Please (Don't) Hate MeIf I told you a lie
But it made you smile
Would it still be a sin?
If I opened the door
But turned you away
Would you still come in?
If I sliced my skin
But it didn't hurt
Would it still be wrong?
If I acted all brave
But couldn't face it
Would I still be strong?
If I tied my noose
Around a tree's open arms
Would it be an embrace?
If I left tonight
And begged you stay
Would you still give chase?
If I committed sin
But hurt nobody
Would I be welcome above?
If I do something you hate
But only for your good
Could it still be true love?
Why I Think Self Harm Awareness Day is BULLSHITIn case you didn't know, today (Friday the first of March) is Self Harm Awareness Day. And, in case you didn't pick it up from my journal's title, it is pissing me off beyond belief.Why I Think Self Harm Awareness Day is BULLSHIT2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Why is it doing this?
Well, it's no secret on here that I cut myself. So, as a self-harmer, I find today both extremely offensive and, more importantly, triggering. The most I've seen of it today is people posting photographs of their cuts (something that I feel is never acceptable and would only ever be done for attention) and non-cutters posting patronizing bullshit about how we must 'stay strong' or 'keep fighting'.
Newsflash, dickwads, we're cutters; not fucking retards who need your help to cross the fucking street. We are not charity cases, we are not idiots and we most certainly do not want damn sympathy from do-gooders who would probably be the first to condemn someone if they saw them cutting.
If you want my opinion, today is not about self harm awareness, but rather sympathy,
ReminderJust a small reminder to NEVER, andReminder8 months ago in Personal More Like This
I mean NEVER, eat bread near an open
window without guards bECAUSE A
BIRD WILL FLY INTO UR HOME AND FKIN
FLY AROUND THE PLACE WITH MY GODDAMN
BREAD IN ITS MOUTH LIKE WHO DO U THINK
U R CUZ U R NOT GOD
FERN: THE BERD DTTHINKS ITS SO SWAG
i dont want pigeon nipple comments
cuz i swear i will send u a paragraph on
y i hate u and y u should get fked by
Death Note: Another Other Note -1--1-Death Note: Another Other Note -1-2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Nakajima. Nakajima Ayumi is the name of the girl that sits in the big leather chair across from me, her big gray-blue eyes glossy from the tears that threaten to stream down her pale face. She's a small, gentle child with light brown hair that falls past her shoulders. If I had to guess, I'd say that Ayumi-san is about the age of fourteen, possibly in her first year of high school. She's definitely a cute girl, no doubt about that, however, there is only one flaw that this sweet child holds. Nakajima Ayumi is the young mastermind behind the Schoolhouse Massacre Cases. This gentle child has actually killed off half of the population from Hideaki Memorial High School, a school located on the southern parts of Shikoku. I'm stunned though. Ayumi-san has turned herself to the police and informed them of these crimes she committed, however, the police didn't believe the girl due to the pure innocents
To Be Continued"When the devil tries to remind you of your past, remind him of his future." - quoted from the pastor in church todayTo Be Continued8 months ago in Personal More Like This
My lack of close meaningful human companionship has done a number on me for some time, as my current situation contributes to my status as a perpetual loner. Even though I do occasionally experience moments of triumph over it, it is still perhaps the most difficult thing I have yet to fully overcome in my life. But seeing how I fare with the weight of social issues will be a matter of time. All I can do for now is keep on walking for Him, "alone" or not, and let Him bring healing in due time to this slow-healing scar in my heart. For walking alone still doesn't stop me from helping others and doing good, even when it sometimes hurts to be that lonesome lamb surrounded by wolves and goats. God will help me overcome the days of my life and use my weaknesses for
Colour challenge 2 !!!Colour challenge 2 !!!1 month ago in Personal More Like This
Hey guys here is new challenge 2for everyone !! You can use traditional or digital media ,its your choice :3 colors are entirely up to you .Imagination has no limits!!
Just color this picture
When you upload your finished work CREDIT ME LIKE THIS :iconryky: or like this
And i will see this ! or you can send me a note with subject: Challenge
every works i feaure in big journal .
I cant wait to see your finished work
Have a fun!!!
Apparently I hit a sore spot.The news that I might one day return to the internet apparently isn't going over well.Apparently I hit a sore spot.2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Sent by "Schlomo G."
Can you stop being a whiney attention whore for once in your life, and quit relying on 12-15 year-old kids on a public art site to validate your existence (that's all your DA post was. Don't kid yourself thinking it was meant to be something else)? Your art hasn't gotten any better since your hiatus, and instead of trying to improve it you either sick your fans to give you attention or tell them to attack your mean bullies. Your Brental Floss strips are getting uglier each time you churn one out, and to add insult to injury, you, Brent, and Dan can't tell a joke (People on ED edit your strips to make funnier jokes. Let this sink in your head for a while). Apparently you learned nothing from your "hiatus" after seeing that DA blog, as I'm trying to figure out how each Brental strip keeps getting uglier because that's the only comic you're fo
Contest Bros (CLOSED)So thanks to my lovely friends for all the points ^-^ This contest this year will hopefully be very successful and yah c: This is a kind of late Halloweenish contest because I never got enough points before then and also I never drew a Halloween picture...So here is everything you need to know bros.Contest Bros (CLOSED)1 year ago in Personal More Like This
To draw one of mine and your character(s) in your favorite TV show/movie/manga/book scenery with a creepy twist/Halloween element. You can draw as many characters as you'd like but you must draw at least one of mine and one of yours.
Deadline: Nov.17.13 to Feb.10.14 CONTEST ENDS TONIGHT AT 11:59PM
Must draw at least one of mine and your characters
Must favorite journal
Must advertise journal
You do not have to be a watcher of mine
It should be a new piece not old bro
Letter from mission!!!here is :iconpixiecold: again!!! ive got an email from my brother sanguis!!! he told me he wants to let you know the newest newsLetter from mission!!!1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Here is the message:
"Hey my awesome fans This is sanguisgelidus speaking. I am doing well on my Mission, sometimes it is like a rollercoaster ride, it is not always so easy to be far away from home and my loved ones, but still I enjoy the time and I learn so much!! I feel God`s love for me and all of his children everyday, that is what keeps me being motivated, even though there are some People, who are quite rude sometimes. But well, that is life I guess! ^^ I miss you all a lot, but I am still practicing my drawing/painting skills whenever I have some spare time. I just started rediscovering my love for pencil drawings I am looking Forward to the time, when i can start my career as a freelance Artist, but till then I still have some work to do to find those People, who really Need the hope of the love of God. I love you all and I than
My dad got arrested.Last night....My dad got arrested.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
It kinda feels different, him not being here. Almost like a large weight has been lifted off my shoulders. But...at the same time....I feel like I've done something bad. But in the end, I guess it turned out all right.
So...last night, in my room, I had gotten into yet another one of my fights with my dad. Only THIS time, my mom had caught him in the act of slapping me. She was so shocked...and then my aunt came. And she basically told both my parents what my dad has done to me for the past 10 years.
It was probably one of the worst fights I've ever had. We were all just screaming and swearing at each other. My dad kept trying to play the innocent card, but really, it was me, my mom, and my aunt against him.
And then at one point I couldn't take it anymore, and I ran out of my room, grabbed my mom's keys, and got into her car and drove away as fast as possible. I just did NOT want to be in that house ever again, under the same roof with him...
I didn't drive far....I onl
MANA CYCLE GAME [VIDEO WITH LOTS OF INFO!]LATEST UPDATE:MANA CYCLE GAME [VIDEO WITH LOTS OF INFO!]1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Check out this video that I have just made of me explaining a lot about Mana Cycle, the type of game it will be, style of gameplay and heaps more!! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v5Xvr3iBb-o
Follow the action over at the Facebook page! http://www.facebook.com/manacycle
Subscribe to my YouTube to stay tuned on updates and more! http://www.youtube.com/omfgitsbec
Older updates below
Hey all, so we have a style defined for the characters. What do you all think?? A massive thank you to the amazing Kate-FoX!!
The art of improvement5/4/2015 UPDATE: Added preface at the beginning and Inspiration at the end! added some thoughts on some other things I wanted to share.The art of improvement1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Alright, so this is a comment and question I've been receiving a lot from people!
How did you improve so fast?
Firstly, I want to say I do not think of myself as a professional artist, teacher or someone who "knows the secret to becoming a master artist". These are just things that I have picked up over the years, and noticed so I thought I might as well share my experience with improvement in effort to help others find their own paths of improvement and learning as artists. There are still many things I have to learn, and wish to improve about my own art! The path of an artist is never ending, in my opinion!
I consider the beginning of my journey when I withdrew from college. I had decided to take a year off from school, to explore myself more as a person, gain confidence and rethink my path that I wanted to take in school. Of course,
Words of EncouragementHey there, everyone. Just wanted empower the body of Christ today. Just stay at it. Keep fighting for the truth, no matter what others say. (unless you've gone off the path and lost focus on what's truly important.) Because all of the extra doctrines, politically correct opinions, traditions, and man-made theories will not matter when Christ comes back. None of it will.Words of Encouragement2 months ago in Personal More Like This
So, don't be discouraged when people hate you because of your faith in God, the Creator of all this, the one who blesses us, cares for us, & protects us from evil. When people call you hateful, a bigot, a homophobe, or do other cowardly things against you, keep treating them with love. It doesn't matter how many false cases they claim against believers, don't stop seeing them as a human being. They have a chance to turn away from Satan and join the ranks as a soldier for God. Don't you want to see a person's heart changed and their life transformed for the better? Wouldn't it be a blessing to see someone under
Watch out for ExaltGodIt's really sad that it has to come so far that I need to make a journal to warn people to watch out for ExaltGod . The Bible tells me to warn a person who is a heretic/teaches false doctrine/ once or twice and then have nothing to do with them anymore.(Titus 3:10) Why? Because such people are dishonest and all your efforts during arguing become in vain. So I will direct my attention to the people who might be or have been influenced by ExaltGod's teachings.Watch out for ExaltGod5 months ago in Personal More Like This
I guess many will be surprised why I'm attacking some Christian dA member who is known for making a lot of the Christian stamps out there. Yes, she does make a lot of good christian stamps that I agree with and was one of the reasons I watched her, but she's made several stamps and journals about certain beliefs she has that I as an honest Christian just have to disagree with. I've often tried to explain her but stubborn as she is she never accepts it. So I will list some things ExaltGod believes, and then explain why it's w
DA COMMISSIONS: WTF?I wanted to share this post I've seen on Tumblr. As a professionnal artist, I already know that I underprice my commissions. When you are a freelance, a drawing is generally 500€ to 1000€ when you're a beginner. On DA, I generally sell them at 30/50€. What to think about the new commission system, knowing that I'm already leaving my commissions for a low price?DA COMMISSIONS: WTF?1 year ago in Personal More Like This
You can easily understand: why do you open commissions then?
Well,I love drawing for other people, and most of commissionners don't even know the real price of a drawing (now you know!). But when I open commissions, this is because I've got the time, because I love to share with commissionners, to know their universe, OCs...and because it helps me to buy new fabric for reenactments too, for sure. But... Well... Shame on you DA! O_o
How can you sell a service for only 0.2/0.4$, knowing that DA takes 20% too?! O_o
It may be a good news for commissionners, but DA, you're killing the artists by making people think that a drawing cos
Seeker Contest 2-Seekers TribulationSeeker Contest 2-Seekers Tribulation3 weeks ago in Personal More Like This
To Promote Seekers in a Creative way, You can Draw them in a fancy picture, write a Fan Fiction, or even a Journal on your fav Character or scene you liked. Anything that Promotes Seekers in a Creative way. And if you have an idea let me know, if I approve you can do it
The stakes are a lot higher this time, far more so than previous! How much? Well...here's the prizes for entering. And is you have won in the past you should enter the contest for Book 2 instead of this one..OK
Want to help me mess with someone's head? #9#1 #2 #3 #4 #5 #6 #7 #8Want to help me mess with someone's head? #91 year ago in Art Features More Like This
'SUP, AWESOME SQUAD? Yup, it's that time again! Will you guys help me mess with another person's hea
How to stay MotivatedHow to stay Motivated.How to stay Motivated7 months ago in Personal More Like This
I’m writing this article for the type of people who say that just can’t find motivation to:
Make a portfolio
Finish a painting
Work on their personal project
I got three tips I’m about to write, and it’s just advice and things that I found useful for myself. If you are capable to do any of these things you should definitely try them.
Fear. Get rid of it. If you are fearful of the outcome it will unmotivate you immediately. Just finish whatever it is and think about how you can improve after. If you can’t see what you need to improve ask someone else to tell you. There is always room to improve, and if you go into a critique with an open mind you will grow exponentially.
Think of it like this. If you were running one lap, and half way through you stopped because you were afraid you were going to throw up or pass out, you will never really know how fast you can run that lap. You didn’t push yours
Want to help me mess with someone's head?I've done this once before, so some of you guys might remember doing this.Want to help me mess with someone's head?2 years ago in Personal More Like This
ANYWAY. You see this person? :iconstar799: Right here? :iconstar799:
i'm going to make an rpg maker game!or at least try tooi'm going to make an rpg maker game!8 months ago in Personal More Like This
i don't have a program yet, but i'm looking for a free rpg maker (not a "free" version of the popular one) that is near complete ;u;
so if you found one that works well or have any tutorials/anything useful s please post them in this journal!
i don't think i'll need help currently, i'll probably be doing all of the art and stuff in the game
i will though need music, but i'll deal with that later
so anyways the game will be about this planet what is actually a giant pearl, and all the buildings are carved out of it and its inside this giant clam shell made of stained glass
the people there are also made of pearls (not the same pearl as the planet), and there isn't any plants/food/regular people/animals/aliens there because there isn't need it, but there is water mainly so the people can take baths
the only "living" creatures are these special kind of oyster that the pearl people use to make more people
the society there is perfectly functioning, there is the working
hohhoh -edit-*rises eyebrow* It's the day. The scanning day.hohhoh -edit-8 months ago in Personal More Like This
-edit- okayy...I think I'm done. 47 files of drawings xD *slowly uploads*
A brief history of FellaWe all know Fella. If you have been a member of deviantArt for at least 1 day it's quite probable you've encountered him at least once, he's everywhere! And this shouldn't come as a surprise, he's dA's mascot after all! But how much do you know about him? Let's take a look at a Brief History of deviantART's mascot.A brief history of Fella2 years ago in Art Features More Like This
Fella was brought to life thanks to switched, who designed him back in April 2001 for a mascot contest.
Back then he didn't look exactly as we know him today, his figure was a lot more basic and circular and his expression wasn't as human as we're used to today. However his main features remain, his mischievous look and his colors, most probably based on the site layout's at the time
you know when..you've liked someone for like... a really long time?you know when..1 year ago in Personal More Like This
as in a year long? but you don't have the guts to tell them? and they like reject your feelings?
its not even rejecting your feelings on purpose.. its more like, accidental. not even trying to hurt you.
and then you tell yourself its okay, when it really isn't. and you feel like your dying inside.
wow. yeah. i just admitted to myself all that shit. and i feel like crap right now. and really stressed.
because i don't know.. what if i never tell them and leave suddenly? or like we have a falling out?
getting to my point, how the hell do you cope with this shit and how the hell do you confess to them?
GRAMMAR WHAT ARE YOUWhat is artGRAMMAR WHAT ARE YOU2 years ago in Personal More Like This
How do pencil
tablet what are you
how do line
I have no idea what I'm doing--
How are you all so fast-- why am I so suddenly slow--
//oldman hunchback of notredame
I am so jealous-- how //sob