I am a labelI slid the blade across my wrist
Again and again.
Maybe I’m an emotional freak.
I cause fights and arguments
Maybe I’m a troublemaker.
I use make up to make myself seem
Maybe I’m girly.
I complain about things
Even when sometimes
Maybe I’m an attention seeker.
I fall under so many
So maybe I am a label.
I’m just me.
Hey y'alllll :)I am stronger than my emotional and physical scars.Hey y'alllll :)1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I am stronger than my past.
I am stronger than my disorder.
I am stronger than my depression.
I am stronger than my anxiety.
And I am stronger than their judgments.
So are you.
Don't give up.
.lies can slip.9 months ago in Personal More Like This
through your teeth
gets caught in
(i wish it was a lie, that i'm your flesh and blood and i wish it was the truth, that i hadn't been drinking)
.and goddess,.9 months ago in Personal More Like This
this isn't something i can
sweat or starve out of me,
i'll have to write and it will
see i've often thought about
placing my head in the pestle
and mortar, i wonder if i could
grind out the hell inside, become
a red pulp on the worktop, and
even the oven keeps tutting at me,
it's so easy, just open the door
stick your hand in, feel his forked
tongue on your palm,
orange lover, you
and it's true
that the dead are never really
silent, they grunt and they groan
in their damp soil sheets,
toss and turn over
(fill the bath with water, and just drop me in it)
.he said there are a lot of things in life.9 months ago in Personal More Like This
that don't make sense,
i said i know,
like that time i laughed so hard at the wake
i had to stay out in the garden making small talk with the smokers
for the rest of it,
like the time i shut myself in the garage and went to sleep
in the backseat of your car,
and how i'm not at all religious but i sat in church that day with
my hands clasped and
how i kept the windows shut that sunday so what i prayed for
couldn't get in,
like the time i watched her throw your stuff out on the driveway,
and when she managed to smash those plates even with
her broken wrist, how most hearts start to sink when tempers rise,
and the time i wanted to cradle that dead pigeon i saw at the
train station, and you told me to answer the phone and i wouldn't
because i knew it was you,
and when the night comes calling i always let him in,
i'm never quite sure who he is, but he says
he's paid for it so now i better fucking
he says haven't you learnt by now
Glassed InsanityMy ex husband was a poem writer and I have so many of his poems I thought I would like to share one of them with some of my friends These poems are from his life experiences growing up so they are all very personal to him.The name of this one is "Glassed Insanity"Glassed Insanity2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Demonic stars wreathe my remote daze
beyond reality the illusion possesses
clinging to the corners of my brain
remembrance of the distant past
repeats itself keenly
visions of violence drown in silence
Razor Blades tap dance the floors of my mind
my bottled friend annihilates the anguish
but only for a while because there is no tomorrow
for a chaotic lifestyle
The final swallow of glassed insanity
comes without warning
the liquefied fire kisses the heart
blood will rain from every orifice
and death will no longer be an hallucination
Thanks for reading friends
.and god-.9 months ago in Personal More Like This
i saw the moon
leaking into the sea,
a great big silvery slick
on the waves
and as i held my hands up
to the hole in her side,
she smiled and soaked
(gentle, gentle, she doesn't have long)
.i never.9 months ago in Personal More Like This
words at me
(i bet the sheep don't lose a wink over the starving wolves, either)
Disney Songtalia ContestSo, partly in honor of passing 1,000 views and partly because I've been sitting on this idea for a while and I really want to use it…I'm hosting a contest! And, as the title implies, it's all about combining Disney songs and Hetalia! Essentially I want you to take a Disney song and either use it for inspiration or put it into a fan art or fan fiction.Disney Songtalia Contest2 years ago in Personal More Like This
- You must choose a song from a Disney movie. It must have words and I would prefer it to be sung by a character, though I will take art/stories based on songs like 'The Circle of Life' from the Lion King.
- Your entry must feature at least one Hetalia character.
- It can be any kind of fan art/ fan fiction that you like. I'm not picky. I'll take romance, angst, humor, drama, etc; yaoi pairings, straight pairings, no pairings, OCs, and reader-inserts, etc; one shots, series, comics, portraits, etc. Essentially it just has to fall into the category of fan art/fiction.
- Because I don't want to have a bunch of entri
Okay, you guys. Here's what's up.That last journal?Okay, you guys. Here's what's up.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I'm deeply sorry for scaring you guys like that.
No, it was not a suicide note.. i just give up on being happy all the time.
i love you all more than words can say.
And after seeing those comments... i love you all even more.
Please don't hate me for that journal.. I didn't mean to scare anyone, I didn't mean to be ... ugh. I'm just sorry.
I'm in a really bad state of mind right now and I may not be writing anything for a while. But remember you all are beautiful. And thank you so much for those comments. <3
and yes, i'm alive...
Don't worry you guys ...
Love you. <3
.i don't believe.9 months ago in Personal More Like This
that if you can dream it
you can do it,
cos i once dreamt that
i killed atlas,
i tore him limb from limb and then
i stabbed the globe he held,
and sometimes i get sad
about the children in the world
who will choke on all the words
that they'll never learn to speak,
and there's a baby somewhere gargling
the meaning of his life,
and he's a little bit upset that you
keep wiping it
(i have no words for you)
COSTUME SALE!Finally got off my butt to sort out costumes and write this post! My house is drowning in them, I really need to sell them off! That, and I'm very poor at the moment...so if any new cosplays are going to happen this year, I need to sell old ones! Would be fabulous if you guys would like to help out >3<COSTUME SALE!2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Costumes are all self-made, sizing around Aus 8? Depends on whether it's supposed to be tight or loose, obviously. NB - I am NOT a professional tailor, these are NOT professionally made. Just to clear that up in advance!
Prices in Australian $, postage not included.
Gakupo - Setsugetsuka
$120 - Entire outfit.
Kagamine Len - Cantarella
Coat + belt - $75
If you want the mask to match, I bought it in Venice, and it was expensive - we can haggle lol.
Velvet coat + cravat - $70
If you'd like the top hat + sash + roses add an extra $35.
Monthly Contest December 2014As Promised the "Worth 1000" Contest is starting back up again. I have packed away my story cards and can't find them (honestly can't remember what box they are in...). Instead I found a stock photo on google that was unique. I am sorry for not finding my cards, please enjoy the contest.Monthly Contest December 20143 weeks ago in Personal More Like This
-Write a 1000 word story that relates back to the picture. You can check your wordcount on wordcounter.net (Admins will us this to check.)
-It can be any genre.
-Please submit work to "Worth 1000" Folder.
Contest Begin Date: Dec 1st 2014
Contest End Date: Dec 16th 2014 (12:00 am Central Time USA)
Public Voting will then start on Dec 17th. Make sure your story is done and in on time.
Alright so here is Decembers picture
Winner will get winning piece and three of their works featured for the next month until the next winner is announced.
I would love to have stories that compete, usually what I like
.i can almost hear.9 months ago in Personal More Like This
of everything -
on the bodies
of rabbits, i
did not mean
to, i did not
the deer in
the headlights saying
i told you so
(and do you hear that? that's the sound of it all caving in)
A REALLY LONG JOURNAL (but with pictures!)One ordinary afternoon, Waifu Niffy was just pondering to himself, deciding on that night's dinner for when his Hubby comes home.A REALLY LONG JOURNAL (but with pictures!)3 years ago in Personal More Like This
"Hmm, I guess it's lasagna again tonight, huh?"
When suddenly! A dark shadow looms over Waifu Niffy, taking him by complete surprise.
But before he could utter even the slightest damsel-in-distress girlish scream, the ominous shadow disappeared, and along with it-... Waifu Niffy!
Thankfully Fynn, the good neighbor, heard the commotion of broken dishes and toppled furniture and rushed to the scene right away with his trusty crocodile buddy Kuro.
"Ugh great, were those two at it again-...?"
Kuro, being the clever little detective he is, sniffed around the crime scene and deduced that Waifu Niffy had been wifenapped!
"Smells like Earl Grey..." /Sniffsniff
Kuro urged Fynn to call local police immediately!
"Police Grim, Police Grim! Please help! There has been a-"
/Hangs up and
My face in your face★ ☆ ★ 2 0 1 3 ★ ☆ ★My face in your face2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Okay what is that title sorry (ゝ∀･)www
I hope this disturbing imagery haunts you for the remainder of 2013━just kidding.
Foolishness aside, I suppose this is my last Deviantart post for 2012!
I'm sure you've seen enough year's end messages so I'll make mine quick (´艸`)
I want to thank my friends, family and watchers from the bottom of my heart. Without your encouragement I would not have come this far, and without your love and support I would not be able to keep moving myself forward. I thank everyone for making my 2012 a meaningful and fulfilling year, and wish you all nothing but the very best for 2013 and years ahead! Have a wonderful new year, stay safe and healthy, and take care!
FioLee Sequel :3Yuppppppp, you heard correctly from the title.FioLee Sequel :31 year ago in Personal More Like This
I was planning to have a sequel from the beginning anyway.
I will release it two weeks from now because I have things to do next week.
Here's a little detail about the sequel. The first FioLee fancomic takes Fionna's perspective but the sequel takes
Marshall's perspective. All I can say is...bring tissues for the next one.
And for the FioLee Rate +18, it'll be on my tumblr bcuz you know...hentai. You can look for my tumblr link on my description.
Have a nice day :3
.my thoughts want to.10 months ago in Personal More Like This
flee, but there is no fire
escape, no guide to the
exit of my head, and they
consider digging a hole
there, i feel it, maybe a
crack just wide enough
to crawl through, drop a
rope through the back
of my neck and climb
down, prise open the
earth - a tremble turns
into an avalanche, and
a snowflake in the flurry
wonders am i the same as
all the rest? he coughs and
splutters and chokes on
it - i wake in the early
morning, heart lodged
in my throat, that red
bird in that chimney, he's
going to starve there and
i'll be spitting feathers;
i won't claw the inside
of my neck again for
nobody, i'm past that,
pick me up by the
scruff and drop me
wherever you're going -
but wait, when lightning
strikes a tree, well isn't
that love? and when the
rain pelts the ground,
well what about then?
when you miss the ache
of wounds as they're
healing, is that it? well
when your nose bleeds,
that's still love right?
cos i've got an entire
pack to get through -
and what a funny
thing it is
.i walk into the garden at.8 months ago in Personal More Like This
3am, find death digging
his own grave in the middle
of my lawn, he says he's
dead to me now, he can
just feel it in his bones,
points at the mud and says
dirt is dirt
it can't pretend that it's
oh and i found that peg you lost,
it was under the conifer,
climbs in covers himself and leaves
me standing alone
(keeps sending me postcards, i wish you were here)
.there is a body.10 months ago in Personal More Like This
bloodless and pale,
with dirty hands
trying to wash it all
off, because if she
cannot see it there's
a chance it won't
so she buried
the blood in the
mud with her baby
teeth, asked the
river to take it
away, felt her bones
heave a sigh as she
lay them all down
on the bank
(and no doubt he will say she was crazy, this bitch, with her tongue and her teeth and her mind)
.i want to scrape.9 months ago in Personal More Like This
the shell off the earth,
try and give birth to
mould it and feed it and let it
set out on its own to be
and now, bear cub
don't be so
they'll make good
money from mum's
claws and coat,
mount her head on the
wall by your
(always dreaming of a blind alley, and this is not a poem, just another ball of paper, throw me into the sun i want the last of the heat to be mine)
.mother i'm.9 months ago in Personal More Like This
i worry about
but still living
inside me i
(gonna build you up nice and bitter)
.i remembered.10 months ago in Personal More Like This
the conversation with the anesthetist,
he said place your thumbs over your eyes
and press gently, and i replied isn't that
and no i can't feel my hands but i'm
not really bothered, i will sleep
sleep and sleep, i won't need them,
and please keep an eye on the sea til i
wake, it might pack up its fish and
go travelling, it might leak through
the holes in the earth like a sieve,
all the shipwrecks and sharks will
(i don't believe in anything, and that makes me a liar because i believe in that)
.some need to know life.9 months ago in Personal More Like This
like the beasts do, the heron
the stray dog the cobra the salmon
dead in it's stream,
but i want to shed out of my skin,
don't want to be no white ghost no more
and i met a magician, got rid of
the dirt in my mind,
pulled my memories out
of my temple like napkins,
made a mess i couldn't clean up
on the pavement outside, no tip for him,
you're gonna have to excuse
the mess in my soul, i wasn't
been pleading with words for an
explanation, came home late last night
smelling of someone else's ink,
i think i saw the light then but
i heard the darkness too, i kicked them
out, now it's just me and my
crazy i keep in a tank,
watch him grow limbs and climb out
over the side, and now sometimes
he sits on my lap and i stroke him,
but he's getting too heavy to hold and
he's starting to speak for himself,
says don't drink that be good
i need you and you need me and you
know it, i don't think you can ever
truly know someone until you can admit
to yourself t
MORE AWKWARDNESS YEYYClarke: *sitting at the table*MORE AWKWARDNESS YEYY1 year ago in Personal More Like This
*Sitting in the corner of the room facing away from Isaac* *Making weird noises*
Clarke: *looks over at me* Hmm?
*Making baby noises* HUUUUUUUUU
Clarke: Are you dying or, something..?
Clarke: Maybe? Tori, are you okay?
Clarke: I'm sorry? Hmm?
*Strange as fuq outburst* WHY DO I KEEP THINKING OF FRED FLINTSTONE ON THE TOILET AAAAAAARRRRGGGHH
Clarke: OH MY GOD, WHAT.