Please read.Back whenever I started hitting the front page of DeviantArt, abit after I'd turned fourteen I admit that my ego popped up a notch. And not just one, mind you. No I was both surprised and in awe that some kid like me could end up taking up space in a place where only masterpieces and loved pieces were seen. And honestly, it stuck out like a sore thumb because seriously, My art isn't that good. I was blindfolded by pride in belief that I could actually go somewhere with what I had. But after awhile, pressure began to set in and I felt that more was expected of me and I couldn't meet those expectations. I'd never been exposed to constructive or negative criticism before that point; so I admit full heartedly that I acted out of line and childishly. Which led to people being angry and hurt by my stupidity, and I am sorry. It should have never happened, and I promise that it won't ever again.Please read.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
So as time pressed on, I began to get desperate,
pupSo last night we brought Jedi (my new puppy home) ~Shark-Bites was over and got to spend a bit of time with her too last night, which was nice.pup11 months ago in Personal More Like This
I got to spend my whole weekend with him with was really nice and defs needed.
I held her in the car during the drive home and she was very snuggly with me ouo
Then for most of the night she wouldn't leave my side, she was so scared ans shaky at our house.. it's all new and her old family is gone :c
The night was good though, to my suprise~ She slept in her carrier with some towels and a plush sheep to keep her company, and the crate was in my room so if she cried I could get up to deal with it.
Thankfull she didn't cry or whine at all, went into the crate and off to bed. No whining till about 8 this morning which is fine cuz that when I had to get up anyways ouo
maybe in the next couple days I'll upload a couple more pics or something ouo <3
music. help. again. QnQI have no more beautiful, emotional, happy, good, funny, angry, awesome.. or inspiring music to play. |Dmusic. help. again. QnQ1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I'm currently at a block with what to listen too.
You guys have helped me find most of the great music I play when I draw.
Help me again please?
Have any good songs you really like right now? or bands you listen too?
care to share? links? links please?
links for this poor soul? ;v;?
//i'm not pickyy i love everything.
My name.My name.My name.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
This is something that has been bothering me for a while now.
My name on Deviantart is Dorian (as you would know if you looked on my page)
Now i don't like openly talking about this because everyone has their different views on the world, though most people i know in real life/ and here on the internet are very open with who I am and what I'm about to go through.
/I actually don't think I've ever really said this officially by telling you guys... for the reasons of (1. I dislike having a lot of attention drawn to it and (2. because i have always had you people refer to me as a guy / male / boy / so it has never been a problem.
So to cut it a bit shorter (as most of you know)
I am a Trasman /or/ Transgendered // Gender identity disorder.
please don't ask me a million questions, but i am happy to help if anyone needs someone to talk to about it
I came out to my mom over seven months ago fully and now I am starting to get treatment for it.
SO THE REASON FOR POSTING ALL
AN UPDATE. C8AS ALWAYS LATELY. I'm sorry i've been so busy with stuff and haven't been posting like i used too.AN UPDATE. C810 months ago in Personal More Like This
But lots of stuff have been going on for me, spending time with Kodee, Lots of school work and getting ready to grad
AND I recently started Testosterone and have been busy with Doctors and things (I Don't like posting updates about that on Da but I have a tumblr blog about if for people that want to know--> http://shark-bites-adamstransition.tumblr.com/
this is it. -updated-So.. today is the day.this is it. -updated-1 year ago in Personal More Like This
THIS IS FUCKING IT,
I have just sent messages to BOTH my parents.. telling them that I am FtM Transgender.. Im terrified of how they will react.. and I cried a little sending those messages.
Please everyone send me good luck. please?
I cant do this alone and I need my parents.
I cant contain all my current feels right now guys..
Both parents have accepted me as I am and are willing to help and support me while I go through this change in my life.
I have an appointment with our family doctor in a couple weeks and I will be talking to her about this, and hopefully she'll refer me to a specialist and we can get going on the rest of my life :iconluvluvplz:
I am so excited and happy, There's really nothin that could break me right now, I feel invincible
My mom told me
" I'll be okay. We'll be okay. Your happiness is my main concern.
Always <3 "
and my step dad told me
I shouldn't be allowed IMsMe: fate doesn't exist :'uI shouldn't be allowed IMs11 months ago in Personal More Like This
Friend: well, you can't make people like you forever.
Me: you dont need to. People come and go ALL THE TIME in life, it's perfectly normal. It's the ones who stay that matter
Friend: that makes me feel better.
Me: it should
Me: I'm never gonna go :u no matter what
Me: we are tight like
Me: shiloh's ass-- //shot dead off the world over the stars and now lives on Pluto forever and ever
This journal does and doesn't belongOh my god I want one.This journal does and doesn't belong1 year ago in Personal More Like This
tumblrmemelifewhatdon'treadthisahh |Di was bored. whatever. meme. from tumblr. what am i doing with my lifetumblrmemelifewhatdon'treadthisahh |D1 year ago in Personal More Like This
A: Are you a virgin, and who did you loose it too?
nope. and uh... thats personal but kodee .__.
B: 3 biggest pet peeves
1. When people leave windows open at night (unless there is something pretty to look at) 2. When people in the house forget dishes in random places. 3. When i'm spending time with someone and they play on their phone every 5 seconds. 4. I have LOTS more but I don't want to come across as an OCD freak.
C: Celebrity crush?
Adam Lavine, Jony depp, Milla Jovovich, Tom hiddleston and Robert Downey Jr. (I can't even-) PRETTY MUCH EVERY ACTOR IN AVENGERS. JUST.
D: If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
I wouldn't have changed a thing.
E: Do you smoke?
attempted once. gross
F: Do you drink?
ehh... not very often
G: If you had to rank yourself on a scale of 1 to 10, what would you be?
oh god.... uh... what am i ra
Birthday:iconheaddeskplz:Birthday1 year ago in Personal More Like This
So two seconds ago I had written this big long journal about my birthday and what we did.. etc etc and a couple of the gifs I got.
And then my laptop did something n and it was gone and I really don't feel like re-typing it all. So I am going to sum it up as best as I can so you guys can still get the full affect!
A HUGE thank you to everyone for your lovely birthday comments and gitts! They just made my day all the better :iconluvluvplz:
I had a fabulous time with my family, a fabulous friend and of course my bby~
My friend gave me a copy of Totally Bizarre! Ripley's believe it or not! because she remembered my love for random facts.!
Dori drew a lovely card with us as Assassins from AC and made me an AWESOME clay charm of their logo for a necklace..
so now I run around my house wearing it all pro assassin like.. lol
I got a PsVita and gravity rush, I LOVE THE GAME SO MUCH! but I swear if i
I will be back SOON | Art Update | Contact info.ANOTHER UPDATE. but this time it's more relevant to Deviantart and all my watchers! Bonus with contact information such as Skype, Tumblr, and Furaffinity.I will be back SOON | Art Update | Contact info.10 months ago in Personal More Like This
Lets start with first things first! Art update.
Within the past while on my hiatus I ran into an FA user who commissioned me gratuitously and after much debacle over me doing a webcomic, I'm stepping down from that position so I can devote my time to personal work and my Job. I will be finishing my queue and then returning to Deviantart on posting.
• Hohle' refs
• Hohle' release and group activity
• Character references and concepts
• Possible comics
• MORE OCS FOREVER OCS I WILL DRAW OCS FOREVER I LOVE THEM ALL
though a catch to all this. I will not have my commissions open for a long time. and if I do so happen to open them sooner or later I will be doing SLOTS. Due to the fact I got hired onto a job that is 20 hour minimum a week, the last thing I want t
ALL THESE INNER THIGHSTitles.... :iconSuspfuplz: ...what are you.ALL THESE INNER THIGHS2 years ago in Personal More Like This
SO. I wanted to re-do last nights journal (because i was in a rush last night xD)
TO START OFF WITH:
I am almost done school 8'D //for the summer//
I just have to come in 2 more days then i'm done. ;w;
And i finished my planning 10 course i've been killing myself with for over a year. ~joyy~
Speaking of school i'm full of depressing/fucking awesome feels.
Kodee is grading this year ( Yay //
brain vs 17 vs me.Do you ever feel like your over thinking everything you say to someone? Like your trying to act "cool" but it just makes everything worse?brain vs 17 vs me.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
yeah ... me right now Q___Q
I remember doing this before to someone...
(whenever i have a fear of losing someone i love ....i over think everything i say... i act really awkward around them... i can't seem to talk to them without saying something dumb... just a whole self-destructive mess i turn into.
anyone know what i'm talking about?
if you do know what i'm talking about.. how did you get past it?
I have gotten past it before, just need to relax and open up to them again. Re-think the whole relatioship with the person and find some solid ground.
(i guess tell the person your feeling that way too... that helps.. you don't want them to not want to be around you or think that your changing when really your just confused.)
AUGH I'M SO CONFUSED.
Just over alot of things.... I need to get everything sorted out before i can be sane again.
rantI'm really getting sick of this bullshit.rant1 year ago in Personal More Like This
What is the goddamned point in watching someone if you're going to be an inactive lazy fuck.
Please tell me.
I'm getting no feedback FROM ANYONE.
It pisses me off to no end, do you not realize?
To those people in my poll that said they watch and run. Fucking unwatch me. Now.
I'm sick of working so damn hard on my work and getting no feedback.
I'm tired of being nice and in return receiving hate.
I'm tired of holding streams so I can talk to you guys.
I'm sick of it all.
If you never gave a shit about me in the first place then why did you waste your damn time watching. Seriously.
To all of you who give me feedback, who come into my streams, the 20 or so out of 186 who actually give a rat's ass about me and my art. I love you guys. I really do, and don't ever forget it. I'm always here if you ever need anything.
I'm seriously doubting about holding the stream Saturday.
rage?**WARNING WARNING. THIS IS A RANT. THINGS SAID IN THIS JOURNAL MAY OFFEND YOU, THIS JOURNAL DOES NOT APPLY TO MOST PEOPLE SO PLEASE DO NOT TAKE ANYTHING PERSONALLY. THIS IS A BITCHY RANT TO LET OUT SOME STEAM **rage?1 year ago in Personal More Like This
So more people bashing me. Yeah?
That's cool, except this time it actually really bothered me. Dunno why, but it did. Maybe it was because they involved Adam?
Maybe it was because they talked about what a beautiful girl I was.. or maybe it was because they repeated their opinion of it would ruin me.
Whatever it was. It pissed me off.
I don't remember if I posted it anywhere on DA.. but for awhile I was really upset because since my second semester started, I haven't made any new friends and don't have anyone to talk to and it was making me feel kinda lonely.
Well thanks to this person and this conversation.
I was reminded why I don't really like a LARGE majority of people.. and I kinda had some flashbacks from my younger years in highschool when I literally didn't give
last of the break.Well Kodee starts school tomorrow, thus ends our marathon of spending all that time together (I stayed at his place almost the whole break then he came here) I love spending all that time with him. I can never get enoughlast of the break.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Thats why I wasn't posting art like I said I would. Sorry bout' that.
Anyway....that was probs the best holiday I've had in years. ♥
And I probs won't be posting for afew more days because i'm going to be busy tonight, tomorrow, and the day after *A*
Friends trying to sqweesh the last bit of time out of the break with me.
i'll be back soon.
hope you guys are having / had a great break~ ouo
ITOOKYOURSHITSAll up and taken from :iconhenry-deer:ITOOKYOURSHITS1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Birthday: june 3rd 1995
School/Grade: grade 12. senior
Parents Still Together: nu.
Siblings: One demonic brother
Pets: a fish. :I
Drinker: not very offten.
-Hair Colour: Blackish red brown.
-Is it Dyed?: yup
-Eye colour: bright green hazleish :u
-Height: 5'5 ;A;
-Style: ...um.. i dono. but i always have skinny jeans on and a hoodie o:
-Glasses/Contacts/None?: Glasses and Contacts.
-Shoe size: 9
-Piercings: yup. getting more.
-Want More?: YES i do :I
-Tattoos?: getting someday
-Want More?: yes i do..i just said that xD
-Overall Best Feature?: ... i don't/// i don't know... my eyes ? no.. i.. Q_Q
-Overall Worst Feature?: me.
-Do you get most of your traits from mum or dad?: I wouldn't know.
-Favourite Colour: Neon green, bright red, purple, black.
-Worst Colour: tan.
merry christmoose this year.This year my holiday was great.merry christmoose this year.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
(sorry about not being around Da as much// i'm slowly SLOWLY going through ALL my comments.) fucking damnit deviantart. I still can't edit anything on my page. I've tried to fix it. but can't.
I went over to my boyfriends tonight and had turkey dinner with his family, It was lovely and his family is wonderful ad it was all just so.. ah best christmas ever. though I came home after and now I can't sleep. I'm litteraly awake spinning in my chair buying stuff from the interbutt and cuddling the shark plush Kodee got me. Bruce is one of the best prestents ever, and dad also got prismacolor artist markers (expect traditional art soon) a chest binder from mom and some skull underwear. Yup. And I get to see even more family tomorrow, then next week go get some sexy manly jeans and other stuff at a mall place with Kaden and Virginia (school frans) THEN GO BACK TO SCHOOL. and work my ass off to graduate and then fly away to collage. yey.
but for now.
Devious Journal EntryI think the one thing that bothers me is a person disliking someone just because they have an association with a person they brutally hate.Devious Journal Entry6 months ago in Personal More Like This
Now I understand and I have learned from my mistakes about heeding other people's warnings/advice/experience with said person as i have fallen into a few pits and scamming situations myself. How ever I'd prefer to still give at least chance and see who they and then judge upon my own experience with the person before I commit any further with business or trust.
For an example, I'd rather have people hate me for being a dick to them personally than just hating me cause I am/was friends/dating someone you didn't like.
if that makes sense??? this is more kind of a rambling journal *v* don't take me too sour. it's been on my mind a lot seeing people on DA
Pytho Draco Design Contest - WINNERSIT FINALLY HAPPENED! I picked a winner!Pytho Draco Design Contest - WINNERS8 months ago in Personal More Like This
A funny personality to go along with a fantastic color scheme. I've been enamored with Heston since he was first entered. I enjoy his colors and the way his reference sheet was laid out. ~Aledles is the first place winner.
I was waiting for someone to do a black/white design. And this one is fantastic with the large patch of white on the shoulder. I like how the mane is striped as well and Singe has purple eyes. Very nice! =Soulphur is the winner of second place.
Look at this chubster! I definitely like a round character. Bango is adorable and I like his gradients. =chirpeax is also the winner of second place.
IF YOU DID NOT WIN - PLEASE READ THIS JOURNAL:
soz guysmy boyfriend is heresoz guys1 year ago in Personal More Like This
he is right beside me
im sorry i havent been on i
i cant seem to get any motivation to get online i wanna spend every moment with him
and it's all thanks to my best friend :icondallymally:
also look a video of us meeting
sighs happily im sorry for being inactive...........................
Dear Myself,Dear myself,Dear Myself,1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I don't really know how to tell you this, but you're a pervert. I think I realized it when I tripped on sesame seeds in women's clothing and I saw you pull the clothes off Donald Duck. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand That I get turned on by garbage men. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep Your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I was interviewed by the Times about a passionate interest for mice .
Good luck on your short-term leave from jail, Kyle.
Dear (person who tagged you)
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .
___12____, -Your name-
1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our hor
COMMISSIONS ((FULL))INFOCOMMISSIONS ((FULL))6 months ago in Personal More Like This
.1. Pay after I accept your commission, please. I won't begin your order till I receive ze money.
.2. No refunds, unless I haven't started on your order. (But if I am taking awhile, that doesn't mean that I haven't started so please ask.)
.3. I will try my best to go in order of first paid.
.4. You can use the commission anywhere - well you bought it. But if anyone asks about it, please direct them back here.
.5. I am not the fastest at getting to them due to the mix of summer activities, my own art, and work so please don't rush me.
.6. I am only taking payment via paypal (only if it's digital)
.7. If you want a background in exhibit's
A: http://fav.me/d65ro4q That'd be +$1 to your total
B: http://fav.me/d66mu9k That'd be +$5
C: http://fav.me/d6924yg That'd be +$10 because that shit takes alot of time and effort. uvu
bust: $6.00 http://fav.me/d5ts5qu http://fav.me/d65r24t http://fav.me/d61j9