A void that can't be filled.An echoing silence.
Haunts my bones,
I hate this feeling.
Of being alone.
That I cannot fill.
I do not have the strength,
Nor the will.
What I've longed for,
Has gone and changed,
To form a monster,
One so strange.
I do hate,
What you have become.
You try and impress,
I hate myself,
For messing up,
One too many chances.
It's just my luck.
So I'll give up,
On thoughts I had.
It was just a trend,
A new found fad.
So many lies,
I'll fill my head.
Though it will haunt me,
Till I'm dead.
Even though I'm angry,
And though I am in pain.
It's not you,
Who I blame.
Is a pain I can't bear,
And though you're not who I want.
I still wish you were.
Missing Pieces.I am a missing piece. Something that someone needs.Missing Pieces.2 years ago in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
But at the same time, I feel so incomplete.
I’ve wandered way too far, wondered for far too long
Am I a missing piece? Or a piece that won’t belong?
Is it possible I’m damaged and not missing at all?
That I’m just as dysfunctional as everybody else?
Pretending to be perfect never softened a single fall.
But neither did admitting that you’re broken and flawed.
A broken missing piece. Is that all I’m meant to be?
There is no master plan that includes the likes of me.
Being all alone, it’s a hurt that will not cease.
A hundred thousand years from now
I’ll still be
To Be AliveI want to fall into the windTo Be Alive2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
and caress the velvet sky
as I take this soul within
and teach it how to fly.
Amid the fire and the rain,
I want to bathe in the light
as I let my tears escape
and fade into the night.
And I want to know how it feels
to be A L I V E.
I want to brush against the sea
and hear the angels resound
as I let this heart be free
to the chorus around.
Amid the stars and the moon,
I want to bathe in the light
until I waken by noon
and begin my true flight.
And I want to know how it feels
to be A L I V E.
'Cause without life, we're not only dead,
but astray from the hope inside our heads.
No, if we wish to really strive,
there's nothing like the gift
of being A L I V E.
Wasted Words.Wasted Words.Wasted Words.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
We wait for the last possible moment.
Even when confronting our opponents.
How we truly feel.
We hide behind our counterfeit expressions.
Conceal and contain our countless confessions.
Failing to announce,
What our mouths long to pronounce.
We purposely squander opportunities.
Maintaining our positions within our communities.
Avoiding any disclosure,
Reducing the risk of exposure.
We use humour to dilute what we actually say.
Because the truth does not have to be revealed today.
We know there always is a tomorrow,
So today has not got to be filled with sorrow.
We wait and wait.
Stall and prolong.
Until it’s too late
And the moment has gone.
There is never a convenient time.
For us to say what is really on our minds.
It takes the sight of a death bed.
Repulsive By DesignLet me tell you this my friendRepulsive By Design2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And I will tell you no more
If my passion is your crime
Then your love should be my law
I’m the exception to the rule
And the end of this blood line
I should hang my head in shame
I am repulsive by design
Allow me to elucidate
And I will tell you no lie
I am charged with being charmless
And I have no alibi
Feloniously you broke my heart
One chamber at a time
Though I’d expect nothing less
I am repulsive by design
Beware of the broken hearted
Indeed consider with caution
Repulsion cleansed my sorry soul
Such a spiritual abortion
But when a full term of sorrow
And low self esteem combine
I still remain unloveable
I am repulsive by design
Two Sides Of MeThere is a Yin-Yang inside my heart.Two Sides Of Me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It swims in unity within me.
This curse I bear will never part,
There are always two sides to what I see.
One side of me is filled with pride,
And wants to stay strong and fight.
The other just feels empty inside
And wants to never see the light.
One side of me wants to help others out,
To make promises unanimously together.
The other is full of unavoidable doubt
Remaining in the dark and hiding forever.
One side of me wants to be joyful,
To encourage and testify with zeal.
The other wants to rip everyone to shreds,
And make wounds that no one can heal.
One side wants to be strong in times of fear,
And overcome all suffering and grief.
The other wishes that the end would be here,
Knowing there is no life to chreish underneath.
One side of me yearns for constant truth,
To understand myself more and more...
But lies have become a part of my youth,
So I just cover my ears and close the door.
One side of me desperately wants to be noticed
To feel conten
Learn To Be StrongThis is normally the time when the tears comeLearn To Be Strong2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
When the words hurt and the bruises sting
But little did they know you have grown inside
Now you are immune to their bullying
The chances are that they may have suffered too
But this is no reason to be so vile
Now you’re twelve angry men finding them guilty
Of stealing your taut, tremulous smile
This is normally the time when you tremble
Huddle yourself up into a ball
But the only spherical shape they’ll be seeing
Is the flail as it maims and appals
The chances are that you will shatter their skull
And with that become as bad as them
Where were their morals when you were the victim?
You just want good old fashioned revenge
This is normally the time you’re rendered silent
But today you’ve at last found your voice
Now both weapon and word are lay beside you
You are no beast, you’ll make the right choice
And the chances are that when they’re confronted
The shamed predator will know they’ve done wrong
Midnight kissesIt's late, and it's cold, oh what I wouldn't give to have you to hold.Midnight kisses2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your arms wrapped around me like a safety net, you plant kisses on my neck.
Shivers run down my spine, when I'm with you I feel electrified.
A soft kiss on the lips, your hands resting on my hips.
The magic look in your eyes, a look that gives me butterflies.
You hold me close and tight, everything feels just right.
You lean down and whisper in my ear, "I really do love you dear"
And with those words I hug you tight, nothing could ruin my night.
House of MirrorsThey say I spinHouse of Mirrors2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
a web of lies,
but webs are for spiders.
They catch their flies.
No, my lies are mirrors,
each a different reflection.
They fill up my house,
my sinful collection.
Sometimes I get lost.
There's so much confusion.
Which ones are real?
Which are illusions?
I try to back track,
but the mirrors turn me around.
I cry out for help,
but the mirrors block the sound.
I give up.
Hang another mirror.
In this one I'm cruel and cold
on the exterior.
How many reflections
will I become?
Which one is real?
Where have I gone?
I'm tired of it AllI'm tired of being know asI'm tired of it All2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the person with "problems"
I'm tired of being known as
the person with "disabilities"
I'm tired of being a mistake to this world
An unworthy failure in this life
Just because I have these problems
and not many understand them...
I'm tired of being judged
because they don't fully know me
To deal with this pain
and faking it all day long
I'm tired of putting a mask on
I just want to scream to the world
and tell everybody how I truly feel....
I'm tired of living a lie in my life
To pretend that everything is alright
while deep down
I am dying
I'm just tired of dealing with everything
Pretending to have this smile
to not feel the pain
That I truly feel deep down...
The Root of the ProblemI've lived so long asThe Root of the Problem10 months ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
the light of his life that I
can't live otherwise.
What does it Matter?I shed a tear tonightWhat does it Matter?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Under the falling snow
The reason isn’t right…
A dreadful reason to know
I cried for your happiness
And down that road you had to go
I cried for your love
A love I truly would never know
As I rose from my back to stand
I fell upon my knees
No longer with the strength to stand
Not knowing how that could be
I wish to write you a letter
But what good would that do
Even if you were to read my words
You couldn’t be bothered to reply
It’s not that you are living a hectic life
It’s just that life you choose to live
Has no room for me to be involved
Even if it’s just a simple correspondence
I miss you, I’d like to say I lo…
You know what, it doesn’t matter
Good luck with your happiness
I’m just sad I’m not a part of it
Goodbye, is what I want to say
But I just heard, you’re getting married
I saw a picture of the proposal
I truly hope you are happy
YouI really hate you.You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I look at you,
And although you smile,
I can't smile back.
You make me feel so vile.
I look at you,
With your sick little act,
Trying to be innocent.
But you're a lie,
You too have been bent.
I watch you,
With your weak steps.
You look like you're dying,
But you're very alive,
So I know that you're lying.
I turn away from you,
And you turn away too.
I see your heart with dismay,
You are disgusting,
And you will always be that way.
I try not to think about of you,
But you're always here.
You have invaded my mind.
No matter how I try to blot you out,
You erase everything else I find.
Your act will surely kill you,
With you unsure of yourself.
I clearly see that this won't end well,
With your acts and lies,
In the end, the truth will be hard to tell.
My hate and rage surges at you,
You disgust me with all my heart.
I reach to hit you, to make you see,
That you are the biggest bother,
But I only hit the mirror in front of me.
My SongThe music swirls all around,My Song2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
till all I hear is the joyous sound,
twirling, spinning, moving me,
and the endless notes are all I see.
The beat becomes my hearts own.
I feel as though the light has shown,
and all the sadness fades away,
and I finally see a happier day.
My lips part, and I sing along
To such a redeeming, beautiful song.
These moments come and go too fast.
I enjoy them greatly as they last.
I laugh in glee.
I feel so free.
What magic is this,
this utter bliss?
Stay with me, my pretty song,
with you the days don't seem so long.
With you I am so filled with hope,
I know with you, somehow I'll cope.
Together we'll stay.
You'll scare the darkness away,
Yes, stay here my friend,
play your notes till my end,
and with your melody in my ears,
I'll go without any silly fears.
I'll meet my maker with you at my side,
then he'll hold me close, no need to hide.
Yes, my song, you'll get me there,
with your notes, and tune, so full of care.
You'll be my very dearest friend,
until my bea
InvisibleI watch silently as you live,Invisible3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My time completely devoted,
Studying everything about,
And yet you never notice me,
How I tuck you in every night,
How I am there when no one else,
But you sometimes acknowledge me,
My heart lurching nervous joy,
Falling when you look away like,
I often lurk against your skin,
With a face lacking expression,
So you're unable to see my,
You'll Never Understand...You'll never understand...You'll Never Understand...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I'm glad you don't.
Because that would mean
You'd have to go through my pain.
And I'd never wish that
CanvasLet her paint a masterpiece,Canvas2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Let her paint a lie
Let her paint a word inside the shining silver skies.
Let her paint a mystery,
Let her paint a sin
Let her paint the things that lie in darkness deep within.
Let her paint a masterpiece
(but this time there's a twist)
Make the brush a blade and let the canvas be her wrist...
DeviousI'm not gonna lie:Devious1 year ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
I really love being the
apple of his eye.
The Face At The DoorThe face at the door is a demon, a godThe Face At The Door2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
He smiles through stitches, his stare rather odd
The face at the door is a cruel, silent being
Yet, people are calm, and the children aren't fleeing
Quiet yourself, for you're the only one
Crying for help at the point of a gun
Learn how to fly, rather, learn how to fall,
The face at the door... well... there's no face at all.
SilenceMy lips are sealed,Silence2 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
by my own self-doubt within
this lone heart of mine.
For YouIf I could hold the starsFor You1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'd give them all to you
and string them on a necklace
to last you through and through
If I could grab the oceans
and store them in a jar
To place inside your pocket
To take with long and far
If I could quilt a blanket
and stitch it up with light
I'd sew it with our memories
to keep you warm at night
If I could grow a pair of wings
I'd show you how to fly
and whisper not to be afraid
of gazing from the sky
If I could walk the roads of time
and travel to the past
I'd record every moment
To make sure that it'd last
If I could only show you
How much you mean to me
This poem will keep my feelings
For all eternity.
What Happened to Us?What is war? What is life?What Happened to Us?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Do we hit our brothers out of strife?
The days of peace we speak in whispers,
While with guns we march and blow people to pieces!!
Shooting, and bombing- Is that all we know?!
With bombarding planes smiting our foes?
What do we do when our children are next?
Flying to war awaiting death.
Is that all we know?
New YearI lay in my bed,New Year11 months ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
ponder how quickly life flies
as time marches on.
A lovers dance.Heart beats synchronised,A lovers dance.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My head against your chest,
Lose track of time.
Slowly rocking back and forth as the music plays,
Wrapped in your arms is where I want to stay.
I don't care who's watching or what they have to say,
You slowly whisper "always" as we dance the night away.