Freaks ShowFingers scratching at my wrist,
Wanting a beautiful kiss.
The lips they know too well,
Gradually I feel my mind compelling,
Back to almost a month ago,
When I was still apart of the freak show.
Dancing on the stage,
With a pointy blade,
Focused on a luscious vein.
The oh's and ah's of the crowd causes pain,
I finally notice how different I really am.
I finally notice there is nothing I can,
Do to pick up the glass without getting cut.
I finally noticed that all I am is a nut.
I finally noticed that deep down I'm in the freak show for life,
I can no longer hide and fight,
The true me when it's thriving to come out.
In this moment I do doubt,
I'm a MonsterMonsters are inside of me,I'm a Monster4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Monsters are the size of my jeans.
Monsters will never let me be.
Fighting against me and this thing I am forced to call a body.
Monsters are carbs,
I am the superhero with the power starve.
Monsters are the suspicious people around,
Monsters are the sounds,
Escaping my humongous stomach.
Monsters are horrid objects such as ovens.
Monsters are ugly and fat,
And I am just that.
Delete NonetI like to delete parts of my life.Delete Nonet4 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Memory here, an item there.
Fade them away to darkness.
Making room for the light.
The past can’t hold me.
I’m letting go.
God of SuicideGod of Suicide:God of Suicide4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
You have trapped me in a nightmare,
Which there is no allowance for awake.
But it all turns out to be fair,
Due to all nails and a stake,
I've managed to receive.
Each thud of the hammer and each gash tells a different story.
I will just lay here and prepare my casket.
All of the lies and secrets stored in the closet,
Will come flying out and maybe my followers will find where to fit,
After years of hiding,
And secretly dying.
Death is the beautiful obscure truth,
And life is just the the hideous lie.
These darkened dreams you call sick sooth,
Us and is how we get by.
I will just lay here and prepare my casket.
All of the lie
NothingI wanna feel nothing again,Nothing4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
bury myself in the fury of
my half-death, alive but not
feeling, muted and silent.
I wanna have nothing again,
free myself to the unending
scorn of those around me and
be able to not care.
I wanna feel nothing again,
I just don't want to be
confined to all of this
Dark CreationPromises made but never keptDark Creation5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Things said but never meant
Words are lies
That cause pain
You did this
With your promises unkept
And your words not meant
Creating my painful death
I Swear I'd be Pretty AgainIf you told the skyI Swear I'd be Pretty Again4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
that blue was nice,
but not your favorite color,
I swear it'd glow more vibrantly.
And likewise, if you
could only find the courage to
tell me I am not perfect,
that I am flawed,
and that sometimes,
you can't bear to
be around me,
I swear I'd try harder.
If you could only tell me I changed
and that I'm not who I was,
If you could only tell me
that I am ugly,
I swear I'd be pretty again.
My SongThe music swirls all around,My Song3 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
till all I hear is the joyous sound,
twirling, spinning, moving me,
and the endless notes are all I see.
The beat becomes my hearts own.
I feel as though the light has shown,
and all the sadness fades away,
and I finally see a happier day.
My lips part, and I sing along
To such a redeeming, beautiful song.
These moments come and go too fast.
I enjoy them greatly as they last.
I laugh in glee.
I feel so free.
What magic is this,
this utter bliss?
Stay with me, my pretty song,
with you the days don't seem so long.
With you I am so filled with hope,
I know with you, somehow I'll cope.
Together we'll stay.
Hell Doesn't Even KnowI want to cry so much...Hell Doesn't Even Know4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Maybe I'm happy,
Maybe I'm sad.
I feel so alone,
Yet I've been with people all day.
I feel so unloved,
Yet I know I have people who love me.
I can't talk about these feelings.
I can't open up when the door is locked.
And the key is lost.
I want to inspire,
But I just recieve empathy.
I want to die,
But I keep on breathing.
I feel so confused, lost and all alone.
The feelings inside me are too strong for my body.
I don't want someone to understand.
I want someone to give me the answers to why I am like this.
And a solution to fix the massacre inside me...
We Are/You Aren'tWe are the unwanted, the brokenWe Are/You Aren't4 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The ones you forgot about.
So don't be too surprised when we
Start to scream and shout.
We are the living, the dying
The ones you all put down.
But you'll know who we are when we
Run this goddamn town.
We are the corpses, the maggots
The ones you all despise.
But you'll be the ones scared when we
Expose all your lies.
We are the hunted, the lost
The ones you all spurn.
But you'll cry for our help when we
Leave you all to burn.
We are the losers, the winners
The ones that you deny.
But you'll be the ones damned when we
Hear the angels cry.
I'm Fine"Are you okay?"I'm Fine4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
That's all they say.
And I leave behind
These words in my mind.
I'm broken, I'm dying.
Inside, I'm crying.
There are wounds beneath my skin.
There are trials I face within.
There are things I just can't say.
There are people I must betray.
Beneath a smile, I feel pain.
Behind the sun, there's always a little rain.
And beneath these words I hold in my head...
There's always the thing I say instead.
I leave the truth behind..
So when they say, "are you okay?"
I always say, "I'm fine."
I Love You, DaddyDaddy, please don't touch me.I Love You, Daddy3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
It doesn't feel good.
It makes me feel..
Daddy, please don't hit me.
I didn't mean to disappoint you.
When you hit me, it makes me feel...
Daddy, please don't hurt her.
Mommy didn't do anything.
When you hit her, it makes me feel..
Daddy, please don't say you love me.
I know you're lying.
When you say you still want me, it makes me feel...
Daddy, please stop screaming at her.
You already killed her.
When you scream at her, it makes me feel..
Daddy, stay there.
Let me sink the knife into your throat.
When you bleed, it makes me feel..
Daddy, aren't you happy now?
A World of ColorIf I could fall so deepA World of Color5 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
within my sleep,
I'd dream of fantasies
where all is bright,
even through the night
with colors of neon green.
And under the emerald sky
that lingers high,
I'd dip into the blue
where mermaids sway
and little fishes play
until the break of noon.
Then in the fields
where red fruits yield,
I'd climb the golden trees
and feel all the love
of heaven above
as I fly into the breeze.
Then later on
when it reaches dawn,
I'd dance under the sun
that gently beams
and shines upon my dreams
and moves me forever on.
Hide HideHide4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
e m p t y hallway fill
no one will notice
around the corner
no one will care if you
no one will laugh if you
no one can hurt you
Shooting StarsShe doesn't know what they areShooting Stars4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
She thinks the bombs are shooting stars
She wishes as the sky turns black
Wishes for her daddy to come back
She sits by the window, looking out into the night
Tonight feels different, not at all right.
She sits primly, in her pretty new dress
She had no cause yet to be distressed.
As the shadows creep long
She realizes something's wrong
The whorl distorted like a strange dream
For nothing is really what it seems
Her mother's loving touch is nowhere to be found
Her world explodes into thunderous sound
She turns her face into the burning sky
She doesn't realize she's about to die.
LockedLockedLocked4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
So long ago
I've been trying to escape
Giant walls grow bigger
In my place
There is not place for anyone else
Just loneliness and myself
Heavy air is what I breathe,
Heavy tears are what I expect
Lonely whispers surrounding me
Adding more weight to my chest…
This pain around me is so dense,
It can be cut with a blade
Thousands of swords are falling
Willing to hurt where they can…
Painful cries are drowned,
By cruelty herself
Long I've been running
From here, to there…
Locked in a concrete prison,
Locked in a trees jail…
What is the difference
Between being alone here, and being alone there?
I am a captive in this
UntitledSomewhere in the forestUntitled3 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A wolf cries to the moon
So I begin to ponder
Alone here in my room
As to what the wolf is after
When it calls out to the moon
I think I thought of something
But I fell asleep too soon.
No Longer a Little GirlDear imagination, can't you be the thing you wereNo Longer a Little Girl1 month ago in Free Verse More Like This
Butterflies and daffodils and happiness so pure
Sunny skies and lullabies and dreams of what could be
Hidden worlds and wonderlands of things they couldn't see
Shining gowns and silver crowns for dancing with the prince
Twirling with excitement, though the others weren't convinced
Dear intimidation, did you find it to be true
All I ever needed was an overdose of you
Silly stares and laughter slowly flood a child's mind
Making me abandon every daydream I could find
Lost beneath the shadows of the sky so dark and dead
Far too weak to turn around, yet scared of things ahead
Dear destructive ten
PerfectionPerfection.Perfection7 months ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
She lodges her fingers down her throat.
Clasping onto the wall as she recklessly chokes.
She reinserts her fingers back in forcibly.
Deliriously trying to make her body thinner.
She swoons and slumps to the floor nauseously
As she attempts to regurgitate her dinner.
Her throat aches as she screeches out coarsely,
With her hand covering the image in the mirror.
Her head now rests on the on the rim of the toilet seat.
She wants to eat but she just has not got in her.
She desperately begins to scream out inaudibly.
Her mouth now tastes of something pulpy and bitter.
She examines the red color of the fluid cautiously.
SubmissMy eyes met hers, and the stars dimmedSubmiss4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The sun despairs in her radiance
She is 'beauty' in every facet of the word
Hunger pains consume my interior
for her whom I cannot devour
Her face I don't recall
nor have I heard her name
Still, I plead at her feet...
Show me that something is possible
Tell me there is something lasting in this world
Make me believe you'
Human NatureWe're bornHuman Nature4 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A door opens wide
A door closes shut
We don't make the cut
We let go
We take care
All in all
We're children of the earth
We rise and we fall
Beginning at birth
When I SaidWhen I said I wanted a fairy taleWhen I Said2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I meant I wanted a prince.
I didn't want to be locked in a
I didn't want to be fought by a
I didn't want
When I said I wanted a fairy tale
I meant I wanted to be a princess.
I didn't want to watch a rose
I didn't want to wear the gown
I wanted it
When I said I wanted a fairy tale...
I expected it to end in a
But i never expected it to end like this.
Magic.Magic.Magic.3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The voices in the wind.
The shiver down your spine.
The sparkle in the eye.
The whispers in the trees
It is Magic.
The forgiveness out of anger.
The strength out of weakness.
The light from darkness.
The life out of death.
It is Magic.