My name.My name.My name.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
This is something that has been bothering me for a while now.
My name on Deviantart is Dorian (as you would know if you looked on my page)
Now i don't like openly talking about this because everyone has their different views on the world, though most people i know in real life/ and here on the internet are very open with who I am and what I'm about to go through.
/I actually don't think I've ever really said this officially by telling you guys... for the reasons of (1. I dislike having a lot of attention drawn to it and (2. because i have always had you people refer to me as a guy / male / boy / so it has never been a problem.
So to cut it a bit shorter (as most of you know)
I am a Trasman /or/ Transgendered // Gender identity disorder.
please don't ask me a million questions, but i am happy to help if anyone needs someone to talk to about it
I came out to my mom over seven months ago fully and now I am starting to get treatment for it.
SO THE REASON FOR POSTING ALL
tumblrmemelifewhatdon'treadthisahh |Di was bored. whatever. meme. from tumblr. what am i doing with my lifetumblrmemelifewhatdon'treadthisahh |D2 years ago in Personal More Like This
A: Are you a virgin, and who did you loose it too?
nope. and uh... thats personal but kodee .__.
B: 3 biggest pet peeves
1. When people leave windows open at night (unless there is something pretty to look at) 2. When people in the house forget dishes in random places. 3. When i'm spending time with someone and they play on their phone every 5 seconds. 4. I have LOTS more but I don't want to come across as an OCD freak.
C: Celebrity crush?
Adam Lavine, Jony depp, Milla Jovovich, Tom hiddleston and Robert Downey Jr. (I can't even-) PRETTY MUCH EVERY ACTOR IN AVENGERS. JUST.
D: If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
I wouldn't have changed a thing.
E: Do you smoke?
attempted once. gross
F: Do you drink?
ehh... not very often
G: If you had to rank yourself on a scale of 1 to 10, what would you be?
oh god.... uh... what am i ra
music. help. again. QnQI have no more beautiful, emotional, happy, good, funny, angry, awesome.. or inspiring music to play. |Dmusic. help. again. QnQ2 years ago in Personal More Like This
I'm currently at a block with what to listen too.
You guys have helped me find most of the great music I play when I draw.
Help me again please?
Have any good songs you really like right now? or bands you listen too?
care to share? links? links please?
links for this poor soul? ;v;?
//i'm not pickyy i love everything.
Lesson from some kids. //life.I'm just going to get right into this.Lesson from some kids. //life.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
The other day I was sitting in class rather frustrated with everything and the people around me. I'm in a split class with grade 10's, 11's and us... the 12's, so there was about 15 minutes left in class and i had noticed this grade 11 boy glance over at me every so often.. thinking it was strange i finally exchanged a long look with him, it caught me off guard when all he did was smile at me then turned to leave. Now i've never talked to him, and i know he didn't mean anything with the smile. But the look he gave me almost said: "you look upset today but thats ok, smile with me?" So i smiled back.
That actually changed my outlook on my entire day. Something as small as some kid sharing a smile with me, It kinda made me think about how simple the whole thing was.
Sorry i'm just blabbering my feels towards the world.
Then today a little girl in my other art program was just talking about how excited she is to grow up and graduate and move out an
Please read.Back whenever I started hitting the front page of DeviantArt, abit after I'd turned fourteen I admit that my ego popped up a notch. And not just one, mind you. No I was both surprised and in awe that some kid like me could end up taking up space in a place where only masterpieces and loved pieces were seen. And honestly, it stuck out like a sore thumb because seriously, My art isn't that good. I was blindfolded by pride in belief that I could actually go somewhere with what I had. But after awhile, pressure began to set in and I felt that more was expected of me and I couldn't meet those expectations. I'd never been exposed to constructive or negative criticism before that point; so I admit full heartedly that I acted out of line and childishly. Which led to people being angry and hurt by my stupidity, and I am sorry. It should have never happened, and I promise that it won't ever again.Please read.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
So as time pressed on, I began to get desperate,
Glitter toilet. What is life.I've been working on this toilet project for like 5 hours now.Glitter toilet. What is life.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
What is my life.
Painting my toilet.
It's for a school project but my teacher did a crappy job telling what she wanted from the work so to be a smartass I did a toilet. With fucking sparkles on it.
because I have no actual inspiration to do something serious.
And the last poll I did: Sorry me and Kodee didn't re-do the Q&A video this past weekend. We were busy the whole time. .____. yup. super busy. Though I am trying to get him to do one with me soon.
But just for the record WE DID actually do it, but the sound got fucked up and didn't work QAQ
Yup and submitting art here and there. I am trying to put stuff up I promise.
I have a legit reason for not posting everyday anymore though, it's called: I'm trying to graduate highschool so i can finally go to collage
less than six months to go.
I'm so excited.
- - - - - - - -
K. a quick update on stuff.
so very tired.
thanks/ hey you read this.Where to start... Wow theres lots. OKthanks/ hey you read this.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
I guess i'll start off with thank you so much everyone for all the watches, faves, page veiws, and comments. It seems like lately it's just been crazy //also im trying to talk to all of you more /so im sorry if I ever missed some of your comments/
And another thanks to everyone who's been telling me to feel better and drawing things to cheer me up /you guys have no idea how much that actually means to me //hugely means Alot// so thanks.
But I would also like to say I feel bad. All the attention and asking if im alright is thoughtful of you people..
But I realise now im just being abit selfish with how im feeling towards the negative situation.
//so here's to you: I wasn't looking at it from your point of veiw and I didn't really think you where that upset aswell. But now I realise I should be there for you as much as you always have been for me.
You are my best friend and something like this isn't going to change that, and im sorry for posting vent
To start..So the last few days i have been talking to everybody about my transition buisnessTo start.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
what their thoughts and opinions were, since so many people ask me questions and send me notes on here i feel i should talk about this subject again. I do plan on documenting it over another site, maby youtube or tumblr... i don't really know yet.
I really don't want to do it over Deviantart though because i feel that this isn't the place for it, this is just for posting my artwork. Though I will be officially starting T in the next couple months and starting my treatment.
Now my feelings on this subject are;
I don't really feel like i need to draw the attention of the world to this, truthfully i wish i could just do this and no one would know. But the questions and intrest of other people is why i'm posting this journal. I want to help people with my experiences in anyway i can, So when i have everything set up i will post a link to my updates for anyone intrested in asking me questions or t
ITOOKYOURSHITSAll up and taken from :iconhenry-deer:ITOOKYOURSHITS3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Birthday: june 3rd 1995
School/Grade: grade 12. senior
Parents Still Together: nu.
Siblings: One demonic brother
Pets: a fish. :I
Drinker: not very offten.
-Hair Colour: Blackish red brown.
-Is it Dyed?: yup
-Eye colour: bright green hazleish :u
-Height: 5'5 ;A;
-Style: ...um.. i dono. but i always have skinny jeans on and a hoodie o:
-Glasses/Contacts/None?: Glasses and Contacts.
-Shoe size: 9
-Piercings: yup. getting more.
-Want More?: YES i do :I
-Tattoos?: getting someday
-Want More?: yes i do..i just said that xD
-Overall Best Feature?: ... i don't/// i don't know... my eyes ? no.. i.. Q_Q
-Overall Worst Feature?: me.
-Do you get most of your traits from mum or dad?: I wouldn't know.
-Favourite Colour: Neon green, bright red, purple, black.
-Worst Colour: tan.
KOO WHY 8I tagOHNOES. :iconkkooccaatt:KOO WHY 8I tag3 years ago in Personal More Like This
fufu whyy x'D
I don't really know how to tell you this, but i'm selling myself. I think I realized it when you put cuffs on me in your apartment and I saw you sit on bill clinton. I'm sure you're senile enough to understand That I get turned on by garbage men. I'm returning Your contact book to you, but I'll keep The oil stocks as a memory. You should also know that I Never openly mocked A new life as a clone.
Greetings to your freaky family, Dori. ♥
:iconxxx-styl-fly-xxx: :ICONVampiric-Massacre::iconstringsonabunny: :iconceli-bean: :iconStars-On-The-Ceiling: :iconskyheartx: /
Dear (person who tagged you)
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll ke
Life's been good/ I don't have any other accounts.I haven't made a journal in..Life's been good/ I don't have any other accounts.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
//gosh who knows/
*updating my life quickly*
So to start off summer has been great, though i have only two more weeks until i start my last year of highschool c:
I've spent lots of time with Kodee and other close friends
(i wasn't a loner this summer yey :'D)
Life has generally been pretty good.
AND i'm going to add this in here for everyone just because i said i would:
I AM NOT :iconstringsonabunny: OR :iconxxx-styl-fly-xxx:
(I have no idea why some people would even think that...)
you bitches are crazy. But this is just a note to the people bothering my friends and my boyfriend
This is my only really active account that i use. There is no conspiracy. Really.
SO *SHARK-BITES IS THE ONLY ACCOUNT I POST ART TO.
My name is Dorian and i am just one person xD
I am not Kodee Styl-Fly
And i am not Daniel StringsOnABunny
Though they are both cool cats and you should go check them out. c:
SO. DO WE ALL HAVE THAT CLEAR?
SO YES. My
It's been awhile.It's been a VERY long time since I made a journal (so i'll sum everything up in a few short simple sentences:It's been awhile.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Went to endocrinologist/ talked about testosterone.
Got pills to stop any other development and to stop periods forever.
Going to see one more doctor next week to confirm I'm ready and want to move forward with testosterone.
Got over being sick. Only to get sick again.
Spent all my weekends at my boyfriends house. (we watched movies, cuddled, ect.)
Did school stuff.
Life hasn't been super exciting |D //but i try.
And I missed one of my pills on saturday night, so i had to take two yesterday.
I've learned now that it is a guarantee that i'm going to throw up at least twice the next day from taking two or more.
DON'T MISS YOUR MEDICATION.
I JUST GOT back from the bathroom actually.
Weird that throwing up inspires me to make a journal.
//thats why i'm still home this morning but i'll go in after first block wh
Let's have a contest, yes? CLOSEDLet's have a contest, yes? CLOSED2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Okay, my bahmb diggity fellow deviants. For the sake of all you keeping up with my slew of over fucking 400 deviations the past year, and for helping me acquire 10,500+pageviews and 400+watchers (which is FANTASTIC in my opinion) I'm going to hold a little contest! I'm just gonna cut to the chase here, here we go! |'D
PETER. WHAT IS IT WE HAVE TO DO? 8UU
WELL. The main ides of this contest is to draw one of these couples in a given scenario/prompt! :U
Septimus and Corvus
Ausar and Viorel (Pfft, this 'un's still kinda new so they don't have much art together.)
Feng and Strixus (The only heteros, oops.)
first 2d animationgo to this link to see the little 2D animation I did in school of a sack of flour jumping.first 2d animation2 years ago in Personal More Like This
It took 3 1/2 hours of drawing for about 2 seconds of animation :iconheaddeskplz:
long day.Had a very long day today, driving out to North Vancouver to see another doctor. (There are so many for what i'm doing it's crazy)long day.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Anyway it went really well, he is in a way my last step before I go back to the endocrinologist.
My mom, him and I talked for about two hours, In that time he basically got my whole back story.... so medical history and family history.
He was very friendly and wanted to get to know me more, So he made another appointment for next thursday.
I'm excited to be able to talk to him again.
I like it when they are easy to talk to. ;n;
Besides that nothing cool has happend to me. I'm not cool enough for cool things. "I'm not cool enough" oh lolololol
Life has been a little bit of pleasent, a pinch of casual, and some slight depression thrown in (because of the time of year and the weather) ANNDD christmas is coming (I am SO putting up a tree this weekend.)
I was just sitting alone on the couch drawing doodles of stuff. things.
then i crawled onl
WoofffaaahI'm happy to say i finally made a tumblr. :'DWoofffaaah2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Yes. Now before some of you freak out i just want to say;
That i'm using my tumblr to post my art //and some uncensord// stuff ALONG with all my Transition updates.
So videos, journalish things, stuff like that.
(SOOO you can get to know me better mabye :'D ask me stuff about my art, about my Transition and stuff in general?
Follow at your own risk,
I might get annoying.
OH AND i'm new to tumblr so ignore my noob-ish-ness
I still need to figure it out. OTL.
http://-sharkbites.tumblr.com/ SO THERE.
So nothing new besides that :I
saw Kodee on the weekend :'D
now it's sunday.
ALL THESE INNER THIGHSTitles.... :iconSuspfuplz: ...what are you.ALL THESE INNER THIGHS3 years ago in Personal More Like This
SO. I wanted to re-do last nights journal (because i was in a rush last night xD)
TO START OFF WITH:
I am almost done school 8'D //for the summer//
I just have to come in 2 more days then i'm done. ;w;
And i finished my planning 10 course i've been killing myself with for over a year. ~joyy~
Speaking of school i'm full of depressing/fucking awesome feels.
Kodee is grading this year ( Yay //
pupSo last night we brought Jedi (my new puppy home) Shark-Bites was over and got to spend a bit of time with her too last night, which was nice.pup2 years ago in Personal More Like This
I got to spend my whole weekend with him with was really nice and defs needed.
I held her in the car during the drive home and she was very snuggly with me ouo
Then for most of the night she wouldn't leave my side, she was so scared ans shaky at our house.. it's all new and her old family is gone :c
The night was good though, to my suprise~ She slept in her carrier with some towels and a plush sheep to keep her company, and the crate was in my room so if she cried I could get up to deal with it.
Thankfull she didn't cry or whine at all, went into the crate and off to bed. No whining till about 8 this morning which is fine cuz that when I had to get up anyways ouo
maybe in the next couple days I'll upload a couple more pics or something ouo <3
I shouldn't be allowed IMsMe: fate doesn't exist :'uI shouldn't be allowed IMs2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Friend: well, you can't make people like you forever.
Me: you dont need to. People come and go ALL THE TIME in life, it's perfectly normal. It's the ones who stay that matter
Friend: that makes me feel better.
Me: it should
Me: I'm never gonna go :u no matter what
Me: we are tight like
Me: shiloh's ass-- //shot dead off the world over the stars and now lives on Pluto forever and ever
Fucking getting dark out at 4:00. damit novemberOk for a few months remember how I was saying "omg I love this time of year! It's fall and the seasons are changing!" shit like that? Well now it's the time of year that I lothe.Fucking getting dark out at 4:00. damit november2 years ago in Personal More Like This
It starts getting dark at 3:00 And It's almost cold enough for snow but insted you get bitchy freezing rain.
It's still november so december holiday/christmas feelings aren't really there yet because it's not close enough.
So you just stumble through november trying not to give up and die on the sidewalk on your way to school.
Ok.. well it's not actually that bad, I have Kodee. xD
He keeps me happy. ♥
And last night (just because I can share this)
I was getting into bed all suductive and smooth-like and I kneed myself in the face causing my spiked nose ring to gash the inside of my nostril and my face hydro pumped blood.... everywhere. It was awkward actually. I was waiting for my moms boyfriend to get out of the bathroom so I could get some tissues. My mom stared
A rant-ish thing.So while looking on one of my watchers pages I saw a comment that kind of upset me and I felt a little trolled.A rant-ish thing.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Some one had brought up this watcher being a fan of my bby, :iconshark-bites: and they asked if they knew of me.. the person replied :
" yeah i know 'kodee' dont think thats her name as shes never said it before i dont think... but any who XD yes i like hers too c: "
Really...? My name IS Kodee.
My full first name is Kodee-Lee. It says so on my birth cirtificate, my ID, my school cards and my mail. That is my name.
And if you don't think it is my name, then ASK me.. dont go commenting about me somewhere else. :iconnomemeplz:
I commented back to the person, saying it was my name.. and please adress me as a male.
YES, I AM AWARE THAT I AM NOT PHYSICALLY MALE.
I DO KNOW THIS.
MY TITS ARE A GIVE AWAY.
I PROMISE, I AM AWARE.
I am FtM transgender. And I don't dress the part of a boy as much because I am not openly discussing this with my paren
Moment of yo time pls~Hey guys;Moment of yo time pls~2 years ago in Personal More Like This
So after a very long and eye opening conversation with my big sister, it came to my realization that I could seriously help her out with a few things.
My sister Jessica actually had a huge impact on where my art is today, when I was younger I always looked up to her,wanted her approval,
and wanted to make her proud of me as far as art went. But lately as we've been talking and coming to terms with each other, it's come to my attention
that she really needs some motivation and recognition for her own work. She's really good with painting, pencil work,
and on top of that she's REALLY good at crafting with woods, glass, sculptures, etc etc. So I've decided that I should give her a shout out so just
maybe she'll be able to break a little from her shy bubble and
have an audience and so then she could start drawing again!
I care about her alot and know just how much her work means to her, she hasn't posted that much on the internet from what she's don