We Are/You Aren'tWe are the unwanted, the broken
The ones you forgot about.
So don't be too surprised when we
Start to scream and shout.
We are the living, the dying
The ones you all put down.
But you'll know who we are when we
Run this goddamn town.
We are the corpses, the maggots
The ones you all despise.
But you'll be the ones scared when we
Expose all your lies.
We are the hunted, the lost
The ones you all spurn.
But you'll cry for our help when we
Leave you all to burn.
We are the losers, the winners
The ones that you deny.
But you'll be the ones damned when we
Hear the angels cry.
He/She/Her/HimI'd write a love songHe/She/Her/Him3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I've never really been in love,
Apart from with that girl and that guy
On that day I nearly touched the sky.
I like my best friend.
And it hurts like hell,
Yeah, it hurts like hell
Knowing I can't ever tell
Cos I'm me
And he's a she.
Life ItselfThe only time I smiled todayLife Itself3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Was when I thought of dying
And how good I am at lying
Each and every single day.
I've got a box of painkillers
They sleep right by my bed
For when all I see is red,
They'll numb it into darkest white.
I've tried talking to people,
But I can't word what I want to say
And maybe I like living this way,
Knowing that I'll die soon.
I know I'm self-destructive
My crosshatch skin screams it
But inside there's a little bit
That still aches to be saved.
I've tried before and I'll try again
To put my worthlessness away
But fate forced me to stay;
Death's a bitch like that.
Life makes me want to die
Yet it won't let me leave
Or grant me a reprieve
From that which it's made me hate;
Chained and ShamedNobody gets it.Chained and Shamed3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don’t want saving,
I don’t want ”friends”;
I just want all ends
To be met in red.
I hate how plain my skin is,
How it should be painted;
I’m the addiction’s harlot,
I do as it must dictate
And when it tells me to seal my bloody fate;
I bloody well will.
I’m too full of blood,
I need to let some out.
But know this isn’t a shout
This is me coping
With how I’m hoping
Nobody’ll care when I go.
Cutting isn’t for attention;
It’s for a brief suspension
Of everything else.
It is mine and I’m its,
It doing as I want
And I its slave
Until there’s nothing left to save.
I don’t fear death
Half as much as I do breath.
Because I’d be lying
If I said dying
Wasn’t on my list of things to do today.
Things I'll Never SayThere are certain things I’ll never say,Things I'll Never Say3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like how I thought about killing myself today
Just to keep my own scary thoughts away.
Like how I stay awake way too late
To be sure I don’t awake in a bloody state.
Like how I soaked white into red last night
And turned myself into a ghastly sight.
Like how it hurts too much to breathe
When I make my own skin seethe.
Like how I Google things I shouldn’t
When I want to do things I couldn’t.
Like how I’m scared of being alone
Yet I’m only happy when I’m on my own.
Like how I know I’ll wind up killing myself
And turn into just a dusty photo on a dusty shelf.
Like how I make myself bleed every day
Even though I know I can’t go on this way.
Like how I maybe want someone to see
And for them to somehow help me.
But nobody will ever help me,
Because those are all the things I’ll never say.
Looks LieI’m ugly and fatLooks Lie2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
But I can deal with that
‘Cause it means people like me for me;
Not for what they see.
To BurnI want to set my skin on fireTo Burn3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
With Death’s icy embrace.
I want to make my head stop
And my broken heart race.
I want to fade into black
Like fog over the sea.
I want to save them the bother
Of worrying about me.
I want to bleed myself white
Until I really am just a shell.
I want to miss out on heaven
Just to escape this cursed hell.
I want to see her face again
So I can tell her my regret.
I want her face to leave me
So that I can maybe forget.
I want my friends to be happy
But I stop that from being so.
I want to lose all control
And let the red blood flow.
I want to leave this place
And abandon all breath.
I want to do something right
And that something is death.
Red ScreamsSmiling at me, shiny silver teethRed Screams3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Begging my wrist
For one chaste
Grinning at me, that evil smirk
Making my heart pound
So sharp so
I know I
And really I
Arm’s too full of blood
From attempts to
Join the stars.
Photo album of
My diary of my
I am still
Cross My WristsCross my wrists and hope to die,Cross My Wrists3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I will only ever lie
When you ask me if I’m fine
Or if I like this life of mine.
If I had a gun,
I’d put it to my head
And turn bouncy blonde,
Into ruby red.
You want me to stop cutting;
I’ll stop when I’m dead.
The last time I’ll cut
Will be the last thing I see
When I finally put an end to me.
Dying sounds good right now,
Just fading into black
And never coming back
To the agony living brings.
Perhaps you’ll find me hanging,
Or after OD’ing;
Someday soon you’ll find me,
It’s too late now,
I’m too far gone.
Now I’m just a ghost
Of who could’ve been someone.
Being WeirdBeing WeirdBeing Weird3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm that odd kid
That sits at the back
That reads books and scribbles things in his notebook
That doesn't say much of anything
But get to know me and you'll find
I'm much stranger than that
Our family's dog
Is afraid of the dark
We tilt our couch at an angle
Because we like it that way
We stay up late
Launching a giant exercise ball at each other
With just our feet
I make worlds
In my head
And on paper
I think about others
More than I do myself
I'd rather talk than kiss
I've never met
My best friend
(He's from the internet, you see)
I lead some people
In one of those worlds I made
I love my family
All of them, all the time
We make stupid jokes
And are generally dorks together
I am weird, you see
As are my family
And most of my friends, too
Because who wants to be normal?
Normal is average
I don't want to be average
So you can imagine that
When people call me weird
I say thank you
Carry OnI like sharp things;Carry On3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The way they shine
The way they hurt
The way they leave a red line.
I like to bleed;
The way it's red
They way it hurts
The way it washes out what they said.
I like to live;
The way it's wrong
The way it hurts
The way it tells me that I am strong.
Venting in RedNow that I have the meansVenting in Red3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I know I could do it.
Because right now
I don't want to pull through it.
I don't have many friends,
And all things have ends.
A bloody blade will be mine,
Slicing me open one final time.
I only ever take,
I'll take my life
For everyone's sake;
My one selfless act.
I want to see silver,
Splattered with red.
I want to cease breathing;
I just want to be dead.
Another Fallen OneThere was a lady on telly today,Another Fallen One3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Talking from a land far away;
Her kid had died,
Torn apart from the inside.
The kid had hung herself in the family bathroom.
The lady was crying,
You could hear her heart dying
And mine did too.
I could've been that kid,
What with all the things I did
And my family could've been her;
Left with nothing but despair.
I envy the kid
For doing what she did.
I thank the kid,
Making me think about what I nearly did.
I mourn the kid,
Gone because of what others did.
Don't ever think you wouldn't be missed,
Because there's always that person
Who'll miss you,
Praying you'll pull through
Until memories of your smile is all they have.
Do As I Say, Not As I DoDo as I say,Do As I Say, Not As I Do2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Not as I do
'Cause I'd hate to see cuts
All over you.
They check my wrists
And think that I'm fine.
If they checked my hips,
They'd see many a line.
It's my hobby,
That thing that I do
No matter what though,
I pray you never do.
Because I am addicted to youBecause I am addicted to you3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My heart still beats like yours
I still remember that day
The pavements were wet
But there was no October rain.
You kept my soul between your paper-cuts
And took my kisses born in June
My soul is safe between your flesh
All of 27 grams belong to you.
And I pulled your shirt to my body
I found your lips on mine
Your fingers were in my hair
Your eyes whispered: "Forever thine".
The sheets were crumpling under us
I felt the weight of your body on me
You know my touches were begging:
"Honey,don't ever leave!"
You love me.
And make me smile.Everyday.
I didn't a thing.
You're here now,you chose to stay.
They tell me :
"This is not the way you should live"
But I have you for my own,
You're the brand upon my skin.
Delete NonetI like to delete parts of my life.Delete Nonet3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Memory here, an item there.
Fade them away to darkness.
Making room for the light.
The past can’t hold me.
I’m letting go.
Leave this WorldI will slit my wristsLeave this World3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to watch the blood fall to the floor
to end my life for good
and nobody cry a single tear
I will leave this world
pretend that I never existed
This life dont need me no more
I am better off gone from this world
I will slit my wrists
to ease the pain
I can't take the crying
I can't take this pain
There is no hope in this world
There is no reason to live
I will leave this world for good
Maybe someday I will be reborn
Autumn in RetrospectI became a truant in fourth grade; that may seem young, but no one was keeping an eye on me, my 'teacher' was a rotating face, and I didn't think education was all that important, especially the one I was getting. Multiplication and division hadn't been taught, the recently rebound social studies books ended at President Reagan, and while I could read and even liked to read, I didn't learn anything at school I couldn't learn at the library. The librarians were nicer than the subs, anyway, and the real teacher was on an extended pregnancy leave that she wasn't keen to come off of. I'm not sure, but I think she quit the next year.Autumn in Retrospect3 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
Papi went to work before the sun was in the sky, and Mami was seeing her girlfriend when he was away. After giving us each a slice of bread, she would kiss me, my sister, and my brother and say she was going to visit a friend. We all knew, even Raymond who was only five, that she came home with a brighter smile than a nice lunch warranted. I was the oldest, so
AnxietiesHands over ears, screams hide the tearsAnxieties3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like monsters, they stand around, eerie and cruel
Grotesque and uncontrolled
They drive me to the point of collapse
So I do.
I’m the ground
I shake and tremble and tear everything down
I am the ground
I don’t understand how anyone stays around me
When I’m like this
I’m like a stone
Rolling out of control
Loud and predictable, we all know where I’m going
Down, as sure as water, I will fall
And as a boulder, I will tear down everything in my path
ReminderJust a small reminder to NEVER, andReminder2 years ago in Personal More Like This
I mean NEVER, eat bread near an open
window without guards bECAUSE A
BIRD WILL FLY INTO UR HOME AND FKIN
FLY AROUND THE PLACE WITH MY GODDAMN
BREAD IN ITS MOUTH LIKE WHO DO U THINK
U R CUZ U R NOT GOD
FERN: THE BERD DTTHINKS ITS SO SWAG
i dont want pigeon nipple comments
cuz i swear i will send u a paragraph on
y i hate u and y u should get fked by
MadnessDid you hear that snap?Madness4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The sickening crunch
echoing through the room?
My heart just broke for you.
Have you noticed the red
dripping down the walls
and leaving trails behind?
Blood splattered from my gaping wounds.
Has is grown colder
in this padded cell
you forced my mind into?
I do believe it is a tad chilly.
Oh no, I think I'm shaking.
Why won't my hands stop quivering?
Maybe I'm just itching
to run off with your dreams.
Stop and stare at that glorious spectacle
of dancing shadows and lunging manikins.
Why are you crying?
Do these fairy tale images disturb you?
What that matter, deary?
Why has your face gone pale.
Oh, I forgot.
You're afraid of the dark.
Quiet, lovely, don't make a sound.
You wouldn't want to nightmares
to find you here,
now would you?
Stifle the screams
that are ripping through your throat.
Do you really want to ruin my fun?
This is all for you, my precious doll.
Don't mind the echoing voices
bouncing off the walls.
That's just my mind saying 'hello'.
It doesn't f
Desperately, I Grab Hold Of Something That (LT)On the day I tried to read UlyssesDesperately, I Grab Hold Of Something That (LT)3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
my feelings grew and shrank
in tempo with my horrid thoughts
(I couldn't decide what I truly want
in all the banality , in the all the mediocre ways
we hurt others).
You bought this book because I asked you to.
Now I can't read a page without seeing your face...
7 Deadly Sins: LustWith low cut dresses,7 Deadly Sins: Lust4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And sensual smiles,
She makes it known
That she is 'available'
She wears only revealing clothes,
Her one intention to tease.
Every man wants her.
Every girl wants to be her.
But while she is 'available'
She lets no man touch her.
She stings them along
Making false promises.
Giving out fake phone numbers,
And false names.
She is never seen in the same place twice,
Yet every man seems to have seen her.
The story is always the same though
For every man she visits
She leaves them
In a fit of lust.
anti-socialanti-social is the labelanti-social2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
with a meaning misconstrued,
and wildly overused
here before you, here i am
the real anti-social
and, frankly, i don't give a damn
i'm the wildest form of atypical
in this strange society's eyes
but its norms are far from normal
when we're built on nothing but lies
i've disowned almost every relative
that isn't already dead
i've found an inner circle of friends
that are my "family" instead
my relationships build over several conversations
and upon two simple words: honesty and respect
abide by those words and you'll see my best,
but don't screw me over, because i give what i get
with the internet spiderwebbing around the globe
there's supposed to be human connection
i've searched for a reason to care,
but all that i've seen is dissention
there's nothing wrong with not following society
but i can admit i find it unusual, too
that when you don't care to be in my circle
i won't car
Falling into Pieces1/17/09Falling into Pieces7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I never knew that I'm not perfect,
In your eyes.
Not from all the compliments you bestowed me,
Taught me to be confident even of the imperfections beyond the lies.
But they were never lies,
Of all the stories of our crying happiness,
In a world where never ending tears can be of love.
So I've learned,
To never trust.
But I still seem to be falling into pieces,
Whenever I just sit and stare at you.