1The moon and the stars11 year ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Are extremely lovely, but
You are much brighter
Hell Doesn't Even KnowI want to cry so much...Hell Doesn't Even Know1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Maybe I'm happy,
Maybe I'm sad.
I feel so alone,
Yet I've been with people all day.
I feel so unloved,
Yet I know I have people who love me.
I can't talk about these feelings.
I can't open up when the door is locked.
And the key is lost.
I want to inspire,
But I just recieve empathy.
I want to die,
But I keep on breathing.
I feel so confused, lost and all alone.
The feelings inside me are too strong for my body.
I don't want someone to understand.
I want someone to give me the answers to why I am like this.
And a solution to fix the massacre inside me...
Black voidsA black void escapes my lips.Black voids2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As the infection of pain takes over.
I’m screaming to an empty room.
In it lays all my fears.
My eyes are filled with parasites.
Seeing nothing but black.
Which leaks it’s way into my heart.
Trembling fingers, and sweaty palms.
Bugs clinging to my hair.
Nesting in my skin.
I have been contaminated.
By the sins of others.
Nobody can harm me now.
I have been contaminated
By the whispers of the heartless.
Reaching forth for some light.
It only seems to burn my skin.
My right eye has been removed.
And left with a hole.
Head spinning round’ and round.
Sitting in this dirty contaminated room.
A perfect fit for me.
CruxI’m only sure of two things:Crux1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I still carry pieces of your cross on my back and
lilies were your favorite flower
Those last three months-
A silent drive home from the mall
purse full of stolen makeup
Dinners with my family where no one
bothered to make the conversion
Endless hours spent looking at paint samples
and I was smart to not buy the brushes
The line at the liquor store blended
with the lines on the road
At the same time with you
Then it was summer and you talked me into a country drive. We stopped on the side of the road to watch a cow giving birth in the center of a pasture. But, the calf never rose to its wobbly legs or felt the heat of the Indian summer….it never tasted dandelions.
The mother stood by the calf’s body
long past nightfall
and I stood by yours
long after that
Was this what we meant when we said forever?
fast-forward through the goodbyesthis is the beginning of the endfast-forward through the goodbyes1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
“i know you,” he says.
and he looks defeated, he looks sad, he looks like
he's a boy who may one day realize how much
he cares for you, so you cut him off and say,
“minus all the secrets i don’t tell anyone.”
“well, yeah, minus those.”
“then you don’t know me at all.”
and then you tell him,
i love you. but you don’t use those words
because those are taboo. are jinxed.
are knock on wood three times fast.
instead you press him in a hug and say,
i’m sorry, knowing he won’t understand
that this is the first time you ever cared for something
enough to try and fix it after you hurt it.
you hope he doesn’t ever realize what you’re saying
and his response will always be ‘what for?’ because
if he figures out he loves you nothing changes.
he’s just going to be in love with a corpse, a memory,
a pair of trigger happy hands,
We Are/You Aren'tWe are the unwanted, the brokenWe Are/You Aren't1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The ones you forgot about.
So don't be too surprised when we
Start to scream and shout.
We are the living, the dying
The ones you all put down.
But you'll know who we are when we
Run this goddamn town.
We are the corpses, the maggots
The ones you all despise.
But you'll be the ones scared when we
Expose all your lies.
We are the hunted, the lost
The ones you all spurn.
But you'll cry for our help when we
Leave you all to burn.
We are the losers, the winners
The ones that you deny.
But you'll be the ones damned when we
Hear the angels cry.
Carry onShe can hit me,Carry on1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
but I won't cry out.
I'm too numb to fight,
too tired to shout.
I just want to rest.
To stop all the tears.
I'm tired of trying.
Exhausted by all these years.
Leave me alone.
I'm nothing anymore.
Just an empty shell,
That's not worth crying for.
Don't call my name.
I don't exist.
She's weathered me away.
With word and fist.
I'll stop now.
You don't care.
I'm just a girl.
Caught in suicide's snare.
From now on,
I won't speak,
I won't try.
I won't be a freak.
I'll just fade.
slowly, till I'm gone.
So I won't be a bother.
So your life can carry on.
For the Bass GuitaristThe lights turned on,For the Bass Guitarist1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The music was starting.
Everyone's gaze turned to the stage.
Then, I saw you there, playing.
You wore dark shades
As if you're trying to hide your face.
But I was amazed,
On how you play the bass.
I'm wishing you would look my way
And would notice me.
I wish I'd get to know you
Even though, I'm just a nobody.
I know this is impossible.
You're a star and I'm just a no one.
I wish you'll for more
But the song was done and you are gone...
2Wings flap, desperate21 year ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Try to escape this world, they
Forlorn LoveYou who disrupt my ancient slumber,Forlorn Love1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Slumber so peaceful, eternal,
Eternal nevermore, denied;
Denied my right to rest after trekking through life,
Life that did me well yet still denied.
Denied I have been my love's burning desire,
Desire eternally sought by I,
I who night after night pursued you through and through;
Through the blind fog and shadow's kept,
Kept me at bay, no salvation.
Salvation is a denied dream,
Dream that I once sought,
Sought your burning love and skin's touch;
Touch my soul and lock me away no more,
More, oh no more!
Oh how many nights did I give myself to you,
You who obsess me like a curse,
Curse that pain has given me to use;
Use against you and I together,
Together ever-denied desire!
My desire for you lasts beyond the grave,
Grave neither Death nor anyone shall stand in my way,
Way too long has this meddlesome chase gone on;
On way too long,
Long have I been tired of this petty game.
Petty denial shan't hold back thee,
Thee shall have thy love I rightfully de
hope is a poisonous thingand i wishhope is a poisonous thing1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
from the bottom of my
that i'll find
that i hate
more than myself.
What Poetry is to MeWhat poetry is to me,What Poetry is to Me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is an escape into a mindless sea,
A place where I can write endlessly,
About the wonders and ruins of this world I see.
What poetry is to me,
Is this I write accordingly,
The words that are crafted so beautifully,
By those who let go willingly.
What poetry is to me,
Is not the same for everybody,
That different style, whatever it may be,
Keep it going and you'll succeed.
Her VoiceHer voice, that of which utters words of love,Her Voice2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Speak softer than feathers of a dove.
Her words show Him faithful promise,
He believes Her, hoping He won't trip upon this.
Her voice is that which beauty is given,
A voice of an angel sent from Heaven.
Her syllables singing throughout His ear,
Her leaving turns out to be His biggest fear.
Her voice is everything He wants,
It's what He breathes, He's happy for once.
He hopes with Her for that happy ending,
Their love will always be transcending.
TruthBlood fed flower, beautiful yet so sour,Truth2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
To wander with countless hours,
The sun rising spills grief with its rays,
There's always darkness to show the way.
Its hunger that opened my eyes to reality,
Not the abstinence of my desires,
This is perpetual, never ending,
Our freedom,We each our own gods of emptiness.
Mocking reality with the unfathomable perfect,
Nothing experienced or spoken is such a word,
Life itself, is the only gift given,
To hold truth in my arms, not perfection, is happiness.
Just Imagine, You're All AloneJust imagine, you're all alone,Just Imagine, You're All Alone1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Left in the world on your own.
To fend for yourself, find your smile,
Yes, find it, it's been quite awhile.
You can't breathe, you're being suffocated,
The world is too much to bear, you need to be relocated.
Another place, smaller, much smaller,
You can do it, there, you'll feel so much taller.
Gain your confidence, no it's been shattered, just hide,
One day you'll be able to say that you have your pride.
Pride beyond compare, you can do anything,
Is doing anything the right thing?
The kids shouting "YOLO," adults shouting "Carpe Diem!"
Wishing you could do the same, begging, pleading.
You can, dig deep, I know you can,
You were once stronger, once a better man.
Don't let them take you over, don't you dare concede,
Is this what you want? Is this what you need?
No, this is not what I want.
Who are you to say you're the one to flaunt?
It's my turn, you've played long enough,
I know this is hard, for me it is rough.
I have to put you away, it's time to go,
InvincibleThe courageous gal had a fluttering heartInvincible1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Locked up in her rather crackling ribs; a cage nonetheless
It was more like flapping wings than steady beats
It was more like birdsong than dull drumming
She was free
Her dark hair swept the sky in a tangled mess
And her thin chafed wrists were painful but
She had the world to herself
She was free
She was free and nobody can deny her freedom
She was the wind, she was the birds, she was all what is free
And she would shout to the whole world around her that
She was free
Until her heart flutters out nothing would stop her
You didn't dare.She smiled,You didn't dare.1 year ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
but it was fake.
but she's about to break.
She reached out,
but no one came,
tried to fake it,
but the pain stayed the same.
This girl, she called to you,
but you didn't care.
Something told you to help,
but you didn't dare.
What would the others say?
The ones who called her a freak.
They may taunt or shun you,
so you choose not to speak.
Then she decides to leave.
Because no one wants her here.
You'll never see her cry.
She'll never shed another tear.
Bittersweet NothingsI have screamed at the sky,Bittersweet Nothings3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hammered at the ground,
Spat in the waters;
Cursed and questioned all I've found.
I have run around in circles,
I have walked in straight lines,
I have exercised to exhaustion;
But still not cured this restless mind.
And now I lay here,
Under thick canvas of black;
Muttering bittersweet nothings at the stars,
Who do not deign to answer back.
LacerationsLacerationsLacerations1 year ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Flesh torn from gnawed bone
You really thought you were going home?
Uncontrollable cannibalistic instinct
Limitless desire; the funeral pyre
It’s what you were meant for
It’s what you will die for
Psychotic self obsession
Ripping, tearing mindless gore
You’ll never forget what you saw
A mockery of a failed existence
Crumbles to ash with the sands of time
Desperate to retain possession
Of useless pointless hopeless dreams
Feeling the grip tightening
Never fading, always hiding
Waiting for vulnerability, the time to strike
A soulless depiction of life once lived
A sculptor’s interpretation
Of thoughts once had
Hear it sputter painful words
Useless pitiful spineless worm
You’ll never learn
This world owes you nothing
And no one cares
Worry"Worry," such a helpless word,Worry2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
More helpless than that baby bird.
My feeling, My emotions, why do You exist?
Why do You eternally put Me through this?
Go away, I want certainty here,
Please just go, just disappear.
I don't need You, You're unwanted,
Go back to the one You previously haunted.
You have overcome My fortress, My body,
Now You sit, waiting in My sanctioned lobby.
Ready to strike, to cause great fear,
Your presence is known, You made it quite clear.
You haven't left, You never did,
You stayed and made it morbid.
I hate You, I wish You'd leave,
Sadly, You've been here since I was conceived.
Life After Death Ch. 1Gabe:Life After Death Ch. 11 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I stood in front of the mirror and stared at my tux-clad body. I tugged at my collar, which felt too tight and uncomfortable. I sighed and reminded myself that I was supposed to be excited. Tonight was a night that would forever be a highlight of my high school career, or so I was told. I could’ve attempted to try to pump myself up about the whole even by telling myself lies about how fun it would be and how the amount of camaraderie I would feel with my peers would be through the roof and absolutely insurmountable to anything I’d ever experienced before, but I didn’t want to waste any more time than I already had trying to figure out how exactly to tie a tie. Speaking of my tie, I glanced down and realized it was crooked once again and attempted to fix it. After a few moments of messing with it, I shrugged and glanced at my alarm clock. I was running late for getting over to Joey’s, so I grabbed my camera off of my bed and rushed downstairs. Besides, my l
I Am...I am an observer,I Am...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I watch as you fall
and I won't make a move
to answer your call.
I am dishonest,
it has been since my smallest years
that I let my truth into others ears.
I am a composer,
of a great many lies
yet carry luck like a clover
I never break my disguise.
Through those heat filled faces surrounding me
I can just barely see
and sometimes I find nowhere to run
they take over me.
I am rarely awake with sun,
so that when everything slips undone,
I will not be exposed
I will always stay composed.
I keep my secrets like stars keep distance
burning bright beneath my skin
defining my existence
out of reach and filled with sin.
Never trust a word I say,
I lie to everyone every day
and this is the only time
I will admit
that I am unlike you in many ways.
Who I am is just this: a secret to hold
and I will show no one
no matter how bold.