SubmissMy eyes met hers, and the stars dimmed
The sun despairs in her radiance
She is 'beauty' in every facet of the word
Hunger pains consume my interior
for her whom I cannot devour
Her face I don't recall
nor have I heard her name
Still, I plead at her feet...
Show me that something is possible
Tell me there is something lasting in this world
Make me believe you'
Wealth in HopeShall I hide the truth that I am lowly?Wealth in Hope2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Or embrace this world with my dignity?
I am dripping in an awful, vile state
Vying wryly for wishes that abate
I prithee, help me ease these painful blights
Yet no hands would hold me on frightful nights
Birds of living spit me loathsome arrows
Mad mobs abrade me empty tomorrows
Where knowledge of possibility lives
I fear not for I know what wisdom gives
I'm clad in faith of a more beautiful day
This snow cold sorrow will somehow decay
It is in hope that I'm adorned with riches
Pure wealth that will conjure our burned bridges
A Boy in the WoodsAt the end of an autumn eve,A Boy in the Woods2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
he felt the warmest beauty
The trees whispered and moaned
as they were stripped bare
He built his glass house
with the deadwood of seasons past
The elements pass through, unhindered
but he is warmed by memory
Outside the door,
the high was all around him
On the inside,
he had to create it
I Am...I am an observer,I Am...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I watch as you fall
and I won't make a move
to answer your call.
I am dishonest,
it has been since my smallest years
that I let my truth into others ears.
I am a composer,
of a great many lies
yet carry luck like a clover
I never break my disguise.
Through those heat filled faces surrounding me
I can just barely see
and sometimes I find nowhere to run
they take over me.
I am rarely awake with sun,
so that when everything slips undone,
I will not be exposed
I will always stay composed.
I keep my secrets like stars keep distance
burning bright beneath my skin
defining my existence
out of reach and filled with sin.
Never trust a word I say,
I lie to everyone every day
and this is the only time
I will admit
that I am unlike you in many ways.
Who I am is just this: a secret to hold
and I will show no one
no matter how bold.
Why Do You Do This?Why do you do all of thisWhy Do You Do This?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You stain your wrists
You cry all the damn time
You slip when you try to climb
You're in all this pain
Putting that blade to a vein
You dig it in, but not too deep
For now, that price is too steep
But will the day eventually come
A day when you are so very numb
That the price isn't too high
And you give up the will to try
God forbid that day should arrive
I want you to be happy and alive
Yet I freak out when you aren't there
Don't make me feel loss and despair
A heavy pastI want to know the story of my lifeA heavy past2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want the ghosts disappear from my head
I want to hear the truth from the mouths of my family
I need to find the key to close the door of nightmare
the weight is too heavy for me
I want to turn the page and forget the past
I want to be a girl like others
it is the image of my dream
The Torturing DreamSoft... her skin. He knew it would be before he even knew her name.The Torturing Dream1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Silent... the breath he can't catch after his gasp when she said 'Hello gorgeous. Let's go make some trouble.'
Soft... the sheets on the bed in a room he'd never seen, but was happy to be inhabiting.
Silent... the arch of her back and the tears on her face, oxytocin induced...
Hard... the concrete he sees when he awakes from the dream
Cold... the skin on his chest where she laid her head seconds before
Hard... the sound of him lighting a cigarette in the quiet room
Cold... his breath when he exhales the first drag of another day
Storybook AddictionsI want you to love me as much as you doStorybook Addictions2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the thorns in your side; seeds planted and
forgotten and bleeding cyclically.
when the swallowed night drowns and
drains darkness like a trickled lullaby, I want
to be the last thing in your dreams.
I want to be your mistake East of Eden, your lack
of redemption; when they tear apart your paper
flesh with metal claws, I want to be the one you
come crawling back to with bloodied knees.
[right now I am an empty vessel, unfulfilled
and metaphorically obsolete. I want to clear
my throat for once, without seeing the ashes
of my disease.]
I want to love you like a swansong;
breezes make your bones ache and
I am always cold-- no one wants the
wind: it bites and they identify my
prickled flesh as its invitation.
[I wish I weren’t the pendulum
around your neck, counting the days
until you’d finally leave]
I only ever wanted you to love me.
Delete NonetI like to delete parts of my life.Delete Nonet2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Memory here, an item there.
Fade them away to darkness.
Making room for the light.
The past can’t hold me.
I’m letting go.
The Sun Shall Never ComeWelcome to the night brother,The Sun Shall Never Come2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Do you remember?
When we were young,
Always living under the gun,
Always trying to run,
From everything and every one,
Remember what it was like?
When we would hide,
Try to breathe,
Constantly under the knife,
I still remember those screams,
Your cries and what they mean,
This is my life,
This is my hope and my soul,
My diamond and Fire,
Burning out of control,
I can run into the night,
Just to try and fight,
But it won't matter,
Just like all the days we tried to find the sun,
It always ends the same,
Nothing ever changes,
My breath has always been in vein,
Wake up now, my dear old friendWake up now, my dear old friend,Wake up now, my dear old friend2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Your daily sleep has reached its end.
Embrace your worldly cares once more
And take one step outside your door;
You’ll find there, waiting for you still,
The tasks and deeds you’ve to fulfill
So do not waste another ray,
Get up, get up and start your day.
You’ll have your sleep again tonight
And when you do, you will sleep tight
But until such times are near,
Get up, wake up, today is here.
Life Is An Intravenous DripLife is an intravenous dripLife Is An Intravenous Drip2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With no transfusion of blood
Instead it slowly relieves me
Of a mind that once was good
Directly from the drip chamber
Suffocating me with terror
When there is no imminent danger
Life is an intravenous drip
I am fascinated by my veins
And curious as to which one
Carries the blood to my brain
Which causes the unwanted impulse
For me to question every answer
Tourniquet that varicose vessel
Curiosity is my cancer
Life is an intravenous drip
Of that I am A positive
My blood remains optimistic
So why am I so negative
I see no saline solution
Just diminishing vital signs
As my sanity transfuses from me
One deplorable drop at a time
Barely BreathingIn this forest, surrounded by the greenBarely Breathing2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
We could finally breathe
Away from the mobs and those who were mean
In this calm little forest, I don’t think I’d ever leave
Our home was rotten, and the air was too thick
Mommy and daddy would bicker about everything
You and I, we would never get to pick
We could only dodge the words they would fling
At school, we could only suffocate
Because of the lies we would tell to our friends
I think you agree, there’s no point to debate
That we were dying there; it would have soon been our end
We couldn’t breathe in that empty little place
It closed in and choked us until we had to make a choice
So we escaped at night; we never left a trace
And in our new-found freedom, we could only rejoice
Before the Horsemen ComeThe unknown is coming strongBefore the Horsemen Come2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Faster than winter
I know I can’t be wrong
Eternity will splinter
Change is on our doorstep
And it is not for the better
Four solemn horsemen prep
For their true power to be unfettered
But from where I can see it
Atop the smallest spire
We needn’t worry just one bit
Before conquest can come, humanity will tire
This darkness is settling in
Despite everything you tried
All was lost within the din
And I watched as everyone cried
Last ChanceI love you,Last Chance1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
More than you know.
But your love for me,
Is only a show.
I’ll never understand,
What keeps me coming back.
Though you’re good with words,
You’re completely void of tact.
It must mean something,
That I still want you.
No matter what happens,
No matter what you do.
I think about you constantly,
I dream of you at night.
I’m ashamed of the images,
My mind conjures even in the light.
I’ve never said the words,
But you should know how I feel.
Do I actually need to say it,
For you to know it’s real?
Do you love me?
As I do you?
Are we both just too stubborn,
To say what is true?
I guess it’s time,
After all of these years.
To get on with it,
And conquer my fears.
I’m done being your ‘friend’,
The girl that you use.
If I voice my feelings,
Maybe I won’t lose.
So here goes nothing,
My chance at last.
It’s time for me to say it,
Or put you in the past.
It’s harder than I thought,
But maybe you feel it, too
I Was In A Bad PlaceI’ll indite my crude and clumsy rhymesI Was In A Bad Place1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
From my place in the pitch dark
And will wait all night if needs must
For that one creative spark
That will manifest thoughts in my mind
Into a charged lightning bolt
Strike my memories, open my wounds
And let writing be my salt
So cut me and see the metaphors
Floating around my blood stream
Pour salt on the literal lesions
To punctuate my primal scream
As painful at first as the memory
But after the initial sting
Wounds will heel, leaving only scars
Numbness replaces everything
This lack of feeling is temporary
As a writer I live for the pain
Of opening up new abrasions
To keep me lucid and sane
Deviant words in dank surroundings
Disturbed thoughts I can not waste
I apologise in retrospect
But I was in such a bad place
InfectionI'm Unfortunate,Infection2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and I've behaved,
and rather Unjustly.
Only together a mere while,
And I'm infected,
With every word
that on me you've tested.
Tear me apart
and no longer leave me to suffer,
of this disease you've inflicted;
where I have no choice
But to think of you,
and in my dreams at night.
Cure me, out of your good will, my lover
for I fear I'm lovesick still.
Hell Doesn't Even KnowI want to cry so much...Hell Doesn't Even Know2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Maybe I'm happy,
Maybe I'm sad.
I feel so alone,
Yet I've been with people all day.
I feel so unloved,
Yet I know I have people who love me.
I can't talk about these feelings.
I can't open up when the door is locked.
And the key is lost.
I want to inspire,
But I just recieve empathy.
I want to die,
But I keep on breathing.
I feel so confused, lost and all alone.
The feelings inside me are too strong for my body.
I don't want someone to understand.
I want someone to give me the answers to why I am like this.
And a solution to fix the massacre inside me...
I Wonder...Sometimes I wonder what I am,I Wonder...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If all these pieces actually make a man
Or if I’ve lost a piece or two
From all the times I’ve shattered.
I can’t help but wonder that maybe
If my pieces are scattered,
That the moon might make a nice eye,
And the black night sky its lid.
Perhaps the stars would be better,
But they shine in another sky,
Of her own scattered puzzle,
Hidden behind their own black veil.
And I ask myself,
How we can all be so broken,
And still have hope that maybe,
Someone can put us back together,
And we might be happy again.
Sometimes I catch myself wondering
If maybe someone else has the pieces
That would fit in the spaces between my fingers,
So they won’t be alone anymore.
Welcome HomeMy shadow is cast in all directionsWelcome Home2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The lights shine brighter for me
My footfalls are hard on the pavement
I will not be stopped
I chased Death out the door
and under the pallor of the night sky,
she worked her way into my chest
Her fingers ventured forth
with the warmth to melt my iron doors
Now I smoke a cigarette in the bone yard
I sit here waiting, praying
for someone to lie by my side
The wind moans like a lover in my ear
It whispers 'come back to me'
Walk with me through my haunted places
If we grow a shadow, it'll soon disappear
I can show you beauty,
if you follow longer than fear allows
The smaller lights cast a greater glow
in the blackest of places