My name.My name.My name.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
This is something that has been bothering me for a while now.
My name on Deviantart is Dorian (as you would know if you looked on my page)
Now i don't like openly talking about this because everyone has their different views on the world, though most people i know in real life/ and here on the internet are very open with who I am and what I'm about to go through.
/I actually don't think I've ever really said this officially by telling you guys... for the reasons of (1. I dislike having a lot of attention drawn to it and (2. because i have always had you people refer to me as a guy / male / boy / so it has never been a problem.
So to cut it a bit shorter (as most of you know)
I am a Trasman /or/ Transgendered // Gender identity disorder.
please don't ask me a million questions, but i am happy to help if anyone needs someone to talk to about it
I came out to my mom over seven months ago fully and now I am starting to get treatment for it.
SO THE REASON FOR POSTING ALL
Lesson from some kids. //life.I'm just going to get right into this.Lesson from some kids. //life.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
The other day I was sitting in class rather frustrated with everything and the people around me. I'm in a split class with grade 10's, 11's and us... the 12's, so there was about 15 minutes left in class and i had noticed this grade 11 boy glance over at me every so often.. thinking it was strange i finally exchanged a long look with him, it caught me off guard when all he did was smile at me then turned to leave. Now i've never talked to him, and i know he didn't mean anything with the smile. But the look he gave me almost said: "you look upset today but thats ok, smile with me?" So i smiled back.
That actually changed my outlook on my entire day. Something as small as some kid sharing a smile with me, It kinda made me think about how simple the whole thing was.
Sorry i'm just blabbering my feels towards the world.
Then today a little girl in my other art program was just talking about how excited she is to grow up and graduate and move out an
tumblrmemelifewhatdon'treadthisahh |Di was bored. whatever. meme. from tumblr. what am i doing with my lifetumblrmemelifewhatdon'treadthisahh |D2 years ago in Personal More Like This
A: Are you a virgin, and who did you loose it too?
nope. and uh... thats personal but kodee .__.
B: 3 biggest pet peeves
1. When people leave windows open at night (unless there is something pretty to look at) 2. When people in the house forget dishes in random places. 3. When i'm spending time with someone and they play on their phone every 5 seconds. 4. I have LOTS more but I don't want to come across as an OCD freak.
C: Celebrity crush?
Adam Lavine, Jony depp, Milla Jovovich, Tom hiddleston and Robert Downey Jr. (I can't even-) PRETTY MUCH EVERY ACTOR IN AVENGERS. JUST.
D: If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
I wouldn't have changed a thing.
E: Do you smoke?
attempted once. gross
F: Do you drink?
ehh... not very often
G: If you had to rank yourself on a scale of 1 to 10, what would you be?
oh god.... uh... what am i ra
AN UPDATE. C8AS ALWAYS LATELY. I'm sorry i've been so busy with stuff and haven't been posting like i used too.AN UPDATE. C82 years ago in Personal More Like This
But lots of stuff have been going on for me, spending time with Kodee, Lots of school work and getting ready to grad
AND I recently started Testosterone and have been busy with Doctors and things (I Don't like posting updates about that on Da but I have a tumblr blog about if for people that want to know--> http://shark-bites-adamstransition.tumblr.com/
To start..So the last few days i have been talking to everybody about my transition buisnessTo start.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
what their thoughts and opinions were, since so many people ask me questions and send me notes on here i feel i should talk about this subject again. I do plan on documenting it over another site, maby youtube or tumblr... i don't really know yet.
I really don't want to do it over Deviantart though because i feel that this isn't the place for it, this is just for posting my artwork. Though I will be officially starting T in the next couple months and starting my treatment.
Now my feelings on this subject are;
I don't really feel like i need to draw the attention of the world to this, truthfully i wish i could just do this and no one would know. But the questions and intrest of other people is why i'm posting this journal. I want to help people with my experiences in anyway i can, So when i have everything set up i will post a link to my updates for anyone intrested in asking me questions or t
It's been awhile.It's been a VERY long time since I made a journal (so i'll sum everything up in a few short simple sentences:It's been awhile.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Went to endocrinologist/ talked about testosterone.
Got pills to stop any other development and to stop periods forever.
Going to see one more doctor next week to confirm I'm ready and want to move forward with testosterone.
Got over being sick. Only to get sick again.
Spent all my weekends at my boyfriends house. (we watched movies, cuddled, ect.)
Did school stuff.
Life hasn't been super exciting |D //but i try.
And I missed one of my pills on saturday night, so i had to take two yesterday.
I've learned now that it is a guarantee that i'm going to throw up at least twice the next day from taking two or more.
DON'T MISS YOUR MEDICATION.
I JUST GOT back from the bathroom actually.
Weird that throwing up inspires me to make a journal.
//thats why i'm still home this morning but i'll go in after first block wh
ANNNNNNNNND.. SHE'S GONE.ANNNNNNNNND..3 years ago in Personal More Like This
I feel like that went on MUCH longer than it should have and not only were things stolen from :iconshark-bites: but also :iconmiczombies: and myself.
So I send out a heartfelt thank you to all who helped out in reporting this person and helping me take her down.
In all honesty I was actually starting to get a little pissed off.
but thanks guys! One less shit bag on DA :iconluvluvplz:
Please read.Back whenever I started hitting the front page of DeviantArt, abit after I'd turned fourteen I admit that my ego popped up a notch. And not just one, mind you. No I was both surprised and in awe that some kid like me could end up taking up space in a place where only masterpieces and loved pieces were seen. And honestly, it stuck out like a sore thumb because seriously, My art isn't that good. I was blindfolded by pride in belief that I could actually go somewhere with what I had. But after awhile, pressure began to set in and I felt that more was expected of me and I couldn't meet those expectations. I'd never been exposed to constructive or negative criticism before that point; so I admit full heartedly that I acted out of line and childishly. Which led to people being angry and hurt by my stupidity, and I am sorry. It should have never happened, and I promise that it won't ever again.Please read.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
So as time pressed on, I began to get desperate,
HOOAAHHFFFFFFFFF EVERYTHING//HOOAAHH2 years ago in Personal More Like This
I HAVE LIKE ONE MONTH LEFT OF HIGHSCHOOL I'M GOING TO CRY I CAN'T WAIT TO LEAVE. Leaving 13 years of school... just to go back for more *cough* artcollege.
I still haven't picked out a tux yet for the dinner dance.. I'm bringing Kodee to that in a tux *inhuman screech*
WHWOWHEHEHWHEEW i'm turing 18 in a month :iconheplz:
But wow. I'm so excited.
And as you have noticed.
I'm actualy doing stuff and posting it on here,
Now I just need to reply to all your comments QAQ
AND open commissions. (I just need to go to my bank and approve my paypal) weeh. Next week I promise.
SO quick life update for you wondering but.. unaware.
Ive been on Testosterone for over three months now. It dosen't seem like it's been that long, and i've been so much more happy being on it.
ANd current feelings my ear is killing me.
Me and one of my besties :iconleenarox9: went and got our industrials (scaffold piercing) pierced. YAY MORE METAL. //I'm super happy with ho
legasp1. The meaning behind my user namelegasp3 years ago in Personal More Like This
3. Why I love my bestfriend
4. Last time I cried and why
5. Piercings I have
6. Favorite Band
7. Biggest turn off(s)
8. Top 5 (insert subject)
9. Tattoos I want
10. Biggest turn on(s)
12. Ideas of a perfect date
13. Life goal(s)
14. Piercings I want
15. Relationship status
16. Favorite movie
17. A fact about my life
19. Middle name
20. Anything you want to ask
1. My user name? I like sharks alot and 'bites' because my art can be kinda bright and 'in your face' sometimes. Like a bite into your attention XD i don't even-
2. Weakness... Well i actually have alot but the main ones are: being left alone for a long time, being pushed away, and being ignored.
3. Why do i love my best friends? Because they are fucking awesome. //i don't have just one best friend
4. The last time i cryed was because i missed someone really dearly and had a fear that they didn't miss me back.
5. Percings.. //i want moreee/ I have my nose peirc
WoofffaaahI'm happy to say i finally made a tumblr. :'DWoofffaaah3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Yes. Now before some of you freak out i just want to say;
That i'm using my tumblr to post my art //and some uncensord// stuff ALONG with all my Transition updates.
So videos, journalish things, stuff like that.
(SOOO you can get to know me better mabye :'D ask me stuff about my art, about my Transition and stuff in general?
Follow at your own risk,
I might get annoying.
OH AND i'm new to tumblr so ignore my noob-ish-ness
I still need to figure it out. OTL.
http://-sharkbites.tumblr.com/ SO THERE.
So nothing new besides that :I
saw Kodee on the weekend :'D
now it's sunday.
pupSo last night we brought Jedi (my new puppy home) Shark-Bites was over and got to spend a bit of time with her too last night, which was nice.pup2 years ago in Personal More Like This
I got to spend my whole weekend with him with was really nice and defs needed.
I held her in the car during the drive home and she was very snuggly with me ouo
Then for most of the night she wouldn't leave my side, she was so scared ans shaky at our house.. it's all new and her old family is gone :c
The night was good though, to my suprise~ She slept in her carrier with some towels and a plush sheep to keep her company, and the crate was in my room so if she cried I could get up to deal with it.
Thankfull she didn't cry or whine at all, went into the crate and off to bed. No whining till about 8 this morning which is fine cuz that when I had to get up anyways ouo
maybe in the next couple days I'll upload a couple more pics or something ouo <3
Life's been good/ I don't have any other accounts.I haven't made a journal in..Life's been good/ I don't have any other accounts.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
//gosh who knows/
*updating my life quickly*
So to start off summer has been great, though i have only two more weeks until i start my last year of highschool c:
I've spent lots of time with Kodee and other close friends
(i wasn't a loner this summer yey :'D)
Life has generally been pretty good.
AND i'm going to add this in here for everyone just because i said i would:
I AM NOT :iconstringsonabunny: OR :iconxxx-styl-fly-xxx:
(I have no idea why some people would even think that...)
you bitches are crazy. But this is just a note to the people bothering my friends and my boyfriend
This is my only really active account that i use. There is no conspiracy. Really.
SO *SHARK-BITES IS THE ONLY ACCOUNT I POST ART TO.
My name is Dorian and i am just one person xD
I am not Kodee Styl-Fly
And i am not Daniel StringsOnABunny
Though they are both cool cats and you should go check them out. c:
SO. DO WE ALL HAVE THAT CLEAR?
SO YES. My
Kyle's ocs - part1Felix: Angsty demon asshole who doesn't sleep and is kind of banned from hell because he's too much of a psychofuck. So far the most forever-alone oc I have and the oldest many have tried to pair him with their ocs and have failed because it's just too weird 8uKyle's ocs - part12 years ago in Personal More Like This
Location: Probably NY
Vincent (Vinny): Not quite as angsty little brother of Felix and quite more sane. Though he still is a dirty little asshole because he's a demon and likes to hurt people. He and Felix do not stand on common ground whatsoever from day one of their being aware of one another's existence; he never really liked Felix because of his neurotic and strange attitude and eventually was pushed to the point of brutally maiming Felix and they had been avoiding one another since.
Location: Probably Canada
Travis: This wee fello
this is it. -updated-So.. today is the day.this is it. -updated-3 years ago in Personal More Like This
THIS IS FUCKING IT,
I have just sent messages to BOTH my parents.. telling them that I am FtM Transgender.. Im terrified of how they will react.. and I cried a little sending those messages.
Please everyone send me good luck. please?
I cant do this alone and I need my parents.
I cant contain all my current feels right now guys..
Both parents have accepted me as I am and are willing to help and support me while I go through this change in my life.
I have an appointment with our family doctor in a couple weeks and I will be talking to her about this, and hopefully she'll refer me to a specialist and we can get going on the rest of my life :iconluvluvplz:
I am so excited and happy, There's really nothin that could break me right now, I feel invincible
My mom told me
" I'll be okay. We'll be okay. Your happiness is my main concern.
Always <3 "
and my step dad told me
YOU.ARE.NOT.ALONE.So you want to kill yourself? Because no one cares about you. Your family hates you. Right?YOU.ARE.NOT.ALONE.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Your parents walking in your room in the morning to only find a dead body. They'll try their hardest to not think negative, and to just think that you're fooling around. Then they'll start shaking you. Why aren't you breathing? They'll be broken.
Many tears. More tears than you ever shed. Was it them? Were they the reason you did this? More tears.
Every day. Every night. Every single second of every day.
More guilt. What about your best friends? They're not going to care. Right? No. What's the first thing that will go through their mind when your principal comes in and tells the class that you're not alive. While your best friend sits there in tears. That girl that you'd smile at but never talk to? She's now crying. The boy who used to kick you under the table just to annoy you? He'll be shocked. He'll be devastated. He'll blame himself. What a
last of the break.Well Kodee starts school tomorrow, thus ends our marathon of spending all that time together (I stayed at his place almost the whole break then he came here) I love spending all that time with him. I can never get enoughlast of the break.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Thats why I wasn't posting art like I said I would. Sorry bout' that.
Anyway....that was probs the best holiday I've had in years. ♥
And I probs won't be posting for afew more days because i'm going to be busy tonight, tomorrow, and the day after *A*
Friends trying to sqweesh the last bit of time out of the break with me.
i'll be back soon.
hope you guys are having / had a great break~ ouo
Cancer is a BITCH!Recently, I have found out that a fellow student in my school has terminal cancer.Cancer is a BITCH!2 years ago in Personal More Like This
His name is Blake.
I know him very little... we passed by in the halls and I've probably talked to him maybe once or twice.
But he's known well. Throughout the school and district. He's an amazing person and even more amazing for going through this and still with a SMILE on the kid's face. He's so strong and... he's inspired me so much.
But they don't give him much longer... at the most, they give him a little less than a week to live.
But I believe in a miracle, guys. If you could... please... keep Blake in your heart. Pray for him... do anything... we just need a miracle.
It'd be amazing to see him live through this.
He's really one of the most heartening and bravest people I've ever heard of.
Stay strong, Blake!
ITOOKYOURSHITSAll up and taken from :iconhenry-deer:ITOOKYOURSHITS3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Birthday: june 3rd 1995
School/Grade: grade 12. senior
Parents Still Together: nu.
Siblings: One demonic brother
Pets: a fish. :I
Drinker: not very offten.
-Hair Colour: Blackish red brown.
-Is it Dyed?: yup
-Eye colour: bright green hazleish :u
-Height: 5'5 ;A;
-Style: ...um.. i dono. but i always have skinny jeans on and a hoodie o:
-Glasses/Contacts/None?: Glasses and Contacts.
-Shoe size: 9
-Piercings: yup. getting more.
-Want More?: YES i do :I
-Tattoos?: getting someday
-Want More?: yes i do..i just said that xD
-Overall Best Feature?: ... i don't/// i don't know... my eyes ? no.. i.. Q_Q
-Overall Worst Feature?: me.
-Do you get most of your traits from mum or dad?: I wouldn't know.
-Favourite Colour: Neon green, bright red, purple, black.
-Worst Colour: tan.
thanks/ hey you read this.Where to start... Wow theres lots. OKthanks/ hey you read this.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
I guess i'll start off with thank you so much everyone for all the watches, faves, page veiws, and comments. It seems like lately it's just been crazy //also im trying to talk to all of you more /so im sorry if I ever missed some of your comments/
And another thanks to everyone who's been telling me to feel better and drawing things to cheer me up /you guys have no idea how much that actually means to me //hugely means Alot// so thanks.
But I would also like to say I feel bad. All the attention and asking if im alright is thoughtful of you people..
But I realise now im just being abit selfish with how im feeling towards the negative situation.
//so here's to you: I wasn't looking at it from your point of veiw and I didn't really think you where that upset aswell. But now I realise I should be there for you as much as you always have been for me.
You are my best friend and something like this isn't going to change that, and im sorry for posting vent
long day.Had a very long day today, driving out to North Vancouver to see another doctor. (There are so many for what i'm doing it's crazy)long day.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Anyway it went really well, he is in a way my last step before I go back to the endocrinologist.
My mom, him and I talked for about two hours, In that time he basically got my whole back story.... so medical history and family history.
He was very friendly and wanted to get to know me more, So he made another appointment for next thursday.
I'm excited to be able to talk to him again.
I like it when they are easy to talk to. ;n;
Besides that nothing cool has happend to me. I'm not cool enough for cool things. "I'm not cool enough" oh lolololol
Life has been a little bit of pleasent, a pinch of casual, and some slight depression thrown in (because of the time of year and the weather) ANNDD christmas is coming (I am SO putting up a tree this weekend.)
I was just sitting alone on the couch drawing doodles of stuff. things.
then i crawled onl
Humans..This journal will be deleted eventually- I have no real purpose for it.Humans..2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Their emotions are interesting to witness.
I'm amazed by the way humans lash out at one another.
How they can be such gentle creatures, then the next minute, blood thirsty beasts.
I'm attracted to them.
Like a scientist to lab rats.
I like to watch.
Humans can make strong relationships over time,
But none of them are forgiving or understanding enough,
To work hard and push through together,
While those relationships they made turn into a war over night.
To me this is nothing but a Comedy.
Humans can act like such children, even if they are old.
Everyone is always right.
Yet everyone is always wrong?
I truely do believe that humans are strange beings, and I'll never fully understand why they do the things they do.
Does anyone else think the way I do?