We Are/You Aren'tWe are the unwanted, the broken
The ones you forgot about.
So don't be too surprised when we
Start to scream and shout.
We are the living, the dying
The ones you all put down.
But you'll know who we are when we
Run this goddamn town.
We are the corpses, the maggots
The ones you all despise.
But you'll be the ones scared when we
Expose all your lies.
We are the hunted, the lost
The ones you all spurn.
But you'll cry for our help when we
Leave you all to burn.
We are the losers, the winners
The ones that you deny.
But you'll be the ones damned when we
Hear the angels cry.
Phan- Miserable At BestTitle: Phan- Miserable At BestPhan- Miserable At Best2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Author Note: sorry I haven't been on I have issues!._.
I like Dan's POV, but I'm not sure about Phil's. I still wanted to put it up anyway, tell me what you think. If I should keep it like this, or put Phil's in another deviantion?
Based on the song Miserable At Best by Mayday Parade - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ok2tZ9oWMRM
I remember seeing you walk out the apartment. Only 7 days ago. Our apartment, for one of the last times. You're only going to Florida. Only Florida... pft, that's like saying you're only going down the road, but you are. You won't be long, but it feels like you're a thousand miles away. You're meeting your boyfriend out there. A small jealous part of me is wishing long distance wouldn't work. I guess being a YouTuber has its plus'. For you anyway. Making nights, and having the time of your life. Meeting fans, and holding your boyfriends hand.
Hospital - Phan"Please let me see Phil?" Dan begged the nurse, his voice cracking from the effort of not bursting into tears.Hospital - Phan2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
"Okay, for a few minutes, but I must warn you that Philip-" the nurse replied, but Dan never heard what Phil was as he'd already taken off down the complicated maze of corridors to see the person that meant more to him than the whole world. Dan slowed down as he reached Phil's room and walked steadily in. Phil was lying on the his back, staring at the ceiling, his face and arms covered in bruises and cuts, various tubes and wires coming in and out of his body.
"Phil…" Dan whispered, a single tear dripping down his tan cheek. Phil's eyes moved over to the door and a slight frown came onto his face. Delighted at getting a response from his boyfriend, Dan went over to sit in the chair beside Phil's bed.
"How are you feeling?" Dan asked softly, brushing some hair out of Phil's eyes.
"I ache." Phil mumbled.
"Well they've arrested the man that knocked you down love." Dan explained,
Wolf ~ AmazingSkies (Part 1)Title: WolfWolf ~ AmazingSkies (Part 1)2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Pairing: AmazingSkies (AmazingPhil/charlieskies)
Rating: You'll always have to decide for yourself.
Author's Notes: This is the continuation of the "Untitled ~ Phan (Prologue)" which I posted a while back but I'm making it an amazingskies thing because I want to. If you like, you can always pretend it's Dan (but Charlie is also perfect so~)
Walking home alone was not something Phil enjoyed. He hated being alone, finding the isolation completely terrifying. Of course, he knew it was just his paranoia and discomfort when presented with open spaces getting the better of him. Nothing was going to happen, not here. Still, he couldn't help but feel he was being watched as he padded along the near deserted streets of London. It wasn't particularly late but the relentless rain which was soaking him to the bone kept most people in the warmth of their homes. The road beside him, however, was clogged with
When Two Are One 12 Heartbeats raced. Time ticked. All were set in stone. One dashed at the speed of light. One screamed in utmost terror. One had his feet glued to the ground, making no sudden movements as the sharp tip zoomed in his vision.When Two Are One 122 years ago in Drama More Like This
Ba-dump ba-dump ba-dump BA-DUMP…!
Everything happened in a blink of an eye. Before the sword could pierce between N’s eyes, someone bumped into Isaac, causing him to crash and release his weapon. The Samurott landed and rolled a few paces to the left. Dizziness swept his mind, making him flinch as he hopped back to his feet. Anger sipped into his brain, lips pulling to a snarl at the attacker that stopped him.
However, all of it became pure shock to see the Pokémon that halted him. ‘Marcus what the hell?!’
Marcus stood on all fours in front of N. He stooped his front half, ears lowered and mouth breathing
We're All A Little Messed Up - Phan - Chapter 3Phil’s POVWe're All A Little Messed Up - Phan - Chapter 32 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
I can’t really say that I was surprised that the four of us didn’t talk much the next few days. It was quite shocking hearing that we all had problems that hurt so badly. I guess we all needed time for it to sink in. I felt bad for PJ the most, honestly. He was the one with the massive imagination and the tendency to over think every scenario to the worst outcome. I was pretty bad with that too, but not as bad as PJ made it seem his was, and he hardly ever exaggerates. If I was sitting here right now, thinking that there’s a possibility right now that Dan could be dead without us, PJ is probably thinking that too.
It’s amazing to think about, actually. That you could’ve saved a person’s life by being their friend. I mean, there’s no guarantee that Dan would’ve killed himself if we weren’t there, but it seemed a lot more likely. With us, he has a reason to stay here, before he didn’t. All he has lef
Phan: 'I've Got Starbucks'Title: Phan: "I've Got Starbucks!"Phan: 'I've Got Starbucks'2 years ago in Romance More Like This
Warnings: none, just major fluff
This has been heavily edited because its shit, and
Dear, :iconxxdidgeridooxx: (http://xxdidgeridooxx.deviantart.com/)
I am so very sorry this has come a day late but I hope you had the best of birthdays and I hope you got everything you ever wanted.
I love you and you're amazing, and talented.
Hope you enjoy:')
I snuggled up in myself, London seemed to be so much colder than Manchester but that could be because I wasn't with Phil right now. Phil always seemed to warm me up. I missed Manchester a lot. Sometimes I wished he could go back, but it's nice in London. I guess it would just grow on me. Eventually. I quickly pulled his headphones out and played My Chemical Romance on full blast. I love the feeling of the music surrounding me. Dragging my hands up and down the
We're All A Little Messed Up - Phan - Chapter OneIt was one of the warmest days we had all month. It was September, so it really wasn’t all that warm at all, 16 degrees at the highest, when I first noticed one of Dan’s scars. Dan always wore long sleeved shirts, so I can’t say I was a ‘horrible friend’ for not seeing it. I mean, I could’ve seen signs, but I’d never been in a situation like that ever before, so I didn’t even know what the signs were . But that doesn’t make me feel any less horrible. My best friend was suffering and none of us even knew. In fact, we were all suffering and we didn’t even know.We're All A Little Messed Up - Phan - Chapter One2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
That one day, he rolled his sleeve up to about his mid forearm because it was a little hot in our school cafeteria. It had no air conditioning because it was ‘too expensive’, but I think it’d because the school enjoys watching us suffer even more. Dan started to doodle in his notebook. It wouldn’t mention it, but the boy he drew repe
We're All A Little Messed Up - Phan - Prologue Dan, Chris, PJ and Phil have been friends for around a year now. It all started in their second semester of their ninth grade year. They were all outcasts, loners, the quiet kid, whatever you wanted to call them. They basically sat in silence at the back of the class for 75 minutes, four times a day. not even including a 40 minute lunch break. They all got pretty lonely. They acknowledged the others existence, so that was different. Somewhere along the lines, they figured, 'why not try to be nice to the other quiet kid. At least he seems nice.' and started talking. Instant friendship.We're All A Little Messed Up - Phan - Prologue2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Although it hasn't been that long, they've become extremely close. They told each other so much. From the girls they fancied to the colour of their boxers they were wearing. They knew almost everything about each other.
They all had these little things they couldn't tell the others, afraid of what they'd say. Maybe they'd leave, and be completely alone once again.
Wolf ~ AmazingSkies (Part 3)Title: WolfWolf ~ AmazingSkies (Part 3)2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Pairing: AmazingSkies (AmazingPhil/charlieskies)
Author's Notes: It's short and needs edited. I am sorry.
Charlie's breath caught in his throat. So that was why Phil was in so much pain; he'd been stabbed somewhere. Oh God. Why did people even carry knives anyway? They were all stupid. With no further words, he untangled Phil's arms from around his torso and stood, pulling Phil up after him, ignoring his cries of pain. If he'd been stabbed, he needed to get him to hospital as quickly as possible. Considering how close they were, it would be just as quick carrying Phil there as waiting for an ambulance. And they set off again, the pace much quicker this time, meaning Phil was jolted around in Charlie's arms until the pain was almost unbearable.
"Where did he hurt you, Phil?" Charlie whispered as he walked, wincing every time he had to boost Phil up a little as it clearly hurt him. He
Wolf ~ AmazingSkies (Part 2)Title: WolfWolf ~ AmazingSkies (Part 2)2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Pairing: AmazingSkies (AmazingPhil/charlieskies)
Rating: I'm going with 12+ because people younger than 12 probably don't even read fanfiction.
Author's Notes: In The Description
Drying his teary eyes, Phil drew his knees up onto the bench with him and hugged them close, trying to maintain some form of warmth. He hadn't bothered to take shelter, already too cold to feel anything but pain. He hadn't even refastened his belt properly. He sniffled and buried his head in the gap between his legs, making a vain attempt to stem the fresh flow of tears which had surfaced. All he wanted was for Charlie to get here already. He'd described the place as best he could and Charlie knew his route to and from Uni as well as he did. Where was he? Exhausted and shivering, he let his eyes droop shut and tried desperately to slip into a dream land where the past few hours had been nothing but a nightmare.
Too BigTitle: Too BigToo Big2 years ago in Drama More Like This
Genre: Angst. Pure angst. Mostly. Whee.
Rating: Well uh none really needed for once
Pairing: Jean Hobbs (OMFGitsjackanddean)
Warnings: I think it's kind of sad but that's just me.
Disclaimer: I do not own OMFGitsjackanddean or Dean Dobbs or Jack Howard or anything okay. And this is fictional.
A/N: I was kind of feeling down the day I started writing this, so I decided to make it angsty. Kind of stereotypical angst, but I tried. I hope you enjoy.
Dean stepped out of the shower, his dark hair plastered to his forehead and falling into his eyes. He reached for a towel, using it to roughly dry his messy hair before pulling it off of his head. He paused, bit his lower lip, then stretched up on his tiptoes to wipe the steam off the mirror before staring glumly at his reflection,
He was so.... pudgy. Like, not in a cute way, either. He was past the point of being able to blame it on baby fat, too. There was no longer an excuse to hide behind.
His hips we
Wolf ~ AmazingSkies (Part 4)Title: WolfWolf ~ AmazingSkies (Part 4)2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Pairing: AmazingSkies (AmazingPhil/charlieskies)
Rating: Did I put a rating on this? Um.
Author's Notes: I'm sorry this has taken me so long.
The hospital smelled of dentist gloves and antiseptic wipes, far from a pleasant aroma but suited to its location. A&E smelled the worst by far, what with various intoxicated men sporting the foul stench of alcohol. Aside from the smell, it was terrifying to be sat in a waiting room where anyone was free to walk in. Phil listened to every conversation, convinced the next voice he heard would be that of his rapist. He examined every male face carefully though he had know way of identifying the man who had abused him as he had not seen his face. Sniffling slightly, he burrowed into Charlie's side to disguise the small tears sticking to his cheeks and clung tight to his hand like his life depended on it.
Charlie did his best to comfort him but he was
Beside You - PhanAre you surprised we fought? I’m not, it’s happened too often now to be shocked. It’s all my fault, yet again. But you know I get worried so easily; worried I’ll lose you. It was that stupid text that started it all, I just had to see it after I got a glimpse of the name. Kelly. I assumed it was your ex-girlfriend, Kelly. The one that hates my guts because you chose me over her, Kelly. As I glanced at your phone and saw the message,Beside You - Phan2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
“Your boyfriend won’t find out, trust me.”
Obviously, I thought you had been cheating on me. In my defense, if you looked at my phone and someone sent me that, you would’ve thought it, too. I was too angry to even look through the rest of the messages. My eyes started to dampen as tears threatened to spill. I sulked to our room where I knew you'd be and whipped the door open. "How could you?!" I screamed, although there were no tears yet, you could hear it in my voice I was about to sta
When Two Are One 13 “Well, that was easy as pie. Don’t you think, Dex?” White stretched her arms as she walked out of the gym. Dexter happily trotted by her side, neighing in pride at his splendid victory. Though her back still ached from the numerous blasts of cannons she had to endure, the glistening Mistralton badge pinned inside her vest made her forget all the soreness. Radiating a proud smile, White patted Dexter’s head, earning her a loving whine.When Two Are One 132 years ago in Humor More Like This
That voice. That stoic, cold voice that brought an unpleasant shiver down her spine. It whistled through hear ears; entering right and exiting left. Her patting stopped, fingers twitching to a half-clench. Her teeth lightly dug the insides of her lower lip, stifling a nasty growl of discontent.
She heard a low murmur, Dexter comforting her as he sensed White’s fume. With eyes closed, she took one deep breath. As she turned her heel, her eyes were opened and a forced s
Trees ~ PhanTitle: Trees (oh, how very unimaginitive)Trees ~ Phan2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Pairing: Phan (AmazingPhil/danisnotonfire)
Rating: Any Age
Warnings: Do not read if you watched the Blair Witch Project when you were nine and have been permanently scarred with a phobia of trees.
Author's Notes: In The Description
"No, I don't want to." Dan whimpered, grasping Phil's hand tight to prevent any crashes. Of all the things he didn't want to bump into ever, this was top of his list. "Please, let's go home."
Phil shook his head, not that Dan could see him anyway with his eyes squeezed shut, and chuckled softly. Dan huffed and made an attempt to push Phil away from him before remembering where they were and clutching at him again as though his life depended on it. Immediately feeling awful, Phil tried to regain his credibility as a caring best friend by pulling him into a hug. He couldn't help but find it strange that Dan had never shown any signs of this f
NumbersHe told me that he wanted to die because nobody loved him. And that was a really excellent opportunity for me to say, “I do, Phil,” and show him just how much I meant it. And maybe it would have been a good idea to say those words. Or if not those, then three different ones.Numbers2 years ago in Romance More Like This
Instead I told him there were plenty of people who loved him and I gave him subscriber counts and went on his Tumblr and showed him his followers and I opened up Twitter and showed those numbers too in the hopes of convincing him that there are so many people in the world love Phil, but I don’t think I was very convincing. Actually, I know I wasn’t very convincing.
When I woke up the next morning there was no Phil anymore. Instead, there was a bathtub full of blood and a pair of wide, vacant blue eyes staring lifelessly at me.
He didn’t want me to show him numbers. He wanted to know there was someone in the world that loved him—Ph
Thank you Dan, I love you.It was Tuesday when it happened. A Tuesday of all days: you've already started the week so there's no backing out, but you've still got loads of days to go.Thank you Dan, I love you.2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
On the Tuesday when it happened it was dark, gloomy and raining, so of course I was rushing to get home and out of the weather. I think that's why I didn't notice who grabbed me, I wasn't paying attention. I only know it was a male from what they did to me. I have no recollection of the person's face, but I remember what they did to me so vividly and I wish I didn't. I walked past an alleyway and that's where they came from and dragged me back to. A dark and dingy litter strewn alley. They grabbed me by my jacket and threw me into the alley. I stumbled and stopped myself from falling flat on my face by grabbing at the rough wall that surrounded me. I should have ran, I should have ran and made as much noise as I could, attracted some attention and I should have got myself out of there. But I didn't, I was a stupid, scared idiot, wh
If These Sheets Were The States ~ ErethErin sighed, throwing herself over to lie on her other side, his arm tucked up under her pillow. She glanced at her clock, drawing out a groan for longer than necessary when she saw it was outrageously early; and she still hadn't slept. She just couldn't clear her head, thoughts of her girlfriend whirring around inside. She wondered exactly what Beth was doing right then. Was she awake too, thinking the same thoughts? Probably not, but it was worth a shot, right? Somewhat reluctant to leave the warmth of the bed sheets, she wriggled around in bed and reached for her phone, hoping she could reach the desk under her window without having to face the cold air of her bedroom. No such luck. Instead of simply standing up and getting her phone from its spot by her laptop, she opted for worming her way across the carpet with her feet still tangled in the covers. Technically, this counted as not getting up.If These Sheets Were The States ~ Ereth2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
With great difficulty, she managed to get back under the covers - phone successfully ret
Fourth drink instinct phan A slight, tanned boy sits Slumped over the sticky bar, hands wrapped around a pint glass. His eyes are teary as he stares blankly to the side, at an old, tattered bulletin last updated before the last bartender died. Well, once afterwards, but that was just a letter looking for a middle-aged man with a shiny bald head fine for working on minimum pay, a man who would sit around in an itchy black polo shirt from 2pm every day 'till late simply serving what Dan, and the Others, believed to be their vice.Fourth drink instinct phan2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
He's teary because he doesn't want to know he's not thinking.
He's really trying not to speak to any more girls. Or men. They're gonna try so hard, he knows that, just to talk, maybe get a messy handjob just outside the spilling bins just outside of the fire escape. But he knows, he knows so much more than he wants to, he's here every day, every day except Wednesdays, because Wednesday is family night.
He's underage and so very, very brave. He'd use the same fake ID every night, but h
We're All A Little Messed Up - Phan - Chapter TwoDan's POVWe're All A Little Messed Up - Phan - Chapter Two2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
"I'm bulimic, Dan." Phil breathed. Those words changed everything for me. To know that Phil was suffering, precious little Phil, hurt me more than this illness ever could. "No, Phil, why?" I asked him. By this point we were completely ignoring Chris and PJ, although they were watching us like we were in a film. "I'm fat. I'm not good enough. I hate myself so much I'm willing to destroy myself, just to be thin. If I'm thin, maybe I'd be attractive." He spoke softly, his voice laced with want. “And if I’m still not attractive, I can always hope it kills me.” “Phil stop, please. Stop saying all of this. You are not in any way fat. You can’t weigh more than 115lbs, which is around average for your height, you know.” I told him. I felt at fault for this, although I knew it wasn’t me. But I always found a way to blame myself. It’s always me.
Phil took a deep breath before saying these next words, eyes closed, as i
Ghosts In The Machine Pt 6Author: virtually-uniqueGhosts In The Machine Pt 62 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Warnings: mental institutions, smoking, references to bad stuff.
Author's Note: I do not own Dan and Phil or Alex or Charlie or anyone in this little universe. None of this actually happened.
"Phil, it's nice to meet you," a middle-aged man stands up, holding his hand out to you. You shake it gingerly, your hands are sweating. You're tired already. The man has puffy hair, brushed into three parts. And by puffy – you mean puffy puffy. Like, exploding everywhere puffy. He has strange, shocked-looking eyebrows, and you think Dan would be willing to use him as a practice model for in the future plucking his own eyebrows. You snigger to yourself, hiding it with a splutter. "My name's Dr John Green, I'll be your councillor, therapist, whatever you wish to call it, until you leave here to live a rich and successful life."
"Great," you say. He gestures to a seat opposite his desk. There are an array of watercolour posters and photos on
The Horse's Mouth - Chapter 1A/N: For those who don't understand the title, 'Straight from the horse's mouth' is an idiom used to mean that something must be true. I'm not sure that I'm happy with it, so I might change it at some point, but for now I can't think of anything better. This is probably going to be long, and I know that I'm absolutely awful at updating, but I'll do my best to get better. I'm really proud of the idea for this fic and yeah. I hope you enjoy it.The Horse's Mouth - Chapter 12 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Phil carefully brushed the mare's coat, applying the right amount of pressure to effectively brush off as many stray hairs as possible. The brush felt warm in his hand and he liked the sensation, especially when coupled with the smell of the fresh hay and the distinct scent that was horse. Sidestepping to avoid the shake of her head, he chuckled as the relatively young horse let out a sneeze, patting her nose affectionately. Nostrils flaring, she nudged his shoulder softly, and in turn he rubbed her long neck, marvelling at how smooth her coat was