Bipolar DisorderLook over your shoulder. They're watching you.
Tighten your stomach muscles.
Bounce your leg up and down.
"Are you okay?"
Don't say anything.
Feel it, feel the thoughts melting from your mind.
"What are you doing?"
They're behind you.
Kill them before they kill you.
Please save me.
Crazy. You're crazy.
No one wants you.
Pull the trigger.
"Please tell me what's wrong."
You wouldn't understand.
"Who are you? I don't know you anymore."
I'm a nobody.
I am Bipolar Disorder.
... "I don't know."
All AloneIt hurts, after a while. At first, you can brush it off, go about your life with no thought. But it starts to creep up, crushing your resolve the one moment you let your guard down, and take it for granted. Then you begin to hate it, but more often than not, there is absolutely nothing you can do about it.All Alone2 years ago in Personal More Like This
One man had two adorable little boys, and he cared for them so much, even though they were not his own. But that love became too much, and they left him, alone and broken, without a backward glance. Now he is all alone, ridiculed and shunned, left to sit alone every night, trying to figure what he had done wrong.
Another man had many people live under his house, and though he never treated them the best, they still respected him. But soon they all left, and he could do nothing about it. Who was once a great man, powerful with many people under his control, now is alone in his grand house, to
My existence...Well I guess it's time for me to rant about my failures in life. Sounds like a good thing to do. I'm going to number my failures in the past 24 hours to help you realize how dumb i truly am. Enjoy, oh glorious watchers of mine.My existence...8 months ago in Personal More Like This
1) I woke up this morning and saw my shadow on the wall. Naturally, I panic. Naturally, I have a muscle spasm because i freaked out. So I punched myself in the face. Strike one for Mikki.
2) After this beautiful moment of my own abuse toward my face, I walk into the kitchen to get food. I find food, I eat food. I enjoyed the food. And suddenly A;JBG;KSDJGB;SKDJGBS. my fork scrapes the plate. One of the worst sounds, i'd say. So I started choking on my last bite of burrito. I survived, though. Wooooohoo.
3) i ran into a door. A closed, clearly visible door.
4) I nearly dropped my glasses in the toilet. I didn't, because of my SUPER FAST NINJA SKILLS OF DOOM THAT YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE THE AWESOMENESS OF, but i almost did. and that's bad enough.
5) i also fell asle
WINNERS EVERYDAY! Points GIVEWAY!! Hey dahlin's!<3! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR DONATING AND SUPPORTING! I give all my points away anyways, and I love hosting giveaways <3 I am hoping to do more, and support Artists and to also make you smile Support what I am doing? Check out my page and lke if you'd like!WINNERS EVERYDAY! Points GIVEWAY!!2 years ago in Personal More Like This
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One time I had this substitute in elementaryAnd we were reading this book in class.One time I had this substitute in elementary6 months ago in Personal More Like This
She was talking about how if we didn't know what a word meant we could use the context of the passage.
This kid asked, "What does 'venison' mean?"
The old lady said, "Who can tell me what that word means?"
So I raised my hand and said, "It means 'deer meat.'"
But then she asked, "How do you know?"
I got really confused. "I... um... saw that word in another book?"
"Did you use the context of the passage?"
The passage literally was something like "The soup had maize, venison, and all sorts of vegetables in it"
So I said, "No."
AND THEN THE OLD LADY WAS ALL "YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO USE THE CONTEXT OF THE PARAGRAPH YOU CAN'T JUST GUESS WHAT THE WORD MEANS YOU MIGHT NOT EVEN BE CORRECT."
"Well the dictionary said that venison meant 'deer meat'..."
"Well you won't always have a dictionary at hand. That's why you have to learn how to use the context of the story!"
What a perfect example of the American school system, am I right?
Writing Tips by the VelvetJust writing tips for writers or beginners. I've gathered these from my two years of writing, and hopefully they will help others.Writing Tips by the Velvet8 months ago in Personal More Like This
The times I use breaks is when the scene changes or a new character starts talking. You do not want large blocks of text. They make it difficult for the reader to read.
Dan stared at Jordan before walking away.
Jordan was left alone in his room, letting his eyes wander until something new happened.
"Is that so?" Herobrine questioned.
"Yes," the zombie pigman guard replied.
He said, she said, they replied, etc, etc. It all gets a boring for the reader. Repetition is never a good aspect in writing. If you have a character who has a title or a different name they go by, use that instead of repeating their name over and over again. The same goes for actions. Nodding and saying something sounds bland. Add adjectives and adverbs, and maybe change the verb.
'Why Are We Even Talking About This?'I get that phrase a lot, that and "over react much?" whenever I bring up ANY issue, be it from a video game, politics, or whatever. There seems to be a lot of people who just don't wanna talk about anything at all, and would much rather these discussions just not exist so they can get on with their lives.'Why Are We Even Talking About This?'1 year ago in Personal More Like This
You'll be unsurprised to learn that I don't agree with that wisdom. In my books, if you don't do anything, nothing is going to happen. If there's an injustice in the world somewhere and you stay silent, that injustice isn't going to fix itself. It will just keep happening. That, my friends, is complacency.
Then of course there are those people who don't believe that the world will ever change, therefor there's no reason to try, and actively try to stop anyone who dares to stand up for something. I can't begin to describe how annoying that mindset is to me. It's almost sadistic in it's very nature, by actively trying to stop people from making the world a better place by being dismissi
Chemistry teacher: These atoms are radioactiveTeacher: Can you imagine dragons?Chemistry teacher: These atoms are radioactive6 months ago in Personal More Like This
Guy: NO DON'T MENTION THAT SONG I AM TIRED OF THAT SONG
Teacher: Aw, but don't you like breathing in the chemicals?
Me: He feels it in his bones
Guy: STOP IT
Teacher: *inhales and exhales loudly*
(in case you couldn't tell I really like chemistry class)
While we're on the subject of dumb kids......in Chinese school there was this sixth grader named Sunny. What's sad is that he's actually a pretty smart kid, but he decided to become this dumb douche. His favorite insult? Yo momma jokes. Yeah. :IWhile we're on the subject of dumb kids...7 months ago in Personal More Like This
One day he said in this cocky voice, "My mom had a master's degree!"
I said, "That's nice."
"Did your mom get a master's degree?"
"Hah! Your mom didn't get a master's degree and mine did!"
I restrained the urge to slap him. Respectable eighth graders don't slap ignorant sixth graders. "So?"
"It means that I'm more likely to get a master's degree than you!"
WHAT A FUCKING DUMBASS. I FELT SO PISSED. SO I DELIVERED THIS ULTIMATE SMACKDOWN. "Are you sure your name is Sunny? Because you don't seem too bright."
He gave me this totally bewildered look, because shots had been fired right then and there. "...Yo momma has diarrhea!" he declared.
I wasn't done with him yet. "So? Diarrhea is a medical condition, it's not a subject of shame or mockery-"
"Shut up, dictionary."
"I think the mor
Life is Beautiful...Isn't it?Life is Beautiful...2 years ago in Personal More Like This
There are magical moments in life where I get the opportunity to remember that I'm nothing but an insignificant living being among 8 billion others.. on a planet among 8 in a solar system among billions in a galaxy among trillions and all in one universe-- possibly among others?-- where whether or not I died, would hardly leave a mark even in the face of my own city.
The world goes on without you.
Yet I once realized, that a meaning in life, is to give life a meaning.
Live your dreams! You only live once.
Don't do idiotic dares for the sake of saying you did them-- go tell that cute boy or girl you like them!
Go tell the world your name!
Why must everything be over after one failure..?
Sure, the humiliation of having everyone look down upon you is torture itself... but when you get back up and show everyone that you're somebody, it won't be you who'd be ashamed for not realizing your potential sooner-- but them!
There are mome
I did a thing!I told you guys I was going to do it, and I did.I did a thing!1 year ago in Personal More Like This
It's my graduation/Christmas present to myself.
My emotions are all over the place; I can't stop crying.
This means so much to me.
I suppose I'll write up a better explanation and story behind this later. I just feel like I'm floating right now.
Dear Poetry isn't just my username, it means too much to me to be only that. Poetry has honestly saved my life. Sometimes people ask me where I would be if I wasn't writing, and I tell them dead. There has been so much wrong in my life, and always kept it so hidden before someone told me to write it all down.
And last night, everything just seemed to click together. It was spur of the moment, and I walked into this tattoo parlor only seeking a price quote. The owner asked me how much I had on me, and personally did my tattoo for 25 dollars. I wanted to cry right then and there because he was being so nice to me. I think he could tell how much this simple tattoo meant to me. A
DDs: To select or not to selectHey wazaaaaaap!DDs: To select or not to select2 years ago in Art Features More Like This
In my last journal I talked about my stance on Daily Deviations. In this occasion I'll tell you some of the reasons that make me choose some artworks, and the reasons that make me not choose others. Hopefully it will be interesting for some, useful for others or simply a good reading if you're really boring.
What makes me choose a deviation to be featured?
Such a simple question with such an indefinite answer, and I apologize in advance for giving such a vague response but I'll put it simple: Sometimes not even I know!
There's not a secret formula I have to determine if a piece is going to be featured or not, sometimes I really have a hard time making a decision and it really is a case-by-case situation. The deviation needs to STAND OUT, be different, have that "wow" factor. Unfortunately this is very difficult to explain. However ther
to all the people who have ever considered suicideThere is always a reason to keep fighting. I do not care how pitiful your life is, how seemingly insignificant, how painfulyou do matter. You matter to someone: perhaps it's your mother, your father, your friend. Perhaps it's someone you haven't even met yet, but that's part of the adventure, isn't it? There is always something more to come. Every human life is so incredibly and insurmountably precious. And I will not sit here and tell you that there are people who have it worse than you, because that's silly and useless. In your world, you feel alone and desperate and you feel as if nothing, nothing could ever make you feel happy or even functional again, and that is your world. You feel as if your life, your universe, everything you ever thought about yourself and the people around you is crumbling and crashing down. But I can guarantee that it will get better. I promise you. I promise.to all the people who have ever considered suicide3 years ago in Personal More Like This
You are brave and you are clever and you are wonderful, and you cannot let someone as specia
I want to write a book with a guy and a girl...make them side characters as part of the comic relief, and have them be the best of buddies. By best buddies I mean almost inseparable friends. They are just so freaking close.I want to write a book with a guy and a girl...2 months ago in Personal More Like This
As the series goes on, people will constantly ask me if they are/will fall in love with each other and I will just shrug my shoulders and say "Maybe, maybe not, I already have it planned out but I'm not revealing anything" and people will think "oh they're going to get together she just doesn't want to spoil it for us"
Then there'll be a scene where the characters think they're about to die and they're freaking out and one of them says to the other "I have something that I've been meaning to tell you for awhile but I never could because I didn't know what you'd think of me"
And the other one says "Really because I was just about to say the same thing"
"Let's say it at the same time on the count of three"
"1... 2... 3!"
And the guy shouts "I'M GAY" and the girl shouts "I'M A LE
Hey y'alllll :)I am stronger than my emotional and physical scars.Hey y'alllll :)2 years ago in Personal More Like This
I am stronger than my past.
I am stronger than my disorder.
I am stronger than my depression.
I am stronger than my anxiety.
And I am stronger than their judgments.
So are you.
Don't give up.
30 Writers You Should Discover: Volume VIIWhat's This?30 Writers You Should Discover: Volume VII3 years ago in Literature Features More Like This
Below you will find a new assortment of various writers on DeviantART who are worth getting to know. All of their respective galleries are packed full of tremendous works that I enjoy and hope that you will too. If there is a writer that may not be listed in this edition, you may wish to read the first six articles in this
.i pass a heart drunk.8 months ago in Personal More Like This
in the gutter trying to pull
itself together, he says
i had a job,
a life, that fucking
but he's a liar -
she says she had to let
me go -
(i shut my eyes and cross the road)
100 Reasons To Live Know that someone, somewhere, cares about you.100 Reasons To Live2 years ago in Personal More Like This
You were made for a REASON. everyone has their own purpose in life.
Knowing that no matter how big your problems may seem, it's nothing compared to the endless galaxies and space that surrounds us all with the unknown, or better worded, the undiscovered.
To uncover all the possibilities and mysteries in life.To prove to everyone else who once downed you that you have potential and strength to become your best.To remind yourself of all the good memories and early childhood, and look forward to giving your own kids one day that same opportunity. To find someone, or something, that means so much to you that the world doesn't exist when you are in the warmth of their comfort and consoling, and if you don't have someone/something who provides this for you then being able to become this for someone else who needs the love.Being able to get lost in a good book.Becoming a idol or inspiration to someone out there.Watching mov
Depression"It's not real" -- It sure as heck feels real. So real it IS my reality on a daily basis.Depression2 years ago in Personal More Like This
"It's just an excuse to get out of doing things that other people have to" -- I'd love to do thing other people are doing, and I'd relish in being happy when I do so.
"You're just a little sad, you'll get over it" -- Depression isn't just 'feeling sad sometimes'... it's feeling sad ALL the time for what seems like no reason at all.
"Just grow up! Everyone is depressed, you just have to deal with it like everyone else!" -- Stop using everyone else to justify your insensitivity to other people's conditions (also, most of the people suffering from depression are adults, you don't get much more 'grown up' than adult).
"You're not suffering from anything, you're just lazy, ungrateful, and being silly" -- Ok, because obviously I LOVE feeling miserable, worthless, and stupid all the time...who wouldn't...?
"Stop using that as an excuse to not do anything." -- If I could manage to do something a
.i don't believe.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
that if you can dream it
you can do it,
cos i once dreamt that
i killed atlas,
i tore him limb from limb and then
i stabbed the globe he held,
and sometimes i get sad
about the children in the world
who will choke on all the words
that they'll never learn to speak,
and there's a baby somewhere gargling
the meaning of his life,
and he's a little bit upset that you
keep wiping it
(i have no words for you)
What a kiss means..---Always find this "pass along" adorbz---What a kiss means..2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Kiss on the stomach = "I'm ready."
Kiss on the Forehead = "I hope we're together forever."
Kiss on the Ear = "You're my everything."
Kiss on the Cheek = "We're friends."
Kiss on the Hand = "I adore you."
Kiss on the Neck = "we belong together."
Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you."
Kiss on the Lips = "I love you."
What the gesture means...
Holding Hands = "We definitely love each other."
Slap on the Butt = "That's mine."
Holding on tight = "I don't want to let go."
Looking into each other's Eyes = "I just plain love you."
Playing with Hair = "Tell me you love me."
Arms around the Waist = "I love you too much to let go."
Laughing while Kissing = "I am completely comfortable with you."
picking someone up off their feet = "That they love them fully and would do anything for them."
Don't ask for a kiss, take one
If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you're definitely in Love.
Post this again after readin
153rd Day on DA (Promoting You and Your Arts)I am going to do something that will help you out one way or another and as spoken before in my previous journal entry , it will be a win win for all of us. I dont wana sound like a typical salesman selling you snakeoil and giving out promises that I cannot deliver.153rd Day on DA (Promoting You and Your Arts)9 months ago in Personal More Like This
Yes it will be a points for feature but what is SO DIFFERENT from the other features that people are offering. I have been studying it for sometime and its like you pay them and they will just put your avatar on their donation section and it says (watch them , check them out) THATS IT ?! And personally I have checked out with one of my friends here , the end result , it doesnt really brings traffic to their pages at all as their profile is already mixed and mashed with many others on that miserable donation section .
What I will do is , I will need to talk to you regarding many things . Like how you started arts , how you get on to DA , whats your style/personality and whats your goal etc. Many many things
Staying Strong...Not the easiest thing in the world. -.-Staying Strong...1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I basically wanted to make this journal to let you guys know... That I have horrible days too. We're all in this together... Keeping each other optimistic, keeping each other strong.
And I promise to be there for you guys (And I hope you guys are there for me too!) even through the hardest of all times.
I want you guys to know that YOU HAVE PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU, and pssst!! ... i'm one of them
I hope you guys are staying beautiful and wonderful <3 and hey, you're amazing, remember that.
So yeah. I'm not having the best day... But I hope you are having the best day ever
Writing Tournament 2013 ~ Round ICome one and come all, raise your pen take part in this grand literary battle! There are subscriptions, points, and more to be won! You all have until February 19th to enter.Writing Tournament 2013 ~ Round I2 years ago in Personal More Like This
The time is nigh for the Third Annual Writers--club Literature Tournament!
This is a tournament for all writers welcoming prose and poetry! It will be a grand competition spanning three rounds of literary challenge! First of all, you must be willing to write for each of the rounds over the coming months.
There will be judging at the end of each round and those who progress to the next round will have to write a new piece for the next round's theme. A new participants list with the surviving writers will be released upon the announcement of the new round.
To sign up, join the group as a member and add this blog entry to your favorites. From there, feel free to submit your entry to the Tournament Round 1 Folder.
Round I Theme: Immin
FANGIRLING. HARD.OH MY GOSH YOU GUYS. IT CAME. IT CAME EARLY. I'M FANGIRLING SO HARD RIGHT NOW.FANGIRLING. HARD.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
What, you ask?
My "Art of Rise of the Guardians" book!!!! IT CAME A DAY EARLY. AWESOME SURPRISE. It has a foreword by Alec Baldwin, a preface by NONE OTHER THAN WILLIAM JOYCE HIMSELF, and is written by Ramin Zahen.
OHMYGOODNESS. IT'S AWESOME.
It had chapters on each of the characters and their lairs!! AND THERE'S AN ENTIRE. FRIGGIN. SECTION. ON. JACK.
Anyway, I'm writing Chapter 28 right now and should have it up! After that, I'm going to continue fangirling hard as I read through this entire 155-page book.
And then probably write some more. Because I'm going to be inspired.
I'll be sure to end up including some findings that this art book will provide in my writing so it stays accurate!
Thanks, and sorry about the spam.
SOMEONE PINCH ME, I MUST BE DREAMING.
Oh, and I'm going to go see the movie again for the seventh time tomorrow. Fangirli