In a Little Girl's MindThere sits the girl with the things in her eyes
Monsters, destruction, and sweet butterflies
Hopscotch and daisies, surrounded by screams
Beautiful dresses now torn at the seams
Crayons and paintbrushes, villains and grins
Young, gladsome innocence, hatred and sins
Little red houses on roads left to fade
Gorgeous moonlight shining off of the blade
Blood pouring out as she cries her own name
Knowing she's forced to take each bit of blame
She could have stopped it and left it behind
All of these things in her troubled young mind
She could have saved them if she dared to try
Rather, though, she left herself there to die.
Now, others watch as she
Fake friendsFAKE FRIENDS: Say they are too busy to listen to your problems, but when it comes to them they expect you to have all the time in the world.Fake friends5 months ago in Personal More Like This
REAL FRIENDS: Not only kick everything out of their schedule to listen to what's wrong, but help come up with vindictive plans to make you feel a whole lot better!
FAKE FRIENDS: Make you say sorry when you want to talk to them at odd hours of the night, or even just hang out at odd hours.
REAL FRIENDS: Come right over and hang out with you, until you either fall asleep, or kick them out.
FAKE FRIENDS: call your parents mr./ mrs.
REAL FRIENDS: call your parents DAD/ MOM.
FAKE FRIENDS: borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.
REAL FRIENDS: keep your stuff so long they forget it's yours.
FAKE FRIENDS: will help you when you fall.
REAL FRIENDS: will jump on top of you.
FAKE FRIENDS: say "love ya" jokingly.
REAL FRIENDS: say "I love you" and they mean it.
FAKE FRIENDS: Will sit with you after a breakup and say "I'm sorry"
REAL FRIENDS: Will
Depression :|People say depression is just a state of mind.Depression :|1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Just a state of being.
Well they're wrong.
Depression isn't a life style,
Or a CHOICE.
It's an emptiness.
A part of you missing.
You wake up,
Feeling like you got no sleep at all.
You lay down,
Hoping to drown your misery with peaceful dreams.
You cry everyday,
Not knowing why life is this way.
You wonder everynight,
Why you have to be the one who suffers.
So why even bother to "help us"?
There's nothing you can do.
There's nothing you can do to "help us."
So Just STOP trying.
You're waisting your time.
Mental self-harmSelf-harm isn't always about harming yourself physically.Mental self-harm5 months ago in Personal More Like This
Very often it's also about mental harm, in some cases all about mental harm.
I for one have never ever cut myself, even though I've played with the thought.
But for many years I've harmed myself with my own mind.
Digging deep mental holes in which I tried to bury myself when I couldn't handle all the chaos going on.
A lot of times I've harmed myself by forcing myself to not make myself heard when what I really needed was someone to speak to.
Ignored friends when they tried to reach out and help me. And then coming back and begged for help just to repeat the same damn mistake over and over again.
I don't do shit like that very often anymore. But sometimes I just can't do any better than close every possible way into my heart and mind, and just shut everyone out. Even close friends that I care about. They who care about me.
In the long run, and most of the time in the short run too, it's nothing else but self destructive. Obviousl
Hey guys! Pony Podcast Featuring Me!Yep, I sound young but I don't care XD Anyways Pony-Pod-Live is about to begin some come check it out! http://www.twitch.tv/ponypodlive#Hey guys! Pony Podcast Featuring Me!3 months ago in Personal More Like This
RANDOMhttp://youtu.be/2FKuU0S83mgRANDOM3 months ago in Personal More Like This
Il potere di Charmix!
(Stella, fata del sole splendente!)
E ti trasformerai
Alla forza che
C'è cresce dentro te!
Il potere di Charmix!
È il cuore di Winx
(Flora, fata de la natura!)
Magia oltre i limiti
Credici e vedrai
Non fermarti mai
Apri le ali e vai!
Splendente più che mai
(Musa, fata de la musica!)
Oggi più che mai
Siamo noi le Winx!
(Tecna, fata de la tecnologia!)
E ti trasformerai
Non c'è limite
Alla forza che
Che cresce dentro te!
*dances for no reason!*
[Theme] Piercings, Tattoo and Colorful HairAs you know I think a lot and I want to listen to many opinions as possible. So I thought I'd give you a hint what I will talk in my blog/portfolio/website as soon as it's finished.[Theme] Piercings, Tattoo and Colorful Hair3 months ago in Personal More Like This
You see it everywhere: Piercings, Tattoos or/and colorful hair.
I follow some hairblogs on tumblr (lovelydyedlocks.tumblr.com, fyhaircolors.tumblr.com) and I see beautiful girls, scene hair, piercings and tattoos. It seems like a stereotype to me but those blogs make me adore those girls.
I love colorful hair. My faves are pastel colors, pink, purple and white/silver hair. Those blogs have a ask feature too and so I read many questions on dying and problems with a job.
There it is: Problems with getting a job.
Do you think those things are the reason why you don't get a job? Well to me -as a customer- it make a person who help me at a shop or something even more sympathic. I maybe can talk about her/his tattoos...that they look beautiful or great. The same to piercings or colair (my shortcut for color
I Miss you.I miss those daysI Miss you.9 months ago in Personal More Like This
where i could smile,
but the sadness stings,
and the pain is vile.
It haunts my thoughts,
and tortures my dreams.
A plague that rots,
while slashing the seams.
It has torn pieces from me,
and scattered them apart.
It has possessed my dreams,
and destroyed my heart.
I long for the nights
that were full of bliss
and my dreams would glow,
after a goodnight kiss.
Those days are long gone,
and so are the nights.
The sadness still lingers
but my hope... It still fights.
i hate words.because the real emotion, the dark deep emotion, sounds so ordinary when we put them into words, and i've long given up saying anything .i hate words.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
because all i'd get is a roomful of blank stares, misunderstanding, prejudice,
i really hate words. but i have no other way of showing what i mean. i'm stuck with this damn language that won't express what i feel, not ever, not even 1% of what i'm trying to say.
that i've resorted to letting them grow like trees in me and wither out quietly. they say you cannot be good at everything but i'm so imperfect
and nobody understands what i ever mean. the lack of sleep, combined with the bright white lights and blank cement walls.
staring into your back, walking in shadows in the night.
watching you turn the corner and my stoplight turning green.
the hope for starbucks and a good book,
i've long given up finding anyone extraordinary, because that's only an idea we're in love with, but you'll be disappointed. you say don't be negative, but that's only because
...Things.So for those of you who know me in real life....Things.1 month ago in Personal More Like This
I feel like lately my group of friends has been like treating me like crap.
I'm really serious here.
I feel like the unwanted friend of the group.
Like I am always less than everyone else.
And I feel like my drawings, Writings, Etc. are like crap to everyone except for like 2 people most.
and you know....that hurts your confidence...
thinking that your best...just isn't good enough.
And I feel that some people just don't get how my personality is...
Yes, I can get obnoxious.
Yes, I can get a little bitchy.
Yes, I make fun of everything.
But that doesn't mean you have to go and make me feel more depressed than I already am.
I also feel there is an unfair bias in my group of friends at school.
like guys, its ok to like someone's stuff, but when someone else has something they want to show you just don't blow them off.
that's what I feel is happening to me. and I'm sorry for like any of you people who read this and did nothing to me ever in my
Just pointing out somethings...Recently, there's a lot of things that I have dealt with. I've think that I had a break through in myself. I always wanted to get it out and didn't know how, but I have found one person who have made me thought hard about it. This person really taught me to speak for what I believe in. I do believe and I do dream but the material for it is so hard to find. I feel like I've fallen hard and I've been on my knee literally begging for someone to help. But no one can, but it doesn't mean I will give up. I just hope that one day accomplished what I always wanted to accomplished! people will know who I am, even if it takes millions of years, and into the next life. I will at least get my message out there. Maybe many of you want to give up and decided that you made a big mistake, but take a long good thinking about it, and ask yourself; Who Am I?Just pointing out somethings...2 months ago in Personal More Like This
I am Russia, da?Italy (Feliciano Vargas)I am Russia, da?4 months ago in Personal More Like This
[ ] You were bullied a lot in your childhood
[ ] You adore pasta, pizza, cheese, and fruit.
[ ] You're very happy-go-lucky
[ ] You constantly have a dozy look on your face as if you're always away with the fairies
[ ] You have a long curly strand of hair that always tends to stick up
[x] You're a good artist
[x] You can be clumsy
[x] You have (a) friend(s) you always depend upon if you mess up something (love you guys o3o)
[ ] If your life was in danger, you would do the typical Italian thing and say: "PLEASE DON'T KILL ME! I HAVE RELATIVES IN YOUR COUNTRY!"
[ ] You would surrender in a war situation
Germany (Ludwig Beilschmidt)
[ ] You're very stoic and serious
[ ] Sausages are your favorite foods.
[x] You like to walk dogs/your dog
[x] Your boss/principal/tutor/home-room teacher is a nut-case.
[ ] You love rules and think they should always be followed
[/] You think the world would be better if everyone played by the rules
[ ] You work very hard too hard
No one can be a child for longI have a best friend. He's pretty cool, for a nerd. We chat and laugh and he torments me and I torment him back. We're the best of friends but...No one can be a child for long4 months ago in Personal More Like This
For the longest time I couldn't understand why he couldn't ever tell me things. I didn't understand why he never let me know what he was really thinking. He always said that he had to block out what he was feeling, no matter what that was. Today I found out why.
We were hanging out but instead of being my cheery, joking self I was gloomy. I had a lot on my mind, you see. My friends all asked me what was wrong. I told them I'd be fine just had a stomach ache, which was somewhat true. Course, my best friend here could see right through that. "Seriously, what's the matter?" He asked, with that look that says "Spit it out. You know I'm going to get it out of you eventually." I sighed, knowing that eventually I'd spill it all to him like usual. But then I got angry. "You never tell me anything so why should I tell you anything!? You never tell me
Made a chat roomyeah its for roleplaying or just ranting about stuffMade a chat room5 months ago in Personal More Like This
http://us6.chatzy.com/62950594050459 heres the link, you can message me for the password (since its required)
125 Q and AStolen from :iconkauslynn:125 Q and A5 months ago in Personal More Like This
1) Are you really ready for 125 questions?
2) What's your favorite snack?
3) Do you believe in God?
Yes, but I don't shove my beliefs down other peoples throat
4) Who did you last say "I love you" to?
The trees in my front lawn
5) Do you regret it?
6) Have you ever been depressed?
7) Have a best friend?
8) Are you a boy or girl?
9) What's your favorite food?
Ice counts again right?
10) How do you want to die?
I would like to die by an over dose of happiness
11) What did you last eat?
12) Played any sports?
13) Do you bite your nails?
Omnomnomnomnom What? Oh... maybe
14) When was your last physical fight?
About four days ago
15) Do you have an attitude?
16) Ever been arrested?
No, but cops have been to my house multiple times
17) What is your real name?
(Bleep bleep bleep)
18) Do you have a lot of friends?
19) Are you gonna get drunk
Nyeh.so my scanner broke again today... XDNyeh.5 months ago in Personal More Like This
maybe its because my little cousin spilled juice on it...just maybe..
i pretty much just wrote a journal to tell you my scanner is broken and so i shall not be uploading anything except my writings...
And i wanted to wish you guys a merry Christmas and all... its a little Early i know...
but i seem to miss important holidays...
Happy Holidays~ XD
UpdateUPDATE on "Asians": here's a post on the same topic, but not as hateful and mean and exaggerated as mine: http://lilpunc414.deviantart.com/journal/This-Um-342411618Update5 months ago in Personal More Like This
This one actually has a point, it's not just pure anger like mine.
NOW, i know i exaggerated a lot and it's lame to say those things about a whole continent and i'm sorry for that.
I'm still angry about it, though. [a lot less than yesterday but.. xD]
Anyway, some people [from all the continents xD] juuust suck. [and as :iconlilpunc414: also said, it's not that they eat them, it's how they kill them. it's just sick]
Oh, and, :iconponylov:, you were right. I DO feel bad about it. Next time i'll be more careful with my words.
Take care and thank you for your feedback
Ok, wth?! Nostradamus Vs. Gangnam style?!Just check this video please and tell me what you think. O.OOk, wth?! Nostradamus Vs. Gangnam style?!6 months ago in Personal More Like This
It's just so sick.
NOTE: if i'm asking for opinions, it doesn't mean that i'm pro or against the topic.
Also, do NOT comment if you don't read or completely know what you're saying.
SometimesSometimes I think life hates me. It likes to tangle me up in sticky situations and give me choices that I can't choose. Temptation is a force I'm not sure I can outrun. I'm no cowboys angel. I'm unsure. Feels slippery here. I'm going to fall.Sometimes6 months ago in Personal More Like This
Sometimes, I'm afraid of where I'll land.
Spirit DayIm glad to see so many people supporting Spirit Day~Spirit Day7 months ago in Personal More Like This
Its a good cause to let people know that its ok to be different
i see some people hating on the LGBT community and its kinda upsets me..
like just because someone loves the same gender doesnt make them different
they're just looking for love like the rest of us~
and its because of some judgemental people that they feel they cant express themselves.
i mean you wouldnt like it if you couldnt get married just because you like the opposite gender would you?
i know i wouldnt.
so why is it illegal? why cant people accept it?
we're all created equal.
but people treat them like they're inferior and dont have any right to get married.
and thats wrong.
i cant stomach people who hate on the LGBT community.
i support it with all my heart because i have friends and family who are Gay and Lesbian
and i dont treat them any different than anyone else ^-^
and dont hate on me because im a supporter.
i have an opinion and i am going
................I was in the kitchen cleaning, Because the kitchen was just disgusting.... And i was talking back and forth with someone in the room farthest away from the others..... And it took me 'till just now.. To realize that;................8 months ago in Personal More Like This
1.) No one lives in that room...
2.) I'm the only one awake in the house...
Well... That's perfect... (~._.)~
We were having a conversation about how crazy it was; That we may be moving to a different house soon.... And now i'm freaked out because he/she said "We" e e;;
Cold."Tell me a sad story."Cold.8 months ago in Personal More Like This
"That's not a tragedy, that's a pathos."
"Melpomene told it to me."
"I thought I was your muse."
My head is stranger. I have a virus.
Devious Journal Entry1. Do you care about others?Devious Journal Entry8 months ago in Personal More Like This
2. Do you know how to love?
3. Can you show that love to others?
4. Are you human?
5. Does being human allow you to make mistakes?
6. Are you able to smile at any of the questions I just asked?
School is going to kill meso i offically start school in 20 days and im not happy.School is going to kill me10 months ago in Personal More Like This
i cant switch one one of my classes out. they said so.
i havent read at all this summer. so im screwed.
i havent been inspired lately because of School and i appologize for that to anyone who likes my drawings/ writings.
highschool is going to suck because of the people in my grade who torture me.
(i hate being bullied, but then again who likes it?)
i have no clothes, (im too poor.)
and i cant see my bestie anymore till school because of shopping.
but imma keep smiling and push though it.
because i am a woman. and i can do better than complain.
Daddy ... It hurtsMy name is Chris,Daddy ... It hurts1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I am three,
My eyes are swollen...
I cannot see.
I must be stupid,
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better,
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I can't do a wrong,
I can't speak at all,
Or else I'm locked up,
All day long.
When I'm awake,
I'm all alone,
The house is dark,
My folks aren't home.
When my mommy does come home,
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll just get
One whipping tonight.
I just heard a car,
My daddy is back
From Charlie's bar
I hear him curse,
My name is called,
I press myself
Against the wall.
I try to hide
From his evil eyes,
I'm so afraid now,
I'm starting to cry.
He finds me weeping,
Calls me ugly words,
He says its my fault,
He suffers at work.
He slaps and hits me,
And yells at me more,
I finally get free,
And run to the door.
He's already locked it,
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me,
Against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor,
With my bones nearly broken,