He plagues my mind
Every night before I go to bed
I think of him
And I have this greasy feeling
Pooling in the pit of my stomach
It makes me sick
I feel tainted
I've ruined myself
I've ruined him
I want to die
I don’t tell anyone what happened
But they already know
I can't sleep
I can’t breathe
My chest hurts too much
It’s my heart
I think it’s broken
no one is ever going to want memaybe onceno one is ever going to want me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
this would've been
but i'm crying &
my face is scrunched
like a red rag
in the sink
slumped beneath a leaky
my hands are shaking
maybe i could make
but what i have
you won't like
and do you want them too?
stealing & paying
pressing bottles and
pictures to my sternum
maybe it's the silence
the tumult of words down
the sink and
across the floor
the empty heads
i was pretty then
bird-legs and stilted poems
numbering stars and
crushing books between
but no not today
i'm a husk
waiting for everything
to destroy me
to prick a hole
start an earthquake
Hand On Your HeartHand on your heart, heart on your sleeveHand On Your Heart2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Can you say to me
When we’re apart you still believe
We are meant to be
Even if you say the words
I long so much to hear
I want to be sure
So tell me once more
Hand on your heart
Secret CrushYou'll never seeSecret Crush7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the tears I cry
when you are away.
You'll never know how
much I feel about you.
I'll never know if you feel
the same way about me.
I'll never know your
tender touch upon my skin.
I'll never be able to hear
your sweet voice on the phone.
I'll always hold a special place
in my heart for you.
Yet you'll never be able to hug
me when I need someone to
You are always so sweet to me
and I love your gentle spirit.
Yet you'll still never know how
much seeing you gone makes
me ache inside.
How much all the words you say
to me were real. How each emotion
I wish were true.
I want you to be happy but I know deep
inside I'll never be happy with you.
Beth Akins 9:21 PM 2/10/2008
A WishIn your arms i layA Wish2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
loved and loving
Siting upon your lap as a
queen upon her throne
Thinking of the morning while
im awakening with your kiss
Seeing the winter rays of
light never comparing to the
gleam in your eyes
Like sitting uner the willow
tree where the moonlit
night lights up with fallen satrs
And you wish, oh how you
wish, for me to forever saty
in your loving embrace
To always kiss, oh to always
kiss, the lips of your beatiful
And oh how your words, your
romantic words, just make my
Like love you are capturing
my heart, forever belonging to
your loving desire
Like in a lullaby these words,
our lives, are strung together
like a song
And our lyrics, are our
actions for this romantic
Then you ask me,
Bringing me out of my thoughts,
That on this moonlit star fallen night,
Where are hearts finally come together,
What is my wish
Thinking I do not have a wish,
because already mine has come true
To find the one that truly makes me happy...And that i
Remember to BreatheRemember to breathe.Remember to Breathe2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Ignore that extremely small space
Between you and him
That's causing you to blush like mad.
Try not to stare too deeply into his
That seem to call into your internal soul.
Try not to smile too widley.
Remember to actually pay attention to what he's saying rather than zoning out on him.
Because you know that none of this
Is running through his head
And he's actually just making conversation with you
As a friend.
And that's what kills you inside
As you stare into his
CrushCrush:Crush10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You think I just have
a crush on you,
but that's not exactly
I like you more than
you think I do!
Starring at you everythime
listening to everyword
I just want to know
When I know you more,
it will make me feel
I fall asleep at night,
only thinking about you!
You think I'm crazy but
it's because I'm in love with
I Should To Be SheI Should To Be She3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Unconsciously, you're stealing my breath
Sometimes I think I deserve to be with the Holy Death
I can't see how you put your head on her shoulder
I think I should to be she
I need to accept this way
I think I was just trying to hide it
I didn't want to see
But you're still in me
I can't see how you smile to someone else
It's too hard turn around and seems like nothing is happening
And then I remember that I can't have you
Maybe she deserve you
You want me but I love you
It's the true
Your presence here, it's killing me
It's something you can't see.
Your hands are so far away from me
Your heart is not mine
You seems like you try to come
But you only think that I'm here to quiet your cries
Can't you see that you're killing me?
Maybe a new bottle of whiskey help me to forget you
Maybe with a new bottle the amnesia come to me
Maybe with a new bottle, I'm going to think that I am she
Winter HeartWhat should I call you?Winter Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Friend? – Lover? – Enemy?
It doesn’t matter, because
A term is just a word and
Makes no difference to the heart
Whose strings have been plucked
For the last time, left broken and
Discarded on a hospital floor, not
Fit for the transplant unit – and
Not good enough for you.
In the worst way I said
“I think I love you”
You turned away, and I knew that
That was it for us – my heart turned
To ice that day –
Ice which splinters through the
Delicate rose petals, shredding
And destroying what was once
Beautiful and innocent – but roses
Have thorns, and the ice is sometimes release.
Ice which packs the heart in the box,
Ready for the transplant team
To rig up to another body –
Blood infusions and special surgery
To make the heart work again.
From The HeartFrom The Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
From the Heart
Glancing up at the stars
I couldn't help but to think of you from oh so far
Hearing the whistling of passing cars
While sitting alone in an empty bar
Where are you my love?
To make my heart as light as a dove,
And wash away all my fear
No matter how ever so near
With every passing moment
And every single beat
My heart fills with torment
Bringing out an unbearable heat
From being away from you, my beloved
I feel like I fell,
Into the enteral pits of hell
Waiting to be freed again, my lovely Covent
Broken free by a single spell
Caused by the aroma of your smell
Once again you saved me
Giving me, a brand new key
A key, to unlock a hidden side
A hidden side of me that no one else shall ever see
C.R.U.S.H."C" is for the Christian that he is; how Charming and Cute he isC.R.U.S.H.8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"R" is for the Rush in my heartbeat everytime is see, hear,
or think of him and Realize that it is him that is miss
"U" is for the Unconditional caring and love we have for each other
"S" is for the Satifaction I feel knowing that one day we will be
"H" is for the Humbleness we have for each other and how we know
we would be fit for no other
Yeah I got a CRUSH, and its a big one too. I mean all I seem to think
about is me and you.
As the days pass I begin to wonder, when the day will come for you to
be my lover.
Let It GoIts becoming too much to bearLet It Go2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Too hard to listen
Too hard to share
Its becoming too much to accept
Too soon for reflection
Too soon for effect
Its becoming increasingly crystal and clear
Shes made her decision
Shes no longer here
AloneAlone3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When you feel that your chest is full with a lot of feelings without names, when your heart is only beating thanks the pain.
Take a breath, clean the tears, draws a smile on your pretty face, show that you are stronger than their comments, than what they think, or than what they could do against you.
It's hard, I know it. You don't need to say me, I already know it. I've been doing it for a long time.
But if I can fight against everything, even when I don't have a reason to live, I know, I'm sure, that you can do it.
Smile, you're NOT alone
Be an Original, Like MeBe an Original, Like MeBe an Original, Like Me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Every day it’s the same…
“Be original, don’t let others tell you what to do,”
But how can I do that if you’re the one molding me?
“Stand tall and proud of who you are, be independent.”
But how can I be independent when you force dependence on me?
“Be proud of your heritage and culture, show it off.”
Unless I embarrass you, then you want me to bury it down but if
YOU ask “Hey can you be like them? Act like that, dance like that?”
I’ll say “Yes some stereotypes are true, but most are false.”
“Be feminine, be graceful like a swan,”
How can I be a swan when I’m in a family of wolves?
“Be a modern age woman, get a job.”
Yet you want me to be a housewife, cooking and cleaning, never leaving the kitchen.
“Tell me the truth, lies burn your soul,”
But truths burn deeper and destroy the soul
“I’ve never lied to you, you can trust
~Trip through Time~~Trip through Time~~Trip through Time~2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If I only had the strength,
Would you realize that I'm gone,
If I only had the courage,
To tell you that you're wrong,
If I only had the confidence,
To move on from our past,
Would you love me differently,
If my past reviels myself,
Take my hand, and walk with me,
We'll Take a trip back from destiny,
We'll search the past; for the reasons so,
A never ending path, that I want you to know,
On our journey, from past to past,
Discovering each others lifes,
Would you think of me differently,
If you lived through my life,
Tell me what true love means,
Show me how it really feels,
Introduce me to that feeling,
As it all feels unreal,
Could you handle my past life,
Would you still accept me now,
If everything was a flashback reel,
Would you still feel the same; right now,
Walk through time and the road we're on,
Is this our perfect trip,
Tell me what you're thinking, honey,
Is this what you dreamt,
Take your time, we're in no hurry,
Our destiny is set,
But will you still lo
Crush"Crush"Crush6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What is this feeling that I get around you?
Why does the heat rush to my face when you are near?
Why does my heart leap at the sound of your voice?
Why do I always smile when you are close?
Why do I have this yearning to comfort you?
Why do I always want to give you more?
Why do I dream about you?
Why do I steal glances at you when you are not looking?
Why do I get this feeling of love whenever you hold me?
Why do I feel safe and nervous around you?
Dare I say it
I have a crush on you
Will these feelings about you stay?
Or will they go away?
I do not know
But for now
I am in love with you
My CrushWhere you just staring at me?My Crush7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just the thought makes me jittery.
Do you feel my heart beat,
when I hug you and our chests meet?
I've hugged you only once or twice,
but in your arms, it just felt so nice.
You're like a song forever stuck in my head,
when I should be thinking or other things you're there instead.
I can't stop reading you,
you're my favorite book.
I can't stand not to look.
At how you smile, and how you stand.
Someone pull me onto dry land.
Cause I'm swimming in my love for you.
we barely talk, this is true.
Since you live in your popular world,
with your tons of girls,
none of which are me.
It seems hopeless, but that doesn't stop me.
Maybe one day we'll end up together, then they will see.
I used to think you'd never like me, but I was surprised.
Every so often I look at you, and then I see your eyes.
looking at.. me.
It doesn't seem possible, more like a dream.
but maybe you liking me is more possible than it seems.
Whenever I'm around you,
I don't want to say anything
PretendPretendPretend3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Pretend for a moment.
Pretend that when he smiles,
he smiles at you.
And when his eyes twinkle in laughter,
it's because of a joke you told.
Or when he glances across the room,
he's glancing at you.
Now live in this illusion for a moment.
Shatter that illusion with a shard of broken glass.
Go back to reality.
Those smiles aren't for you.
Neither is the twinkle in his eye,
Or those glances.
You just want them to be.
Makes you cringe, doesn't it?
It might even make you want to
... It's okay. Let your tears out.
No one's watching you in your room
lock your emotions with a key
And hide them from the rest of the world
If only for a moment.
But when you go back into reality,
You slip on a
Red as rosesRed as rosesRed as roses2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A delicate dance
Some subtle shift
A gentle drift
as fingers fumble
No single cause
No hidden clause
they ‘re in love
As souls merge
Through darkest day
They never part way
past death’s door
in heaven above
God bless true love
My Secret CrushMy Secret Crush9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have a little secret,
Deep within my chest.
Many know of this secret,
But only I know best.
The secrets about a girl,
Whom I so truly love.
The girl, so beautiful,
It's like she's from up above.
She is totally amazing,
Kind and beautiful in every way.
She is all I want and all I need,
But will the word yes be what she says.
I will not say her name,
In fear that she will know.
Of all my feelings and all my love,
And at that she will go.
I just hope that one day,
She will feel the same.
And I hope that one day,
In my ear she'll same my name.
tell Me Tell me that you'll always be there for me...tell Me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No matter what...
Tell me that you'll always protect me...
Even when i'm at my darkest moment...
Tell me you'll do anything for me...
Even if it's just to put a smile on my face...
And tell me...Tell me that you'll love me...
No matter what happen's...No matter what I say...
No matter what I do...You'll never stop loving me
So tell me...Your reason why you love me...
And tell me your love will fix my broken heart...
And tell me we'll be together forever...
SillyIf thou ask where the darkness isSilly2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
If thou ask it to me,
I answer sure: 'behind thy eyes',
'cause only darkness lies
behind the look of thee.
The singing bird tells us of spring
with nervous coloured wings
in cage it flies
the saddest of all things.
Friendship braceletFriendship bracelet2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Its threads worn and frayed by the passage of time
Its colors dulled by the dust of countless adventures
Its knots loosend through age or neglect
But sttill tied to that wrist
still smelling of summer
still full of memories and laughter