Before I saw The SunReading things I've already read to pass the time,Before I saw The Sun2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
bringing back the feelings of hard times that leave bile in my mouth and weight on my chest.
Some one I used to know and thought the world of,
And even though much has passed,
And I am happiest now with my sunshine.
I some times wonder what ever happend to this friend of mine.
Where the times have taken him.
Then there's the story of the monster before I saw the sun.
I regret everything to do with him,
Wish we had never met or that I had ever learned his name.
Left me broken and bleeding with the trail of other broken hearts,
I was only another card to tuck under his belt.
A silver tongued devil with nothing to loose and time to spare.
But after him.. I saw the sun.
The one who loves me for all that I am,
and cares for me.
He is the best thing to happen to me..
and before him I never really believed in the whole.. " the one "
or the soulmate kinda thing..
but now I do..
Thank you sunshine <3
Please don't ever..Please don't ever think that I would leave,Please don't ever..2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
No one catches my attention like you.
How your voice cuts my attention,
Or how I get lost in your eyes each time I gaze into them.
No one will ever hold my heart the way you do,
It cracks a little each time you think I would ever leave.
You're the best thing in my life.
You are my sunshine
Anything.We waited in silence,Anything.2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
For a sound.
But nothing ever happened,
And no one ever came.
We waited for him.
But he never came.
A long plane ride in bitter silence,
Left alone with a crushing reality.
He was never coming home.
And we realize that no amount of wishin will bring him back to us.
But still we wait.
Wondering if he watches us or turns away in shame?
Wondering if he's proud of who we became?
Wondering if he will visit our dreams anymore?
And we wait in silence.
For a sound.
Black Rabbit - Part sevenThe late October breeze shifted leaves across the sidewalks and roadways, which were usually empty. But tonight, they were filled with children in colorful costumes and teenagers looking to make some trouble. It was Halloween. And every dressed up child that Casey passed made him regret where he was driving even more. Shiloh had somehow pulled him into going trick or treating today, which was nearly impossible for someone to do. The raven absolutely hated trick or treating and hadn't done it since he was around the age of ten. But, Casey just couldn't say no to Shiloh. Maybe it was his baby blue eyes, staring into whatever goodness was left in his soul. Or perhaps it was the simple fact that Casey was growing very fond of the boy. Their agreement was that they he would go trick or treating with Shiloh just as long as he didn't wear a costume.Black Rabbit - Part seven2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
But as Casey pulled up to the quaint second story house on the hill, he couldn't help have a hunch that he would actually be in a costume sometim
Black Rabbit - Part nineLater that night, Casey had left Shiloh's house, saying he had to go home. But sure enough, his car pulled up into the boy's driveway the next morning to give the pinky a ride to school. The whole way there though, he couldn't help thinking about that sweet morning they spent together and the kiss they shared at the park. The scenes just replayed in his head over and over again, and every time, his stomach felt fluttery. As he sat there in Shiloh's driveway, waiting for him to come out, he just let his head fall back on the headrest of his seat and smiled warmly. Even though the chill of autumn slowly crept into the car and through his thin sweater, those memories just made him feel oh so warm.Black Rabbit - Part nine2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The pinky soon came out of his house and ran up to the car; his thick pink hair bouncing with his steps as he got in and sat beside Casey in the passenger's seat.
"Hi Casey~ How're you?" Shi asked with his lips curled into a sweet smile as he buckled himself in and pulled his hands into his bunn
Black Rabbit - Part four"Out! Everyone out!" Casey yelled from the top of the stairs. He was absolutely pissed at himself. This whole thing was a stupid idea. Not only did he jeopardize his best and only friendship, but Shiloh's house was absolutely trashed. Of course, no one could really hear him over the music, so the teen had to use force. He roughly pushed people out of the way of the stereo, and abruptly turned it off. "I SAID EVERYONE FUCKING OUT. NOW." he screamed.Black Rabbit - Part four2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
With grunts and complaints, most of the teenagers left, but Casey then had to go upstairs and chase some kids out of bedrooms and bathrooms. Once the house was completely empty except for Shiloh and himself, Casey let himself fall on the couch. He was riddled with regret and guilt, and the dark thoughts began to creep back into his mind. He wanted to die for what he did to Shiloh, even though he had done much worse before. "I can't believe I did that to Shiloh. MY Shiloh." Casey muttered to himself, rubbing his eyes. But it took him a second
Black Rabbit - Part eightThe morning light filtered through the soft baby blue curtains and cast a warm light across the cozy bedroom and onto the bed that usually just had one pink topped boy curled up innit. But this morning, a snake bitten rabbit held him close as they both slept ever so soundly. Unlike every other time that Casey woke up with a boy in the same bed, this was a pure, sweet kind of cuddle. As they lay there sleeping, Shiloh had his face pressed into Casey's chest, and the raven's face was submerged in Shiloh's soft, candy hair. Eventually, the taller of the two slowly came to. He looked up to the window, and then back down to what he had just brought his face up from. When he saw it was Shiloh though, his emerald eyes widened slowly and in one swift movement, he rolled out of the bed.Black Rabbit - Part eight2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"No... no no no no no. Fuck... why did I..." he whispered, slowly crawling away from the bed.
Of course, the whore thought he had sex with Shiloh the previous night, but didn't notice that he was still dressed i
Black Rabbit - Part fiveThe school courtyard only had about a dozen other students. Just mucking about; talking about their general idiotic things that went right over Shiloh's head as he wandered over to one of the few trees and sat in the grass beneath it. Blades of grass folding awkwardly and brushing against his puffy checkered pants. He hadn't seen his friend much today and it was already lunch hour. The boy never really realized just how lonely school was till today since they'd normally spent nearly all of their time together. Though there were some times that Casey would go off without saying why or where Shiloh never really questioned it though.Black Rabbit - Part five2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
It's not like Casey had no friends before him anyways.. But Shi had just grown so
attached to him and couldn't fight the often sense of jealousy that'd developed towards said friends.
Leaves rustled above him due to a light but chilled breeze that swept along the school's roof. The thing that caught a nearby pair of hazel eyes was Shiloh's hair. T
Black Rabbit - Part tenAfter a little while of talking with the angsty and peculiar teenager, Annie just shrugged it off and let him be. She could tell that he was nervous around her, though she'd keep a close eye on them anyways; she was like a bear watching over her baby. In this case, Shiloh was her baby.Black Rabbit - Part ten2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Shiloh was still hanging onto Casey's waist like a koala, face nuzzled into his shirt. He was still out like a light.
Casey immediately calmed down once Annie walked off. His heart was racing and his palms were sweating badly. It was a wonder the sound of his heart didn't wake Shiloh up. This was far from the first time Casey ran into parents though, and definitely not the most awkward. Once, when he was trying to escape from a house after a night of fun, he was forced to sit and have a cup of coffee by his partner's dad while they went on and on about the "beauty of mars". He just pulled Shiloh a little closer after she left and tried to calm down. The boy probably wasn't going to wake up for a while, a
Black Rabbit - fourteenThe thing he remembered most about her was her long blonde locks of hair that draped down her back and sat propped upon her shoulders. The way it caught the rays of sunrise, glowing with an almost pink hue against the morning lights and long shadows. He could remember how much his father loved her hair and nearly cried when she had cut it to her shoulders, it used to be longer at one point- but those memories were fuzzy now. The recollection of his father twisting the ringlets of gold in his fingers as he held her in an embrace, whispering little sweet nothings into her ear before he’d go off to work and leave her with the baby.Black Rabbit - fourteen2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
He could also remember her eyes vividly; he could never let those gems slip from his memory for they were also his eyes- light blues with a dark blue splotch circling the iris. They were like staring into a swirling pool of sky coloured acrylic paints; The way that they lit up once meeting her sweet little butterscotch haired baby who gree
Black Rabbit - Part fifteenShiloh sat on the mass of red comforters and pillows in his bedroom, propped up against the headboard, staring across the room at the numerous photos plastered onto the far wall in messy discord as he munched the box of crisps in his lap. He dug his hand deep into the cardboard container, the plastic crinkling; he was nearly to the crumbs and he was still hungry. But it was one of the highest protein things they actually still had at his auntie’s, besides the icky greenery kept away in the veggie drawer downstairs- hidden in the towering fridge. He gave a small little sigh, eyeing the little black cell propped on the whale pillow beside his leg. He really started to miss Casey; they hadn't seen each other in days...well more like three weeks and four extra days to tack on. But he felt needy and afraid that Casey would push him away if he got too close; he loved that angsty raven, but he was scared that he may love him too much and didn’t want to scare him off. All heBlack Rabbit - Part fifteen2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Hunny Bee Flew AwayWe used to be so different you and I,Hunny Bee Flew Away2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Always having a good time.
When you came home I used to run outside to meet you,
Now I retreat away and hide.
Before you can even come inside,
yelling and screeching sounds and a door slammed.
My body shakes from heaving sobs after you "greet" me,
My eyes swell up from trying to hide the tears.
You know right away what I've tried to hide.
Awe, why do you cry my little hunny bee?
Is what you used to say.
Now you yell and question my tears.
See what you've done?
Do you even care?
Black Rabbit - Part oneBlack Rabbit - Part one2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The rain had stopped sometime that morning, leaving everything reflective and crystal clear. Water crystals sliding down the countless trees at the foot of a grassy hill on the edge of town. At the peak of the hill stood a two story house however; white paneling and green trimming decorating the architecture. A balcony which had two sliding doors which led into the well kept house- but I'll get into that in a minute. Overall, The property felt so tranquil and was just plain gorgeous with the lake further down past the orchard. But as peaceful as it was looking out to the house, Looks can be deceiving.
"I can't believe you'd go on and do that without telling me!" Shiloh cried to his auntie as he dropped his face into a white and lacy pillow on the couch.
His parents had passed away years back, Making him have to leave Russia and live with his godmother Annie- And his only remaining memory from his past; was his Silver Marten bunny named Frodo. Frodo as in Frodo Baggins, from Lord of the
Black Rabbit - Part six"But... You said you loved me..." I whimper. He just looks at me with careless eyes; the same eyes that used to show me compassion and instill the greatest joy in me. The eyes that had just wandered across my naked virgin skin last night and took in every detail. He shrugs with the shoulders my arms used to perch on when we hugged.Black Rabbit - Part six2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Listen kid, I just wanted to bang you." He scoffs, almost in a laugh. I couldn't believe that it was the same voice that comforted me softly, saying it wouldn't hurt as he stole my innocence away from me.
I feel the tears come on, but everything else in me is numb. There is a lump in my throat, and I can't speak. It doesn't matter though, since I have no words to say. Without another word, he just walks away. It can't be though. I want to reach out and grab his shirt, maybe pull him back into my world.
"No!" I suddenly yelp. And he turns back. That moment right there was the last time I remember even seeing him. His blonde hair falling ever so perfectly in
Loki- A family that I used to knowA family I used to knowLoki- A family that I used to know2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Now and then I think of when we were younger,
Like when you and I were more equal,
Told myself that you were my brother,
But felt so lonely in your company,
But that was then and it's an ache I still remember.
You can get addicted to a certain kind of power,
Like ruling all of Asgard,
Always and forever,
So when I found that I was a frost giant,
Odin you said that I would still be your son,
But I'll admit that I was glad that I was not.
But you didn't have to favor Thor,
Make out like I was another relic,
And that now I'm nothing,
And I don't even need your love,
But you treat me like a villain,
And that feels so rough,
No you didn't have to lie to me,
Have our friends turn on me,
And then aid your battle,
I guess that I don't need that though,
Now you're just a father that I used to know,
Now your just a mother that I used to know,
Now your just a brother that I used to know.
Now and then I think of all the times you helped me brother,
Black Rabbit - Part elevenNearly a month had passed and not many visits were made really.Black Rabbit - Part eleven2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
It was early December now and Shiloh had been at the library daily. Going there in the early morning and leaving in the late evening; studying had become a crucial thing for him ever since his auntie had come home for November and left a few days before now. She's always been so stern and concrete when it came to the boy's schooling and education. It took about fifteen minutes to get at least halfway home from the now closed library, which was cozy and an old white building, at least in daylight. Now, it would have looked more like a ghost house.
Shiloh said goodbye to the librarian before he left, his caution sign messenger bag shouldered and his mittens pulled over his dainty little fingers as he began walking home, hesitantly. It was soon too dark for him to see the ground anymore, and he could feel little droplets of water sprinkling down onto him. But he didn't take too much heed to it, just water.
Casey, of course, w
Black Rabbit - Part threeBlack Rabbit - Part three2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Casey was absolutely shocked by what he saw, but he didn't yell or anything. Instead, he just hurried inside the closet and shut the door behind him. At this point the slut didn't really know what to do. His better judgment had flown out the window long ago even though he wasn't all that drunk. And in this situation, he didn't really know what to do other than take advantage. Plus, Shiloh probably wouldn't even remember in the morning. Without a second thought, Casey pinned the blindfolded boy against the free wall of the cluttered closet, going to suck and bite at his neck roughly. It was almost like Casey was on ecstasy; everything about Shiloh was just so soft. The pale flesh of his neck was like baby's skin against Casey's rough, chapped lips and teeth yellowed from smoking.
Shiloh sucked in a breath, his muscles tensing once the rough mouth made contact- toes curling in tightly on the thin carpet. This was surely not the type of surprise that he'd had in mind. Though he honestly h
Fish Legs - 2Rupert had spent most of the day wondering up and down the ship, curiosity filling his seasalt brain. He'd only really seen the Captains' cabin, and doubted that anything that was really meant to be hidden away would ideally be there. Everything struck interest to him, and when he found that Daniel wasn't too busy with the others on board, he'd scurry over and ask him questions eagerly. Everything was just so new and interesting to him. They'd be in port around late evening, and the crew was eager to feel soil beneath their boots and whores in their arms. Well.. all but Daniel; he was far too interested in seeing Rupert's reaction to land and civilization. It's not that the cheeky captain had anything against land or whores or even plant life, but he was a man of the sea and would never dream of residing inland for more than a few days.Fish Legs - 22 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Rupert scurried over to Daniel yet again, his ventures around the ship having finished long ago; though it didn't stop him to take another look. As he
Black Rabbit - Part twelveA pale light poured into the dark apartment from a kitchen window, and covered the angsty resident. Casey sat in the grungy kitchen, looking at the rust covered refrigeration and inhaling death from his third cigarette of the morning. The air in the small space was a little bit foggy from this method of stress relief, but there was no way Casey was going to open a window. Since he barely made enough money from being a whore and stealing from his now four boyfriends to pay rent, he never turned the heat on and always wore several layers of clothing. He was barely ever home anyway, so it didn't matter. This was simply a place to keep his belongings in and bring the occasional client home.Black Rabbit - Part twelve2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Cigarette number three was soon diminished to the butt and once it was, the whore rubbed it on the bottom of his plain sage green ceramic ash tray. It was a housewarming gift from boyfriend #2; probably purchased at a garage sale for a dollar. The ash tray honestly looked like something you'd see in the
You are my sunshine..With you I feel complete.You are my sunshine..2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
With you I feel Loved.
With you I feel safe.
With you I feel...
I feel like there is someone who is waiting for me,
Some one who loves me with every part of their being.
Some one who actually cares about what I have to say and will listen.
Somt one who wants nothing more than to see me smile.
You lift me up on my bad days,
and make me smile when I'm at my worst.
You're there for me when I need you most.
I think you're the most amazing person currently in my life.
I don't know what I would do without you,
I have never loved anyone more than I love you right now.
And I hope that we can be happy together for a long time..
I love you Sunshine.. <3
Fish Legs - 3It had been a complete hassle to get a room in a decent inn that night, though somehow the devious captain had his ways much to his oceanic companion's oblivious nature; Rupert didn't even catch the innkeeper's shocked expression at point blank range, let alone anything else. Then again, he was still trying to get accustomed to walking on his own two feet let alone anything else. He sat on the small but cozy bed and looked about the room, idly kicking his legs.Fish Legs - 32 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"There's so many interesting things here," he hummed merrily, "it's so lively, heh"
The high statured captain pulled his gaze from the shabby old window with a view of the horizon; the silver orb leaving surreal brush strokes of light on the ribbed waves. A dazed look cloaked the captain's shadowed face, his hat only providing light on his lips as a smug little grin pulled at his lips. "Very lively indeed, I'm glad to see that you're so merry~"
The little blue merboy grinned himself and giggled. "Of course I am!" he beamed happi
Too Gay?I've been seeing quite a few people condemning gay folks for being "too open", trying to shove gayness in peoples' faces, and making gayness their defining characteristic. I can't speak for all gay people, but I have just a few things to say about this.Too Gay?2 years ago in Philosophical More Like This
First, how can someone be too open or too forward about who they are? After all, being gay is nothing to be ashamed of. Our society has moved past that archaic idea. Thus, there is no reason should we feel we have to be careful and discreet about how much we reveal about our sexuality. I don't introduce myself with "hi, I'm Anna and I'm gay," but when conversations on relationships, politics, gay rights, or my significant other come up, I'm not shy about saying that I am a lesbian. If that offends you, the fault is yours, not mine.
Secondly, many people misinterpret normal behaviors as being innately gay. I've known straight men that have many stereotypically gay mannerisms and many straight wom