AN INVALID SUICIDE -------AN INVALID SUICIDE -------12 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My communication failed this morning.
Today I woke up, and my five senses washed away,
on it`s own shore.
Today I woke up, with two bands around my wrist,
with little blood showing through.
It wasn't your fault that my suicide note was
messy, misunderstood, not even read.
Today my insanity kept me alive, to witness more of
life`s wonder miracles. . . of keeping me alive.
My own knowledge made me realize that killing myself,
and staying alive would just be as stupid as killing,
myself and ending up dead.
Knowledge has informed me that you actually care. . .
If I die or live. . .
Live of die.
Today I woke up in a hospital bed,
realizing that I had done the biggest mistake that I could
have ever made.
The following contained :
1. A Suicide note : white paper with no lines, faded out pencil,
misspelled words, a frail sloppy signature.
My communication died this morning.
My suicide note : Invalid
CUTTING YOU IN PIECES -----CUTTING YOU IN PIECES -----12 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Every inch of your body I could taste,
Every inch of your body I have tasted,
Love or Lust either way Is fine with me,
As long as I hold you in my arms again.
Or at least this last time.
Would you like to be a memory or be mine?
Would you like to stay or go?
Step by step I watch you hold your light,
Get me through this heartache and pain,
Set me free with your gentle touch.
Then watch me cut your fucking throat out,
As I drive the knife through your heart..
which now belongs to me. Why should I let
you live? For you to live is for me to die.
For you to love again is for me to hate.
Don't you fucking leave me again,
Don't you fucking speak, As I lay you
down on the ground you seem so innocent,
How could I have known you were a disgusting,
Trust me baby, It is better this way.
Why would you want to keep going?
Please tell me my love, My god..
How could I have loved you!
Stop begging, Whores love to beg,
I don't have a dick so stop begging.
Please stop..your making me