My name.My name.My name.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
This is something that has been bothering me for a while now.
My name on Deviantart is Dorian (as you would know if you looked on my page)
Now i don't like openly talking about this because everyone has their different views on the world, though most people i know in real life/ and here on the internet are very open with who I am and what I'm about to go through.
/I actually don't think I've ever really said this officially by telling you guys... for the reasons of (1. I dislike having a lot of attention drawn to it and (2. because i have always had you people refer to me as a guy / male / boy / so it has never been a problem.
So to cut it a bit shorter (as most of you know)
I am a Trasman /or/ Transgendered // Gender identity disorder.
please don't ask me a million questions, but i am happy to help if anyone needs someone to talk to about it
I came out to my mom over seven months ago fully and now I am starting to get treatment for it.
SO THE REASON FOR POSTING ALL
Please read.Back whenever I started hitting the front page of DeviantArt, abit after I'd turned fourteen I admit that my ego popped up a notch. And not just one, mind you. No I was both surprised and in awe that some kid like me could end up taking up space in a place where only masterpieces and loved pieces were seen. And honestly, it stuck out like a sore thumb because seriously, My art isn't that good. I was blindfolded by pride in belief that I could actually go somewhere with what I had. But after awhile, pressure began to set in and I felt that more was expected of me and I couldn't meet those expectations. I'd never been exposed to constructive or negative criticism before that point; so I admit full heartedly that I acted out of line and childishly. Which led to people being angry and hurt by my stupidity, and I am sorry. It should have never happened, and I promise that it won't ever again.Please read.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
So as time pressed on, I began to get desperate,
HOOAAHHFFFFFFFFF EVERYTHING//HOOAAHH10 months ago in Personal More Like This
I HAVE LIKE ONE MONTH LEFT OF HIGHSCHOOL I'M GOING TO CRY I CAN'T WAIT TO LEAVE. Leaving 13 years of school... just to go back for more *cough* artcollege.
I still haven't picked out a tux yet for the dinner dance.. I'm bringing Kodee to that in a tux *inhuman screech*
WHWOWHEHEHWHEEW i'm turing 18 in a month :iconheplz:
But wow. I'm so excited.
And as you have noticed.
I'm actualy doing stuff and posting it on here,
Now I just need to reply to all your comments QAQ
AND open commissions. (I just need to go to my bank and approve my paypal) weeh. Next week I promise.
SO quick life update for you wondering but.. unaware.
Ive been on Testosterone for over three months now. It dosen't seem like it's been that long, and i've been so much more happy being on it.
ANd current feelings my ear is killing me.
Me and one of my besties :iconleenarox9: went and got our industrials (scaffold piercing) pierced. YAY MORE METAL. //I'm super happy with ho
AN UPDATE. C8AS ALWAYS LATELY. I'm sorry i've been so busy with stuff and haven't been posting like i used too.AN UPDATE. C81 year ago in Personal More Like This
But lots of stuff have been going on for me, spending time with Kodee, Lots of school work and getting ready to grad
AND I recently started Testosterone and have been busy with Doctors and things (I Don't like posting updates about that on Da but I have a tumblr blog about if for people that want to know--> http://shark-bites-adamstransition.tumblr.com/
Lesson from some kids. //life.I'm just going to get right into this.Lesson from some kids. //life.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
The other day I was sitting in class rather frustrated with everything and the people around me. I'm in a split class with grade 10's, 11's and us... the 12's, so there was about 15 minutes left in class and i had noticed this grade 11 boy glance over at me every so often.. thinking it was strange i finally exchanged a long look with him, it caught me off guard when all he did was smile at me then turned to leave. Now i've never talked to him, and i know he didn't mean anything with the smile. But the look he gave me almost said: "you look upset today but thats ok, smile with me?" So i smiled back.
That actually changed my outlook on my entire day. Something as small as some kid sharing a smile with me, It kinda made me think about how simple the whole thing was.
Sorry i'm just blabbering my feels towards the world.
Then today a little girl in my other art program was just talking about how excited she is to grow up and graduate and move out an
tumblrmemelifewhatdon'treadthisahh |Di was bored. whatever. meme. from tumblr. what am i doing with my lifetumblrmemelifewhatdon'treadthisahh |D1 year ago in Personal More Like This
A: Are you a virgin, and who did you loose it too?
nope. and uh... thats personal but kodee .__.
B: 3 biggest pet peeves
1. When people leave windows open at night (unless there is something pretty to look at) 2. When people in the house forget dishes in random places. 3. When i'm spending time with someone and they play on their phone every 5 seconds. 4. I have LOTS more but I don't want to come across as an OCD freak.
C: Celebrity crush?
Adam Lavine, Jony depp, Milla Jovovich, Tom hiddleston and Robert Downey Jr. (I can't even-) PRETTY MUCH EVERY ACTOR IN AVENGERS. JUST.
D: If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
I wouldn't have changed a thing.
E: Do you smoke?
attempted once. gross
F: Do you drink?
ehh... not very often
G: If you had to rank yourself on a scale of 1 to 10, what would you be?
oh god.... uh... what am i ra
It's been awhile.It's been a VERY long time since I made a journal (so i'll sum everything up in a few short simple sentences:It's been awhile.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Went to endocrinologist/ talked about testosterone.
Got pills to stop any other development and to stop periods forever.
Going to see one more doctor next week to confirm I'm ready and want to move forward with testosterone.
Got over being sick. Only to get sick again.
Spent all my weekends at my boyfriends house. (we watched movies, cuddled, ect.)
Did school stuff.
Life hasn't been super exciting |D //but i try.
And I missed one of my pills on saturday night, so i had to take two yesterday.
I've learned now that it is a guarantee that i'm going to throw up at least twice the next day from taking two or more.
DON'T MISS YOUR MEDICATION.
I JUST GOT back from the bathroom actually.
Weird that throwing up inspires me to make a journal.
//thats why i'm still home this morning but i'll go in after first block wh
ANOTHER CONTEST! -OPEN-HELLO FRIENDS AND NEIGHBORS!!ANOTHER CONTEST! -OPEN-1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I wanted to do another contest for everyone since my B-day is comin up and I thought maybe something would be in order to liven up the place around here!
I will be giving Point prizes since I have a bit to spare! (and some sketches since that's all I can offer)
The prizes go in order to this!
Some Colour sketches!
And runner ups may get some points if there are enough entries to do so!
but that's as far as I can go with art prizes.
Now what do you have to do to enter? Just draw me an image of Jesse or Ibee! Either one, separate, together, with your ocs/fursona, Feral, Anthro, doesn't matter! they just need to be in the image and the focus of the image!
Anyone can enter!
UP TO ONE ENTRY PLEASE!
The Contest will end April 6
soz guysmy boyfriend is heresoz guys1 year ago in Personal More Like This
he is right beside me
im sorry i havent been on i
i cant seem to get any motivation to get online i wanna spend every moment with him
and it's all thanks to my best friend :icondallymally:
also look a video of us meeting
sighs happily im sorry for being inactive...........................
pupSo last night we brought Jedi (my new puppy home) Shark-Bites was over and got to spend a bit of time with her too last night, which was nice.pup1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I got to spend my whole weekend with him with was really nice and defs needed.
I held her in the car during the drive home and she was very snuggly with me ouo
Then for most of the night she wouldn't leave my side, she was so scared ans shaky at our house.. it's all new and her old family is gone :c
The night was good though, to my suprise~ She slept in her carrier with some towels and a plush sheep to keep her company, and the crate was in my room so if she cried I could get up to deal with it.
Thankfull she didn't cry or whine at all, went into the crate and off to bed. No whining till about 8 this morning which is fine cuz that when I had to get up anyways ouo
maybe in the next couple days I'll upload a couple more pics or something ouo <3
ANNNNNNNNND.. SHE'S GONE.ANNNNNNNNND..1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I feel like that went on MUCH longer than it should have and not only were things stolen from :iconshark-bites: but also :iconmiczombies: and myself.
So I send out a heartfelt thank you to all who helped out in reporting this person and helping me take her down.
In all honesty I was actually starting to get a little pissed off.
but thanks guys! One less shit bag on DA :iconluvluvplz:
I. GRADUATED.WOW GUYS I'VE BEEN BITCHING ABOUT WANTING TO GRAD FOR LEGIT THREE YEARS NOW ONI. GRADUATED.9 months ago in Personal More Like This
I AM SO EXCITED SO THIS ALL HAS TO BE IN CAPS BECAUSE I WOULD LEGIT BE SCREAMING THIS IF I COULD. I FINALLY FEEL STRESS FREE AND I WANT TO CRY AAAHAHHH. (I didn't have a chance at all to enjoy this yet because I was busting my ass helping my boyfriends family move) SO NOW I DO. I'M WEARING MY GARD CAP RIGHT NOW. I wanted to jump and freak out the night I graduated but I didn't get to yet. So.. I'll do that later tonight maybe like a freak. WOO I'm making a huge deal out of this. But thats perfectlly ok. Seriously. All the excitment is waterfalling out of my face like I can't even-
ADAM IS DONE HIGSCHOOL. I will miss it one day. but not any day soon.
Now I can think about college and get excited about going in september, VCAD... hopefully I don't fail and die. I WANT MY TEACHERS TO LIKE ME AND MY ART. please. I WANT TO GO FAR AND DO THING
ITOOKYOURSHITSAll up and taken from :iconhenry-deer:ITOOKYOURSHITS2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Birthday: june 3rd 1995
School/Grade: grade 12. senior
Parents Still Together: nu.
Siblings: One demonic brother
Pets: a fish. :I
Drinker: not very offten.
-Hair Colour: Blackish red brown.
-Is it Dyed?: yup
-Eye colour: bright green hazleish :u
-Height: 5'5 ;A;
-Style: ...um.. i dono. but i always have skinny jeans on and a hoodie o:
-Glasses/Contacts/None?: Glasses and Contacts.
-Shoe size: 9
-Piercings: yup. getting more.
-Want More?: YES i do :I
-Tattoos?: getting someday
-Want More?: yes i do..i just said that xD
-Overall Best Feature?: ... i don't/// i don't know... my eyes ? no.. i.. Q_Q
-Overall Worst Feature?: me.
-Do you get most of your traits from mum or dad?: I wouldn't know.
-Favourite Colour: Neon green, bright red, purple, black.
-Worst Colour: tan.
this is it. -updated-So.. today is the day.this is it. -updated-1 year ago in Personal More Like This
THIS IS FUCKING IT,
I have just sent messages to BOTH my parents.. telling them that I am FtM Transgender.. Im terrified of how they will react.. and I cried a little sending those messages.
Please everyone send me good luck. please?
I cant do this alone and I need my parents.
I cant contain all my current feels right now guys..
Both parents have accepted me as I am and are willing to help and support me while I go through this change in my life.
I have an appointment with our family doctor in a couple weeks and I will be talking to her about this, and hopefully she'll refer me to a specialist and we can get going on the rest of my life :iconluvluvplz:
I am so excited and happy, There's really nothin that could break me right now, I feel invincible
My mom told me
" I'll be okay. We'll be okay. Your happiness is my main concern.
Always <3 "
and my step dad told me
Fear meme~Check all you're afraid of:Fear meme~1 year ago in Personal More Like This
[x] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[LOLOL] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[x] open spaces
[ x] closed spaces
[x ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[x ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total so far: 6
[x] being touched
[x] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[x] the ocean
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[x ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
Total so far: 11
[ ] rain
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[x] being robbed
[x] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[x] doctors, including dentists
Total so far: 23
[x] incurable diseases
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] becoming blin
It's the first door to the leftSo once upon a time in the school library today, the librarian kept misgendering me after seeing my library records (they're separate form the main school records and for some reason my biological name and gender marker aren't changed in the library's system). Even after I'd corrected her, she kept at it and completely shouldered the fact that she was using wrong pronouns and pretty much harassing me; that of course really pissed me off and I ended up telling her,It's the first door to the left10 months ago in Personal More Like This
"You should really get that speech impediment looked at, I know a great doctor in room go fuck yourself"
I probably took it a bit far with that comment but seriously? What's wrong with people, that makes them think that they have the right to tell you what you identify as?
Glitter toilet. What is life.I've been working on this toilet project for like 5 hours now.Glitter toilet. What is life.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
What is my life.
Painting my toilet.
It's for a school project but my teacher did a crappy job telling what she wanted from the work so to be a smartass I did a toilet. With fucking sparkles on it.
because I have no actual inspiration to do something serious.
And the last poll I did: Sorry me and Kodee didn't re-do the Q&A video this past weekend. We were busy the whole time. .____. yup. super busy. Though I am trying to get him to do one with me soon.
But just for the record WE DID actually do it, but the sound got fucked up and didn't work QAQ
Yup and submitting art here and there. I am trying to put stuff up I promise.
I have a legit reason for not posting everyday anymore though, it's called: I'm trying to graduate highschool so i can finally go to collage
less than six months to go.
I'm so excited.
- - - - - - - -
K. a quick update on stuff.
so very tired.
Vitamin overdose pink smoothie by Pokakulka ruby by LuizaLazar 009 by DorottyaS Cherry cup by PuppetSan Reminds me of Summer by Blueberryblack Seashore Cherry by farhadvm When life gives you lemons by iTaylie + colour collision + by maskqueraide Blueberry by JustHoldMe deceitful delights by csaby1 grapefruit by P0RG burning up by illusionality Rasberry Rhapsodie by NayeliNeria cherry by theluckynine HAHA i'm skinnier by ersatz-moon strawBerry by Moramarth blackberry by illusionality Ca pique, le citron vert by Somebody--else All your dreams are made by iTaylie orange oranges by JustynaStolyhwo Frozen Raspberrys by Reeede In by LadyCarnal Bloodberries by emilianna12 strawberry by estellamestella ..::Limetastic::.. by Whimsical-Dreams It's Summer by wihad Black Cherries by Schnitzelyne .:Kiwi Passion:. by melenya Day 289 by Souris88 Fruits by DeadMoonDreams 406 by Nigrita razzy by illusionality .: lemon :. by all17 Day 221 by Souris88 Frozen Orange by AljoschaThielen little reason to smile. by iheartcolours taste of summer by Orwald Raspberries by nairafee care by claire-norien healthy spring by illusionality taste of summer by michellis13 Orange Blue by ZoeWieZo strawbery.II by Altingfest Banana Splash by KhalllodY Cherry bomb by naked-in-the-rain cherry cherry boom boom by julkusiowa Lime with that? by Lady-RoVitamin overdose1 year ago in Art Features More Like This
splash. by JeanFan Strawberries with Nutella by LilyBrilliant :
Devious Journal EntryI think the one thing that bothers me is a person disliking someone just because they have an association with a person they brutally hate.Devious Journal Entry9 months ago in Personal More Like This
Now I understand and I have learned from my mistakes about heeding other people's warnings/advice/experience with said person as i have fallen into a few pits and scamming situations myself. How ever I'd prefer to still give at least chance and see who they and then judge upon my own experience with the person before I commit any further with business or trust.
For an example, I'd rather have people hate me for being a dick to them personally than just hating me cause I am/was friends/dating someone you didn't like.
if that makes sense??? this is more kind of a rambling journal *v* don't take me too sour. it's been on my mind a lot seeing people on DA
To start..So the last few days i have been talking to everybody about my transition buisnessTo start.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
what their thoughts and opinions were, since so many people ask me questions and send me notes on here i feel i should talk about this subject again. I do plan on documenting it over another site, maby youtube or tumblr... i don't really know yet.
I really don't want to do it over Deviantart though because i feel that this isn't the place for it, this is just for posting my artwork. Though I will be officially starting T in the next couple months and starting my treatment.
Now my feelings on this subject are;
I don't really feel like i need to draw the attention of the world to this, truthfully i wish i could just do this and no one would know. But the questions and intrest of other people is why i'm posting this journal. I want to help people with my experiences in anyway i can, So when i have everything set up i will post a link to my updates for anyone intrested in asking me questions or t
I'M BACK WEEEEEEOK GUYS I'M SUPER EXCITED.I'M BACK WEEEEEE1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I was actually talking to Kodee about how I wanted to come back and be on Deviantart more. For a long time I couldn't really come on because my computer couldn't support the site anymore.
MY COMPUTER GOT UPDATED. I'M BACK. BE PREPARED FOR AN ART STORM DUMP.
NOW I CAN REPLY TO ALL MY NOTES AND COMMENTS I HAVN'T SEEN YET FOR THE PAST MONTH I'M SORRY I'M DOING IT NOW.
I STILL LOVE YOU
i'll make an update journal about my boring life later. after the art storm. be prepared for this guys.