PillsHere's a pill for my broken heart,
A pill for my body parts,
I can never again call holy.
One for each day where I slowly,
Die again, again, and again.
A few more for each jail visit,
A handful as an alternative for the razors that used to sit,
On my wrist.
Half a bottle for all of the lies.
A bit more just so I can get by.
The rest for all of the tears and blood shed.
Oops, I'm dead.
Silent BoyThere once was a child,Silent Boy4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Who never spoke a word.
He never changed his face,
Never cried when he got hurt.
Those dearest to him stood away,
They didn't know what to do.
And since they treated him in silence,
Silence became the only thing he knew.
As the years passed and he grew
He still remained the same,
Never speaking to anyone
And for that, no one ever came.
He was always picked on,
Someone always had something to say;
Either 'you are dead inside',
Or 'your life is wasted away'.
Through all the insults, the words,
The bruises, and the pain,
He tolerated it all, turned away,
He remained silent, he never changed.
His life kept getting wor
The Land We Live OnI know of a land where young ones are corrupt,The Land We Live On3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Where the butterflies attempt to fly with broken wings,
But die in the process.
An outcast is just a ghoul in hiding.
Every loving word slurred never meant a thing.
The scars are always visible.
In this land it is always below zero.
Each day everyone knows that tomorrow will be the same,
Here lies no hope.
The soil covering the surface is poisoned.
Sometimes tongues are chopped off.
Slowly they all lose their mind.
The eldest ones are locked away to be hidden in the dark.
So many broken hearts, they cannot even be counted.
Memories are shunned with pills,
And obscure buildings that cause blood sh
Talking to the airI'm hearing you speak,Talking to the air4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
While you pull your fingers through my hair.
I'm looking into your eyes,
And you dont mind I'm telling you more than you can bear.
I'm feeling the emotions,
pouring out of my sides.
While you sit there quietly listening,
Because there's nothing we can hide.
....Wait. Let's try this again.
I'm hearing you speak,
But the voice is empty, no one is there.
I'm looking into your eyes,
but I'm staring into thin air.
I'm feeling the emotions,
But everything I say is a hollow line.
While you sit there quietly listening.....
Because you're only mine.
.....Now, let's continure.
While I'm talking into space,
LostLost.Lost4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am lost.
I have no direction.
I'm falling into a universe,
An alternate reality.
I am trapped.
That never stop.
Inside those cycles,
IntruderDo you remember when you were an intruder?Intruder2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I attempted to banish you?
I did not have a clue that you were a part of me.
Eventually I gave up and let things be.
I no longer drown in you, I've learned how to swim,
I struggle to keep my head above the waves.
Before I knew it gradually I became your slave,
But I no longer fight for freedom.
Over time I have grown fond of you,
And no matter what I try to do,
I cannot survive without you and this hell.
You've grown to be my psychotic friend,
To the brutal end that is closer than before.
When the world comes crashing downShe cried silent tears of gold.When the world comes crashing down3 months ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
Morning Light“Morning Light”Morning Light3 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
These hills that I’ve traversed
Within each and every verse
Have led me to believe
In all the things I see
And where I am right now
I could never imagine how
I have gotten myself to stand
On my own two feet again
I thought I could never dream
Or at least in what I mean
Or maybe this is fake
And these thoughts I can not shake
So sad and unaware
Bad thoughts are always there
Floating in my head
Taunting me instead
I don’t want to be na´ve
And believe in what I see
But this thing called pressure
Is more than I can measure
Anxiety never disappears
Even though the ones I fear
Have finally gone away
My Choice.It does not matter,My Choice.3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
That things will change to get better.
If I am not ready what is the point?
If my body happens to not be ruined then what is the point?
Yes I have lost the sparks in my eyes, but not my mind.
You act as if life is a race, rushing to find,
Myself and the part I lost.
To prove in life we live to form ourselves,
And this will not take a day...
Or even a month like you say.
Your battle is pointless.
This is my bod that I posses,
I being the host,
Should have the vote that counts the most.
My soul unaware of light,
Is amused by this fight,
It makes my life a bit more amusing.
I may seem like a confusing,
Fuck up to
My Escape.Can't you see I'm sorry?My Escape.2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
All you do is coldly,
Push me away,
Even though you know I'm halfway,
To dead, I'm sure you couldn't careless.
You were my escape from this darkness,
But now I'm drowning in my own mind.
I can't seem to find,
Another way, so I will live like this tomorrow and everyday.
I have a peculiar feeling you may,
Come back and toss me away,
Just like before.
I may never be able to let you in again.
Perhaps this is the end,
Although I will not be able to live with it.
If You Have Any Help To SpareOh, my dearIf You Have Any Help To Spare3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
If only it were that easy
To ask for your help
Tis not your stead
For I have fought, am fighting
Waging wars on myself
As I make my journey to that time
Where fireflies sing and cities burn bright
In the dead of night
Of which I know nothing of the light
And I am screaming for the world to hear
Nothing but silence is heard
A part of me is wanting to be noticed
Notice me, notice me, notice me
I can't rewind time
I can not erase these scars
As if it's too late
I need, I need, I need
For all of this, all of this doubt...regret...disgust with myself
To dissolve, just fade away
Erase all of my mistakes
Freaks ShowFingers scratching at my wrist,Freaks Show4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wanting a beautiful kiss.
The lips they know too well,
Gradually I feel my mind compelling,
Back to almost a month ago,
When I was still apart of the freak show.
Dancing on the stage,
With a pointy blade,
Focused on a luscious vein.
The oh's and ah's of the crowd causes pain,
I finally notice how different I really am.
I finally notice there is nothing I can,
Do to pick up the glass without getting cut.
I finally noticed that all I am is a nut.
I finally noticed that deep down I'm in the freak show for life,
I can no longer hide and fight,
The true me when it's thriving to come out.
In this moment I do doubt,
RazorSweet little friend,Razor5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
You are the only one that
Truly understands me.
The only one that
Holds my hand
When I am
The one that listens
When I am upset.
The only one that
Hears me crying.
The one that counsels
Me how to cope with life.
And you're hungry
For more blood.
You are jumping and
Ready to be fed.
You love the softness of
My skin, and you promise to
Be gentle when you break
Through the vein.
But you're not strong enough.
You aren't sharp and bold
Like the others.
You're such a frail creature
And now it's your turn
To be disposed.
In the trash,
Where you always belonged.
Leave this WorldI will slit my wristsLeave this World3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
to watch the blood fall to the floor
to end my life for good
and nobody cry a single tear
I will leave this world
pretend that I never existed
This life dont need me no more
I am better off gone from this world
I will slit my wrists
to ease the pain
I can't take the crying
I can't take this pain
There is no hope in this world
There is no reason to live
I will leave this world for good
Maybe someday I will be reborn
I WantI want to feelI Want4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
of sweet pure love
I want to feel
the warm embraces
the soft kisses
the beating of our hearts
all the promises of love
I want to see
I want to see
the heart of my lover
the best and worst of love
the relationship last
all the time it should
It's not too much to ask
Cross My WristsCross my wrists and hope to die,Cross My Wrists2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I will only ever lie
When you ask me if I’m fine
Or if I like this life of mine.
If I had a gun,
I’d put it to my head
And turn bouncy blonde,
Into ruby red.
You want me to stop cutting;
I’ll stop when I’m dead.
The last time I’ll cut
Will be the last thing I see
When I finally put an end to me.
Dying sounds good right now,
Just fading into black
And never coming back
To the agony living brings.
Perhaps you’ll find me hanging,
Or after OD’ing;
Someday soon you’ll find me,
It’s too late now,
I’m too far gone.
Zero.10.Zero.4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I take a deep breath.
Is this really what I want?
Of course it is.
Why am I even questioning it?
"Because you're a coward,"
That cruel voice whispers,
"And you're looking for a way out."
"No," my voice replies.
My voice is stronger.
I will be heard.
I shift my grip on the knife,
And sink deeper into my sheets.
My heart rate jumps;
My breathing accelerates.
The world shifts in and out of focus,
As my senses are heightened,
By the adrenaline racing through my veins,
Knowing my end is near.
I think back.
Is my will in order?
Have I written all the letters?
My eyes flick open,
And I plunge the bl
Crossed The Line"Crossed The Line"Crossed The Line4 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
She told him "no" many instances before
At first he listened, but not this time
Her words were sounds that he ignored
Because finally, he crossed the line
At first it seemed like every date
He was sweet and kind, holding doors
But even still at any rate
She found herself screaming on the bedroom floor
Because he heard, but didn't listen
Only hearing what he wanted to hear
And by pure hormones he was driven
While her pleas fell on deaf's ears
At first it started out innocent
Holding hands, kissing, locking lips
But soon it was no longer ambivalent
Once his hands swayed around her hips
He tried crawling them
I Love You, DaddyDaddy, please don't touch me.I Love You, Daddy3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
It doesn't feel good.
It makes me feel..
Daddy, please don't hit me.
I didn't mean to disappoint you.
When you hit me, it makes me feel...
Daddy, please don't hurt her.
Mommy didn't do anything.
When you hit her, it makes me feel..
Daddy, please don't say you love me.
I know you're lying.
When you say you still want me, it makes me feel...
Daddy, please stop screaming at her.
You already killed her.
When you scream at her, it makes me feel..
Daddy, stay there.
Let me sink the knife into your throat.
When you bleed, it makes me feel..
Daddy, aren't you happy now?
Wonderfully Lost, Unfortunately FoundI used to be lost in my own thoughts.Wonderfully Lost, Unfortunately Found4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Fantasy, horror, there were lots,
I enjoyed them all.
Away from the light, I lived in my head,
And chose the dark side instead,
Because there I felt important and tall.
I made up immginary friends,
Who said they'd be with me till the end,
And I accepted that as my reality.
Soon, I adjusted to the coarse way of life,
Did away with the strife,
But I buried myself in illusonary debris.
Lived life like a wild child,
Who went through the day with a murderous smile,
Forcing away all the opposing doubts.
Then one day, real life came along,
Didn't approve of this song,
And it pulled me directly out.
Sunlight: SunraysSunlight; SunraysSunlight: Sunrays2 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Bring the rain clouds back to play
Bring the gloom back here today
Keep the sky a cloud-filled gray
Please stay away
No one wants you here today
Have the rain clouds here to stay
Let the rain fall in every way
Why do you stay?
Where is the sadness? Where is the grey?
Why is it a happy day?
Why do you smile at me this way?
Come back again
Make the water never end
Wash away all of the sin
Help me never stay locked in
Fall on my skin
Keep the happiness within
Block out everywhere I've been
Never asking where, or when
Break me down within
Tree TopsTree Tops3 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
High above the ground
Branches swaying all around
Who's arms used to surround
Can no longer be found...
ButterfliesButterfliesButterflies3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
They bounce inside you
They fly silently
Hardly seen but beautiful
Give soft kisses to flowers
Brushing wings with eyelashes
Tell you when you're nervous
Tell you when you're excited
Let you know who you love
Make you sick with hope
Make you feel light
Set you free
They love much
They break easy
They stay just out of reach
Butterfly is me.
Butterflies are we.