Living with Manic DepressionJanuary 25, 2013
I'm dating this because I want to be able to look back on it in the future to see if anything has changed for better or for worse. I know there are a lot of you who don't know what's going on with me, or don't quite understand it, but that's why I'm writing this. Sometimes you'll ask yourself, "why did Reitanna say this?" or "why does Reitanna feel so down?" "What happened to Reitanna?" Well, I'm about to tell you in length what is going on. People who read this who have the same thing will understand completely. People with nothing like it will be confused and sort of scared. It's a natural feeling. But after everything, I'm not ashamed to admit that I have Manic Depressive Disorder.
Manic Depression and Bipolar Disorder are the same thing. However, I like to refer to it as Manic Depressive Disorder because a lot of times, people (including me) will use the word "bipolar" as a joke, like when I say, "the weather in Southern California is almost as bipolar as I am." Wh
ReitannismsReitannite- deticated fan to Reitanna SeishinReitannisms3 years ago in Profiles More Like This
Anti-Reitannite- someone who hates Reitanna for whatever reason
Salmon Smack- the act of hitting someone with a salmon, preferably a live salmon
"Sucking harder than sucking itself"- it really fucking sucks
"Sweetness with a side of AWESOME"- it's really fucking awesome
bonerific- terrific, originally from family guy, i just say it sometimes
fallopian tubular- tubular
frack (frackin)- fuck (fuckin)
holy shitsnacks- holy shit, originally from archer
jeez luiz papa cheese- jesus christ
tarsh cran- trash can
orange juoce (joo-ah-s)- orange juice
DA FOCK?- what the fuck?
HABLARBERMASH!!- a generic outburst or jeer that should be exclaimed at random points in time
holy carp- holy crap
holy crapsticks- holy crap
coolness- cool (not very original, i just say it a lot)
awesomeness- awesome (again, just say it
UtopiaI could be executed for writing this. Hell, they'd probably throw me in prison just for catching me with a pen and paper. But I have to get this down... I know it's only a matter of time before they realize that I'm a free thinker... and then they'll make sure I never existed.Utopia2 years ago in Philosophical More Like This
Ten years ago, the entire world changed. They had been building up to this point, and they were incredibly successful. I saw it comiand I tried my best to tell people that this isn't how we want to live. We don't want to be controlled... but they were already brainwashed.
The government showed their true colors. Libraries and theatres were torn down, artwork and historical artifacts were burned to ashes, and the world's most renowned musicians were gunned down like animals. Oh yea... the animals... you'd be lucky to even find a picture of one, let alone a real one.
Anyone caught with any sort of art, music, unorthodox clothing, stuffed animals, books, religious practice... anything that made someone individual...
This KnifeThis knife. I've been staring at it for nearly an hour as I sit here on my bed. The bruise on my left eye throbs, and there's a stinging on my leg from the large scrape running down it, my jeans soaked with blood and dirty water. My shirt is ripped, blood staining the tear from the slash on my collar bone... and I was fearful of when my mother found out that I "lost" my bookbag.This Knife2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
When really, it was taken from me.
Torture. Endless torture. It's the same thing every day from the same group of kids. Why do they attack me? What did I do wrong? I get good grades, I've never stolen, I've never abused drugs... I'm a good kid...
This knife. Just... one little puncture... and it'd all end... my suffering, my torment, my misery... and then they'd be happy. They'd be happy that I was finally gone... out of their lives... because I must've just been a terrible burden on them...
I raise the knife slowly to my jugular... the blade presses on the skin, and I'm ready to cut open my own throat..
The Real YouDay after day, you busy yourself with things that you enjoy, hobbies that make you content, spend time with people who make you laugh. Your friends see you smile and love the sunshine it brings to them, and you yourself are glad you could give them happiness. They see you as someone to turn to when they need to be reminded that life isn't so bad, that there is a way to express joy through the hard times, and they thank you for helping them, even though it seems like you were doing nothing but being yourself. But it was being yourself that spread those smiles to others, wasn't it? A chain reaction caused by the simple act of your own face preforming the ever so contagious grin. They see you as carefree, jubilant, energetic, and nothing seems to bother you. You love when people tell you you've made them smile, and it makes you smile, glad to know that you brought them happiness.The Real You9 months ago in Emotional More Like This
Then you remember who you really are. You remember that they've never seen the real you. You remember that the
Remember when I Died?Remember when I died? No, probably not. As you stood there laughing in my face, pushing and shoving me, telling me everything that was wrong with me... I fell. I fell hard. I've fallen before, but when I fall that hard...Remember when I Died?2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
I wasn't me anymore.
Breaking down and crying, your laughter increased, and you called upon others to join you. It's fun to see someone cry, fun to see their world being torn apart, fun to have nothing more to live fo--
Where did that knife come from? Was I carrying it around with me? Did you have it? Who knows... I don't remember. But it's on you. My blood is on your hands.
But you're happy now. You're happy I'm gone. You're all happy I'm gone. I'm just sad I didn't get a chance to write my suicide letter. Hmm, you'd probably laugh at that too. Because I'm so funny. Because my pain is so funny. Because my death is so funny.
What about my friends? Are they sad I'm gone? Of course not. No one can be trusted. Everyone will betray their most loyal friends. People
A Best FriendA good friend will be there for you when you cry.A Best Friend2 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
A best friend will be there crying with you.
A good friend will keep your secret if you murder someone.
A best friend will have been your accomplice.
A good friend will let you commit suicide.
A best friend will be holding your hand as they jump in front of a train with you.
A good friend will mourn for you if you die before them.
A best friend will follow you.
A good friend will be at your execution to say goodbye.
A best friend will be in a second electric chair right next to you.
A good friend will say it's not a good idea to throw that explosive into the powerplant that's destroying natural habitat.
A best friend will count down to three, giving you the signal to throw it.
A good friend will ignore the fact that you kidnapped someone to torture.
A best friend will provide the chloroform.
A good friend will yell at your ex for breaking up with you.
A best friend will murder them
Summary of Encephalonencephalon is a world very different from earth. there are four quadrants; smilesville, wayward city, clearwater park, and unknown. each quadrant as their own laws, inhabitants, culture, creatures, and atmosphere.Summary of Encephalon1 year ago in Settings More Like This
sky: the darkest of red with jet black clouds. night and day are no different. the only weather change is when it rains... if it rains, you better stay in your house, especially if you're an Other.
rain: appears to be blood, which isn't uncommon in the city, but the rain is a sign of danger. if it starts to rain, get inside a building and lock AND block all entrances and windows, especially if you're an Other (as mentioned above). the reason is, when it rains, it summons a swarm of very strange and frightening spirits unlike anyone has ever seen. they're called collectors, and are said to come from hell itself. they wear black cloaks, resembling dementors from harry potter, except they can only hover a few inches off the ground. their hoods never come down, and
Honesty is a CrimeHonesty is a crime.Honesty is a Crime1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tell people you're sad,
You're crying out for attention.
Tell people you're angry,
You're a threat to others.
You say you're not afraid of death,
You think you're the shit.
Honesty is a crime.
If you have beliefs,
You're out of your mind.
If you love gore,
You're a sociopath.
If you have a disorder,
Everyone should pity you.
Honesty is a crime.
It's not okay to be sad.
It's unacceptable to be angry.
It's impossible to not fear death.
You can't show emotion
Because you're craving sympathy.
Give me attention,
For I am human,
And I am so very special.
'One Hour Sonic' Official RulesWelcome to the 'One Hour Sonic' challenge!'One Hour Sonic' Official Rules4 years ago in Personal More Like This
This is a forum where fan artists of 'Sonic the Hedgehog' take initiative in seeing an improvement on their drawings over multiple OHS exercises. One Hour Sonic consists of artists participating in a ONE HOUR exercise of drawing a Sonic fan art piece of any shape, form, depth or concept whilst following rules as outlined below:
Rules to the 'One Hour Sonic' challenge
Use any graphics software of your choice (Adobe Photoshop, Paint Tool SAI, Open Canvas). Go for a horizontally (900 x 720px) or vertically (600 x 800px) aligned canvas. If you got a screen recording program (e.g. Camtasia Studios), open that up and get ready to capture your exercise in real-time.
Go to Online Stopwatch to use as your official timer for the exercise. When you're ready to go press 'record' (on your screen recording program) and 'start'
Drawing Contest OPENHello there!:3Drawing Contest OPEN2 years ago in Personal More Like This
I'm still on hiatus, but I felt like starting the contest, hoho. :iconlazycryplz:
My Oc Pastel
MintoLen's Oc Tora
You may draw them together, or only
draw one of them.
No mature content, please.
You can choose which of them you draw, but I would be very happy about pictures of them together!
You may change their outfits. (If they are on the beach, for example.)
the contest will end on May the 15th.
(there are a lot ;////; )
Good luck and have fun.<3
Edit: you also may draw Pastel in her alternate outfit http://sta.sh/013wqwwgw1kn
DD for some of you :)Hi!DD for some of you :)3 years ago in Personal More Like This
At first, there is a new kiriban: catch my 955 555 pageviews and send me a printscreen via note as a proof to win a feature
No feature for animal cruelty or porn, thanks for understanding.
At second, no, I did not get any DD (only one - bur many years ago buhhehehhehe )
But I have suggested many deviations for DD and I was disappointed when I got no reply and those deviations have not been accepted I think some of those artists created absolutely incredible work and they definitely deserve more attention.
Today, I will show you some of the deviations I have suggested (or plan to suggest) for DD, but which have not been noticed or accepted by admins, which made me really sad and disappointed. DA has some rules for featuring a deviation as a DD, it says that suggested artist should not have a DD yet, it should not be very famous artist and it should include some info about a subject in the descriptions. Those artists followed the rules, but their art has not
Woxys posting non original stuff? The truthHi!Woxys posting non original stuff? The truth3 years ago in Personal More Like This
At first, there is a new kiriban: it is 910 000 catch it and send me a printscreen via note to win a feature
(no feature for porn or animal cruelty)
At second, Kelly wrote a journal about our meeting in Vienna: http://shadow-and-flame-86.deviantart.com/journal/Back-from-Vienna-330878338#comments
At third, sorry for very tabloid-like title of this journal
But yes, it is true
Today, I post photos, which do not belong to me - they were taken by my parents during their visit in Georgia they allowed me to share them, because I would like to show you that wonderful and wild nature!
By the way, do you know there are even leopards and hyenas living in Georgia? Wow!
Photos from Georgia (taken by my parents)