s h u t u p.
Too many "fuck you's"
that morph into
drip off this
Try and make it better. Fail. Try again. Break down.
So many faults
that seem to just
turn me into someone
Look into the mirror. See nothing but a clone. Fabrication. No longer me.
I stare and want
to break that glass
so that I can also
b r e a k.
Try and say something. Turns into nothing but rage. Take it out on you.
This shattered heart
only wants to make it
and become one again.
"I want to hate you."
"But I can't."
"So I hate me instead."
"But why won't this stop?"
"Why can't you make it stop?"
"...it's not my fault."
Say what you want to say. Honest brutality.
"H E L P M E"
It's time for me to
s h u t u p.
Ode to BrasOh bra, dear bra,Ode to Bras1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
such close friends we are.
Never straying by my side,
never going far.
But bra, dear bra,
I must confess it this day:
At times you can be painful,
and my skin tends to flay.
Oh bra, dear bra,
why must you be so conflicting?
Meant to hold up females modestly,
yet force us into awkward itching.
So bra, dear bra,
I am afraid I must ask:
For being such a wondrous garment,
why must you be such an ass?
Oh bra, dear bra,
so tenacious around our chests.
Would it kill your rigid fabric
to alleviate our suffering breasts?
Yes bra, dear bra,
I mean my words today.
Kindly stop your aches and pains
or a dirty game I'll be forced to play.
Oh bra, dear bra,
I wish it this truth to not be so.
If only you were reasonable
and rid us of our feminine woe.
Poetry is:Poetry is:Poetry is:1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
the adhesive to
a fragmented soul;
broken wings that still dream of
F L Y I N G
how snapdragons breathe stardust
and orchids perform ensembles.
when 'imagination' and 'reality' at last discover a
c r o s s r o a d s,
and rush to embrace one another with fervent limbs.
why gravity seems to f
l, taking the world with it.
what flows through the veins of every pair of [shipwrecked; star-crossed] lovers.
who I am; who I was; and who I want to be.
They say beauty is only skin deep,so hand over that defected scalpel in your bloodless handsThey say beauty is only skin deep,1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
and watch carefully as I peel away this tainted skin
to make way for my blackened and corrupted
And everyone can finally see
the grotesque monster that lies deep within
this soiled excuse they seem to enjoy calling
If beauty is in the eye of the beholder,
then why is it that I can't stand
gazing upon my reflection
every time I pass by a mirror?
For YouYour heart may bleed diamonds,For You1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
but they all they see is dust.
Your soul may run black with ink,
yet they see it as pandemonium.
The miasmas you feel in your mind are not discord,
but a precious, beautiful gift meant solely for you.
The letters care not
however you arrange them;
perfection is perfection
when it comes from your veins.
These worlds exist for you created them—
there is no such thing as
as long as you know their universes.
Cry and laugh and weep and smile,
for the blossoms you water shall grow
into a microcosm of your own design.
You are a god and a king,
a queen and a demon,
whose words shall turn
heartstrings to gold.
Freedom is the only chain you must break in half,
life is the only prison you must escape from,
and the truth is the only lie you must forget.
Vengeful phantoms in a corporeal form walk the earth;
humanity will spite you for you let
WhisperI want to create an aromatic sea of jasminesWhisper1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
and stardust mountains of silver and —
Inkblot skeletons with paper mache
hearts, whose bones shall burn with one glance at the
sun; gravestones of blood diamonds and tears of thistles...
Harp strings ringing in grotesque harmony, screaming
for slender fingers to pluck and caress with devotion.
I want to write
are my words poetic enough for you?maybe not.are my words poetic enough for you?1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
because i will never be the fire-hearted girl with remedial stardust lips,
dancing with the astral wolves that hunt beneath her moon-kissed skin,
with the courage to plant wilting lilacs into every crippled soul she finds.
but what if they were?
then i would be the ink blots coating the archives of humankind,
the fractured jewel tucked away in a catastrophic dragon's chest,
and the lyric every mismatched bone engraves into their marrow.
NecromancyI wanted to see what makes a human heartNecromancy1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
so I took a scimitar and ripped apart your decrepit
and inside that primordial ribcage I found nothing but
And you merely gave a cruel parody of a
dug your bloodstained claws into your
and tore out that infestation you called a
"Analyze that well, my little necromancer," you
fangs dripping with the acid I once begged to
"Perhaps you'll be as wise as me once you find the
I could only watch as you sunk back down into
clutching that contaminated Philosopher's Stone
knowing you had replaced my heart with the poison known as
'l o v e.'
Flights of FancyI believe inFlights of Fancy2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I believe in lands somewhere over the rainbow
I believe in worlds hidden under the rabbit hole
I believe in kingdoms on the other side of the wardrobe
I believe in enchanted forests where animals talk in riddles
I believe in palaces where wizards entertain immortal kings
I believe in
in the magic and wonder that only a child's eyes can see
in the universes hopes and dreams can create with a single thought
I believe in everything that so many say are imaginary; in everything that so many people scoff at and call me fanciful and immature for believing in
However, I simply say to them:
"I just still have my imagination, is all."
Storybook EndingHer ink-stained lips have kissed too many a forgotten page,Storybook Ending1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
and phoenix down]
And her Prince Charming has yet to come,
shattering like stars]
So all she can do is gaze out her tower window,
concealing poisoned apples]
Clutch that corroded and timeworn blade,
tearing down castle walls]
Toss her childhood fables to the waltzing of the moon,
[even broken wings
wish for happily ever afters]
[once upon a time
there was a girl who became her own hero.]
Counting life10 080 minutes have left meCounting life8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With 5 puncture marks
24 hours of antidote
37 new lines and
19 hours of lost sleep
I have gained
A brand new bracelet
(With my name and date neatly printed)
3.4 hours of how are you??
And 5.5 uncertain smiles
You have given me a lack of privacy
Disguised as an improvement
21 hugs and 32
Declarations of love
You asked 51 questions and
I gave you 2 answers
and 25 uncertainties
I have spent 17.2 minutes in tears
10 minutes screaming
and 45 hours in silence
I have given up 14 times and
by tomorrow it will be 16
I am left with 166.5 doubts and
10 080 minutes have left me
with nothing but numbers.
Passionate SovereigntyI'm so tired of writing love stories;Passionate Sovereignty2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
when I've not had one of my own.
I'm so weary of pretending I'm beautiful;
when my looks could turn a man to stone.
I'm so fatigued waiting for my prince;
when I'm not even a princess.
I'm so sick of pretending to be a siren;
when I could barely pass for an enchantress.
I'll tear down this repulsive prison of a
they call the mind,
brick by hideous brick;
and write my own fairytale at last.
Welcome to WonderlandFalling down, down, downWelcome to Wonderland2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Spinning 'round and 'round
All around, the ticking of clocks
Such a discordant sound
Right is left and left is right
Night is day and day is night
Up is down and down is up
Life is death and death is life
Voices whisper from every niche
Screams echo and cause a twitch
Claws and teeth threaten to kill
Eyes wild with bliss of such a thrill
Run, hide, fight, or plead
Nothing shall work, nothing you need
The sun and moon will laugh as you cry
As the Queen shrieks her commands to the sky
Blood forms penumbras as heads roll
A cry of defiance with each bell toll
The jury turns in accord, madness shining bright
Their question full of words to make your skin crawl with fright
"ArE yOu AlIcE?"
T i c k
T o c k
T i c k
T o c k
"OfF wItH hEr HeAd!"
~Welcome to Wonderland, Alice~
Pills"Did you remember to take your pills?"Pills1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yes, does it matter? I don't know if they're even working anymore. I feel so lost with out her. I have no idea where my life is going.
And college is so close. How will I survive in the real world? Will I last?
It feels like everything is spinning out of control. I'm so scared!
I can't focus- I can't even breath!
I don't know what's happening to me
All you think is that I just need my pills and I'll be fine. That normal child that you want. Not me. Not a freak.
And I know that I remind you of yourself so can't you see how I feel? Don't you remember? The emptiness that filled you? The hopelessness?
That's the only thing I feel now. Do you understand how much it hurts? I don't want to be like this.
Everyone that I care about is disappearing from me. They've stopped caring about me. I don't know
Safety Instructions“Warning, weak and fragile!”Safety Instructions9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
you labelled me,
because I broke.
“Replace when damaged!”
is your brand of trouble shooting.
You never read half the manual
before (ab)using the product,
otherwise you couldn't have missed this:
Important Safety Instructions
Note: Every human is breakable
without proper care and maintenance.
Caution: Too much pressure can cause mental injury.
Caution: Abrasive words might damage god's product.
Warning! Failure to talk things through can cause electric shock to the heart.
Warning! Persistent ignorance kills!
You didn't even read the signs written all over my face:
Caution, valuable, handle with care!
24 Hoursi.24 Hours1 year ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Dreams will slowly fade
as dawn breaks through the windows;
morning’s here again.
Stomachs growl and groan
as smells from the kitchen waft;
afternoon is here.
Dusk paints a red sky,
the sun retires for the night;
evening shall bring peace.
The stars and moon dance,
a waltz of shining passion;
night has come at last.
How It IsIf you look into my eyesHow It Is9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
if you try to see my soul
you'll be searching forever because nothing is there anymore.
You can crawl inside me and search.
But you won't find anything.
I promise you I'm okay
Don't worry (I say that too much).
'Nothing' is better than 'bad', right?
(That's what you're led to believe anyway)
That nothing is better than pain and feeling empty is better than hurting
At least pain is real
at least its a feeling.
There was a time I wanted nothing more than to make all the feelings dissappear.
I'd give anything to be back there.
I'm nothing now.
I can dance...but I have no rhythm.
I can sing...but my voice is hollow.
I can paint and I can draw...but there's no heart in it.
There's no heart in me.
You can see straight through me
You could love me if you want
But I don't think I could love you back
You can't hurt me anymore
But can you still try?
Not The Girl You Think I AmI'm not the girl you think I amNot The Girl You Think I Am9 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I promise I never will be
I'm not what you expect and know
Just open your eyes and see
I'm not as simple and innocent
As you all want to think
I'm not so cute and I'm not sweet
So take another drink
Because when you see the real me
You'll wish you never knew
That one day I'm going to hurt you
One day I'll fall through
So you want to know the truth?
To pull away the covers?
Well the girl I really am you know
Has a heart a different colour
I could tell you just who I am
And who I want to be
but who I'm not is more important
So tell me what you see
You see the girl you think I am
But I've been fooling you
I'll push you hard and knock you down
And maybe tell you the truth
You think you understand me
The reason why my heart beats
But you didn't see me run away
Down jagged city streets
I'm brave and strong and wonderful
That's what you seem to know
But I'm cracked and I'm a coward
And the courage is all a show
Plastic smiles have stolen moments
When you could
fingernails.She used to chew her fingernails.fingernails.5 years ago in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
she digs craters in her arms,
and mars her skin with scars.
I used to tease her about digging for her golden heart, and barreling through her veins in mining carts.
I realize shes digging for all her insecurities.
I watch her as her lips move in silent repetition,
My name is Angel.
My name is Angel.
My name is-
and her fingernails line her shoulder blades in red. She smiles like innocence and makes me wonder if the fists pounding against cushioned walls and the eyes filled with nothing but white spaces are really angels screaming for home.
pretty little poet fingersfabricated gods rest between thepretty little poet fingers1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
languid crevices of
her fingertips, scribbling profanities
all over her skin.
she's just mismatched bones
& blue bruises, telling of forbidden
love through archaic letters.
a tongue made for
wanderlust, & eyes made
for the stars,
even the devil fears her.
Protect MeProtect me from strangers,Protect Me1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Those that want to harm.
Protect me from liars,
Using me for their good.
Protect me from my heart,
It's so easy to break.
Protect me from the voice,
She has such anger.
Protect me from depression,
It can overwhelm.
Protect me from myself,
I'm the biggest threat.
Unheard of and undefinedSometimes,Unheard of and undefined1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have this sudden impulse to
bite off my tongue.
It wasn't made for
pretty words and kept promises
in the first place.
Back to back and
straight on til daybreak,
our soliloquy seems never ending.
When was the last time
you remembered to cry for all the broken hearts
that were not your own?
TonightTonight I tried to tear my skinTonight6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Straight from my bones
But all that was under my fingernails
Were pieces of peeled paint
Tonight I tried to open my chest
To release the thing that lives inside me
But my skin is made of steel
And my fingers bled
Tonight my phone is silent
And a woman on the other line
That you are unavailable or
cannot be reached
I understand, I say
It's how it's always been
Tonight the sky is exploding
And the walls are caving in
But I am scared to go outside
I am scared to move
Tonight I am alone
Wearing a robe, a bandage
Drinking a sad cocktail
And hating my love
Tonight I tried to run away
But my feet are now raw
And I fell
I'm giving up
Scream baby screamScream baby screamScream baby scream9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Make them hear your voice
Show them what you're worth
And I promise
one day they will notice
(Just keep screaming baby
Then they might look closer)
Whispers wil get you nowhere babe
You gotta scream until they notice
Wake 'em up and break 'em up
and make 'em open their eyes
Scream baby scream
Cos you're a whirlwind in disguise
And you're nothing until you scream
You're not the kind to run away
but you're not the kind to stay
You're the kind to fake it, make up
and wake up all alone
Scream your little heart out baby
And pull yourself together
Scream into the lonely night
And they'll see who you really are
Scream baby scream
Or they'll never understand
Scream into the ocean
Scream into the silence
With a voice like a fallen angel
They better listen sometime soon
Scream baby scream
And you might find a way out
Scream baby scream
And I promise
One day they'll notice