Things I wonderThings I wonder...
What's it like,
to be free
to glide in the wind
fresh air to breath
to go to the moon
look at earth from above
or fly over cities
like a snow white dove
or to be a mermaid
deep in the blue sea
with all the fishes and sharks
all the things I wanna do and see
maybe perhaps, to sky dive
falling, cutting through the air
but no, I'm stuck here
where life isn't fair
oh the things I wish
to see and do
seemas so far away
I seem to be falling through
I sit here thinking
of all the things I dream of doing
and drop my face in my hands
as the crest of my tears start falling
I feel I am losing
my dreams of winning
so I lifted my head
"but I'm still trying."
my window is open
just a crack
the cold icey breeze
watching, keeping track
I shiver and think
"what's left of me?
I need a new me
one that's clean."
I write down my thoughts
then re-read them,
I'm like a flower,
but only the steam
I'm not as lovely as the top
I'm on the bottom
the part they don't like
unlike silk or cottom
Cutters LullabyGo to sleep, and close your eyes,Cutters Lullaby9 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
And dream of broken butterflies
That tore their wings against a thorn.
You know the pain thet they have borne.
Silver metal, shine so bright.
Scarlet blood, that feels so right.
Dream of that blood trickling down,
And wake up just before you drown.
The moonlight's shining off your tears
As you bleed out your own worst fears.
So tonight when you start to cry
Whisper the cutters' lullaby:
Hushabye baby, you're almost dead.
You don't have a pulse and your pillow is red.
Your family hates you, your friends let you bleed.
Sleep tight with a knife, cause it's all that you need.
Rockabye baby, broken and scarred.
You didn't know that life would be this hard.
Time to end the pain that you hid so well,
And down will come baby, straight back to hell
WolfDo you know what this madness is that keeps us screaming for more?Wolf3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Too many pronunciations that I can't promise I read
Look at this protrusion pushing my pupils from their cradles
Spitting doodles off the wall, with cracking paint
Broken dreams from a childhood that was stagnant
Blurring the lines between feelings and maternal need
Ripping through the plastic veil with heated lips caressing the flesh
A hard handled forceful fragile touch running up your thigh
I want this, the heat, the craving, this wolf's instincts
I want to nibble your veins while I violate your secrets
Look into my eyes, I'm starving for your intimacy
A burning touch of lust
Until we can't remember what this place is anymore
I sink my fangs in your blood in possession of the heat
My desire is to split open your entire being
I wont stop until I expose you for what you are
This is now calligraphy, so make sure you moan in reverence
As I show you what you've never seen before.
The Death Of A CowardThe Death Of A Coward3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I'm digging the last grave for the sake of virtue
a lotus that finds it's value in completion
Infinitely beautiful in crimson radiance
It speaks to me about a colorful universe made of serene healing
She whispers "Lover... Wake up.... Where are you?"
I'm asleep in this capsule of voices
muffled by the ending torment of my demonic facades
Tell me lover, where am I?
If the virtue is in the grave then who is this knight buried in the dirt?
Bring me back again, I'm resounding from the purest intent
A receptive order for the sake of this psychotic insanity
Astounding perspective giving by the glowing flow of this spirit's hair
She glides the borders of my memory,
Sweeping away the dust from the cluttered cupboard
Uncovering the box that was hid away
I'm moaning echos of inspiration that model the concepts of my ultimate aspirations
Where do the colors end? They are extravagant...
The enigma halts in honor of the indignant
The shadows bow before the endless
She whispers "It's within us..."
A Promise of No ReleaseI will not go outA Promise of No Release4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Hard or bloody
As so many I know
I will not wake up
On the inside
To open my eyes
I will not stand still
I will experience life
As my grandparents did
The last I knew
To have done it right
Around a table
With Grandbabies at their feet
So this is a promise
I make to myself
I sincerely hope
To be the glue
That holds us together
Of no release
Costome 50 pony meme challenge for anybody!1-RainbowCostome 50 pony meme challenge for anybody!3 years ago in Personal More Like This
7- other animal mix
33-best friend as a pony
36-from an anime show
49-somebody off youtube
50-you as a pony
All of these were my ideas, feel free to use! link back the journal if you can I want to see your parts of it X3.
Please credit me for making it!
Slipping away from me...IF I JUST CLOSE MY EYES AND PRETEND EVRYTHING'S OK.Slipping away from me...9 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I CAN FEEL THIS PAIN JUST SLIP AWAY.
NIGHT'S EMBRACE CAN BE SO LONELY.
WHEN YOU'RE SLIPPING AWAY FROM ME.
Lying in this bed.
These sheets tell of sorrow.
Feeling so dead.
Don't wanna wake up and face tommorow.
I just can't bear to lose myself.
So I've gone and lost you instead.
I will not leave all of you in suspense.
I REFUSE TO GIVE BLOOD FOR YOU.
So I'll sacrifice us at the expense.
OF TRYING TO MAKE IT THROUGH.
IT'S SO DARK HERE.
I can't make out the difference between thruth and lies.
MY DARKEST FEAR.
Is soon realized.
When my bloodshot eyes lock with your's.
That look on your face is reopening the sores.
I promise not to leave without reason.
BUT I DIDN'T SAY IT WOULD BE A GOOD ONE.
My memories change with the season.
MY LOVE FADES WITH THE SUN.
So if I just close my eyes and pretend everything's ok.
I can feel this pain just slip away.
Night's embrace can be so lonely.
When you're slipping away from me.
One Last TearI hate it when you're goneOne Last Tear9 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
And you are nowhere near
So I shall shed one last tear
This life is not ment for me
And I need you to know
That I want to leave this life
But without you I will not go
You and I are supposed to mean forever
But how can that be when were not together
You seem so distant why wont you talk to me
If you cant trust me how can we be
I hate being without you
And I wish that you were here
So I shall shed one last tear
I love you baby with all my heart
And I know if I leave you
It will tare you apart
I want to talk to you
You seem to never
Want to talk to me
Why is that baby
I know you love me
Before I go I want to say
That today may be my last day
Im saying goodbye
I'm starting to cry
But now all I want
Is just to die
But have no fear
Cause again I want you to know
I want to leave this life
But without you I wont go
Unnormal UnnormalUnnormal8 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I see things others don't see.
I hear things others don't hear.
I sense things others don't sense.
You would see and think of me as u
Friends with a ToolIts not wise to get close to me,Friends with a Tool8 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Its not wise to know me,
Its not wise to call me friend.
Why would you want to?
The more you get close to me,
The more you get to know me,
The more you become less found of me.
Why would you anyway?
You say Im something to you,
You say youre there for me,
You say you need me.
Why would you say such things?
Im no longer useful,
Im no longer perfect,
Im no longer needed.
Why would I be?
My loyalty is nothing,
My cherishes is meaningless,
My efforts is fruitless.
Why would they be useful?
Everything I do I do out of kindness,
Everything I do I do out of love,
Everything I do I do out of my own will.
Why would you notice?
Why would you notice any of this? For I am but a vessel, a tool that is to be used and then thrown aside, unwanted, unneeded by those who called me a friend and those I look up upon as a brother or a sister.