The Land We Live OnI know of a land where young ones are corrupt,
Where the butterflies attempt to fly with broken wings,
But die in the process.
An outcast is just a ghoul in hiding.
Every loving word slurred never meant a thing.
The scars are always visible.
In this land it is always below zero.
Each day everyone knows that tomorrow will be the same,
Here lies no hope.
The soil covering the surface is poisoned.
Sometimes tongues are chopped off.
Slowly they all lose their mind.
The eldest ones are locked away to be hidden in the dark.
So many broken hearts, they cannot even be counted.
Memories are shunned with pills,
And obscure buildings that cause blood sh
Freaks ShowFingers scratching at my wrist,Freaks Show4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wanting a beautiful kiss.
The lips they know too well,
Gradually I feel my mind compelling,
Back to almost a month ago,
When I was still apart of the freak show.
Dancing on the stage,
With a pointy blade,
Focused on a luscious vein.
The oh's and ah's of the crowd causes pain,
I finally notice how different I really am.
I finally notice there is nothing I can,
Do to pick up the glass without getting cut.
I finally noticed that all I am is a nut.
I finally noticed that deep down I'm in the freak show for life,
I can no longer hide and fight,
The true me when it's thriving to come out.
In this moment I do doubt,
Terrible Poem I wrote In A Few Minutes.What am I?Terrible Poem I wrote In A Few Minutes.3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I know I am prepared to die,
For I can barely get by.
The sparkles that once laid in my eyes,
Have wondered off into a wonderland.
Once again I will hod a razor in my hand.
My best friend.
A sweet reunion,
They kiss the old scars on my wrist,
Reopening what healed.
It hurts to breathe,
After taking these pills I'm prepared to go to sleep.
This feeling in my stomach that I've caused,
I'm proud of it.
Self harm without taking action.
Bit by bit,
I dig this hole bigger.
Ha who knew that was possible.
My Choice.It does not matter,My Choice.4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
That things will change to get better.
If I am not ready what is the point?
If my body happens to not be ruined then what is the point?
Yes I have lost the sparks in my eyes, but not my mind.
You act as if life is a race, rushing to find,
Myself and the part I lost.
To prove in life we live to form ourselves,
And this will not take a day...
Or even a month like you say.
Your battle is pointless.
This is my bod that I posses,
I being the host,
Should have the vote that counts the most.
My soul unaware of light,
Is amused by this fight,
It makes my life a bit more amusing.
I may seem like a confusing,
Fuck up to
MyselfThe jar of tears has fallen to pieces, lost are the memories from within the creases.Myself3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
They've all abandoned me, my silent friends, our bonds have withered beyond their ends.
So predictable this scene truly was, the girl who fell from not a single cause.
Twas my own fault, for I banished all help, rotted to pieces within myself.
Though alas a mark has been etched within stones, "My soul lives forever without my bones."
Reality Has Taken Over:Love is a drug,Reality Has Taken Over:4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Combining the heart and mind,
Helping us find,
An illusion to get by.
But when it gets too strong and grows inside,
Of us we slowly die.
We've set ourselves up to fail.
There's no way to bail,
Out of this hell,
Our hearts are locked away in a cell.
This is cycle grows old,
As so do we.
Our souls grow cold,
We eventually throw out the key,
Our hearts are now in stray jackets.
We slowly loose our spirit,
The spirit that once lived for life,
But now it fights,
For the answer.
Old hope and understandings become a blur,
Reality has taken over.
A place to lay my headSo far I have traveledA place to lay my head2 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
So much blood has been shed
but all I'm really after is
A place to lay my head
The weather is frightful
and the roads plagued with danger
I failed to add to a solution
Completely driven by my anger
But I am not the same
I'm not the man i was before
I promise to have changed
no longer living by the sword
If I can not convince you,
Allow me just one full night of peace
Just a mattress and a cover
and maybe a little something to eat
For tomorrow is a new day
"A warrior's nightmare", my father said
"As every day is a new journey for
A place to lay your head."
Fortress of SorrowI may be brokenFortress of Sorrow3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
but you cannot mend me
You cannot get close
You will never befriend me
For I have built walls
around my shattered heart
They keep me together
and they tear me apart
They keep what is left of me
Safe from attack
They keep me bottled up
and hold my emotions back
They shield me from this blackened world
and within them I shall hide
But these cold walls are my self made prison
and I am trapped inside
They keep me from being hurt again
but they are my greatest sin
From the moment they were fabricated
I haven't let anyone in
No matter how many times
I admit that I have a problem
Nobody will ever be able to help
Hell Doesn't Even KnowI want to cry so much...Hell Doesn't Even Know4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Maybe I'm happy,
Maybe I'm sad.
I feel so alone,
Yet I've been with people all day.
I feel so unloved,
Yet I know I have people who love me.
I can't talk about these feelings.
I can't open up when the door is locked.
And the key is lost.
I want to inspire,
But I just recieve empathy.
I want to die,
But I keep on breathing.
I feel so confused, lost and all alone.
The feelings inside me are too strong for my body.
I don't want someone to understand.
I want someone to give me the answers to why I am like this.
And a solution to fix the massacre inside me...
Poor EyesBeautiful eyes that know nothing but lies,Poor Eyes3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
And the feeling to die a bit inside every day.
She knows it has to be this way,
But she still fights.
Look me in the eyes,
And say you would have the courage to do the same.
None of this came,
To her in one day,
It all had to build up over years and years and years.
Every few weeks a new fear would develop.
Perhaps of a person or an action.
She drew herself away from all things loving,
Shoving herself towards the even darker side of life.
This just made her fight even harder,
And made her see the worst in everything,
Now she's giving up.
She's lost the courage she's been forced to keep,
She weeps in
PillsHere's a pill for my broken heart,Pills4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A pill for my body parts,
I can never again call holy.
One for each day where I slowly,
Die again, again, and again.
A few more for each jail visit,
A handful as an alternative for the razors that used to sit,
On my wrist.
Half a bottle for all of the lies.
A bit more just so I can get by.
The rest for all of the tears and blood shed.
Oops, I'm dead.
Love Is...Love is staring into your eyesLove Is...4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
After our first kiss.
The emotion in your voice
When you tell me you love me.
Love is letting you hold me,
Feeling the rapid pounding of your heart.
Reminding me that we're both alive,
And never wanting to let you let me go.
Love is a short lived dream;
Unforgettable and haunting.
You don't know it's over
Until after it comes crashing down.
Love is watching you walk away,
Wanting to beg you not to go;
But not being able to breathe,
Collapsing on the ground after you diseappear
Love is killing the dreamer inside,
That says it will be ok.
Giving up hope on life and love,
After you gave up on me.
Love is screa
The CasketWintery waters and shadowy stones, glowing crystals lie beneath the bones.The Casket3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A casket buried within the seas, it remains to be sealed by the elder trees.
Latched thrice and blessed fourteen, it shall never come undone and flee.
Contained within are the lost scrolls; bones from ancients, and Elvish Drones.
Secretive notes from kingdoms past, blood-stained and un-opened for they were always shipped last.
Forgotten orphans and blinded wise, their souls and fingers buried inside.
And thou shall soon be kept within, for your soul is prideful and your time is slim.
I Am...I am an observer,I Am...4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I watch as you fall
and I won't make a move
to answer your call.
I am dishonest,
it has been since my smallest years
that I let my truth into others ears.
I am a composer,
of a great many lies
yet carry luck like a clover
I never break my disguise.
Through those heat filled faces surrounding me
I can just barely see
and sometimes I find nowhere to run
they take over me.
I am rarely awake with sun,
so that when everything slips undone,
I will not be exposed
I will always stay composed.
I keep my secrets like stars keep distance
burning bright beneath my skin
defining my existence
out of reach and filled
My MindI'm afraid of my mind,My Mind3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
It always seems to find,
The wrong path.
Overpowering what is right,
All it wants is to end the pain.
But then again it loves to trick me,
It will never let me be.
This fight will go on and on and on.
I can never win,
And when all seems dim,
You make it worse.
You tell me to get the razor,
You tell me to get the pills,
You tell me to push them away,
You tell me to sway closer to suicide.
Why do you do this?
Don't you see I'm growing tired?
I can't take this much longer,
Living on the verge on death isn't easy,
Especially when you're already fucked up.
Beautiful CovenAs I take your hand in this circle,Beautiful Coven2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I no longer feel alone,
I've found where I belong,
And I grow strong.
Years on a vacant island,
But now I have returned home.
You drape a black robe as dark as the night sky,
Over my body as beautiful as a temple,
I see light twinkle in your eyes,
As you light the pink candle that resembles,
The love that is growing between the whole group.
We all link closing our eyes,
Saying chants to improve our lives,
Never will we cause harm,
Never will we follow the path of lust.
What we must do is give back.
Restore the tree branch we tore down,
Plant beauteous flowers in the ground.
And sit here in the angelic so
SanctuarySanctuary, this place that I find in only one place.Sanctuary8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yet the torment of the world still reaches me there
Their words do not matter.
But the way they watch drives me crazy
This Sanctuary I find alone
Brings peace to my soul
As it rips and tears through my flesh.
Oh Beautiful Sanctuary.
Don't Look At Me With Gentle EyesDon't look at me with gentle eyes,Don't Look At Me With Gentle Eyes4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Don't look at me with pity.
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you,
I can't handle this with you.
I can't handle this AT ALL.
I'm not okay but Jesus Christ,
You have to think I am.
Rejection I can handle;
You don't feel that way? Okay!
But don't look at me with gentle eyes
And think that I need PITY.
I'm strong - good lord, I have to be,
With all the shit I face.
I won't be broken by rejection,
From a tiny schoolgirl crush.
Now go, bring out the next sorry bastard
Who can fuck me and then break me.
Oh, shut up, don't judge ME,
We all do things our way.
If I want to fuck
To my YamahasYour head joint sparkles in the spot light I crave.To my Yamahas4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your keys never stick and are always functional.
You are perfect, except you are missing one thing,
Together we make a team,
Together we make beautiful music.
I will always be there for you as you are for me
We were meant to be together.
I love you my Yamahas.
Tornado Of HellWhen it rains it pours,Tornado Of Hell4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Our brittle souls can't take anymore.
Death pounding at the door,
As if it was an angry neighbor.
Gradually it busts the door down,
Not making a scene or sound.
Escaping out of your chest,
Doing the best,
To be a tornado made of hell.
At hurting the surroundings.
Meaning to show the scars,
But it has gone too far,
As you begin to burn everything in you path.
Other's still can't do the math.
They blame you,
Everything you do,
Can't be made.
The scars....Do you even want them to fade?
Forgetful MeI've forgotten who I amForgetful Me4 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Like a shadow in the night
Lost in an ocean of darkness
Until someone shines the light
Can you please help me search?
For a forgotten past
I long to be myself again
This is happening all too fast
I've forgotten who I am
Like a light in a deep mist
I’m too far out of reach
Yet I’m still within your midst
Can you please rescue me?
Bring back life to a dead mind
The doctors say it's all over
We're running out of time
I've forgotten who I am
Or how you used to feel
Your touch is now replaced
With a pain that's all too real
Can you please help me remember?
Tell me how, why or when
Then I can finally be at p
Silent BoyThere once was a child,Silent Boy4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Who never spoke a word.
He never changed his face,
Never cried when he got hurt.
Those dearest to him stood away,
They didn't know what to do.
And since they treated him in silence,
Silence became the only thing he knew.
As the years passed and he grew
He still remained the same,
Never speaking to anyone
And for that, no one ever came.
He was always picked on,
Someone always had something to say;
Either 'you are dead inside',
Or 'your life is wasted away'.
Through all the insults, the words,
The bruises, and the pain,
He tolerated it all, turned away,
He remained silent, he never changed.
His life kept getting wor
Hope Is Far AwayBy ZKBHope Is Far Away4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hope is far away.
It used to be nearer, just
A breath away.
I would reach for it, and
It would reach for me.
And then, nothing would be
Hope is far away.
I run after it, just
To feel its warmth.
I stumble, fall, and
Feel that ache of betrayal.
And that ache is
Hope is far away.
It is such a playful
Thing, teasing me.
But it always comes back and
Help me stand again.
And then, no ache is
Hope is far away.
I can see it there, in
The distance, just around
That corner, and I know that
Even if I decide to turn my
Back, and give up, it will stand there,
Hope is far a
TodayToday, I drowned in my sorrow,Today4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I sunk to the very bottom of my depression,
Because the light at the end of the tunnel,
Just seemed too far away.
Today, I ran through a forest,
Of never-ending lies and tales,
Then the eerie trees caught me,
And made me fall and hurt.
Today, I tried to climb the ladder,
Of success and reward,
But my memories came back to haunt me,
And I could no longer go up, but only down.
Today, I looked into the mirror,
To see if my sadness was visible
In my eyes, stained with tears,
But I could only find a hollow emptiness.
Today, I filled up the bathtub,
Then I sat on the edge and looked down,