Culpeo babbles: Childhood OdditiesOdd topics require odd titles.Culpeo babbles: Childhood Oddities3 years ago in Personal More Like This
This journal exists because the other one's getting old and i needed something to keep this interesting. Also, the amateurish journal skin i created years ago annoys me and since i'm an absolute N00b when it comes to CSS i thought it would be best to finally remove it.
The last nights i was biking through our town to do nightshift (i love doing that. Not a single soul around and you realise how quiet even the civilised parts of the world can get) and while letting my thoughts flow i was grabbed by some intense nostalgia for some reason. I remembered my childhood especially and....how ridiculously naive i used to be back then. The way i saw the world, all the things i had to learn and understand first (the very anatomy of „sarcasm" for example).
I remembered some cases that appear especially wondrous to me nowadays when i think about it so i thought it would be funny if i share some of them.
Childhood Oddity 1:
Black and white television.
I grew up
Embers In The RainEmbers In The Rain3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Embers In The Rain
My blood contains the power of the sun
Instigation becomes dangerous
And when control is reduced to none
My rage is monstrous
There's no turning back when it begins
I will be searching for a source to blame
I will unleash a torrent of hell from within
For I am known as the bearer of the flame
I loath crossing that line
Being locked behind blind eyes
But I won't regret the ruins that I will create
As I leave supernova footprints in my wake
I destroy everything more than once! / My limits are undone!
Infinite ashes haunt darkening lungs! / My heart becomes numb!
Consuming infernos help me cope
As I bathe in the smothering smoke
Cleansing the vengeance
A cruel repentance
Searing the memories that I yearn
As soothing water puts out my roaring fire
My traumatized eyes sting and burn
I can never call myself a survivor
The aftermath is my salvation
For I am alone
CREATIVE WRITING TIEMLook at the organic/inorganic object on your right.CREATIVE WRITING TIEM2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Thanks to Freedom of Marriage act of 2074 it is now your Life Partner.
Write a brief story of your happy life with ______ in your comments.
Draw with DA MURO for bonus points.
Wonder WonderWonder3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Did you ever find an answer,
At the end of the night ,
Why people can't say sorry ,
Love is hard to fight .
Did you ever start to wonder ,
At the breaking of the day ,
Why people hurt , the hurting ,
Love is hard to say .
Did you ever ask the question ,
At the setting of the sun ,
Why people , they need people ,
Love cannot run .
StormwalkerStormwalker3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tread harshly on my nightmares
Make all my fears disappear
Hold me close, my rainstopper
So I won't be alone...anymore
A night like tonight-
It'll be alright
Tears seem to fly-
Within glistening light
Relieve thy tired heart
Put thy pain in my arms
Allow those woes to depart
The strong are the weak ones / Once the damage is finally done
Crack and shatter my soul / My protected tears are no more
Don't let my sympathy be wasted / My morals won't become faded
I'm leaving my heart open / Don't let yourself worsen
I will always care / I will always be here
This is what I will always be / The vanquisher of your agony
A day like today
You'll be okay
Bathe in this sunshine
Doubts will ignite
Recover thy power
You survived t
I LearnedHoney, whatd you learn in school today?I Learned7 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
I learned that the world is cruel. I learned that people will try to take your dreams. They will try to rip them into tiny little shreds and then burn them; burn them until theyre only ashes and theres no proof they existed. Theres only the memory, and youll start wondering if the memory was only a dream.
I learned that they do this because someone did this to them; because theyll feel better if they drag you down into a pit of hell with them. It makes them feel like theyve won. Ive learned that sometimes, youll be just like them. Sometimes, youll rip someone elses dreams just to win.
I learned losing a dream feels like someone electrocuted your nerves; I learned that electrocuted nerves hurt like hell. I learned that sometimes you have to cry; theres no other choice and you have no control over it and you dont like it at all, no, you dont.
Dreaming Of BloodDreaming Of Blood2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Dreaming Of Blood
I lay solemnly asleep-
Crimson droplets rain down
The heavens are weeping for me-
Releasing all the tears that I won't
I'm cradled by the secrets from within
And the promises of hope that I'm afraid to sing
Along with those memories that bring me to the very brink
My closed eyes peer up at the sun-stained sky
Painting a portrait of a desired life
Yearning to feel what it's like to live without strife
As my unconscious hand reaches for a trustworthy knife
I open myself up for the first time
And experience my body shiver and cry
A RED RELEASE! / A LIQUID SCREAM!
A CHAIN UNLEASHED! / A NIGHTMARE FREED!
Casting away the years of past consequences
I hit rock-bottom many times before- so I'll do anything to become painless
I temporarily let go and stop another era of darkness
And I can feel once again from acting so careless
I consider it harmless if I survive my own carna
Frozen WhirlpoolFrozen Whirlpool3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Somewhere...in the ocean
There is a whirlpool...that is...frozen
I no longer had anything keeping me bound to this world
You were my love, you were my chain, and my heart was a link
And I couldn't bear the thought of never seeing your face anymore
So my knees gave, as I let my thoughts break, and I forced myself to sink
Somewhere...in the darkness
There is a soul...which became faithless
All those memories down the drain
I feel the bitterness of hope
While my tears rain
I cannot cope
Somewhere...in the depths
There is a spark...cradled by emptiness
My pain will always remain in time
As I never wanted to let you go
But I still got left behind
Only to dwell in remorse
Somewhere...along the path
Came a point...where I couldn't stand
I knew there would be no moving on
And there would be no going back
Because I can't stand the thought
Of potentially losing any of that
Somewhere...in my mind
There is a time...when I loved my
If We WereIf we were to break upIf We Were3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You wouldn't be my friend
And in my opinion
That's stronger than friendship
Even if our lives took us
In different directions
I'd always remember you
I'd look back on the memory of you and think
"He made me happy"
"He stuck by me during a difficult time in my life"
"He never judged me"
"Never insulted me"
"And always managed to put me in a good mood"
I'd remember all the good times
All the fun times
And I'll never stop loving you
DrogaDroga5 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Te odio más que nada, odio todo lo que amé un día de ti, odio tus virtudes, odio tu sonrisa, odio el brillo de tus ojos color miel, odio el rubor de tus mejillas, odio las formas que hacen tus cabellos al viento
Dame un respiro, todo me recuerda a ti. Hasta el viento me trae tu aroma
Tu dulce aroma.
Ahora maldigo el día en que te conocí, maldigo el día en que tu sonrisa me cautivó, maldigo todo de ti, pero sin embargo no puedo dejarlo atrás.
Estoy enganchada a ti como un drogadicto a la droga, ¡Joder!
Me has dado lo mejor en mi vida, pero también lo peor. Contigo me he sentido llena, feliz, pero también vacía e insignificante.
Y ahora solo puedo odiarte, porque ya no tengo capacidad para amarte.
Tu amor ha convertido mi vida en un puto infierno.
No puedo vivir sin ti, pero tampoco contigo, preferiría morir antes que hacer cualquiera de las dos co
....Whispers...."You sure you're going to be alright?"....Whispers....3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Cheryl looked down, taking a few seconds to think before she answered, "Yeah, I'll be fine. I just need to get all of that out of my head for a little while."
Karen nodded, "Okay. You took your medication, right? I can't have you up all night again. Hopefully this stuff they gave you works."
Cheryl had insomnia. Ever since she was little, it had come and gone weeks or even months at a time. Her doctor had prescribed sleeping medication that day.
"Yeah, I know, and yes, I took it after I brushed my teeth. I should be able to sleep alright."
"Okay, well let's try to get some sleep, then." Karen smiled, and then gave Cheryl a kiss before turning out the light.
The couple nestled together in the center of the bed, Cheryl's head resting on Karen's chest.
"Goodnight, Cheryl. I love you."
"I love you too, Sweetie. Goodnight."
After a few minutes had past, both were sound asleep.
Cheryl's eyes slowly opened, revealing nothing but the dark of night around
Brier-RoseBrier-Rose4 years ago in Drama More Like This
I thought that you would....awake from that corrupt sleep
And wait for me; alas, but you died in a dream
A year of sleep turned into two, three, twenty, a thousand.
A young Princeling named Gerard was brought up on the lore of beautiful Princesses, wizards, dragons, and elves. But it would be an insult to call them myths for these creatures of magic were real.
The young Prince was shown every magical creature possible by his Oma, who was a witch. She saw the creativity that flowed from his fingertips when he drew or wrote, and in the way he sang. She saw how much he enjoyed the stories, how he would constantly ask to hear more and have others repeated, and so she decided it would be good to show him these magical creatures.
The King and Queen, Gerard's parents, had been horrified upon Oma suggesting this, but could not deny Oma's clever argument that it would do Gerard good. A king needed to know and understand his subjects to better reign over them, and also be able to k
Alcohol Fueled WordsAlcohol Fueled Words3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Alcohol Fueled Words
Blame can go a long ways
When the problems stay intact
Guilt always refuses to fade
After another hurtful attack
Regret has an unquenchable thirst
While voices are thrown every direction
Rage is tightly bottled up until the next outburst
Though the tears dry, the reasons for them won't be easily forgiven
You bring out those secret, false words I don't even mean
You push me over the edge, and get rid of my sense of controllability
You expose hidden feelings that are supposed to be locked deep within me
You pull me into a downward spiral, to release my brutality
You choose innocent targets to go for, but you leave their faces blurry
You lock me within a state of mind that consumes all of my untapped fury
You turn me into a monster, so heartlessly
You change morals and intentions too quickly
You win every time; hail to your addictive victories
Intoxicated emotions are limitless
While they continue to riot away inside
Resistance is rendered useless
Inner DemonsInner Demons3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Praying for the prey
A saint so blissful
Don't let the old scars awake
A storm of rage comes my way
Idle hands yearn to be unfaithful
Even the heavens won't feel safe
I am my greatest fear
I am my own worst enemy
The glares I give myself are fierce
I barely hold onto this false harmony
My twisted thoughts flicker / The acts of a sinner
The silence of a confessor / A secret held forever
The madness took over / Becoming hell's harbinger
I am the lawless; I am executioner / This is my will; this is my terror
I hated my own reflection
Knowing the truth behind the lie
I destroyed my own protection
I tore down the walls in my mind
The light has darkened
A past so painful
Forcing fury to descend
No more trespasses to repent
I am the child who became spiteful
I have been devoured by my inner demons
My Invisible LifeMy Invisible Life3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Invisible Life
On the surface of anxiety
Getting used to this melancholy
They'd always be here to help
I've always only had myself
Opening the gates to this hell
And the screams are revealed
I let my sorrow and resolve meld
My desires are overtaken
I know this isn't right
But my lies weren't convincing
So this will always be my invisible life
You Wouldn't Download a ZombieYou Wouldn't Download a Zombie3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Elementary particles (and all 'matter') are artifacts of the staticness of the observing framework.
- Dreamer's Handbook
Rob eyed the big red button, resisting the temptation to push it. "Hey Pete, look what I found!"
The salvage operation was one of the most promising their crew has been on; the demons slaughtered everyone in the underground facility and retreated without taking any of the spoils. They did leave, however, corpses in blue and white labcoats with blood smeared all over.
"What!" Came the muffled reply from the far side of the corridor.
Many of the reinforced doors were already bashed in or broken in half. Naturally, the crew raided the blood depository first - no self-respecting vampires would let all that tasty blood get ruined. It's good we arrived in time, while there's still electricity. Not even the clan leaders knew why only facilities such as these had electricity and working technology - or if they did, they surely did not bother telling Rob.
The Peace SeekerThe Peace Seeker3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Peace Seeker
Whispers that no one hears
The world is deaf from despair
The sun becomes my throne
As I watch reality become undone
Someone can be another person's hero
If only love existed
Dusk will break with a darker tomorrow
Another day of being two-faced
Every second- a promise is broken
Every minute- a tear is taken
Every hour- a smile is forced
Every day- a child is born
I stitch my mouth shut / I finally had enough
Silence is my sin / Truth is my friend
Seal my eyes wide / Lies can finally hide
I will witness no evil / I will force another smile
Anyone can be someone's demon
Because greed insists it
Peace is not real to a planet of villains
Needs cannot be resisted
Every chance- wrongs replace rights
Every opportunity- delusions will ignite
Every wish- is for more of the same
Every hope- is for someone else to blame
Screams that will echo on
The voices of war will succumb
The moon becomes my beacon
As I await for the answers I'm seeking
The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)
Every choice that I've made always failed / always failed
Every day I looked death in the eyes, and I smiled / I smiled
I guess I just gave up somewhere in the beginning / in the beginning
Piece by piece, I let myself go, I'm slowly breaking / I'm slowly breaking
Taunting my own useless mortality / preaching to the ashen-winged angel
This lifespan of mine is such treachery / the golden doors are too judgmental
My worst enemy is also my own reflection / a war to be unleashed
My only friends are the tears that keep dripping / though they still leave me
Far too long have I been on my life's edge
Looking down, and backing out of my own hollow threats
But I swear that one of these days I won't wait to die from old age
I will skip to the last chapter, and write the ending in blood, soaking the page
All it takes is this lowl
UmbrellaheadsWe live in a city of smokestacks and umbrellaheads. A city split in two and turned upside down. A city dazed and unsteady on sixteen million feet, six feet under and darker than that. We live in a city that slept for the first time in nearly a century.Umbrellaheads3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
A city of people confused and bemused and infused with "what can I what shall I what must I do now?" It's a city that's hurting and breathing and fishing and wishing and laughing and living and waiting to wake up.
We live in a state of huddling and listening. Watching as the resilient basketball hoop in the driveway snaps in two as the trees behind dance in an insane tango, a physically improbable tango. We live in a state of blank traffic lights and trees flung like toys, leaves upside down and begging to be relieved of the shame of having fallen. We live in a state of emergency.
A state of people who exasperate and exaggerate and desperate to reach their families with no phone no internet no communication no no no. It's a state with th
The DropRay looked distastefully at the decomposing mess in front of him. He thumped three times against the back of the truck then hollered.The Drop2 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
"George! Get ya' fat ass back here! We got ourselves a situation!"
George climbed out of the cab and lumbered his way around back, scratching his head in that dumb-moose way of his.
"What kind of situa...?" He stopped in his tracks as soon as he saw what Ray was referring to, a look of shock slowly spreading across his heavy-set face. "Ray! It's a ... It's a ... " George blubbered, his flabby hand flapping uselessly in the air.
Ray reached out and gave it a quick smack, as if scolding a small child.
"I know what it is ya' mook! Now shut ya' yap before Joe Public hears ya' squawkin' and moseys on over for a look-see!"
George's look of panic turned sulky and he rubbed his now-red hand defensively.
Ray, as usual, took no notice. He stroked thoughtfully at his chin, trying to figure out their next step. He knew what they should do. What they shou
Dreaming Of RageDreaming Of Rage3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Dreaming Of Rage
I don't want to give into the maddening thoughts
I don't want to become what I am not
My clenched hands start to bleed
Because I despise falling asleep
Knuckles harden as I delve into unconsciousness
My bad blood boils away the sense of innocence
Inner wars are fought / Faces yearn to be tarnished
All of my battles are lost / I put every bad memory into my fists
I don't want to know my true self / Different sides of the same coin
My reflection is altered by the pain I felt / We both will reach the breaking point
The forgotten fury yells to be freed
The hidden hatred screams to be unleashed
The rioting rage roars to be challenged
The warmongering wrath growls to be unchained
As I dive into my pool of anger
I let go of my guilt and descend deeper
Shaking, trembling, quaking / To strike freely is my only wish
Breaking, tearing, rampaging / As my sanity slowly diminishes
I could ne
The Unseen LifeThe Unseen Life3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Unseen Life
I thought pain was created to fade
But it seems like my life was crafted to break
So I apologize to the mirror and say "I'm sorry, it's too late."
I can't even look at my own face, as I can never accept my mistakes
I realize that I am brokenly made
My mind bleeds away the memories I've wasted
Remorse begins to slowly fill in the gaps that are left
This stained razor blade leaves every dark moment perfectly divided
I try not to indulge in act of prayer, because I refuse to ever confess
Even in death I will never rest
All visible colors descend into the ground
And time drifts off to sleep
Every sharp outline ascends into the clouds
As this reality begins to dream
This world has truly abandoned me
I keep on doing what I've done
So I can't deny that I've forsaken hope
I couldn't stop the emptiness once it had begun
But I had no other choice, because I was left alone
All I have ever had was myself to disown
Dawning self-hatred with no e
Show me what the stars look like tonight.I’ve fallen in love with wars & darkness.Show me what the stars look like tonight.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The kind of darkness said to have made
shadow monsters of seen-too-much eyes
& the kind of war lands made of
desecrated, dandelion wrists.
I am the wind, the morphine pump
& I’ve carved my bones into stars.
I wear them around my neck
like outward sun marrow
warming my carotid pulse.
These little glow-in-the-dark blankets
aren’t enough to stifle the sounds;
but my anatomy never seemed to fit
together the right way anyway.
ApartApart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I couldn't see the consequences-
As I tried to trust my heart
I just couldn't resist-
The blind love that ceased my wars
Helping me let go of the struggles-
That I foolishly held in my hands
I freed the thoughts that quarreled-
Tears fell in order for me to stand
Truth can be the worst enemy
Lies can be the strongest ally
Harmony isn't immune to tragedy
Because you made a myth out of your apparent humanity
Mistakes can never be renamed! / Scars can never be erased!
Compassion is used as bait! / Two sides to every face!
A piece of peace is caged! / Watch the bridge burn away!
I'll desecrate the meaning of “passion”
You redefined my every moral
There will be no hesitation
I won't need anyone -anymore-
I ignored the risks-
Of handing over my hope
Killed by a kiss-
Turning my world to stone
I believed in your deceit-
And I fell too hard
My mind endlessly screams-