Aura: The RadianceAura: The Radiance3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Aura: The Radiance
I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering
I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall
I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone
I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death
To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope
Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me high, hold me high, hold me high, and give me hope!
Revive the light
Inside the dark
Given a second life
Resurrecting my heart
Cascade of colors
Fade away the gray
Open up a new world
Where shame has no place
Standing up to society's face's
Takes every ounce of courage
Never damaged or discriminated against
Because we're all going throug
To Save Your LifeTo Save Your Life2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To Save Your Life
Heroes are hard to come by
Especially in this day and age
Because of you- I am still alive
Hail, the vanquisher of pain
I fought as long as I could have
But I sank into the weakness below
And I felt my sorrow's wrath
The helplessness took over
My fists let go
Of the resistance
I fell from hope
The light faded in the distance
It was all a dream
A simple false belief
Hands dangled frantically / Tears dripped endlessly
I needed a hero to save me / I yearned to be set free
A hand reached out
I was finally found
I rose back to grace
And the darkness brightened
The savior I awaited
Lifted me up and triumphed
I prayed as much as I needed
Even when I was beyond drowning
I knew a kind soul would pay heed
Every mourning human deserves saving
I'm Soaring NowI'm Soaring Now2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm Soaring Now
This is a different level of fear
It's wounding my truth and morality
It's strong enough to bring me here
On the edge of life- peering over to serenity
It's not impossible to grasp
But it's typical to assume
The last breath is the fact
That after death- peace will follow soon
Countless flashing memories
Ready to be set free
From this skin of...treachery
My scars peel off
Erased from my sight
The remains become soft
So this is what...innocence feels like
Destiny is somehow connected
Fate deems to be natural
The circle of the two is perfected
The beginning to the end is...peaceful
I offer and accept my own form of mercy
Before I miss out on forgiving the vulnerable side of me
Splitting and fusing fragments of calming memories
I would like to believe my life was somehow worthy
My tears have aligned wi
A poem about loveLove consists out of painA poem about love2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Love consists out of desire
Love is what I admire
Love always fights against my brain
Love is despising
Love is passion
Love is not a piece of fashion
Love is always surprising
None of these things are untrue
Love is enough to make one weep
That is love as it seems
Yet when I think of you
I simply can’t fall asleep
Since life is finally better, than in my own dreams
Chasing Shadows of You...Chasing Shadows of You...Chasing Shadows of You...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No matter the years that pass me by,
It seems I am forever trapped.
For when it comes to deceiving myself,
I'm afraid I'm rather apt.
In the end the truth which I sought to avoid, is now knocking at my door...
A rabid rat that chews at me; one I can't ignore.
And though I might have grown this body, from the lonely years I've seen.
I'm afraid I can only chase the shadow, of my dearest Angeline.
- Chen Yuan Wen, 14th January 2012
Once More for the Dwarf LordsIn dreams, I conjure wealth untold,Once More for the Dwarf Lords2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
through ancient rocky caverns old.
Through carved halls and dungeons deep,
My home, where now a dragon sleeps.
My kingdom, taken from my hands,
It slumbers under mountain lands.
I promise kin their home reclaimed
from powerful lizards and horrors unnamed.
Once more, the gifts are dwarven gold,
Our wills unbent, we'll never fold!
Of joyous hymns, dwarf voices ring,
When Erebor regains a Dwarven King.
Genderqueermy friends wereGenderqueer3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
snips and snails and puppy dog tails
sugar and spice and everything nice.
i was the space between the words:
"girls on one side;
boys on the other."
rainbows and pails and sugar-snails,
that's what genderqueers are made of.
Inner DemonsInner Demons2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Praying for the prey
A saint so blissful
Don't let the old scars awake
A storm of rage comes my way
Idle hands yearn to be unfaithful
Even the heavens won't feel safe
I am my greatest fear
I am my own worst enemy
The glares I give myself are fierce
I barely hold onto this false harmony
My twisted thoughts flicker / The acts of a sinner
The silence of a confessor / A secret held forever
The madness took over / Becoming hell's harbinger
I am the lawless; I am executioner / This is my will; this is my terror
I hated my own reflection
Knowing the truth behind the lie
I destroyed my own protection
I tore down the walls in my mind
The light has darkened
A past so painful
Forcing fury to descend
No more trespasses to repent
I am the child who became spiteful
I have been devoured by my inner demons
Numb.I'm still alive.Numb.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I see and hear.
I feel my heartbeat but
The dark gameI try my best to never breakThe dark game4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I try my best to stay awake
But as the days roll by
I find it hard to stay alive
I see a darkness
That calls my name
It has a game
It wants to play
The point is death
The player is him
The darkest shadow
There's ever been
If you fear
Then he will win
If you fight
The game never ends
He made the game
He picked the rules
You cant win this game
Don't be a fool
my body's slave is my mind.it's barely summermy body's slave is my mind.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
but i've forgotten how to breathe;
i fall in love with strangers
before they even speak.
it's like i'm
within the pulsating crowd
like a fly trapped in a spider's web;
questions are spun
inferiority screams in my ear
& consumes all thoughts
until i can't hear
all the questions that are caught
between threads of my insecurities,
the fabric of my being -
tightening its grip
with everyone seeing
it's barely summer
but i can feel
each pump of my left ventricle
is an exertion against will,
& leaves me cripple
& frozen, still -
but feeling like i could run
before you could catch me.
i watch the moon
trade places with the sun,
racing against time,
but my day
has still not yet
Drowning Out The WorldDrowning Out The World2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Drowning Out The World
I find myself in the sounds-
I release my secrets in the lyrics
Inner peace is found-
The melodies calm my spirit
But when silence falls
The walls in my head break down
I'm consumed by stinging thoughts
And every regret cries out
Reality and time stop
The serenity within – goes silent
And then my mind floods
My past memories become violent
I get this sensation-
That I'm just too damaged
A truthful realization-
There's nothing left of me to salvage
Music is just a distraction-
To blind myself from the carnage
I remain lost in the destruction-
Where darkness has the advantage
The remnants of rhyme hinder-
The memories and I resist to coexist
As I let the essence of fear become louder-
I can't defy this quiet pestilence
I don't want to be a part of the silence
But it keeps pulling me back
It's erasing the meanings of every promis
Words To AshWords To Ash3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Words To Ash
My embers burn / A dark fire roars
My suicidal war / A blaze of words
I wrote this for you...
The old me really wanted you to read it
To tell you the truth...
Of how I came to be beyond broken
But I had to keep it
Because I'll never see you again
So my wounds remain hidden
A letter deprived of hate, I forgave us in vain
I'm trying to undo what you have done
Even if its just a placebo effect
This is me trying to “move on”
From this smothering resentment
Confessions turn into infernos
You crushed my faith
A villain disguised as a hero
My lungs starts to shake
The sinner is attending church tomorrow
While this saint is endlessly praying for strength
My soul surges / A red sky clears
My resolve emerges / A cure for tears
I've journeyed through the flames...
The new me knows the reasons for your trespasses
If We WereIf we were to break upIf We Were2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You wouldn't be my friend
And in my opinion
That's stronger than friendship
Even if our lives took us
In different directions
I'd always remember you
I'd look back on the memory of you and think
"He made me happy"
"He stuck by me during a difficult time in my life"
"He never judged me"
"Never insulted me"
"And always managed to put me in a good mood"
I'd remember all the good times
All the fun times
And I'll never stop loving you
Wonder WonderWonder2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Did you ever find an answer,
At the end of the night ,
Why people can't say sorry ,
Love is hard to fight .
Did you ever start to wonder ,
At the breaking of the day ,
Why people hurt , the hurting ,
Love is hard to say .
Did you ever ask the question ,
At the setting of the sun ,
Why people , they need people ,
Love cannot run .
The Unread LetterThe Unread Letter3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If I could go back in time
I would, and say what I really wanted to say
Then maybe, just maybe you would still be mine
And I never would have had to go through all of this pain
I yearn to take it all back
To cast away every word that was said
I want you to know I didn't mean any of that
Because I knew you were the one when we first met
You're the one that let go
I was the one to get left behind
You're the one that took my soul
I was the one that had a break down that night
You said nothing
And left me waiting
I needed you to say something
I silently pleaded for you to say anything
Maybe I thought it was a hollow threat
But I knew it was a damaging move you meant
If I only had one wish
I would ask to see you once again
And then I would beg for forgiveness
Just to try and undo all of my unjustified destruction
Every mistake made
All of the tears that were shed
Behind Hollowed EyesBehind Hollowed Eyes2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Behind Hollowed Eyes
Day after day-
I tried continuing on to live this way
With damaged veins made of concrete-
I am the undone suicide that was kept a secret
But I can no longer exist-
Inside of this pretentious skin
There is a past that I wish I didn't remember
There is a future that just looks too painful
There is nothing you can say or do that will help
Because...there is..,no turning back now
I draw everything away within the undertow
I smother the remnants of your reincarnated hope
I am the lost child you took for granted all those years ago
I am a maelstrom of deceit
I am a darkness that you cannot defeat
I am the awaiting fate of this pathetic destiny
This voice/This smile
This figure/This shadow
This soul/This sorrow
This pain/This hell
These words might not mean anything
But I want to say that I'm sorry, so sorry for everything
That's the last of my sincerity
I Feel Your AbsenceWe will not be sharing a kiss tonightI Feel Your Absence2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And no one else’s lips will ever do
Patience is a virtue, not a hindrance
It will be a pleasure waiting for you
Though I’m in love with your body and soul
And dream of a shared passion between us
I’ll wait to hear your body sing my name
There can indeed be innocence in lust
Alas, I cannot dance with you tonight
As we find ourselves many miles apart
But still you dance around my cluttered mind
Quickstep to the beat of my hollow heart
Though I’m in love with your past and present
I shall slowly remove the hurt and hate
Replacing it with a loving future
In accordance with my belief in fate
A pain that only you can imagine
To be apart, now that our love has grown
And arms feeling as empty as my soul
When I can’t cradle your quivering bones
Though I now wonder how I ever coped
In the days, months and years before you came
I feel lucky to have you in my life
So for this absence I cannot complain
True DespairTrue Despair2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How the light has darkened.
How the strongest have fallen.
This cloak remains
Unseen by many
A barrier to hide away
Covering up my damaged sanity
I have to act a certain way
And pretend I still have a sense of humanity
But I know it's too late
So there is no restoring me
I am both sword and shield
My bane is myself
My wounds will never heal
I am both heaven and hell
I fear my own reflection / I dread my own aggression
I am your ruination / I am your protection
I keep all destruction within / I keep all sympathy distant
I am your nightmare / I am your savior
The gift of infliction
Tells the story of life
The curse of humiliation
Reaps all forms of power and pride
Oh how the human soul can be broken.
Oh how the darkness can be overpowering.
This overwhelming pain
Is what you shall not fear
As I start to break
I hold the thoughts of your love near
I cannot place blame
So I put it i
CommentI don't actually think your story or art or whatever is that awesome.Comment2 years ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
My brain is one that instantly searches out every single flaw in everything.
I see what you did wrong, note the bad lines (in both drawings and words) and poor work.
But I leave positive comments. I tell you it's beautiful and wonderful and amazing.
I point out, very gently if there's something I might change, if something's too wrong.
I tell you I'm impressed and really like it.
But I can't draw.
Don't write very well, in my own opinion.
Am not very experienced.
You are putting yourself out there.
For rejection, and criticism and hate.
For the world to see your art- which is often an intimate part of someone.
You're doing more then I am- I'm reluctant to let my work be seen.
You start wonderful conversations.
You seem very, very nice.
Artists, those who are perfect or not, deserve feedback.
Not because I am madly in love with it.
But because I care.
How to Reap What Eludes YouTo whom I craveHow to Reap What Eludes You2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
When all is sullen, melancholy and grave
Where are you now?
To the shed of blessed verse
When my earth is defiled, and shrouded in curse
Where are they now?
By day I pay homage to her fluctuating form
The vision I wield to brave every storm
Her elusive frame is my source of despair
A hefty burden I am honored to bear
To where do I embark
When the ghostly reveries emerge from the dark
How can i slay them?
To whom I adore
When life yields a lingering bore
How shall I maintain?
UmbrellaheadsWe live in a city of smokestacks and umbrellaheads. A city split in two and turned upside down. A city dazed and unsteady on sixteen million feet, six feet under and darker than that. We live in a city that slept for the first time in nearly a century.Umbrellaheads2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
A city of people confused and bemused and infused with "what can I what shall I what must I do now?" It's a city that's hurting and breathing and fishing and wishing and laughing and living and waiting to wake up.
We live in a state of huddling and listening. Watching as the resilient basketball hoop in the driveway snaps in two as the trees behind dance in an insane tango, a physically improbable tango. We live in a state of blank traffic lights and trees flung like toys, leaves upside down and begging to be relieved of the shame of having fallen. We live in a state of emergency.
A state of people who exasperate and exaggerate and desperate to reach their families with no phone no internet no communication no no no. It's a state with th