A Day -- of Weatheri think it was just that one day -- i cannot remember the weather
it was a day i would never forget -- it was probably sunshine and hot
it was the day, when i lost my faith in you -- it was summer after all
when my heart was destroyed, i sat there and heard -- mid summer, to be precise
that, in my time of agony, my time of destruction -- the winter was yet to come
you were too busy, to answer my call, too much to do -- leaves about to fall
i stood alone again, not sure of what to do -- there was chance of rain
and my heart broke...slowly as I hung up the call -- clouds dark
if only I knew the troubles to come - tear drops started like rain
3:00 AM ConfessionsEvery time I think about it3:00 AM Confessions2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Vicious thoughts flood my mind
Every day that is spent alone
Reminds me of what I once had
You don't talk to me anymore
The rumours you spread show that you no longer care
Hurt me with threats and insults
Inflict loneliness on me
Go about with your own life
Hide the truth about us
Understand that we are different people now
Remember the bad times and forget the good
Tell yourself I don't matter anymore
Say goodbye forever
What was there to destroy?I am a hollow beingWhat was there to destroy?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With a beating heart
I am stuck in a hollow world
Lifeless bodies surround me
I am screaming out
Weary eyes, raw throat
I am standing behind you
Ignored every second
I am looking in the mirror
Realize I've destroyed myself
But then again, what was there to destroy...?
StopStop telling me how I feel.Stop2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
For how are you supposed to know?
will shine through.
Stop telling me how to live.
You aren't my controller.
know what's best
let me live my life.
I'll be disappointed if I want to.
I will feel pain when I need to.
But I will love.
And that is something that never ends.
Trigger: MusicTo hear the musicTrigger: Music1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
To hear the sound
Is all it requires.
That voice, plays in your head.
No, not the singer's, his.
And you slip.
Memory after memory attack you
With barbed edges, slicing
Attacking your mind.
Tears stream, hands move
To find the blade
To make a cut.
A simple note
A well known voice
Can reduce you to this
What can I say?
The Ending - Four Word PoemItThe Ending - Four Word Poem2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
LucyLucyLucy2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I watched her die
For two years
Knowing -- knowing
That it was cancer
I was told
Two years ago
She has watched me
Grow and learn
Happy to see me
A smile on her face
We tried surgery
Finally in the end
We tried no more
And let her die
In my arms.
She has been my companion
For 12 years
Just been there
She was my loving dog, who cared for me.
Lucy RIP 8/1/2013
FutureI sit here waiting for you to seeFuture1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
That it's with you I'm meant to be
If we can survive, we'll have a family
Husband, son, cat...
FailureI've lost my dreamFailure1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's shattered, gone
I stand here with shards surrounding me
Dreams of a future
A career and happiness
and I'm left here
So once again,
I turn to the blade
to find it gone.
I thought I'd recovered
I was denied my hope
it laughs in my face
Death, is what I want.
NewIt turns outNew1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
you have to
give up everything
to be new
But the new
and more right back
DeservingI don't deserve you.Deserving1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
That much is true.
I could ask for...
Yet here you stand
In front of me
When will I wake up,
Is this a dream?
But you're still there,
Why do you care?
You are perfect.
I can't say more.
Problems seem simple
When your words come through
I'll smile, grin
Be the girl I know I can.
I don't deserve you.
That much is true.
Always There Always ThereAlways There1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
He's always there...
I stand waiting for the time to count down so I can close the shop. Key in my hand, mind shaking.
He looks round and sees a small red haired girl with sad eyes looking at him. He chuckles, turns around and polishes the train.
He drives the train around the shopping centre her shop is in. She watched him, as he winked at her as he drove past. She almost dropped what she was holding.
As she sadly turns away to the call of her colleagues, the shutter of the shop closes... and he walks away...
UnsureWhy don't you know?Unsure1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Shouldn't this be simple?
It always has been
Now. You don't know.
When a month ago
Things were simple.
But it's not like that now
You're unsure, but why?
Are you scared of the future?
We always had hope.
Now. You don't know.
I had a plan,
but then it shattered.
But you no longer know...
...if you love me
FearFear.Fear1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Fear is walking into a hospital
And not knowing when you'll leave
Fear is watching a doctor read your chart
And shake his head in desperation
Fear is writhing around in agony
Wanting an end to come soon
Fear is not knowing what is wrong
And wishing it would stop
Fear is knowing this is partially a dream
And that soon
Those hospital lights
It will be real...
Don't I deserve it?Why is the flesh so fragile?Don't I deserve it?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Soft skin turns to jagged red lines
The day before the snow came
Three years ago so similar
Right to this day, before the moon came out
This life I live, it frightens them
One week ago I finally went insane
I cut some more jagged lines
Right down to the bone, my love
I hope this hurts you
As much as it hurts me every day
Don't I deserve it, my love?
After all, I blame you
All of my insecurities, spoon fed
Only by you, my sweet love
So go home, let me rest
Do I not deserve it, my love?
DefinitionI'm fineDefinition1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not fine, please help me
Enough about me
I'm hiding something
I'm just saying that.
I need you
I'm about to attempt suicide
I'm just tired
I can't take this anymore
I already ate
I can't eat. I want to starve
Don't leave. Care enough to stay.
I love you
You're the one person I trust
I don't love you any more
I do, I just don't want to hurt you.
I've cut, I don't want you to see the scars
I'm better, I promise
I'm the worst I've been, I lied
I want to die
Just one more
I'm not going to stop.
EdgeStandingEdge2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tip toes at the edge
The steep drop looms
calling you close
to its' soothing forgiveness
heart, completely broken
The last barrier
Keeping you alive
has left you in endless pain
Hoping for his call
Waiting for the cold
for the water to coat you
then nothing, but darkness.
Six Word Stories - Life, LoveNaturalSix Word Stories - Life, Love2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The rainbow dripped colours of happiness
The newspaper read, folded away, gone
The suitcase packed to the brim
Her hair tore out in bits
Dances slowly across the spiders web
Nowhere to go, a lonely road
Cold snow, dry ice, black curve
Love, Happiness, Sorrow, Peace, Education, Change
The Camping Man
He had never seen the internet
On her death
He reached for a strand hair
Sign a death certificate for two
My head is on backwards, happily
Sound sweet -- to those in love
Lost love Songs
My heart bleeds, turn it off
Sent shivers down my inner soul
Held hands, as she faded away
My dogs death
I felt her soul, disappear away
Being busy -- puts off the agony
Lost love questions
Asking people, who have no answers
The Brady Bunch Magic
Lied to us, it wasn't true
HonestlyI'm sorryHonestly1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I cut again...
YouSome days I feel aliveYou1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Some days I feel alone
Some days I want to cry
Some other days I don't
I want to have you by my side
I want to have you close
I want you not to be afraid
I want you to give me love...
Be there when I feel alive
Be there when I feel alone
Be there when I want to cry
Be there when I don't...
SingDo you ever hear the pounding?Sing1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Of the blood through your veins
It starts to hurt
Singing for the blade.
Do you ever feel the stinging?
Of old scars outlining your story
Don’t do it
Singing for the blade.
Do you ever hear the ticking?
Of the clock as time slows
The blade runs
You sung for the blade.
Dirty SecretLet me tell you a secretDirty Secret1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I cut
I don't want to die
But here's the punchline
A True HeartA True Heart:A True Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
All my life.
My emotions are true.
Even now right here with you.
And though times get tough.
Never knowing what a future can hold.
My arms will wrap around you.
Keeping you from the cold.
So lets dig deep,
Feeling so bold.
Knowing that each other is what we need.
So take my hand and travel forward.
The leap of faith never failing before.
For life is short.
But love is eternal.
An Angel you are.
Sculpted from heaven itself.
Such pure defiant art.
A True Heart.
Lost In ConfusionLost In ConfusionLost In Confusion2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My mind is spinning without a rest
Emotions whirl and twirl around
A merry-go-round gaining speed
Until the world blurrs before my eyes
What's happening? What's going on?
The simplest thought slips away
Right from my mind, fading so fast
Trying to focus, I stare and stare
Until my eyes are heavy and unclear.
I don't understand, what is going on..
Emotions rise and fall again
Within the blink of an eye
I'm crying, laughing, and depressed
A roller-coaster ride that never ends
Am I losing my mind in this?
I try to close my eyes and rest
But the world spins me around
I feel like I am failing this test
Voices and noises echo in my mind
Please I call, falling to the ground.
Wait, there is an anchor here
A silent echo in my ear reveals
I reach out and grasp a hand
Hold it while the storm dies down
And slowly, safely we both land
Long Distance LoveLong Distance Love:Long Distance Love2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A love so far away.
Yet the feelings are so close.
A bond of trust and fate.
Fades all the feelings of hate.
Towards our separation of lust.
Though, let that hit the dust.
As I speak the truth to you.
For my feelings of blue.
Have become no more.
One year flying by.
Where does time go you ask?
The answer can be a task.
But being here with you.
Always seen me through.
So let them talk for what is known.
Purely, faithfully, & heavenly.
Our spirit as one, flying as a Dove.
Long Distance Love.
Happy One Year officially darling! Mwah!