losing a love and loving a lostSometimes you lose people, you know? Sometimes you lose someone you love, and they can't come back. They die on you, take a little piece of your heart with them, and they don't come back. Sometimes you lose someone you love and it breaks your heart, it claws at your lungs and it breaks through your chest and leaks through your pores, and you're practically fucking emanating sadness, but there's nothing you can do about it. You're stuck writing about it in stupidly long sentences because you don't know what else to do with this itch beneath your skin, and you need to fucking do something with it because it's going to eat you alive. The ache that pulses through your veins is going to drive you insane, it's going to absolutely murder you. You lost someone you loved. They're gone. They've left you. You can't get back the picnics and the laughter and the fights. You can't call them on the phone, and you can't fucking touch them, okay? You can't hug them, or play with their hai
OCDI count the cracks in between the blocks of cement beneath me as I walk. Two. Two. Four. Four. Always four sets of that. Always two, two, four, four. Four times each. Look up. Blink 8 times. Two sets of four. Then back down. Two, two, four, four.OCD3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Safe. Those numbers are safe. Even, not odd. Odd is bad. 'Odd' is what people call you when you're different. Bad. Wrong.
Two, two, four, four. I try to focus on something else, not on how many steps I'm taking, because there are people behind me. Person. One set of footsteps. Bad. Half of two. I think of it as two feet, and that's better. I feel better.
I round a corner, looking for my goal. Always a goal; always a pull. It's getting stronger, so I'm getting close. I have to hurry, I have to lose the person behind me. They kept walking straight. Good.
It's raining again. It's been raining every three days for the past week. Three and Seven. Not good, but not the worst numbers. They add up to ten. Even. Safe. I duck into an alley, and stop sho
Summer of Lust-YaoiSummer of Lust-Yaoi4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Summer of Lust
By: Kaede Natsu Sakurano
Nole checked the calendar. Summer was just about over 2 weeks left. Then it hit Nole they hadn't done to the beach yet! Immediately, he called Daron at work. Daron was only saying he had this Sunday off. So Nole invited K'era, Trey, Jiro and Mikey to come along well, more like a gay man party
Nole smiled, "I can't wait! I'll wear my good trunks too! And I'll get the beach ball out too! Just the six of us guys!"
All the guys met at Daron's mansion first and got dressed; putting on sunblock. Trey put the visor on his sleek emo red-black hair. K'era put on his sun-reflecting contacts. Mikey also put a visor on his blonde hair and Jiro tied his brown hair back.
Nole giggled, "I shouldn't sunbathe too much I'm the tannest as it is!"
Daron smiled, "But your tan is awesome." Nole blushed from being complemented by Daron.
Mikey stood tall, "Alright lovebirds, lets GO!"
Just by walking on the beach, tons of fangirls turned and st
In Arms of Sorrow - CHAPTER 4In Arms of Sorrow - CHAPTER 43 years ago in Emotional More Like This
I heard desperate high pitch squealing, followed by a burning pain all over my neck and arms. It felt like small dagger cuts, spreading poison under my skin. I could hear someone calling out for help, screaming, crying, begging. It was a female voice. My body was hurting like crazy, my limbs slowly went numb. I was petrified. I couldn't open my eyes, I couldn't tell what was going on. I was afraid Someone was fighting for their life not too far from me. Could it be Twelve? Or perhaps Glimmer? My body got heavier, I couldn't move myself. I tried to stand up, I tried to run.. nothing. The screams got louder and louder. Than I realised.. I needed to be saved aswell. The daggers piercing me have doubled, so did the pain. My skin was burning.
TRACKER JACKERS! My mind was screaming! Damn it! We got attacked by Tracker Jackers. A stung after another, their poison can be deadly and causes hallucinations.. Was I going to die like this? Killed by buggs?I violently opened my
Protect Me - Part 2 - Makorra~P~Protect Me - Part 2 - Makorra4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Protect Me - Part 2
"How long will she need to stay here for?"
"The rest of the week she could start hemorrhaging again... it's completely unpredictable. She can return to the Island after that, but I'd like her to be kept under close watch. We can't have this happen again next time, she won't be so lucky. Also, Tenzin, I must inform you that because of this, the birth will be even more difficult. It could have similar effects to the degree of this anything could happen, but we'll do our best."
"I understand. Thank you, Saiyu."
Korra awoke to two voices conversing somewhere in the room she was in, one of them a familiar, gruff voice and the other a hushed, whispering tone. She kept her eyes closed, a headache splitting through her head, and heard footfalls as one of the two left the room. She suddenly heard more footsteps, some further away, pacing, frantic, quick. Some more then as someone approached her.
"Oh, Korra," she heard the familiar voice say, and
Fangs in you, my Lover-YaoiFangs in you, my Lover-Yaoi4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Fangs in You; my Lover
By: Kaede Natsu Sakurano
It was close to midnight on a cold January evening. Kio sat on his window. It was about time to feed again yes, he was a vampire. But he never enjoyed drinking blood. He found it a disgusting habit, and never drank more than he needed to survive. But he was lonely in his huge mansion on the mountain hill. He lived alone, but he always wanted a lover. Kio loved sex like most men do. But he LOVED IT really. He raped just about everyone he sucked blood from. Even the men and children but it was time to get some blood, and of course time to have sex again.
Riley was on his merry way home. He finally had his groceries and was going to make some hearty stew. He was a happy clam.
As Kio walked down the street, he smelled it. Riley's happiness and kindness, mixed in with a hint of sadness and regret. This was going to be a piece of cake. He just needed Riley to get a bit drunk and that would be his week
Untitled.A whisper,Untitled.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A voice, a murmur
She's afraid, confused,
She recognizes the sounds of his voice
The gentle hum carried by the wind,
The words are oh so familiar.
Is she dreaming?
It could be a nightmare
But it's impossible, it's all impossible.
The day before it happened
Sitting in the park
Everything was hazed pink, pink, pink
Everything was love.
His words, verbatum
"Forever never ends,
even when life is dead."
But it died, drowning.
I feel his whisper
Cold as the waters that took life away, away, away.
Cold as the stone of the grave.
"Forever never ends" he says,
Even though I'm dead.
The contract part 7The contract part 74 years ago in Emotional More Like This
The Contract part 7
So as we got started Jackie opened a portal leading to some room which had 4 large chains in, as we entered Jackie asked me to stand by them, being my friendly self I done as she asked and she cuffed my arms and legs to the chains. "What the hell are you doing?" I screamed as she changed in to her grim form. "You really are stupid aren't you Louise! Do you really think I would help the person who is taking away my pay?!" I looked at her as she grabbed her scythe and opened a portal, "Now Louise I shall leave you here to rot!" Said Jackie slowly walking through the portal, I looked at my bracelet and thought to my self "change Change to my scythe Change damn you CHANGE!!!"
When suddenly the chains all snapped, a blood red aura surrounded me and a mask slowly generated on my face when the mask was complete I picked up my scythe which now had a spine instead of a wooden staff. I turned to Jackie, who was standing just behind her portal, and I lunged forward
the contract part 18the contract part 184 years ago in Emotional More Like This
The contract 18
Later that evening me and Rosie designed a new training room to test her powers and see what her tertius gradus could really do, as we got started she showed me the five main abilities of tertius gradus the first being the wings of the black angel which made her move at speeds beyond the speed of sound, her second was the black cero which emitted an energy that was so dense almost nothing could break the beam, the third was a form of enchantment she pointed her sword to the floor and aimed its sheath in the direction of the target and said:
"Vengeance in my heart, death in my hand try and stop me, but I will kill you where you stand!" her sheath then became another sword only this time it emitted the same sort of black energy as her black cero, as she attacked the target a thick wave of energy blasted from the sword and incinerated the target and about 2 miles of thick obsidian rock behind it, I decided to end it there because I feared that if she went any higher she wo
the contract part 17the contract part 174 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The contract 17
Rosie tapped the hilt of her blade and thought for a second, I assume she was weighing up the odds of her killing Shirosaki, after a few seconds she nodded her head and said "Ill take him on just for the fact I want payback for being manipulated by him. The ferryman and God got on their phones and informed the press that the fight was being changed and almost instantly a load of press swarmed the room all asking questions at once.
After a good hour of answering rather pointless and stupid questions me and Rosie headed back home, as we exited the portal I noticed the front door was open, I then heard foot steps upstairs so I picked up a kitchen knife and prepared to fight whatever was up there, once up there I saw a man rummaging through a draw and putting my jewellery in his pocket, I was pissed at this point and threw the kitchen knife in his direction and watched it get stuck in the draw he was looting, he jumped with fright and turned my way, "what the fuck do you th
The contract part 9The contract part 94 years ago in Emotional More Like This
The contract part 9
When I woke up, the ferryman, Jackie and Masami where standing around me "oh my Louise are you ok?" Said the ferryman trying to help me to my feet "w-what happened to me?" I asked hoping one of them knew. "Well I was talking to you and praising you on your skills, and when you walked away I grabbed your arm and wanted to reassure you that the demons won't be a match for you, but the second I touched where your scar was you became a mumbling wreck on the floor begging for mercy." Said the ferryman kneeling down next to me. "Oh that When I was hit by the car my left arm was crushed, they managed to mend all my bones and my arm healed great apart from one scar that stuck out like a saw thumb, when I went back to school a few months later one of the boys at the school grabbed my arm directly on the scar, the pain that shot through me was the single most painful experience I have ever endured as I told him to stop because my arm is still a in bad condit
the contract part 16the contract part 164 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
As I stood there in confusion I asked "what is this move and how will I be immortalised?" God then let go of my left arm and said, "the move is called forma piorum it was designed by me when time began I made it because I knew that all living things have souls that needed to be guided to the next life, so I would need help collecting these souls so I created and hired reapers now I made forma piorum so that if a reaper tried to challenge me they would be incinerated by this move in an instant." I stood there in shock that there would be such a move and said "but God I don't think I would be anywhere near powerful enough to go in to that stage." God then smiled and said "of course you are and the method is simple but deadly, if not done correctly you will be destroyed by the outburst of power, are you sure you want to go through with this?" I stared at Masami's body which was possessed by the greater demon and nodded my head, God then grabbed hold of my bracelet and said "this will hurt
I want.I want to map out the night sky on your body.I want.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want to find the constellations in your freckles,
And trace the shadows on your skin with the pads of my fingers.
I want to learn the way you breathe through my hands,
Feel your diaphragm collapse and expand under my palms.
I want to kiss down the knobs of your spine,
Until I have all of the dips in your back memorized.
I want to learn the secret of how you laugh,
And catch it before it gets the chance to escape.
I want you and your imperfections,
And I want it forever.
The contract part 15The contract part 154 years ago in Emotional More Like This
The contract part 15
As she got her training I noticed Masami had opened a portal to the room just next to me, "hey Louise can I talk to you for a minute please?" Said Masami as she opened a portal to hell, when we both walked through Masami started to ask me about an old ritual as old as time its self, as she explained it I kept hearing a faint cry for help behind her, "what was that?" I said looking down the corridor "N-nothing Louise! There is nothing down there now let's keep to the subject!" Snapped Masami, jumping in front of me, I took a step back and said to her "soo you want me to kill the ferryman to restore this order," Masami nodded and opened a portal instantly to the room where the ferryman was in, he was just sitting at his desk writing some more souls to be collected,
as I went to hit the ferryman with the scythe he clasped the blade with his hand and said "my, my Louise what are you trying to do?" he then pushed back at my scythe and launched me across the room, Masami
The contract part 12The contract part 124 years ago in Emotional More Like This
The contract part 12
As I left the arena with the demons mask I was welcomed by a large crowd all screaming and cheering, I decided to take a bow and out of nowhere Jackie leaped over the crowed screaming "Louise!!! Well done you really are a powerful reaper you destroyed that demon with it only hitting you once" I smiled and said" well he was very slow but extremely powerful," after signing a few autographs I said to myself "now I know how a footballer feels " Once I got home Masami walked in with a friend and said "Louise-Chan! I have a friend for you to meet" the mysterious boy walked in wearing a red hooded top and didn't seem that tall. "Hi my name is Renn pleased to meet you, I saw you fighting that demon, you have some serious skill there, you wouldn't be interested in a fight some time soon would you?" Renn said revealing his bracelet. "hmm if you want I would be more than happy to just please don't go easy on me, there is nothing more I hate than people going easy o
The contract part 4The contract part 44 years ago in Emotional More Like This
The contract part 4
As I got back in to my room I cleaned up the ornaments on the floor. Thankfully none had broke and I thought to myself "Hmm need an open area to use this thing so I don't break anything." When I was in the shower an idea clicked "The basement that's it!" I said to myself almost falling in the shower.
When I got myself sorted out and dressed I went in to the basement and looked around, there where a few boxes about but they could be moved out the way easily to give me enough room to swing the scythe around without smashing anything or knocking in to something or someone.
Once I moved a few of the boxes I looked at my phone to find in horror that class was going to start in 10 minutes and I the college was a fifteen minute drive away. So I decided to use my new abilities to my advantage and test my new area out the first thing I thought while swinging my scythe was the girls restroom in the college which thankfully it made a portal to. I was hoping no one was there an
The contract part 11The contract part 114 years ago in Emotional More Like This
The contract part 11
As I sat down at the table Jackie pulled a flyer from heaven showing the fight advertisement between me and this demon known as soul crusher. I gazed at the flyer and laughed saying "so this fight is a big one to everyone?" Jackie took a big sigh and said "this is more one sided than you think Louise, this demon has killed all the reaper's he has faced and that is well over 200 of them." I asked her some advice and she said "keep him away from the torches! He absorbs the fire and uses it to restore himself." I then looked at the photo and said "where is his weak point because I can use it to my advantage and hopefully tear him apart using it." She leaned back on her chair and started thinking of all the fights she saw him in and then clicked her fingers "I got it when he has his arms and legs rendered useless he is almost powerless" she said in an instant of excitement. I sat there for a second and thought of a trick I could use to immobilise him and the soul
The contract part 10The contract part 104 years ago in Emotional More Like This
The Contract part 10
After a rather uncomfortable night sleep I woke up to find Rosie wrapped around me with her hand on my left breast, I slowly lifted her hand and got off my bed to go have a shower, I looked at the bracelet and saw that one of the chains is a red colour I ignored it and my morning ritual's, I still had a habit of putting the towel around my waist, this was soon to be a big mistake because when I got out of the bathroom I saw the ferryman and Masami sitting on the end of my bed. "Good morning Louise, I like what you done to that demon last night, great skill and the video was a hit with the angels in heaven." Said Masami staring at my breasts. I ran back in to the bathroom and wrapped it over my chest to cover my breast's, I went back out and said "sorry about that I wasn't expecting you. "Both the ferryman and Masami giggled and stood up. "So where were we, ah yes the video of the fight was a big success and we would like to give you your pay." I paused and said "wa
In Arms of Sorrow - CHAPTER 3In Arms of Sorrow - CHAPTER 33 years ago in Emotional More Like This
''We've been running for hours!!'' Glimmer whined.
''She's near! Really!'' Loverboy tried to defend himself
''Where is she!?'' Cato growled threatfully back at him. The woods were awfully quiet. There was only a few more tributes out there, and most will die tonight.
''We've already been here.'' Marvel added somehow annoyed. I looked around. He was right, this place, we've been here a while ago. I knew it. Loverboy was fooling around with us.
''Let's just kill him. NOW!'' I said impatiently. I hated him, he disgusted me. Playing his love game. The whole Panem fell for their scheme. How could someone fool around with something so true and fragile as this. I imagined grabbing Loverboy, pushing him into the nearest camera and making him confess before slicing him to pieces. By the end of the day, I'll have to admit I was just jealous. I couldn't help but to wonder how Cato and I would work out as 'star-crossed' lovers. It angered me, I wasn't fast enough to sell our story. I di
Arms of Sorrow - CHAPTER 1Arms of Sorrow - CHAPTER 13 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Peacefully his body was resting on the cold ground. Seemed like he already sunk in deep slumber. Breathing deeply and slowly.That same moment, she realised she could take advantage of it. It was the perfect time for her to nest so closely to him, cuddling upto his arm. She too got taken over by sleep soon after.
I couldn't help but to ask myself; would he have aproved of this situation if he was awake? Or could it be, could he actually care for her?
I found myself staring at them, so peacefully resting, as if we weren't stuck in this mess. So vunerebal they seemed, so far from reality. I could so easily kill her now. Kill them both. Funny as it seems, they wouldn't even know what struck them. But no matter how hard I'd try, I couldn't harm Cato.
All the anger and rage I felt before dissapeared as my stare got stuck on his face. His lips a little opened, I could see the warm breath escaping from them. His eyes shut close, twitching a little. Never before I n
In Arms of Sorrow - CHAPTER 5 - WARNINGIn Arms of Sorrow - CHAPTER 5 - WARNING3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
I ran so fast, I could almost caught my breath. Head was spinning as if I were drunk, but I needed to stop them. Slowly trees revealed two figures, Marvel and Cato, leaned on Peeta, getting ready to finish him off.
''Wait!'' I scream again, from the lowest part of my lungs. It worked, they turned my way, surprised, wondering what bothered them in their act.
''Clove! I told you to wait there.'' I tried to ignore Cato's worried words.
''Don't kill him!'' I dragged myself to Peeta, clenching my teeth, ''you..'' I hissed at him.
''What do you think you're doing!?'' I was mad, but could control myself enough to keep my head clear, even if it was hard holding onto a sane thought. I leaned closer to Peeta, holding my knife to his stomach, in fright he strained his muscles.
Cato and Marvel were standing by his shoulders, pushing him back onto the tree. He was surrounded, no way he could escape this time.
''Clove what's going on!?'' Cato said, this time louder.
The contract part 5The contract part 54 years ago in Emotional More Like This
The contract part 5
I invited Jackie in to the house and gave her a fake meeting just to make it appear to Rosie that I was interviewing someone to stay. After a long chat and a few laughs and giggles I took her mobile number and let her go. I then talked to Rosie and got her take on Jackie. "She seems very nice, she looked well presented and she took everything in well." Said Rosie who still seemed upset after the death of the professor but I noticed something odd the bracelet she has looks exactly the same as your one. I looked down at the bracelet and said "what this old thing? I have had this for about 10 years now." I said starting to wonder if she could string the fact that we most likely knew each other very well. "Must just be coincidence" said Rosie as she stared at my bracelet.
Later that day I gave Jackie a call and told her she could move in. within 30 minutes she was at the door with a few suitcases, I shown Jackie to her room and helped her unpack when she closed the door
The contract part 2The contract part 24 years ago in Sketches More Like This
The contract part 2
February 4th 2013 6:30am
As I awoke to my alarm clock a vast amount of images of friends and family past and present flooded my head which made me feel rather sickly so I got up and went straight to my bathroom which to my amazement looked completely different yet I still knew was my bathroom. The wash basin was pristinely, clean as was the toilet, the shower, everywhere was spotless. As I looked around I muttered to myself "oh great I am a clean freak" and decided to get myself sorted out before I was late.
When I got undressed I turned to see myself completely naked in the mirror, the male me would of went in to a blushed red state, bleeding through his nose but I seemed to just turn away and got in to the shower as if I seen this image everyday, while in the shower I done all my cleaning rituals as if it was second nature, done my hair and shaved my legs and "other" areas in a breeze but there was a small voice telling me that this is all wrong.
After getting out
In arms of sorrow - CHAPTER 2In arms of sorrow - CHAPTER 23 years ago in Emotional More Like This
A cold breeze blew through my hair, forcing it onto my face. I regained conscious. I could hear voices, it was Cato and Marvel talking. My head was heavy and it took some time for me to realise where I was and what was going on. I must have passed out yesterday, I was really tired.
I was still hasitating to open my eyes, cause when I do, I'm just gonna glance back at the arena and the day will be the exact same copy of everyday before: Find food, kill, find water, kill, find a place to sleep, kill.
I took my backpack and briefly sorted my knifes back to my jacket, took other belongings and joined the others. Cato walked fastly ahead, making us loosing sight of him from time to time. Glimmer was running just behind him. She remeinded me of a puppy clinging to his owner. She was always giggling and playfuly jumping behing Cato. While disgusting plans, she never said anything nor has she ever helped us out with any idea. Neather her bow skills were too brilliant. Becouse of her carelessne
The contract part 14The contract part 144 years ago in Settings More Like This
The contract part 14
Once we got home I helped Rosie to the bedroom and told her exactly what happened, I told her that Shirosaki must of manipulated her in to trying to kill me and when I took him out of range, she collapsed and must of landed on the sickle, she then placed her hand on her chest and said "I remember now I saw Masami knocking on the door, when I opened it she placed her hand on my face and said "kill Louise" and handed a sickle to me and from there on in I blacked out. When I came to I was falling, I didn't realise that I was hold the sickle and landed flat on it and I blacked out again, next thing I remember was I saw you in tertius Gradus form and the sickle was out of my chest " I sighed and lifted her left hand, "this was the only way I could save you sadly, I had to sign the contract on your behalf seeing as I was saving your body and soul and you where close to death, but I have taken responsibility for your souls because I didn't want to place a burde