Melancholy EverlastingI cry at night when you're not watchingMelancholy Everlasting1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I'm sure your breathing is even enough
When I know its dreams you see
Behind your closed brown orbs
I cry out my soul
Sometimes I'm scared,
Because it worries me that you'll wake
I try to keep my sobs inside my chest
I try very hard to keep my tremors
From disrupting the bed
What if after I weep myself asleep,
You notice my drenched pillow?
The knowledge makes it harder to let my heart
Empty all of its distress
What if in the morning you see my swollen eyes?
My red face?
What if you ask for the reason I wept?
What do I say then?
Should I tell you the truth,
That my heart still breaks?
Shall I confess that even with the supposed help,
I can't forget?
I wish to keep my burden hidden
From your kind and caring eyes
I wish to keep my emptiness concealed
From your worrisome prying mind
You might look for solutions,
That won't solve a thing
You might keep looking for answers,
That no one can give
No my lips don't lie
It's just my smile that's disho
SilencioIn the moments of anguishSilencio1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
In the moments of pain
My heart grows silent
Mute with despair
In the moments of hardships
In the moments of trials
My lips are Sealed
And my voice disappears
Because in my worst moments
Because in my darkest moments
My heart is tightly clenched
My emotions in disarray
In such state thus, I cannot speak
Since no one will understand what's happening to me
In such moments thus, I stay mum
Since I can't do anything till I get rid of the hurt
I'll speak up when I regain control
When my emotions are held in check
Then I will surely retell, Everything I felt
When the hurt was unbearable, overflowing in my chest
Till then my voice you will not hear
Till then my inner battle your eyes wont see
Since my lips are sealed and my heart clenched
And my emotions in a current disarray
The RefusalMy eyes stingThe Refusal2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With the truth you spoke
You said there wasn't hope
No way left for us to cope
I spend my days re-reading the letters
Repeating your words
Going over and over my mental recorder
And my eyes sting
The truth you chose to reveal
The meaning I tried to conceal
The actions left undone
The dreams and promises unkempt
So much useless heartfelt mistakes
The past is long gone,
But we still haven't learned to let go
What shall we become?
Memories like everything else
A frozen picture
Another ruined fairytale
So what if we're fading and eventually dying?
So what if we're leaving and eventually drowning?
It no matter if we can still seize the opportunity
It makes no difference if we're willing to carry it out
Till the very end
We still got each other
For the time being at least
We still got a future
Though it might not be as long as we wish
My eyes sting
Hear the truth now
How about it?
Nobody said you had to give up
So why go down that road?
This is me, refusing to let go
SkinsBeneath the tatteredSkins2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
beneath the appearance
of all skins,
quakes the core
to the question
what do we
Whether it be
or a foe,
beneath the surface
there is a low,
the low stretches
from your heart
to the thoughts
in your soul.
Beneath the torn,
we all carry
you may not
the regret and shame,
this is you,
until you're dead
ClearlyWhen my world crashed down,Clearly2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
My heart fell with it,
and it became clear.
When your arms reached out towards me,
my hands returned the favor,
and it all became clear.
when my lips met yours,
I became enchanted,
and it all became clear.
when your hugs blanketed me,
my broken heart was mended,
and it all became clear.
I love you.
Into The DarkWhen light fades to dark,Into The Dark2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
a hush comes over the world.
The grass no longer sways,
the world no longer prays
The birds no longer sing,
the dreamers no longer dream
and I no longer believe,
when light fades into dark.
I can'tyou hurt my heart,I can't2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you disappointed my soul,
You broke my trust,
I just don't know
if I can love you,
I tried to care,
I tried to improve,
I tried to be perfect,
I just don't know
if I can love you,
Remember when I said?in the depthsRemember when I said?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
of my mind,
I don't worry
about little things.
I will always
think out loud,
I will preach
love and peace.
to be happy
you must venture,
always keep your
head up high.
and when life
falls down hill,
never forget i'm
by your side.
Be asBe as aware of the darkBe as2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
as the stars in the sky,
Be as strong as a knot
as the shoes that you tie,
Be as caring as a mother
who nourished you to life,
Be as calm as the ocean
with a low summer tide,
Be as creative as a child
as you go on a life time of rides.
A Pre-DreamYour arms wrapped around meA Pre-Dream2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
stretching for what seems like miles.
You grip the flannel around me
I search deep into your soul
as I lay a kiss upon your neck.
Your hands now rest flat
on the small of my back.
Chills dance to the tip of my spine
as you kiss my lips
time stops for you and I.
we hold eachother close
with hearts so weightless and light,
I dream of drifting far away
as you whisper these words,
"I love you, and good night."
Why Not?Why should all poetryWhy Not?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
end with a sad thought?
Why should you frown
when adventure is what life saught?
And why should you worry for tommorrow
when it hasn't been brought?
And why shouldn't you love
when its what we're all taught?
Why should you not love yourself?
The question is simply "Why Not"?
My Reality (reuploaded)My Reality (reuploaded)1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I suppose you want me to pity you
And look at you with sympathy
And try to help you and reach out
With warm hands
But my hands are like ice
I don't want to help you
I keep my hands to myself
I have sympathy for no one
Just that I have a low tolerance for the weak
I no longer care about what others say about me
I no longer trust people
I don't aim please anyone
I have long since stopped asking for salvation
I realized the worthlessness of my begging
The vulnerability of my cries for help
I am a Godless person
I have little faith
I consider myself abandoned
But really, I don't mind
I'd rather rbe independent
My vanity is gone
My desire for camaraderie is narrowed
I am comforted about being alone
It no longer scares me
I have abandoned compassion, kindness, and mercy
In exchange for gifts that may not make me a better person
But a better survivor
I have strength of mentality and physique
I have power over my anger and sadness
I have unmatched durability, any pain is none other than a feat
Keep me SafeDon't let me fallKeep me Safe2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Keep me strong
I can't sink again
I'm trying my best,
Just hold me
Never ever let go
I'll be fine
As long as I have you,
You are my strength,
You keep me up when I'm low
You are my faith,
I will always believe in you
You are my light,
You always guide me through
Just never let go
I'll do whatever it takes,
Just keep me safe
My sweet love
Church of liesI'm sitting hereChurch of lies2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In this holy temple of lies
Closing my eyes
Tightening my fists
I'm drained; empty
No faith left in the non-existant
Why must you force me to stay?
I don't belong here
I wish I could punch everyone
Everyone that dares to think I believe
I don't deserve this punishment
Make it cease; please
This is my life, I can do what I want
I can believe what I want
No higher power exists; there is no proof
Now let me go my own way; and never set foot in church again.
You and MeYou and me, we found each other hanging each by a thread, just about to snapYou and Me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You and me, we fell in love slowly over time, eventually saving each others soul
You and I, we fit together so perfectly, like puzzle pieces
You and I, we'll always be together, forever and always, even in our hearts
You and me, together intertwined, making love in the depths of the night
You and me, together we will stay, keeping us alive with joy and faith
You and I, loving so intense, we'll never break our promises, or be forever in our debt
You and I, kissing through the night, slipping each a little tongue, loving it tonight
You and me, cuddling under covers, loving every moment, falling asleep in each others sweet embrace
See you in my dreams tonight, my sweet love...
Nothing left..How many times have I fallen down,Nothing left..2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
how many times have I thought
that I will stay lying on the ground.
And how many times,
will you just push me down.
From all the things,
that tear me apart,
you would win he first prize.
And no matter,
what I will say or do.
You will always
put the entire blame on me,
just like you always do.
There is nothing I can do,
so i look up at you
and fake a smile.
there is no way out.
Just Promise Me...You shouldn't do that stuffJust Promise Me...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
There's no reason to
I know you're not addicted
But please just stop now
Before you know it you will be addicted
You tell me to stop cutting
You hate it when I do
But tell me, how is that any different?
How is it any different than what you're doing?
If you really hated it so much, why would you do it again?
You can have fun without doing that...
Just as easily...
If you do it again.. Just think
I'll cut my arm and leave a mark
Leave a nasty mark for memories sake
Just promise me you won't.
Just Wanna ScreamI feel like screamingJust Wanna Scream2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can't stop crying
Why am I trying??
It's just not working
Can I scream until I die!?
I'm so fucking pissed
I wish you were here
I love you so
I hate it
I hate how your family treats you
Like a piece of shit
I know you're not!
I'm pretty sure they hate me
Why can't they accept me!?
I just wanna help
I just wanna make it stop
Take all the pain away
Kiss you all better...
Fuck, fuck, fuck
I just wanna scream!
A friend that is all I could ever be, Maybe?A friend that is all I could ever be, Maybe?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Voice follows the melody, singing the song he is playing
While my heart and mind are somewhere else
Only MeMy breath reeks of sour vomitOnly Me3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
My eyes are red rimmed
The rain falls thick and heavy
Masking the tears that fall down my face
I see my breath
Wisteria climbs up the trees like kudzu
Its gradient of white to purple I once found so beautiful
I cannot recall any emotions or what they felt like
How did I feel?
Could I feel?
I look down at my shaking hands
Once pale skin red and swollen
My knuckles are bleeding but I don't remember what I did to them
My legs feel sticky and hot
My heart is pounding
Searching hard for a happy day
You and me
We seemed so long ago
But we were happy
I was happy
Happier than I had ever been
You never even gave me a chance
But I promised you could have yours
Was it only five days ago you promised never to leave me?
To never try and run off on you?
To never let you go ?
And here you are doing all of those to me.
You don't care what you're putting me through
You only care about yourself
And yet here I am
Trying desperately not to lose y
Star light...Star light, Star brightStar light...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
First Star I see tonight
I wish I may,
I wish I might,
Please dear Star,
Don't go to heaven tonight.
You're too sweet,
You're too strong,
To ever let those teardrops fall.
People see you,
They instiantly love you.
Or at least they should.
But instead they hate and cause drama.
They are the reason dear Star,
They are the reason you went to such great measures,
And ended your life beautiful Star.
Star light, Star bright
This Star has died tonight
I wish you peace,
I wish you love,
I wish you the best,
In the heavens above.
Dying for SilenceAll I want is silenceDying for Silence2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just some peace and quiet
It's been too hectic lately
I'm afraid I'll go insane
Relief is foreign to me
Just the memories of all the times
The times silence came so easily
The times I dreamt so easily
There is never any time
For even one minute
Not even in the dead of night
Because my mind is screaming
For just a bit of silence.