I am a labelI slid the blade across my wrist
Again and again.
Maybe I’m an emotional freak.
I cause fights and arguments
Maybe I’m a troublemaker.
I use make up to make myself seem
Maybe I’m girly.
I complain about things
Even when sometimes
Maybe I’m an attention seeker.
I fall under so many
So maybe I am a label.
I’m just me.
Hey y'alllll :)I am stronger than my emotional and physical scars.Hey y'alllll :)2 years ago in Personal More Like This
I am stronger than my past.
I am stronger than my disorder.
I am stronger than my depression.
I am stronger than my anxiety.
And I am stronger than their judgments.
So are you.
Don't give up.
Okay, you guys. Here's what's up.That last journal?Okay, you guys. Here's what's up.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
I'm deeply sorry for scaring you guys like that.
No, it was not a suicide note.. i just give up on being happy all the time.
i love you all more than words can say.
And after seeing those comments... i love you all even more.
Please don't hate me for that journal.. I didn't mean to scare anyone, I didn't mean to be ... ugh. I'm just sorry.
I'm in a really bad state of mind right now and I may not be writing anything for a while. But remember you all are beautiful. And thank you so much for those comments. <3
and yes, i'm alive...
Don't worry you guys ...
Love you. <3
Disney Songtalia ContestSo, partly in honor of passing 1,000 views and partly because I've been sitting on this idea for a while and I really want to use it…I'm hosting a contest! And, as the title implies, it's all about combining Disney songs and Hetalia! Essentially I want you to take a Disney song and either use it for inspiration or put it into a fan art or fan fiction.Disney Songtalia Contest3 years ago in Personal More Like This
- You must choose a song from a Disney movie. It must have words and I would prefer it to be sung by a character, though I will take art/stories based on songs like 'The Circle of Life' from the Lion King.
- Your entry must feature at least one Hetalia character.
- It can be any kind of fan art/ fan fiction that you like. I'm not picky. I'll take romance, angst, humor, drama, etc; yaoi pairings, straight pairings, no pairings, OCs, and reader-inserts, etc; one shots, series, comics, portraits, etc. Essentially it just has to fall into the category of fan art/fiction.
- Because I don't want to have a bunch of entri
A REALLY LONG JOURNAL (but with pictures!)One ordinary afternoon, Waifu Niffy was just pondering to himself, deciding on that night's dinner for when his Hubby comes home.A REALLY LONG JOURNAL (but with pictures!)4 years ago in Personal More Like This
"Hmm, I guess it's lasagna again tonight, huh?"
When suddenly! A dark shadow looms over Waifu Niffy, taking him by complete surprise.
But before he could utter even the slightest damsel-in-distress girlish scream, the ominous shadow disappeared, and along with it-... Waifu Niffy!
Thankfully Fynn, the good neighbor, heard the commotion of broken dishes and toppled furniture and rushed to the scene right away with his trusty crocodile buddy Kuro.
"Ugh great, were those two at it again-...?"
Kuro, being the clever little detective he is, sniffed around the crime scene and deduced that Waifu Niffy had been wifenapped!
"Smells like Earl Grey..." /Sniffsniff
Kuro urged Fynn to call local police immediately!
"Police Grim, Police Grim! Please help! There has been a-"
/Hangs up and
COSTUME SALE!Finally got off my butt to sort out costumes and write this post! My house is drowning in them, I really need to sell them off! That, and I'm very poor at the moment...so if any new cosplays are going to happen this year, I need to sell old ones! Would be fabulous if you guys would like to help out >3<COSTUME SALE!3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Costumes are all self-made, sizing around Aus 8? Depends on whether it's supposed to be tight or loose, obviously. NB - I am NOT a professional tailor, these are NOT professionally made. Just to clear that up in advance!
Prices in Australian $, postage not included.
Gakupo - Setsugetsuka
$120 - Entire outfit.
Kagamine Len - Cantarella
Coat + belt - $75
If you want the mask to match, I bought it in Venice, and it was expensive - we can haggle lol.
Velvet coat + cravat - $70
If you'd like the top hat + sash + roses add an extra $35.
Glassed InsanityMy ex husband was a poem writer and I have so many of his poems I thought I would like to share one of them with some of my friends These poems are from his life experiences growing up so they are all very personal to him.The name of this one is "Glassed Insanity"Glassed Insanity3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Demonic stars wreathe my remote daze
beyond reality the illusion possesses
clinging to the corners of my brain
remembrance of the distant past
repeats itself keenly
visions of violence drown in silence
Razor Blades tap dance the floors of my mind
my bottled friend annihilates the anguish
but only for a while because there is no tomorrow
for a chaotic lifestyle
The final swallow of glassed insanity
comes without warning
the liquefied fire kisses the heart
blood will rain from every orifice
and death will no longer be an hallucination
Thanks for reading friends
Equestria Girls Teaser ShotsSome new teaser shots of the Equestria Girls movie were released by Screenvision Programs on Flickr. The movie's looking great so far!Equestria Girls Teaser Shots2 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
the three of usWe've walked together,the three of us9 months ago in Personal More Like This
my friend Depression and I
until the years stretched on
both behind me and ahead,
until the idea of forever
no longer frightened me,
there are three of us;
on my left is Depression,
but on my right is Hope.
"Where have you been?"
I asked, taking his hand.
"Waiting for you."
Depression is easy.
Not that it's gentle but it is intimate, like a lover, like a shadow. We are practically domestic in how well I know his intricate patterns, his tricks and tools of the trade, and tears are as much a balm as they are a routine. I never had reason to think that things would ever change between us, but when I look at him now, the reflection is imperfect, the details are wrong, and it's easier to peel his hands from my skin. There is something out of sync, and shockingly, I think it's me.
I had a moment the other day, and I have failed thus far to convey to anyone just how important it was to me, but I'll try again fo
Please, remember this ,n,it's 10:53pm on a saturday night. you've already said goodnight to your parents and siblings. your door is locked and they think you're sound asleep. you sit at your desk twirling a pen in your hand. you stare at the blank piece of paper as your eyes fill with tears for the fifth time tonight. you don't want to do it without writing a goodbye letter. you want to make sure your family knows why you did it. the tears fall onto the paper and you can't help the frustration as the droplets ruin the paper. you crumple it up and break down even harder. you realize you can't write the letter, so you look in the mirror once more and watch as your final tear falls. only a couple of minutes later your heart stops and the blood escapes your body, making a puddle under your cold, lifeless body. but nobody's going to care, right?Please, remember this ,n,3 years ago in Personal More Like This
it's now 7:57am monday morning. your mother waits downstairs in the kitchen to give you your lunch money. she's already late for work, but she doesn't want you to stress ab
some cheesy advices for artists in need:iconcutehiplz: guys ! I noticed there's that problem everybody is facing on this website : "Uhhhh nobody likes my art D': !!" aaand I thought sharing MY experience here on deviantart may help out some of you. I'm sure as hell I'm not the best suited to give you advices but I'm going to do it anywaysome cheesy advices for artists in need2 years ago in Personal More Like This
because I can
So~ here we go !!
Once upon a time I dreamt of becoming a famous artist and that an editor will magically find my page and start publishing my comics. Waaah so sugoi desuNo that wasn't my first intention of joining the website >~< *embarassed* um... oh look a bird *flees*
When I first entered DeviantArt 3 years ago I only had 1 watcher (an IRL friend of mine who is really good at drawing and that is very dear to me ). It was arround that time that I just merged from drawing manga to drawing realistic-iiiish manga (<-- the emphasis on the "ish" is very importa
T. W, p.2: Homosexuality(and other things)You know, theres been a rise of stigma and hated about the Homosexual community. As in (religin terms), "Homosexuality is a sin!", "they'er of the devil!", "it's disgusting!". you know what i think; " Love is love, no matter what one thinks and if you don't agree. then don't agree. simple as that."T. W, p.2: Homosexuality(and other things)3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Also, heres how i describe a homosexual( and other sexualitys).
Homosexual(s): regulaters (we need them, so we wouldn't overpopulate. duh. )
Heterosexual(s): breeders (we need them, so we wouldn't die out. duh. )
Bisexual(s): Faithfuls (they could go ether way and do both .)
Transsexual(s): bridgers (the kind of people who know how to live! 1. you don't need the "parts" to be "it", just do it!. 2. thats what makes a transsexs adorable! )
Transvesitie(s): manequins ( they love to dress up in different chlothing.)
Intersex(s): Two-for-one bargin. (like bisexuals, but literaul.)
Pansexual(s): gaurdians of the sexs. (they love all people, no matter of what gender and/or gender i
Darn Russian HomophobesSo, I get emails from a group called All Out who deal with worldwide homosexuality things. Today I go this email:Darn Russian Homophobes4 years ago in Personal More Like This
"My name is Sergey and I'm an attorney in Russia. I'm straight - happily married for 16 years - and until last week I would not have been called an "activist". But in just five days I will got to court, fined and maybe even thrown in jail because I held up a banner in Saint Petersburg and told the truth:
"A dear family friend is lesbian. My wife and I love and respect her and her family is just as equal as ours."
I was among the first to be arrested, but thousands more could follow. As I write this, Russian officials are fast tracking a plan to extend Saint Petersburg's "gay propaganda" law to the entire country.
I believe that it should never be illegal to defend the dignity of friends and family. Will you sign and share my urgent letter to Russian Prime Minister Vladimir Putin asking him to denounce this law before my trial? H
it gets betterTrust me- if you ever feel ugly and gross and that you'll never look any better, just rememberit gets better3 years ago in Personal More Like This
The CourtCase: The Verdict.(The jury walks back into the courtroom, all eyes in their direction.)The CourtCase: The Verdict.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
(Butler does not know the jurors or what they went through in the jury room, but what he does know is that they have decided his fate between life and death.)
(Dean O'Connell sits in that courtroom, spotting someone whom spots him back. Five is taken aback, but when Dean mouths 'hello' Five nervously waves, being nudged to move forward by Juror Six.)
(Dale sits next to his lawyer, scanning the room, his family sitting on the other side, his sister playing with her new bunny. However, he is not looking for his family, but for the boy he kissed and, as feared, he didn't show.)
(Juror Ten is looking to see his two kids sitting next to his wife. They wave, Ten waving back.)
(Seven, Two, Nine, and Twelve have no one to look for in the courtroom and no one to see, but whoever was sitting in those seats didn't matter anyway.)
(This was between them and Dale Butler.)
(Juror Two hands the bailiff their verdict of either guil
the good don't stayI blinked, shifted and cringed. My body was sore, my mind was cloudy and everything throbbed, especially my feet. I blinked a few more times. Goodness, my eyelids were heavy and my wrists itched—how scratchy the blanket upon my chest was! I took in a deep breath and tried to get past the blurriness.the good don't stay3 years ago in Personal More Like This
"It looks like we have a survivor. How are you feeling?"
Turning my head, I saw a white coat, and as my eyes drifted up, there was a stethoscope, assorted pens stuffed inside a pocket, a clean-shaven chin and grey eyes. I opened my mouth, but closed it again, because my tongue was dry and I really didn't feel like talking to anyone. Honestly, I was awful at dying. Everything was trying to do me in, even myself, but I just wouldn't.
And then shame filled me when what I had done truly sunk in:
I could have died.
I wiggled my fingers—I was alive.
"How am I feeling?" I rasped as my old temper was aroused by the absurdity of the doctor's question. "I feel fine. Absolutely goddamn dandy. N
Jeff the Killer X Reader pt.39Jeff the Killer X Reader pt.392 years ago in Literature Features More Like This
Your insane side tackled you down but you pushed her off of you. You got up as quickly as possible and grabbed the nearest weapon, a knife. You looked back at your insane side and she just started laughing.
"What's so funny?" you said.
"You can't kill me with that." your insane side said with a wicked grin a her face.
"Fuck.." you said.
"But that doesn't mean I can't kill you." she said and begin sprinting at you.
You threw the knife at her but she caught it before it hit her. "You think throwing knives at me is going to stop me?" She threw it back at you and it hit your shoulder. You hissed in pain and she started to come closer to you. You quickly took the knife out of your shoulder and threw it somewhere. By then, she grabbed you and threw you across the room. You felt a sharp pain on your back once you hit the wall and she looked at you.
"Look what I got.." she evilly singed, holding two knives in her hands while giving you
Jeff the Killer X Reader pt.24Jeff the Killer X Reader pt.242 years ago in Literature Features More Like This
"You can't escape for what's coming?" you said.
Those words sounded familiar when you were little and you were lost in your thoughts that you didn't Slendy calling your name. Then Jeff touched your arm and it brought you back.
"What?" you said, looking at Jeff.
He shrugged and looked back at Slendy. Mr. Everett continued to tell you more about what you could hear and could see but that you should be careful. You nodded and then he left. The whole entire time, Jeff kept looking at you. You looked at him and walked out of Slendy's office. He was calling your name but you ignored him and went to Jeff's room and you walked up to the window, looking at what is coming. Few minutes later, Jeff came in with something behind his back. You looked at him and looked back at the window.
"(Y/n)..." he said.
You looked at him. "What?"
"You okay?" he said.
"Yeah...." you sighed, looking away.
He walked up to you and sat next to you.
I'll Help YouIf you are ever lost please don't fretI'll Help You1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I'll help you find your way
Just follow my voice as it calls your name
And listen to my words
Don't be afraid or scared
I'll protect you with my life so don't you dare shed a tear
I'll take away your confusion
And I'll replace it with knowledge
But if you find yourself feeling lonely
Just call upon my name
And I'll accompany you
If you ever experience pain along the way
I won't let you suffer
I'll relieve you of it and put it in my own soul
So please don't ever hesitant
To call my name when you are lost
Because I won't betray you
The CourtCase: The Juror DescriptionsBefore I start the next part, I would like to describe to you the people that will be debating this homosexual boy's fate.The CourtCase: The Juror Descriptions3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Juror Number One: She has lived a long life filled with lies and torment, however she will work through anything, and from that she understands other's pains. When it comes to homosexuality, though, she was unaware it even existed until this court case.
Juror Number Two: He has been a drug addicted man, but going to rehab he changed. Still have some urges he has not been known to be violent, but has been suggested. He believes homosexuality is wrong.
Juror Number Three: He just turned thirty and is still dreaming about being in politics. He admires all presidents, congressman, the whole nine yards. Believing he is destined to be the world's first Indian president he tried to look at all the facts to be able to give a veto or approve.
Juror Number Four: She was an accountant for ten years and then retired after her husband won the lottery. Being famous for her wealt
Jeff the Killer X Reader pt.28Jeff the Killer X Reader pt.282 years ago in Literature Features More Like This
Alexis nodded and pointed at the leader coming your way and has his 'gang' behind him. You looked at Jeff and you saw him giving them a death glare and put his hand in his pocket to grab his knife.
"Jeff..." you said.
"I have to (Y/n) and you can't stop me..." he said.
"Actually I was going to say to call BEN and Jack to help you.." you said.
"Why them?" he whined.
"Because, you can't fight them by yourself, you need back-up.." you sighed.
He got up and walked down the ramp but you grabbed his wrist.
"Jeff, I wouldn't...." you said.
"(Y/n), he going to get killed. You know the leader doesn't do fist to fist, he'll just shoot him...." Alexis said.
"I know but Jeff..." you said.
"(Y/n), don't worry...I'll be fine....." he said before he kissed your forehead and left.
You sighed and looked at Alexis
"He's a dead man.." Alexis said.
"I wouldn't say that.." you said.
"Why? Does he keep a weapon with him too?" she said.
Jeff the Killer X Reader pt.25Jeff the Killer X Reader pt.252 years ago in Literature Features More Like This
"What do mean by 9?!" I growled.
"Jeff, I found two more bodies in the edge of the woods.." Slendy said.
"When?!" I said
"This morning...." he said.
'was there two more bodies in the woods?' I thought.
I sighed and walk away from Slendy and went to my room. I laid on my bed and looked out the window. I thought to myself why didn't me and (y/n) find the other two bodies in the woods. I started to get sleepy and knocked out within a few seconds.
You woke up and changed into a black tank top, (f/c) shorts, sleeveless denim jacket, (f/c) vans, black fingerless gloves and a white hat with (f/c) letters that says Dyrdek?. You went downstairs and went straight to the kitchen to find Slendy cooking breakfast and Sally sitting on the table, watching him. You walked closer to them and both looked at you at the s
Jeff the Killer X Reader pt.26Jeff the Killer X Reader pt.262 years ago in Literature Features More Like This
"Tomorrow?" BEN whined.
"Yeah, tomorrow." Jeff said.
"Fine but, one problem." Jack said.
"What?" you said.
"You can't leave the manor without Slendy's permission.." he said.
"Why?" you said.
"Cause he said so..." Jeff said.
You sighed and started to think 'What should I do?'.
"But.." Jeff said.
"But what?" you said.
"We could say that we are taking you with us to help kill.." he said.
You thought for a moment and nodded. "Alright.."
You looked at BEN and Jack and they nodded as well. It was getting dark so you went to your room and went to sleep.
I watched (y/n) leave the room and looked back at BEN and Jack. They gave me confused look.
"What?" I said.
"Great plan but you know Slendy will ask why." BEN said.
"So?" I said.
"What are we going tell him?" Jack said.
I thought for moment and answered "We say that we are going to use (y/n) to get in.."
"So, your plan is to Slendy
The CourtCase: The JuryRoom Day I Part IIITwo: Fags are disgusting! That's my reasoning! Three, your turn.The CourtCase: The JuryRoom Day I Part III3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Eight: Now, wait a minute! You just can't say something like that and move on. Damn it, we need a reason!
Two: Well, the sex.
Six & Eleven: PAH!
Four: We already know your disturbing reasoning for disagreeing with that, you pig.
Two: Three, speak your Indian mind before I kill you.
Three: Ladies and gentlemen of the jury, I must admit, there is not enough evidence for me to fully have an opinion...however, I do believe that homosexuality is wrong. My religion and what I have been told and seen add onto my opinion. Now, however, that I have seen this boy's true passion for it, even though I don't understand it, I must admit that I believe he is not guilty.
Ten: You voted "Innocent"?
Three: At first, no. Three others did.
Four: The mute and two other silent partners...
Nine: I understand your reasoning, Number Three. It makes sense.
Three: Thank you, kindly.
One: Number Four, your turn.
Four: I know that, you baboon. You do