to see
The GiftBlessed are we for all our worksThe Gift10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
even if only one is heard
purely, that it might inspire
the written word of another's fire.
For from the lips words oft taste sweet,
alas, like fragments, left incomplete.
Though the heart they truly warm,
'tis by a new creation born
when love is shared and love returned,
the infinite flame—the soul—doth burn.
All is FairIt hurts to be close,All is Fair8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
kills to stay away-
this war inside me
is waged every day.
both love and decay-
I'm so torn apart...
more than I can say.
Deep within my heart
I'm lost and confused-
I try hard not to
feel I've been used.
I poured out my soul
yet I've been refused-
can't shake the fact that
my love was abused.
It's much like being
punctured with a knife-
such pain can only
be described as rife.
Yet I still hold out
for a decent wife-
a needle girl
in my haystack life.
I know this issue
is far from unique-
I know I've yet to
reach my highest peak.
I know that I'll find
the answers I seek-
yet I see reason
for me to stay meek...
The age-old belief
that life isn't fair
can still be applied
to love and warfare.
Last ChanceI love you,Last Chance9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
More than you know.
But your love for me,
Is only a show.
I’ll never understand,
What keeps me coming back.
Though you’re good with words,
You’re completely void of tact.
It must mean something,
That I still want you.
No matter what happens,
No matter what you do.
I think about you constantly,
I dream of you at night.
I’m ashamed of the images,
My mind conjures even in the light.
I’ve never said the words,
But you should know how I feel.
Do I actually need to say it,
For you to know it’s real?
Do you love me?
As I do you?
Are we both just too stubborn,
To say what is true?
I guess it’s time,
After all of these years.
To get on with it,
And conquer my fears.
I’m done being your ‘friend’,
The girl that you use.
If I voice my feelings,
Maybe I won’t lose.
So here goes nothing,
My chance at last.
It’s time for me to say it,
Or put you in the past.
It’s harder than I thought,
But maybe you feel it, too
A Lover's GemFor you my heart always yearns,A Lover's Gem10 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
like a burning amethyst deep within.
You're the jewel kindling in my eyes,
revealing oracles of true love again.
Among your light chestnut skin,
my soul embraces your luring smile.
Breaking every faint touch of doubt,
I drift in your essence for a while.
You're the sensuous oriental breath
that keeps me warm in the night.
You're the vibrant gleaming star
that helps me through life's flight.
You're the sweetest taste of rain
that one could ever hope to see.
You're that exclusive kind of gem
that means all the world to me.
HerBeneath twisted vines of exceptional lies, exists a simplistic immortal who dares not speak.Her10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Her covered eyes release an echo, one that frightens and silences the weak.
And why dost thou hide from her in the clouds, is it to bypass her howls and shrieks?
Is your fear that condensed, must you avoid her being, or are you simply one of the weak?
It does not matter, not anymore, for her immortality is dominance; thou art no more.
On a Shadow It occurred to me thatOn a Shadow11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
By a shadow's reckoning
I am the one that is cast.
And while his wakefulness
Is measured by the duration of the light
When we next meet I will have aged
And his emptiness is immortal.
Still our lives are so entwined
That we will wink out of existence together,
Swallowed by the greatest shadow of all.
Love Is...Love Is…Love Is...8 months ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Love is patient, love is kind, it does not boast, it does not envy,
It does not delight in evil; but with the truth it does revel in
Love isn’t proud, it isn’t dishonorable, it doesn’t record right or wrongs, nor is it self-seeking,
It always protects, it always hopes, it will always carry on despite oppositions
Love, when it is true, will never fail you or me,
It will take two beings and form them into one,
Love will always conquer evil, no matter the circumstances
It will live on forever and ever, it will never be done
Love lives on through children, and their children’s children; this is why it will forever stay in existence
It is a smile on a child’s little face; it is the protective holding of hands between siblings
Love is a warm embrace between a daughter and her mother
It is tried, it is true, and it is unwavering
Love is a son playing catch with his father
It is most of all real, and I feel everyone can have th
This Darling ImageDear,This Darling Image4 months ago in Letters More Like This
I've spent the past three days trying to think of what to give you while pacing back and forth across well worn paths of intricate weaves in the carpet. I had all sorts of terrible ideas, and that was frustrating till I thought about how you would, without hesitation of a question accept each one, as the worst of my apologies have always become legitimate wishes once they reach you.
Then, when the rain stopped and I pulled the curtain back to peek out of the window, I saw teardrops (yes, teardrops from the sky) on a rose. It was poetry, and you. It was poetry and like the most aptly spoken, delicate and fragile words, you are poetry. There's only one thing of any worth that I can give to you. So now I give you every word I've ever known, you deserve these words so that they tell your story and introduce the sound of you to the universe. You've given me hope, so let me give you the ability to travel endless miles of open air and stimulate the h
Distant AdmirersWe stare at each otherDistant Admirers10 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
through a crystal screen,
eyes set in a yearning gaze.
And in the solemn hour
we relentlessly dream,
imagining that very day...
When we finally meet
in an authentic embrace,
finding each other's heart.
In the midst of a kiss
with a honeysuckle taste,
never wandering apart.
But until the time arrives
to break past the blue,
we'll continue to dream.
Forever pondering o'er
the presence of you
beyond the crystal screen.
MaybeJust give me one dream that isn't see-through.Maybe9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
One substantiated claim to reality,
that I might hold onto life with.
Every quivering cell, mid-osmosis, begs you
for a shred of dignity with my tea.
Just one chance for something heavy,
something hard and room temperature. Real.
I don't want to look through my day dreams
and see someone else's face there.
I don't want to dream of those people
who may make, or break me, in the future tense.
I am tired of milky white and reflective black.
It is time for a life of colour and hope -
and not looking back to see if the past
matches up with the jigsaw map to the end game.
I want to be in the game, participating,
feeling, like I might make it there one day.
Just give me something, that I can hold onto;
something harder to see through than a whisper
of that voice in the back of my mind that says
SilenceWords never spoken,Silence11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Screams never heard.
Whimpers never noticed,
Tears never cured.
Scars carved by silence,
Forming words unspoken.
Forever I will be
Just nearly broken.
I will never give in,
Though hanging by a thread.
I will never give up,
Though my life has been shred.
With words known,
But not ever spoken,
I will never be
2 Cold 2 BleedOn frozen nights when it is too cold to bleed,2 Cold 2 Bleed4 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
Those are the times I am afraid to dream.
When conversation brings unwanted memories,
Tears flowing in streams until I can finally breathe.
The truth is that getting over things
Is what I do best sometimes it seems.
But how the sun shines when he speaks to me!
And I find myself wanting to know everything.
I want to look through his eyes, to see what he sees,
I want to know if he ever thinks about me.
In the end though, I shyly retreat.
I can't allow him into my reality.
I know I could love him, most certainly.
But we all know what happens...
when someone is loved by me.
SlaughterhouseLots of people in the herd,Slaughterhouse1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
fed daily by illusions.
Rotten, sick, intoxicated, unaware.
They compensate dreaming,
justifying a false care.
by voluntary victims.
The massacre takes place now.
Objects without owner
marching in fast rhythm,
to be marked just like cows.
Shadow KissShadow Kiss10 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Red lipstick stains her windowpane
She’s unbeknownst to lovers' eyes.
Although her soul may ache with pain
One wonders why she never cries.
Her lips they trace a victims face
She’s torn her heart out like a weed.
Although her body rips like lace
One wonders why she doesn’t bleed.
Nightfall beckons her weary mind
She plays in shadows amongst the creeps.
Although the truth she cannot find
One wonders why she never sleeps.
She breathes in a flutter of nervous lust
While her amber skin presses onto him.
To whom the one she can entrust?
Then sadness breaks her body’s whim.
Something is stirring deep down inside
An impression left by the one she fears.
No longer empowered by selfish pride
Confound to why she sheds these tears.
The tears, they dry upon her cheeks
This unknown feeling fatigues her so.
Along with fuchsia blush, it streaks
Apart from which no one can know.
She shakes off despair with a whip of her hair
Then in her chest, there awakens a beat.
SugarI fell in love with the girl inside my headSugar9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm taken in by her sugar kisses and hands like fire
Her oiled spring hair and button up boots
The rivets of sweat on her back that stick leather seats
A cream colored dress that loses it's buttons in the back of my car
The sound of my name and old music through diner doors
I'm prisoner to her invisible smile
Peeling away clothes that become ash in my fingers
Something real once
As hot as fire and as free as air
Crushed together in a bathroom stall
Trying to touch a ghost inside my head
Reaching to taste the liquor on her candy colored lips
The curves of her waist and the scent of her
I'm in love with the girl inside my head
She's just a splash of ink on story book pages
A cloud in my day-dream sky
The angel-dust girl
Stuck inside my head
LostLost.Lost11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am lost.
I have no direction.
I'm falling into a universe,
An alternate reality.
I am trapped.
That never stop.
Inside those cycles,
I'm Your Worn Out DollYou whisper you love me and will never let go,I'm Your Worn Out Doll11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
But the future happens to show,
Both of us covered in blood drawn by a knife.
Have you tried to count every promise you will break in your life?
Every word that you've said that meant nothing after the smoke cleared,
And you have seemed to veer,
Away from me as I have predicted.
It seems as if you have gotten addicted,
To throwing me in the back round, pulling me out when I am needed.
Every word you've pleaded,
To me will not help the fact I feel like a worn out doll.
I now know better then to fall,
Into the words and phrases you've said to everyone and have memorized...
It's as if they are imprinted,
In your delicate thing you call a brain.
But never ever ever again,
Will I fall for such words that mean nothing.
Please excuse me as I seek words and actions that mean something.
Dead at 16My worries are a reservoirDead at 1611 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Her worries are a lake
In that they’re very real indeed
Whereas mine are very fake
Invented to seek attention
Lies, oh despicable lies
One day I’ll drown in metaphors
Please be sure to sympathise
But while you show me this concern
Who'll be looking out for her
Blood curdling screams from my mouth
She is nil by mouth and verse
I have cried wolf so many times
She can’t even cry her own tears
My lies are spun in silk cobwebs
My spinneret shrouding your ears
I spoon fed you daily doses
So it was easier to digest
I planted those seeds of sorrow
Your fertile mind did the rest
Lies, all those despicable lies
What ever could be more obscene
Perhaps a girl that no one heard
Who was found dead at age sixteen
L.O.V.E.L.O.V.E.L.O.V.E.9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
It swallows you whole,
Exceeds your control.
Apprehends your soul,
Until it has taken its toll.
It’s an overwhelming feeling.
That is made to be appealing
And you can’t help revealing,
The doubts you are concealing.
It’s an undefined dimple
And a well known jingle.
But only when you are single
Does it all seem so simple.
It is one of life’s many gifts,
That empowers and uplifts
And can lead you adrift.
Should you miss your shift.
It is impossible to describe it.
It is impossible to fight it.
Because once it is ignited
And once you have tried it.
It will take your independence.
You will become used to its presence.
You will become addicted to its essence
And include it at the end of your every sentence.
It exists even in the hearts of its haters.
It is a taste even they will savour
And although its duration wavers.
There will never be a feeling that is greater.
Everything I have said and more.
I am merely repeating what you already know.