I'm Still LaughingIt really is quite funny.
How one second I'm in tears,
over how I don't know whether to live or die.
Then I'm making cruel cruel jokes about when I'm going to commit suicide.
I am true bitch.
An total shit.
I had a nap.
And woke up in the shittest mood.
Made me spill shit.
Then depressed and angry and pissed at myself.
Then fucking alone. Because I depend on my friends and have to talk 24/7 with them.
I have wanted to die for the past, what 4 months.
Full on poof, ding, pop, boom, gone.
But it's only resently I reaslised I'm too much of a parnoid piece of crap to kill myself.
No I'd have to go out and do everything under the sun and cross my fingers and hope to die.
That reminds me of my lastest joke-
"How are you?"
"Yes, cross my fingers and hope to die."
Its funny isn't it?
The world is funny, my laugh is funny.
Haters are fucking hilarious.
Please! Stop my sides are spilting.
As for you sunshine, thank you for confusi
Sherlock (BBC) X Reader: Chapter 1Chapter 1: Coffee; Two Sugars or Sarcasm?Sherlock (BBC) X Reader: Chapter 12 years ago in Romance More Like This
You sat in the cosy Café once again; you sipped your black, bitter coffee. It had finally cooled. It had been your fifth time in this café and you had now estimated the time for the coffee to cool down to an average of about 3 minutes and 34 seconds. Writing hadn’t worked out well as you disappointedly stared down at the blank notebook. You sighed and packed your things away in your black leather bag and put your warm, navy, military style overcoat on and soft leather gloves. Sighing again you grabbed your coffee cup and smiled sweetly at the woman who served you every single time. “Bye,” You mumbled and opened the door to be greeted by the fresh chilling air of sweet fall rain and made your way back to Baker Street.
Your phone vibrated as you walked in the front door causing you to fumble for your phone in your bag. As you noticed your neighbour from the flat above walk down stairs you clumsily dropped your (make of phone) on
Daddy England X Mommy Reader (Request)Daddy! England X Mommy! Reader X Child! Canada X Child! America For TheMysteriousPoetDaddy England X Mommy Reader (Request)2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
The warmth of the church hugged you as you sat with your Husband and two children for early Christmas morning mass. Matthew sat playing nicely with his teddy bear, his brother, Alfred sat next to him. Arthur stood still quiet sleepy next to you. All of the sudden Matthew came over to you.
"Mama Mama?" He whined. You leaned down and took him in your arms. His big violet orbs staring into your (colour) orbs. "Al's got my bear "
He started crying loudly and clung to you for dear life. A red blush painted on your face as people near you turned around to look at the noisy interrupting child. Many people 'tutted' as they glared at you, with beady eyes and disappointing frowns. "Shush sweetie, just wait till mass is over and I'll get you your bear back," You told him, he just cried louder. You turned to Arthur in desperation, tapping him on the shoulder. "Get the bear off Alfred for me, dear
Sherlock (BBC) X Reader: Chapter 2Chapter 2: Boredom and Board gamesSherlock (BBC) X Reader: Chapter 22 years ago in Romance More Like This
You hadn’t had chance to talk to Sherlock since crashing in his flat. Unfortunately you were too busy typing and editing and consulting with your editor. Until one day when you decided that going to the café would be a break instead of a writing session you saw John and Sherlock sat where you normally sit.
“Hello Stranger,” you smiled as you sat down next to Sherlock, opposite John.
“Ah so this is your famous writing area,” Sherlock smiled.
“Love the sarcasm,” you replied as you saw Sherlock about to take a sip of his coffee. “That’s going to burn your mouth out. Wait for at least 3 minutes and 34 seconds.”
John frowned. “That’s very precise.”
“It’s an average, John. _____ clearly watches the time as she writes and gets distracted. Even you should have guessed that,” Sherlock frowned. John sighed and glared slightly. You laughed.
Sherlock (BBC) X Reader: Chapter 3Chapter 3: Lies and LogicSherlock (BBC) X Reader: Chapter 32 years ago in Romance More Like This
You arrived at the crime scene; the victim lay on the ground of a back ally way. It was a woman, with long blonde hair. You approximated that she was a young woman, who was recently engaged but the ring was gone, noticeable by the tan line. This also indicated that she had gone through a break up; or it was stolen when she was killed. "The cause of death was the strangulation," you heard someone say not listening but noticing the strangulation marks around the neck. Her upper left arm had been grazed, probably after being pushed out of a car when disposing the body.
"This is the third victim," you said to Sherlock oblivious to anyone else.
He nodded. "Sophie McKenna; a young university student who was murder in the back alley way after walking home from a bookstore; shot in the heart."
"The second one was Ruby Mason, working part time at the library. Stabbed while walking home through an alleyway," you continued.
"This girl was missing for two days. There is n
Sherlock (BBC) X Reader: Chapter 4Chapter 4: Memories and MessagesSherlock (BBC) X Reader: Chapter 42 years ago in Romance More Like This
Sherlock watched as you walked away from him, John appeared out of the cafe. "Did you two just fallout?" He asked.
"Clearly John," Sherlock said. "She's hiding something."
"Just give her some space," John shrugged. “She’s probably not used to the reality of murder cases. She's been used to seeing and writing the words on a page."
"You couldn't be more wrong…" Sherlock sighed going inside the cafe. He ordered coffee and sat in silence shushing John whenever he was about to talk. He hadn't seen the fourth victim coming. It shocked him at the quick speed of a next victim. It frustrated Sherlock. There had to be things missing, links missing. He just had to think.
The fourth victim; He thought of everything he had found out about the girl. She had been looking after her mother at her house and then walked down to a cafe to get some coffee after she walked home and must have been taken during that moment. Then 12 hours later she ends up de
Insane LoveDon't.Insane Love2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hold my hand.
Let me cry in your arms.
Talk about love and the future.
Tease me to cheer me up.
Read over my shoulder the poem I'm writing.
Speak to me.
You'll learn to hate me...
You'll learn to ignore me...
All of those things.
Save me from myself.
I'd ask you to do it.
You're not real. You're caught in my mind.
A character. A fake identity of a person I want to want me.
Thats why don't.
Because reality breaks me when you leave.
Sherlock (BBC) X Reader: Chapter 6Chapter 6: Nicotine and NighttimeSherlock (BBC) X Reader: Chapter 61 year ago in Romance More Like This
"Sherlock, you could have waited for me," John sighed as he and Sherlock approached the car that was where the phone was.
"Look. This is _______'s phone. Every scratch exactly how it was." Sherlock said ignoring John. "He was found discarding this."
Sherlock held up a black scarf with skull on it.
John frowned. "_______'s?"
"No the last victims," Sherlock answered. "Let's go talk to this... TJ." As he scrolled down the contact list on your phone.
"Oh and remind me when we find ______, to tell her to change the password on her phone. It's too obvious," he added.
TJ sat in the interrogation room. He smiled to himself as Sherlock walked in the room. "So you are in love with her then?" Sherlock asked casually.
"Okay then so where is she for me to save her because I know your either going to tell me or I'll figure it out. In fact I'll probably figure it out quicker than you tell me." Sherlock continued.
"Why would I want her to be saved
Scotland X reader Part 4Tori nudged his arm to keep him awake. " Scotty! Help me learn this chemistry!" Tori moaned.Scotland X reader Part 43 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Fine. Fine Fine," He mumbled taking another sip of coffee.
"Okay so what do ye know about Emulsions?" He asked.
"They help combined oil and water together..." Tori answered of the top of her head.
"Yes, a substance which stops two substances from seperating," He smiled. "So teach me this stuff 'bout continental drift and what not."
Tori beamed knowing that he knew she knew the answer to this.
"Well Continetal Drift was the theroy by Alfred Wegner. That once all the land was just a hudge landmass but due to tectonic dynamics, which are convection currents in the mantle that are caused by heat and radioactive proccessors caused the plates to move. There is fossil evidence that South America and Africa fit together like a Jigzaw.
"I know. Liquid air can be fractionally distilled to produce various gases with industrial uses. This is because the different gases in air have..."
Hell Doesn't Even KnowI want to cry so much...Hell Doesn't Even Know2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Maybe I'm happy,
Maybe I'm sad.
I feel so alone,
Yet I've been with people all day.
I feel so unloved,
Yet I know I have people who love me.
I can't talk about these feelings.
I can't open up when the door is locked.
And the key is lost.
I want to inspire,
But I just recieve empathy.
I want to die,
But I keep on breathing.
I feel so confused, lost and all alone.
The feelings inside me are too strong for my body.
I don't want someone to understand.
I want someone to give me the answers to why I am like this.
And a solution to fix the massacre inside me...
Sherlock (BBC) X Reader: Chapter 5Chapter 5: Tick TockSherlock (BBC) X Reader: Chapter 51 year ago in Romance More Like This
8 hours left...
"He was killing to find the best method of pain, timing, control. He must have something against _____. She was the main victim all along otherwise he wouldn't have come to her house. It's out of the pattern," Sherlock said.
John sat down with Sherlock and handed him his coffee. "You've analysed her Sherlock, She shouted at you about it enough, what did you analyse?"
"When we were at that cafe. She sat in the corner. Positioning herself so she could see anyone who would see her. No one would come up from behind her. She could sense me watching her; glanced at me; first show of paranoia; and then the constant biting of her lip. She was graceful when walking when in a safe environment but clumsily drops things when she is surprised. But she doesn't realise this," Sherlock thought aloud. "She knew he was coming. She saw him. That's what must have distracted her with the car. The height of the victims, she also read it in the notes. The whol
Russia X reader: Part 1: Sunflower 8You sat drawing a sunflower. You put the dream catcher and a pack of beef jerky in your backpack. For a eleven year old you had travelled many places and along the way made many friends. Everywhere you went you left a picture of a sunflower pinned to a tree. You sighed thinking of the one you left in the England being all wet from the rain. Your mother was English but your Papa was Spanish and since your mother died while giving birth to you, you had traveled with your Papa. Today your were going to Russia. You would miss the warm American weather. You stood up and went over to the nearest tree and pinned your picture on the tree.Russia X reader: Part 1: Sunflower 83 years ago in Romance More Like This
You reached the snowy land where you were now to live. Your furry coat hugged you in warmth. Unzipping your backpack you pulled out your beef jerky and toy elephant. In the middle of the forest it was quiet and peaceful. You opened the packet and tried some beef jerky. It tasted weird but your friend Alfred had said you would like it. A twig snapped somewhere
Scotland X readerTori knocked on the door of the house owned by the Kirkland's.Scotland X reader3 years ago in Romance More Like This
England answered looking at Tori with green eyes that explained he was wondering why she were looking so down. She smiled weakly. "Don't ask," You mumbled.
Scotty came down stairs took one look at Tori and asked. "What's wrong with ye Lassie?"
"I don't want to talk about it," she sighed.
Scotty left it. He was Tori's best friend and he knew that she didn't like it when people tried to pry into her feelings and she wasn't very comfortable about talking about it. Instead he wrapped her in his arms and squeezed her so much she had trouble breathing.
Ireland came and pulled her into the lounge and England forced a cup of tea in her hands.
Wales came and chatted to her casually and they spent the night watching Sherlock Homes and Sherlock Homes 2.
"I love how we're watching a really British film..." Scotty sighed.
England laughed and poured some more tea.
"Tori, tomorrow you'll have a lucky day," Ireland smiled "Well as long as
Do you ever feel like...Do you ever feel like...Do you ever feel like...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You have no energy to get up and walk to the other side of your room.
You wake up in the morning and would beg to go back to sleep.
You would storm out of a classroom screaming, crying and swearing- if stupid questions like "what's wrong? What happened?" (or being screamed at) weren't asked after.
You cry. You cry. And You cry.
People don't like me - That's what you think.
People don't care. Don't love. Don't want.
The second you find a problem you can't fix or control yourself.
Bitch. You are a bitch. Ugly bitch. Fat. Stupid. Mean. Heartless. Selfish.
SHUT UP! FUCK THE HELL OFF! - you can't control your thoughts.
The second you get annoyed at someone. "I HATE YOU!" But you don't.
You hate yourself.
You think about where you could be, would be, wouldn't be.
You think about death and wonder about death.
You think about cancer and all those illnesses out there.
You store everything about death- suicide- in your head like a cabinet file.
You can stare off into the
Scotland X Reader 2Tori sighed as she settled in for another night with the Kirklands. She had failed at doing much revision today and the stress was getting to her. Ireland hugged her and gave her a four leaf clover. "It'll bring you good luck," He smiled.Scotland X Reader 23 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Thanks Ireland. I need alot of it at the moment,"
"Hey Lassie ye sleep better last night?"
"Sure did," Tori smiled as her best friend came over to hug her.
"How ye feeling?"
"Like the world is ending," She sighed colapsing on the sofa.her phone rang. she sighed. It was her grandmother She ignored it.
Wales sat down next to Tori and smiled. "Whats wrong Tori?"
"Nothing for you to worry about. But thanks," She smiled "I think I have to go home." she sighed getting up.
England frowned. "Such a waste of tea its cold now..."
"Bye England love you too," she grinned sarcastically.
"I'll walk ye home," Scotland smiled.
It was raining and the Umbrella Tori had brought wasn't very big. Her and Scotland face were inches from each other. She adored his green eye
Goodbye...I don't think I love you anymore.Goodbye...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have loved you for a year and 10 months and you never noticed.
I hope it isn't just because I haven't seen you in ages.
I really hope so.
Because if it is.
As soon as I see your face all of that love will come rushing back.
But with love comes pain.
I must be over you.
Because I've fallen for a man created in my brain.
Who cheers me up.
Who holds me when I cry.
Who talks to me when I'm alone.
Who helps me when I've hurt myself.
Who loves me for me.
Who understands me.
And I know he doesn't exist so he can't be you.
I don't think I've let you go though.
Sherlock x Reader Chapter 1Odd looks followed John and Sherlock as they entered the Italian restaurant. The eyes if the adults just lingered but children openly stared.Sherlock x Reader Chapter 11 year ago in General Fiction More Like This
"Mum, I want to wear my pyjamas too. Why can't I? It's not fair."
Sherlock smirked; his latest stint had at least one supporter, even if the supporter was five and covered in pizza. Lestrade saw the pair approaching and wished the ground would swallow him up, the one night of his life he wished Sherlock wasn't so obscure and was a bit more socially aware.Soon John and Lestrade were deep in conversation, talking about trivial things as far as Sherlock could tell. A natural lull in the conversation gave Sherlock the opportunity to start talking.
“Honestly the nerve of some people. The man on table four is having an affair with the woman on six. The waitress is 'busy' as in she and the manager are more than friends. Table one is going to turn into a one night stand, just look at how low her top is and where his eyes keep going. Table two is a
LostDark Room.Lost2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can't see.
But I try.
But I cry.
No I don't.
I don't want to admit it.
I can't and I'll regret it.
I'm all over the place.
But I'm heavy.
I'm full of emotion.
And I can't get it out.
And the ones that work I can't do.
I don't know what I need.
But I want you.
OnlyI only want to be dead,Only2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because I'm already dying.
I only want pain,
Because I'm already in pain.
I only want to suffocate,
Because I'm already suffocating.
I only want to be empty,
Because I am empty.
I only want to go away,
Because nothing right is staying.
I only want to sleep,
Because I still have the chance to wake up when the nightmare is over.
Sherlock x Reader Chapter 4- Shocking Holmes!1 month later…Sherlock x Reader Chapter 4- Shocking Holmes!1 year ago in General Fiction More Like This
Finally you got a break from run after Sherlock. He’d had been making you run around the whole of London looking for small clues which only Sherlock seemed to understand. It was very stressful working with Sherlock but you loved it and you kind of loved the way that Sherlock’s mind worked. You didn’t know if that was a good thing but really you didn’t care, he was brilliant in his own way.
Now that you had some time to yourself you decided to take a such needed shower.
30 minutes later…
You wrap yourself a towel as got out of the shower and then you heard a knock at the door. You sign and started to make you way over to the door.
As your vision became clearer, you looked around at what used to be your flat and within minutes you minutes you heard police sirens coming closer to what used to be your flat.
25 minutes later…
You had giving a full report to Lestrade on happened when you saw John and Sherlock outside o
You Are BlindYou see a picture.You Are Blind2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A girl with a smile on her face.
She looks beautiful.
She wasn't going anyway fancy.
But she wore her black make up.
And her brand new top.
But that isn't what I see...
Look a little closer...
Can't you see the tears that have just been wiped away?
Look a little closer...
Can't you see her right fist clenched,
Fumbling for her over strap bag?
Look a little closer...
Can't you see the left hand grip her long sleeve for dear life?
Look a little closer...
Can't you see her mind is running with thoughts tonight?
Look a little closer...
And maybe you'd have seen the warning signs....
Scotland X reader: France X reader Part 8They all arrived at the Italian restaurant. Tori sat down after unbuttoning her cherry red coat, next to her boyfriend, Allistor, a Scotsman and commonly known as Scotty; Next to Allistor sat Arthur his brother and next to Arthur sat his good friend, Emma. Italy smiled at Tori, his sister and sat down next to her. Francis glared at his brother and sister and sat on the other side of Emma, leaving an empty black, sleek chair between his brother, Feliciano and him. "So Tori did you have a good birthday last week?" Arthur asked.Scotland X reader: France X reader Part 83 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Yes, I did Iggy," She smiled blocking out the memory of her older brother, Francis publicly braking up with her best friend, Amber over her confused feelings for the two brothers. Thinking about Amber, she turned up late as normal. She shivered slightly in a simple short sleeved cardigan and white knee length dress, with a black sash around the waist, her anklet with a bell chimed as she walked. Her brown, ginger straightened hair lay on her shoulders. Her brown
Destroy MeHe was beautiful.Destroy Me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Scars and all.
She was beautiful.
Scars and all.
Their love was undefiable.
There was no way to explain it.
They held hands as they walked,
Arm to arm,
Neither tried to stop nor help the other.
How could they?
Hypocrite wouldn't be the word.
But they comforted each other and did what ever the other asked them to do.
If she was upset and ready to relapse.
He hand her a red pen and kiss her on her forehead.
If he was close to punching himself.
She'd kiss his hand and hand him a stress ball.
They both listened as they spilled there feelings.
As they sobbed.
They shared sleepless nights lying together.
It didn't matter how much they felt like they didn't have purpose.
They need to love the other so that they were loved.
They both tried to fight together.
Support each other with whatever happened.
They were both beautiful.
So beautiful broken,
That their shattered peices,
fallen together created something bigger than when they were whole.
Russia X Reader: Part 6: Da?Part 6 (?)Russia X Reader: Part 6: Da?3 years ago in Romance More Like This
(A week or so later)
You hadn't done anything. You just stayed in your room staring out of the window. The door opened. Today you had to do something.
Ivan held your hand as you stood in front of the people who had come to say goodbye to your Papa. Irina, your Papa's ex girlfriend came.
"I'm sorry ________," She cried. "I knew something wasn't right. We argued about it all the time."
"He's at rest now With my mother." You consoled not wanting to believe the word you were saying. Ivan held your hand and smiled at you weakly.
"Well at least you two are together still," She smiled.
An awkward blush rose to my cheeks. "Oh we're...,"
"Just friends," Ivan finished for you.
Irina blushed. "сожалеющий," She mumbled. "From what you're Father said. I always just assumed..."
"It's okay Irina," You said awkwardly your (colour) eyes avoiding contact. But your hand still stayed entwined in Ivan's.
Irina nodded and moved over to t
Explain (SherlockxReader) SongficExplainExplain (SherlockxReader) Songfic2 years ago in Romance More Like This
You hear Sherlock's mumbles as you push a lock behind your ear, eyes glued to the words written in a book. "Don't even understand why you need to go on dates. They're just transport," the consulting detective muses and you glance at the man that's across you.
"It's not the dates, Sherlock, it's the love that's behind it," you reply to his musings and he glares at you, the gun in his hand. He's obviously bored.
"Love, what a difficult word to define. Love is just an emotion concerning in attraction. It's nothing more but chemicals working in our brains. It just happens when you're either very desperate or when you see an attractive chap," Sherlock retorts before pulling the trigger, releasing an ammo that went through the wall. Thank God it missed you.
"Then what about faith? John has faith in you, I do, even Lestrade. Define that," you argue and he rolls his eyes.
"All of you believe in me because of my capabilities. All of