1The moon and the stars11 year ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Are extremely lovely, but
You are much brighter
Freaks ShowFingers scratching at my wrist,Freaks Show1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wanting a beautiful kiss.
The lips they know too well,
Gradually I feel my mind compelling,
Back to almost a month ago,
When I was still apart of the freak show.
Dancing on the stage,
With a pointy blade,
Focused on a luscious vein.
The oh's and ah's of the crowd causes pain,
I finally notice how different I really am.
I finally notice there is nothing I can,
Do to pick up the glass without getting cut.
I finally noticed that all I am is a nut.
I finally noticed that deep down I'm in the freak show for life,
I can no longer hide and fight,
The true me when it's thriving to come out.
In this moment I do doubt,
That I will ever be flawless, only odd.
I hold a blade to my arm as the former freaks applaud,
My so called success and I go on for the next act.
I will never turn back.
Black voidsA black void escapes my lips.Black voids1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
As the infection of pain takes over.
I’m screaming to an empty room.
In it lays all my fears.
My eyes are filled with parasites.
Seeing nothing but black.
Which leaks it’s way into my heart.
Trembling fingers, and sweaty palms.
Bugs clinging to my hair.
Nesting in my skin.
I have been contaminated.
By the sins of others.
Nobody can harm me now.
I have been contaminated
By the whispers of the heartless.
Reaching forth for some light.
It only seems to burn my skin.
My right eye has been removed.
And left with a hole.
Head spinning round’ and round.
Sitting in this dirty contaminated room.
A perfect fit for me.
We Are/You Aren'tWe are the unwanted, the brokenWe Are/You Aren't1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The ones you forgot about.
So don't be too surprised when we
Start to scream and shout.
We are the living, the dying
The ones you all put down.
But you'll know who we are when we
Run this goddamn town.
We are the corpses, the maggots
The ones you all despise.
But you'll be the ones scared when we
Expose all your lies.
We are the hunted, the lost
The ones you all spurn.
But you'll cry for our help when we
Leave you all to burn.
We are the losers, the winners
The ones that you deny.
But you'll be the ones damned when we
Hear the angels cry.
CruxI’m only sure of two things:Crux1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I still carry pieces of your cross on my back and
lilies were your favorite flower
Those last three months-
A silent drive home from the mall
purse full of stolen makeup
Dinners with my family where no one
bothered to make the conversion
Endless hours spent looking at paint samples
and I was smart to not buy the brushes
The line at the liquor store blended
with the lines on the road
At the same time with you
Then it was summer and you talked me into a country drive. We stopped on the side of the road to watch a cow giving birth in the center of a pasture. But, the calf never rose to its wobbly legs or felt the heat of the Indian summer….it never tasted dandelions.
The mother stood by the calf’s body
long past nightfall
and I stood by yours
long after that
Was this what we meant when we said forever?
Laziest Answer PossibleGod created everything.Laziest Answer Possible1 year ago in Philosophical More Like This
Hell Doesn't Even KnowI want to cry so much...Hell Doesn't Even Know1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Maybe I'm happy,
Maybe I'm sad.
I feel so alone,
Yet I've been with people all day.
I feel so unloved,
Yet I know I have people who love me.
I can't talk about these feelings.
I can't open up when the door is locked.
And the key is lost.
I want to inspire,
But I just recieve empathy.
I want to die,
But I keep on breathing.
I feel so confused, lost and all alone.
The feelings inside me are too strong for my body.
I don't want someone to understand.
I want someone to give me the answers to why I am like this.
And a solution to fix the massacre inside me...
Forlorn LoveYou who disrupt my ancient slumber,Forlorn Love1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Slumber so peaceful, eternal,
Eternal nevermore, denied;
Denied my right to rest after trekking through life,
Life that did me well yet still denied.
Denied I have been my love's burning desire,
Desire eternally sought by I,
I who night after night pursued you through and through;
Through the blind fog and shadow's kept,
Kept me at bay, no salvation.
Salvation is a denied dream,
Dream that I once sought,
Sought your burning love and skin's touch;
Touch my soul and lock me away no more,
More, oh no more!
Oh how many nights did I give myself to you,
You who obsess me like a curse,
Curse that pain has given me to use;
Use against you and I together,
Together ever-denied desire!
My desire for you lasts beyond the grave,
Grave neither Death nor anyone shall stand in my way,
Way too long has this meddlesome chase gone on;
On way too long,
Long have I been tired of this petty game.
Petty denial shan't hold back thee,
Thee shall have thy love I rightfully de
A Poet's RomanceShe was the quiet sort,A Poet's Romance1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
within her eyes,
to pottery skin;
she would mold herself
into moonlight butterflies
and glist'ning calla lilies,
pure and white and
and when night cast
itself upon her in
heated, hard'ning flames,
she’d smash herself
upon the rocks
and in morning start
Can'tCan't whiteout my mistakes,Can't1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Can't erase them from the page.
Can't shake my past,
Try though I may.
Can t run from you,
Wish I could.
Can't make myself happy,
Know I should.
Have to frown.
I can't stay up,
I have to bring myself down.
But I don't.
Is it can't,
Or is it won't?
Carry onShe can hit me,Carry on1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
but I won't cry out.
I'm too numb to fight,
too tired to shout.
I just want to rest.
To stop all the tears.
I'm tired of trying.
Exhausted by all these years.
Leave me alone.
I'm nothing anymore.
Just an empty shell,
That's not worth crying for.
Don't call my name.
I don't exist.
She's weathered me away.
With word and fist.
I'll stop now.
You don't care.
I'm just a girl.
Caught in suicide's snare.
From now on,
I won't speak,
I won't try.
I won't be a freak.
I'll just fade.
slowly, till I'm gone.
So I won't be a bother.
So your life can carry on.
fast-forward through the goodbyesthis is the beginning of the endfast-forward through the goodbyes1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
“i know you,” he says.
and he looks defeated, he looks sad, he looks like
he's a boy who may one day realize how much
he cares for you, so you cut him off and say,
“minus all the secrets i don’t tell anyone.”
“well, yeah, minus those.”
“then you don’t know me at all.”
and then you tell him,
i love you. but you don’t use those words
because those are taboo. are jinxed.
are knock on wood three times fast.
instead you press him in a hug and say,
i’m sorry, knowing he won’t understand
that this is the first time you ever cared for something
enough to try and fix it after you hurt it.
you hope he doesn’t ever realize what you’re saying
and his response will always be ‘what for?’ because
if he figures out he loves you nothing changes.
he’s just going to be in love with a corpse, a memory,
a pair of trigger happy hands,
hope is a poisonous thingand i wishhope is a poisonous thing1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
from the bottom of my
that i'll find
that i hate
more than myself.
TruthBlood fed flower, beautiful yet so sour,Truth1 year ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
To wander with countless hours,
The sun rising spills grief with its rays,
There's always darkness to show the way.
Its hunger that opened my eyes to reality,
Not the abstinence of my desires,
This is perpetual, never ending,
Our freedom,We each our own gods of emptiness.
Mocking reality with the unfathomable perfect,
Nothing experienced or spoken is such a word,
Life itself, is the only gift given,
To hold truth in my arms, not perfection, is happiness.
I Am...I am an observer,I Am...1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I watch as you fall
and I won't make a move
to answer your call.
I am dishonest,
it has been since my smallest years
that I let my truth into others ears.
I am a composer,
of a great many lies
yet carry luck like a clover
I never break my disguise.
Through those heat filled faces surrounding me
I can just barely see
and sometimes I find nowhere to run
they take over me.
I am rarely awake with sun,
so that when everything slips undone,
I will not be exposed
I will always stay composed.
I keep my secrets like stars keep distance
burning bright beneath my skin
defining my existence
out of reach and filled with sin.
Never trust a word I say,
I lie to everyone every day
and this is the only time
I will admit
that I am unlike you in many ways.
Who I am is just this: a secret to hold
and I will show no one
no matter how bold.
Nightmares and MachinationsGods be damned of these curses,Nightmares and Machinations1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Curses of fiery hell and torment,
Torment unending, ceaseless;
Ceaseless in its pursuit of vengeance,
Vengeance of the dark machinations that plague my mind!
O devilish machinations that haunt,
Haunt me why, I ask not this fate,
Fate most sorrowful and in agony;
Agony night after night when I slumber,
Slumber I know not, only do I receive nightmares!
Nightmares of dread,
Dread in the vulnerable mind,
Mind, Soul and Body Ravaged;
Ravaged by the demons that dwell unseen,
Unseen who's intentions are most mischievous.
Mischievous nightmares who distort my memories,
Memories of my family now seen with corpses and blood,
Blood that stains my shaking perception of the world;
World gone mad with nuclear fire,
Fire and drive thy mind to insanity!
Yes, insanity is all that remains here,
Here in my ill-percieved visions,
Visions that damn me more and more as into them I peer;
Peer helplessly against my will,
Will sapped away as these nightmares am I forced to embra
You didn't dare.She smiled,You didn't dare.1 year ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
but it was fake.
but she's about to break.
She reached out,
but no one came,
tried to fake it,
but the pain stayed the same.
This girl, she called to you,
but you didn't care.
Something told you to help,
but you didn't dare.
What would the others say?
The ones who called her a freak.
They may taunt or shun you,
so you choose not to speak.
Then she decides to leave.
Because no one wants her here.
You'll never see her cry.
She'll never shed another tear.
Just Another ScarI deserve it.Just Another Scar1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Every single infliction.
Every single slit.
My secret addiction.
I'm trapped, wanting to be free,
My flaws, my helplessness,
Nothing's good in me.
I'm a bad person.
I don't try to be.
But everything just seems to worsen,
I'm a failure, can't you see?
Blade against skin,
Blood against wrist.
The cut ever so thin.
Tears I must resist.
A bit too deep, I've gone too far.
Another sin confessed.
It's just another scar.
Just another scar to add to the rest.
A ThoughtThe best art is madeA Thought1 year ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
By those who care not for fame,
But who love their craft.
In a perfect world,
The Bard's name is a secret,
But his tale is known.
The Honest FewThe lovers restrainedThe Honest Few1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Unfazed by the solitude they’ve gained
They instead nurture the soul of their bond
Whisking ones earnest emotion,
To where the words are also fond
Here’s to these honest few
At the helm of their romance
Fresh faced and new
Here’s to an age of foolish reluctance
Buttoned down by innocence
And adhering to its dominance
But I say to them, “Do what you must”
For a lover’s warmth can be taken in a gust
Unchain the verse that dwells within
And covet the silence, where your voyage may begin