everything is broken ... you can see in people faces ,
every single one of them .
but you see . . . that's also how the light gets in .
so don't you give up .
Cause real Darkness, is something more than just a lack of light.
before i say something in here,i guess it may be normal to everyone , but i have been feeling broken . I think people have problems like everybody else , i am not talking about problems . i felt this emptiness and i couldn't figure it out why i was so blocked out . why i haven't been able to shoot for almost a year .
this shooting today was very different from any of what i had experienced . Veronika helped me in something i haven't been able to feel , something very personal . . .
... as you look over my gallery , you will see a lot of changes and seasons, but nothing quite like today . i was looking into the shooting today , i recognized something quite not visible to the eyes .
and there it was .
h o p e .
i wish i could say it was all along but ,it was not . it absence was very much missed .
i know for the watcher for now on somethings will change , some people might leave , some people might like it . i have been using some new techniques over those new photos you are about to see.
"If I could feel anything It wouldn't feel at all like this If I could wake anywhere I wouldn't wake up at home If I could hear anything It would be your voice to say You should be you should be at home here now I don't feel at home at all
This is where I will sit To pay for all the wrong I've done This is where I will think About all the wrong I've done Hope your funeral goes as planned And everyone falls all around you Bringing flowers to make a pillow For your weary head I wont be there when you scream At all the voices all around you Saying the things you never ever want to hear about I wont be there when you die
A thousand deaths for just one lie It's amazing how you stay awake at all I'll be waiting way down here And I'll be waiting all alone Waiting for you waiting for you
All the rats and spiders Will probably laeve me here alone Just like everyone they've got something better That they can do Everything that was to be Forgotten us and will be gone Everyone that was to be Now somehow all became a memory "
it kills me to know it won't be anymore years to share , but memories to keep . thus truly hurts . i was never prepared to this . Coldplay was right : "nobody said it will be easy , but no one ever said it would be this hard"
He tried to tell you what it is, but you ignored him. I understand why. You don't want to look at anyone's pain. The trouble is, when you try to avoid it, you stop helping. People end up alone. Help kind of moves around. Like... light. Even a little bit is good.
Can you be an adjunct in a person's life? Someone who people does not consider or give much importance. Could you be the right person, but only at times ? Is this a deficiency ? From whom? Would that be right? Should we learn how to accept our importance in the right moments ? Or should we take more pride or self-esteem to the point of not accepting certain situations. ..