DepressionDepression3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I was younger I was always happy,
And very rarely sad,
But about a year ago,
Everything went from good to bad.
I now grow distant each day,
Every evening I lie in my bed,
Tear streaked cheeks,
Wishing I was dead.
It's no different at school,
I have become a freak,
I am bullied everyday,
Everything has turned bleak.
I asked for help,
And I recieved the same phrase,
It's cause your a teenager,
You'll get over it one of these days.
It got worse a few months later,
I took a breath and cut my arm,
Watched the blood drip,
Yes, I self harm.
I cry every night,
Till I eventually fall asleep,
But then morning comes,
And again I weep.
Self HarmSelf Harm3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I see you looking,
At my arm,
In case you didnt figure,
I self harm
You asked me how did i get those scars,
I said that i got them in a fight,
What was this fight?
A fight to make me right.
Whenever I get angry,
Or do something wrong,
I start to cut myself,
As an attempt to become strong.
The scars never fade,
They stay by my side,
I often wear long sleeves,
Even though I have nothing to hide.
You have hear what I have had to say,
So I end on this very note,
Do not cut yourself like I have done,
And thank you for reading what I wrote.
I'm sorry, I couldn't take it no moreShe's just lying there,I'm sorry, I couldn't take it no more3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wishing she was dead,
The cold whispers,
In her head,
You know no one loves you,
That no one cares,
That you'd be better off,
Not even there,
Take out the knife,
Aim at your wrist,
A deep line,
You get the gist,
As the blood flows in a red stream,
This isn't a nightmare it's just a dream,
Write your letter,
While you can,
"Lots of love From Anne",
Crumpled body lay on the floor,
I'm sorry I couldn't take it no more.
Depression is a KillerDepression is a Killer3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Give me pills, Shoot me, just kill me,
What's the point in living in this hell hole called life,
I've lost everything I ever wanted just leave me be,
Just let me die and let me be free.
Around and Around these useless feelings go,
I feel numb, no pain, just blank nothing,
People think it's attention seeking and at like its a show,
If you knew how I felt you would eat your words.
I tend to lay on my bed,
Staring blankly at the ceiling,
Thoughts of suicide in my head,
I know I'm hated so why am I still living?
The constant chanting of horrible names,
Stupid, Ugly, Tart, A freak,
They all make it into stupid little games,
"Hey lets play upset the ugly girl!"
All I want is to die,
Cut myself, over dose do anything,
But no matter how hard I try,
I just find that I cannot.
Why am I always holding back,
There's nothing worth living for so why stop?
It's the courage to do so which is what I lack,
So until I am brave enough my death will have to wait.
I'm sorry, I'm not like the othersI'm sorry I'm not like other girls,I'm sorry, I'm not like the others3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm sorry I don't do excersise,
I'm sorry I don't shine like pearls,
Just please leave me alone.
I know I'm stupid and weak,
What more do you want from me?
I'm suffering here, help is what i seek,
Is it so hard to get?
I like to shut myself in my room,
To escape my fears and be happy,
The outside world is full of doom,
Why can't you accept my choice?
Now I'm very ill,
It's called depression in case you care,
It makes me sick to the gill,
Knowing that my life is gone.
People say Im looking for attention,
I'm sorry if thats what you want,
If someone says that I happen to mention,
It's no attention seeking its stating the truth.
So now I end on this final note,
I'm sorry I'm not like the others,
A tear stained letter containing what I wrote,
And now I'm set to die.
DepressionDepression isn't waking up one day and feeling like your world is going to end. It's waking up most days and feeling the world collapse in. Slowly suffocating you in your own sadness until you can do little more than lie in your bed and wallow in your own self-pity.Depression11 years ago in Academic Essays More Like This
Some people don't get as far as the wallowing, and some people stay there forever. I'm trying to break free but it's not as easy as it seems.
When you're down, everyone says to you "Have you seen a doctor?" "Have you tried anti-depressants?"
I wonder if those people ever tried working their way through the system. Being passed from person to person like a mess nobody wants to deal with. That's how I feel. I 've seen 6 people, so far who claim that they can help me, and the people increase every week.
They claim that the medication will work, that I should have counseling, that I should try to "See the light at the end of the tunnel". If you've ever been down, it's the last thing you want to hear. Did anyone ever tell a moth
Standing on the EdgeI'm standing on the edge looking down,Standing on the Edge3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hate myself for doing this,
But I cannot fight no more,
I just wish to find my bliss.
I think that I will endure this,
Standing on the edge looking back at my past,
I wonder who would miss me,
And how long I would last.
I think my friends hate me,
They no longer call or text,
I wish they know how much I'll miss them,
It shouldn't be all vexed.
This is too sudden,
And I'm the one to blame,
Perhaps I should rethink this,
This is no longer a game.
Why were they so mean,
Couldn't we all just get along?
It would just be a lot easier,
If people would just admit their wrong.
But now that I'm up here,
It doesn't seem too bad,
I wonder who wouldn't miss me,
And I wonder who would be sad.
I lean forward and begin to fall,
With my life before my eyes,
I now know I'll be at peace,
And no longer have to hear their lies.
TearsI was just thinking when suddenly my vision became blurry,Tears3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I looked down and found a little wet drop trickling down my cheek,
They always choose the wrong time and the wrong place,
It's attention that those little tears seek.
It's hard to try and hide the tears,
When surrounded by people who stop and stare,
They ask one too many questions and pry open too many wounds,
They always try and act like they really care.
They know I'm broken,
They rake through my memories causing more pain,
All due to those tiresome tears,
I do not know what they wish to gain.
The wall I used to block out my emotion and suffering was broken,
Every memory and old wound seemed to be new,
Those little tears which brings too much sympathy,
You would understand, if you knew what I've been through.
DreamsStaring out of the window only seeing sorrow,Dreams3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In her very early tomorrow,
Walking through the world, cold and grey,
Waiting for it to end every day.
Staring into the black sky hoping to find a star,
To help me sail my fears and misery very far,
Wanting there to be a little bit of hope,
Or at least make her life easier to cope.
Love concurs all, well so they say,
It's not like it will keep her fears at bay,
Staring at the ceiling night after night,
Wanting to block out the horrible sight.
She dreams that she is normal with no faults,
Never being involved in any assaults,
Not once being teased about how she looks,
That sounds better written in a volume of books.
A single tear sheds at night before she sleeps,
Broadcasting her worst fears so she weeps,
They say dreams are meant to be good,
Mine aren't but they should.
Showing so many different ways to end her life,
The simplest way is to use a knife,
Or maybe take loads of pills?
But make sure it never spills.
The girl whose dreams are li
It Is (Depression)It is a shroud of black velvet.It Is (Depression)3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It is the violent ocean in the dead of night.
It is the monster in the shadows; the Vashta Nerada.
It is the final crash of symbols in Carmina Burana.
It is impossible to lift.
it is impossible to breathe.
It is impossible to see.
It is the only thing that can be heard.
It is why the stars disappear at night.
It is why every light drifts by without stopping.
It is why the gnawing starts and never ceases.
It is why nothing else matters in the end.
It is my disease.
It is my disability.
It is my misfortune.
It is my death sentence.
Death is my saviourDeath is my life, Death is my saviour,Death is my saviour3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Everyone thinks I'm weird due to my behaviour,
I always hide away from the world, never really caring,
When its non-uni at school I find everyone's staring,
That girl is weird, ugly, a freak,
I've found the world very grey and bleak.
I'm not able to live a simple life without there being any faults,
Being involved in too many assaults,
I just block out the empty world I live in,
People say that believing in satan is a sin,
I just give them a shrug and a smile saying that's me,
But that's all a lie, fake can't you see?
At home I'm just the same,
This is really serious not a game,
I'm not able to tell the truth only lies,
It is not fair on others it brings tears to my eyes,
I cannot laugh, I cannot smile,
Well I can but it will only last a little while.
I have to wear a mask to hide all emotions,
It is just the same with my motions,
I lie in my room wishing to die,
Not able to find an exit no matter how hard I try,
It's not fair I can't be normal,
The Girl Sat In The CornerThe girl sat in the corner, face pressed against the glass,The Girl Sat In The Corner3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Asking herself questions but always saying pass,
The concrete wall separating her emotions from others,
Never giving the chance to Struthers.
Everyone thinks she's happy and fine,
They never knew when they had crossed the line,
Face hidden under a sweep of hair,
Why was she so different from others? It wasn't fair.
She heard a noise and looked up,
Face lightened by the streaks of sunlight,
She got given a sup,
If they had seen past her wall they would have been given a fright.
The girl sat in the corner with a tear streaked face,
With no emotion and with no one caring,
She leaves places without a trace,
Because of how she is people are always staring.
People always thought she was happy,
A little bit quiet and a bit meek,
All that happiness is so sappy,
The world she lives in is like hell and very bleak.
The girl sat in the corner suddenly disappeared without a trace,
Only leaving a suicide note written in blood,
They always t
The Monster inside of MeInside my body there is a monster that you've never seen,The Monster inside of Me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A mind full of self-loathing and hate,
A heart icy and as hard as stone,
Clinging onto my body, a dead weight,
Trapped from the real world by a screen.
I can see,
That you don't believe me,
Not many people do,
But I've got one monster full of anger and rage,
You can understand why I would need a cage.
Now that may not be true,
There's one monster that exists in me which I hate so would you,
Salty tears which stain my face,
A mourning sorrow entwining me in lace.
Hard to believe that so many monsters are inside of me,
Anger, Sorrow and Depression,
Out of reach so you can't see,
I try to find a cure its becoming on obsession,
I just wish to be in peace to just die,
But as much I want to I can't, no matter how hard I try.
Her BlissHeartbroken useless beyond repair,Her Bliss3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The dark letter showing her no one did care,
Face stained with tears of betrayal,
Only used as an innocent frail.
The murmurs of lies filling her head,
She wishes just to die, to drop down dead,
Standing over the cliff watching the sun go down,
Wanting to jump into the sea and just drown.
She begs for Death to end her worthless life,
To cut her throat with his sharp scythe,
But he only shakes and points to her home,
But what was home to her when she was alone.
The people around her left her to weep,
She was blinded by love but it was only cheap,
How much she wished just to be free,
It was hard for anyone to even see.
The bitter tears shed fell like the leaves off dying trees,
Broken down as everyone ignored her pleas,
It was her own fault, and now she had to do right,
But she had tried with all her might.
But alas Death came to her aid,
And stood beside where she laid,
Gently giving her a crimson bloody kiss,
Alas she had found her bliss.
Social AnxietyI'm phobic of people,Social Anxiety3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The world's scary to me;
I never know what's going on,
So just please leave me be.
I can't meet your eyes,
I'm far too meek.
It's only a whisper
When I try to speak.
I don't want to seem rude,
I'm really polite,
But I'm too afraid
And my throat's now too tight.
I wish I could do better
And socialize with you.
But how to do it?
I don't have a clue.
ParanoiaWait…Paranoia3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Did they just look at me?
What did they see?
They’re talking now,
But I can’t hear what.
I’m getting that bad feeling
Deep in my gut…
They’re judging me,
I know I’m right!
I must be aware,
Keep everyone in my sight.
Who’s talking about me?
I know someone is,
But who can it be?
I can’t do anything,
For I know they’d scrutinize;
I can’t shop or eat,
So I’ll hide from their eyes.
If I was a bird, trapped in a cageIf I was a bird trapped in a cageIf I was a bird, trapped in a cage3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I would be full of anger and rage
Wings useless beyond repair
Knowing that people wouldn't care.
Heart as black as night
Body filled with terror and fright
Wishing to die anytime now
Everyone saying its ok but how?
If I was a bird I would like to fly
Soaring through the air up high
Letting my fears and dreams go
Able to let my true colours show.
If I was a bird trapped in a cage
I would be full of anger and rage
Wings useless beyond repair
Knowing that people wouldn't care.
Who am I?Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?Who am I?3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
The emo kid who would love to die?
No that's not me I swear
Someone please answer my prayer.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
The words which make me want to cry
I just want to laugh and smile
At least for a day or a little while.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
The words flow through my veins make me sigh
I wish to be happy and smile everyday
Not be depressed and miserable loving the colour grey.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
The blood through my veins asks why
Why must I hear these torturous words?
I just wish to let my past go like birds.
suicideHave you ever wanted to die?suicide4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That you stood in the bathroom
A knife or a razor blade in hand
Maybe a boodle of pills
And a glass of water
And you stared at the mirror
Just wishing you'd die
But then you started to think
About your mom and your dad
Your sisters and brothers
Your nephews and nieces
All of your friends
And you put down the knife or the razor blade
You put away the pills
And you walked away
Acting like nothing ever happened
But the thoughts of your family and friends
Never stay for long
Day's week's maybe months later
Your back to thinking about suicide and death
I'm Fine"Are you okay?"I'm Fine3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No. I'm dying. I have to push myself to wake up in the morning, and when I finally do, I want to go back to sleep. Even my best dreams are becoming nightmares. I can't taste food, I can't stand the things I used to love. I'm breaking. I'm fading. I'm dying.
I'm DeadI'm Dead3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Bright lights burn my eyes,
I hear the screams fill my head,
The sound of metal on metal,
Sure enough I'm dead.
Glass laced into my hair,
Eyes closed shut,
Tear seeping down my cheeks,
On my wrist a deep cut.
Others drive past without a care,
I wait for someone to come save me,
To make sure that I survive,
That is all that I can see.
But nobody did come,
And I felt pain,
It's obvious no one's going to save me,
I'm surprised I'm still sane.
Eventually everything blurs,
As I lay on a grass type bed,
My life flashing before my eyes,
Death filling my head.
SuicideHearts which broke into shards of glass,Suicide3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The life which flows like sand through Deaths grasp,
In the darkness where lies our fate,
Who knows how long we will have to wait.
When something bad happens we try to forget,
Act as if it isn't a worry or a threat,
Sometimes we make a wish that we regret,
We all have, I bet.
Those who don't take caution are the ones who bleed,
But those who do are the ones who succeed,
As death takes its place it seems like night,
But as your life flashes before you there's a light.
You have finally found peace and you're blessed,
You have lived your full life and now you can rest,
Let peace fill your body and fill your mind,
Be grateful that Death has been so kind.