Anything.We waited in silence,Anything.3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
For a sound.
But nothing ever happened,
And no one ever came.
We waited for him.
But he never came.
A long plane ride in bitter silence,
Left alone with a crushing reality.
He was never coming home.
And we realize that no amount of wishin will bring him back to us.
But still we wait.
Wondering if he watches us or turns away in shame?
Wondering if he's proud of who we became?
Wondering if he will visit our dreams anymore?
And we wait in silence.
For a sound.
Before I saw The SunReading things I've already read to pass the time,Before I saw The Sun3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
bringing back the feelings of hard times that leave bile in my mouth and weight on my chest.
Some one I used to know and thought the world of,
And even though much has passed,
And I am happiest now with my sunshine.
I some times wonder what ever happend to this friend of mine.
Where the times have taken him.
Then there's the story of the monster before I saw the sun.
I regret everything to do with him,
Wish we had never met or that I had ever learned his name.
Left me broken and bleeding with the trail of other broken hearts,
I was only another card to tuck under his belt.
A silver tongued devil with nothing to loose and time to spare.
But after him.. I saw the sun.
The one who loves me for all that I am,
and cares for me.
He is the best thing to happen to me..
and before him I never really believed in the whole.. " the one "
or the soulmate kinda thing..
but now I do..
Thank you sunshine <3
Please don't ever..Please don't ever think that I would leave,Please don't ever..3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
No one catches my attention like you.
How your voice cuts my attention,
Or how I get lost in your eyes each time I gaze into them.
No one will ever hold my heart the way you do,
It cracks a little each time you think I would ever leave.
You're the best thing in my life.
You are my sunshine
Hunny Bee Flew AwayWe used to be so different you and I,Hunny Bee Flew Away2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Always having a good time.
When you came home I used to run outside to meet you,
Now I retreat away and hide.
Before you can even come inside,
yelling and screeching sounds and a door slammed.
My body shakes from heaving sobs after you "greet" me,
My eyes swell up from trying to hide the tears.
You know right away what I've tried to hide.
Awe, why do you cry my little hunny bee?
Is what you used to say.
Now you yell and question my tears.
See what you've done?
Do you even care?
Black Rabbit - Part sevenThe late October breeze shifted leaves across the sidewalks and roadways, which were usually empty. But tonight, they were filled with children in colorful costumes and teenagers looking to make some trouble. It was Halloween. And every dressed up child that Casey passed made him regret where he was driving even more. Shiloh had somehow pulled him into going trick or treating today, which was nearly impossible for someone to do. The raven absolutely hated trick or treating and hadn't done it since he was around the age of ten. But, Casey just couldn't say no to Shiloh. Maybe it was his baby blue eyes, staring into whatever goodness was left in his soul. Or perhaps it was the simple fact that Casey was growing very fond of the boy. Their agreement was that they he would go trick or treating with Shiloh just as long as he didn't wear a costume.Black Rabbit - Part seven3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
But as Casey pulled up to the quaint second story house on the hill, he couldn't help have a hunch that he would actually be in a costume sometim
Fish Legs - 1It was around midnight as the proud captain let his legs dangle over the edge of his vessel, staring down into the water which cradled his ship like an infant against its mother's breast. He let out a short sigh as he stared down into the waters, feeling nostalgic.Fish Legs - 13 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
However, his water had been disturbed. By the creak of a ship a little form found himself gazing upward towards the partly clouded sky. Rays of moonlight were sore to him; he wasn't at all used to the surface. But conversing with the blob-fish down below had become a bore for the once sunken cabin boy. He could see two feet hover some distance above the water and he crept upwards to take a closer look. The crown of his head poked out of the swaying waves; though he dared not move further yet.
Little henna tattoos decorated the soles of the man on the surface’s feet as they hung overboard, intricate and flowery designs crawled up his ankles and separated into little speckles and dots. He looked mighty bored and had no s
I wish I had more time..I was going to send this in a note in private to you.. but then I thought.I wish I had more time..3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Why should I hide these feelings and thoughts from the world? I am not ashamed or embarassed by my feelings
So although I don't have any beautiful lines of poetry to make your heart melt and sing with joy and I don't have any dazzling gifts to give you. I will do my best to make my ordinary every day words do the same.
I was thinking of you today; how your smile warms my heart.. and how your laugh makes me smile. How I get lost in your eyes each time I look into them, how your voice calms the storms in my heart and quiets the voices in my head. Because when you speak, You have my full attention and nothing will break it. Because there is nothing more important in my world than you. Nothing at all.
And while lost in my thoughts for you, I couldn't help but wonder..
How long will we be together?
Will we be happily married?
Will we have children together?
Long walks and talks about our lives?
After All..I am a flightless bird,After All..2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
And that's alright.
It can't be helped,
My wings have been clipped.
But not out of love.
My wings were clipped out of fear,
A fear that there are things I cannot do.
So I watch you fly,
Fly fly fly.
You beautiful bird.
You're so colourful and bright,
I'm nothing but a background dull grey.
Go and fly,
No need to wait up.
I keep clipping my feathers because I don't think I'm ready to fly.
You can sing all your songs to me when you come home,
You keep learning new ones every time you fly.
And each time you fly,
You fly farther and higher.
And your at a point right now that when you fly,
I can't watch anymore.
And when you come home,
I'm happy your back.
But I'm also sad,
Because deep down I want to fly away with you.
And be with you all the time.
So from my cage I'll sing my songs to my self,
The same ones I've known since I was young.
I'm too scared to fly.
Black Rabbit - Part four"Out! Everyone out!" Casey yelled from the top of the stairs. He was absolutely pissed at himself. This whole thing was a stupid idea. Not only did he jeopardize his best and only friendship, but Shiloh's house was absolutely trashed. Of course, no one could really hear him over the music, so the teen had to use force. He roughly pushed people out of the way of the stereo, and abruptly turned it off. "I SAID EVERYONE FUCKING OUT. NOW." he screamed.Black Rabbit - Part four3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
With grunts and complaints, most of the teenagers left, but Casey then had to go upstairs and chase some kids out of bedrooms and bathrooms. Once the house was completely empty except for Shiloh and himself, Casey let himself fall on the couch. He was riddled with regret and guilt, and the dark thoughts began to creep back into his mind. He wanted to die for what he did to Shiloh, even though he had done much worse before. "I can't believe I did that to Shiloh. MY Shiloh." Casey muttered to himself, rubbing his eyes. But it took him a second
Black Rabbit - Part twoBlack Rabbit - Part two3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The raven haired teen awoke to the light pitter patter of rain on the rooftop and windows. It was now the third morning since he and Shiloh met, and the two of them had become quite good friends in that time; despite the time being so short. But Casey made sure to keep his distance, as he always did. In his mind, no one could be fully trusted. Not even little boys that wore fluffy bunny hoodies, glittery converse, let alone pink hair.
To the beat of the light rain; Casey lifted his head from the foreign pillow and looked around. The first thing he saw, of course, was the strange gentleman lying next to him. Guessing from his own nudity, Casey could tell that his company was without clothing as well. Being as silent as possible, the teen slipped out of bed, quickly got dressed, and searched around for the man's wallet. Of course the fool had left it on the nightstand, out in plain sight. With that sly grin of his, Casey picked it up and plucked out whatever bills were inside, then slid
WinterThe damp light thrown by overcast skiesWinter5 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
The musty smell of old books, and peppermint tea
remind me of the way the snow would soften
the noise resonating from the houses and the city nearby
and drape me in beautiful white silence
oh how I long for the winter months.
Black Rabbit - Part nineLater that night, Casey had left Shiloh's house, saying he had to go home. But sure enough, his car pulled up into the boy's driveway the next morning to give the pinky a ride to school. The whole way there though, he couldn't help thinking about that sweet morning they spent together and the kiss they shared at the park. The scenes just replayed in his head over and over again, and every time, his stomach felt fluttery. As he sat there in Shiloh's driveway, waiting for him to come out, he just let his head fall back on the headrest of his seat and smiled warmly. Even though the chill of autumn slowly crept into the car and through his thin sweater, those memories just made him feel oh so warm.Black Rabbit - Part nine3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The pinky soon came out of his house and ran up to the car; his thick pink hair bouncing with his steps as he got in and sat beside Casey in the passenger's seat.
"Hi Casey~ How're you?" Shi asked with his lips curled into a sweet smile as he buckled himself in and pulled his hands into his bunn
Black Rabbit - Part oneBlack Rabbit - Part one3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The rain had stopped sometime that morning, leaving everything reflective and crystal clear. Water crystals sliding down the countless trees at the foot of a grassy hill on the edge of town. At the peak of the hill stood a two story house however; white paneling and green trimming decorating the architecture. A balcony which had two sliding doors which led into the well kept house- but I'll get into that in a minute. Overall, The property felt so tranquil and was just plain gorgeous with the lake further down past the orchard. But as peaceful as it was looking out to the house, Looks can be deceiving.
"I can't believe you'd go on and do that without telling me!" Shiloh cried to his auntie as he dropped his face into a white and lacy pillow on the couch.
His parents had passed away years back, Making him have to leave Russia and live with his godmother Annie- And his only remaining memory from his past; was his Silver Marten bunny named Frodo. Frodo as in Frodo Baggins, from Lord of the
Black Rabbit - Part eightThe morning light filtered through the soft baby blue curtains and cast a warm light across the cozy bedroom and onto the bed that usually just had one pink topped boy curled up innit. But this morning, a snake bitten rabbit held him close as they both slept ever so soundly. Unlike every other time that Casey woke up with a boy in the same bed, this was a pure, sweet kind of cuddle. As they lay there sleeping, Shiloh had his face pressed into Casey's chest, and the raven's face was submerged in Shiloh's soft, candy hair. Eventually, the taller of the two slowly came to. He looked up to the window, and then back down to what he had just brought his face up from. When he saw it was Shiloh though, his emerald eyes widened slowly and in one swift movement, he rolled out of the bed.Black Rabbit - Part eight3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"No... no no no no no. Fuck... why did I..." he whispered, slowly crawling away from the bed.
Of course, the whore thought he had sex with Shiloh the previous night, but didn't notice that he was still dressed i
Black Rabbit - Part tenAfter a little while of talking with the angsty and peculiar teenager, Annie just shrugged it off and let him be. She could tell that he was nervous around her, though she'd keep a close eye on them anyways; she was like a bear watching over her baby. In this case, Shiloh was her baby.Black Rabbit - Part ten3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Shiloh was still hanging onto Casey's waist like a koala, face nuzzled into his shirt. He was still out like a light.
Casey immediately calmed down once Annie walked off. His heart was racing and his palms were sweating badly. It was a wonder the sound of his heart didn't wake Shiloh up. This was far from the first time Casey ran into parents though, and definitely not the most awkward. Once, when he was trying to escape from a house after a night of fun, he was forced to sit and have a cup of coffee by his partner's dad while they went on and on about the "beauty of mars". He just pulled Shiloh a little closer after she left and tried to calm down. The boy probably wasn't going to wake up for a while, a
Black Rabbit - fourteenThe thing he remembered most about her was her long blonde locks of hair that draped down her back and sat propped upon her shoulders. The way it caught the rays of sunrise, glowing with an almost pink hue against the morning lights and long shadows. He could remember how much his father loved her hair and nearly cried when she had cut it to her shoulders, it used to be longer at one point- but those memories were fuzzy now. The recollection of his father twisting the ringlets of gold in his fingers as he held her in an embrace, whispering little sweet nothings into her ear before he’d go off to work and leave her with the baby.Black Rabbit - fourteen3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
He could also remember her eyes vividly; he could never let those gems slip from his memory for they were also his eyes- light blues with a dark blue splotch circling the iris. They were like staring into a swirling pool of sky coloured acrylic paints; The way that they lit up once meeting her sweet little butterscotch haired baby who gree
Black Rabbit - Part threeBlack Rabbit - Part three3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Casey was absolutely shocked by what he saw, but he didn't yell or anything. Instead, he just hurried inside the closet and shut the door behind him. At this point the slut didn't really know what to do. His better judgment had flown out the window long ago even though he wasn't all that drunk. And in this situation, he didn't really know what to do other than take advantage. Plus, Shiloh probably wouldn't even remember in the morning. Without a second thought, Casey pinned the blindfolded boy against the free wall of the cluttered closet, going to suck and bite at his neck roughly. It was almost like Casey was on ecstasy; everything about Shiloh was just so soft. The pale flesh of his neck was like baby's skin against Casey's rough, chapped lips and teeth yellowed from smoking.
Shiloh sucked in a breath, his muscles tensing once the rough mouth made contact- toes curling in tightly on the thin carpet. This was surely not the type of surprise that he'd had in mind. Though he honestly h
:EnGarde- Ch 10::EnGarde- Ch 10:3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"En Garde, ready? Fence!" The referee shouted, bringing his hands together.
Ethan rushed forward, surprisingly quick for his size, and Caleb advanced as if he planned to meet him in the middle of the platform. The brunette saw him sink down, a motion he had noted in the last match as preceding an attack for the larger fencer.
The prodigy scrambled backwards as Bradford lunged towards him, the blade rushing past Caleb's mask, so close he could hear it whistle through the air as he reached out and tapped the black haired boy on the shoulder. They stayed frozen like that for a second after the buzzer went off and the ref called out Caleb's point. Caleb finally stood and walked calmly back to his starting line, rapping his blade three times on the ground so quickly that the noise blended into one sound.
Alec watched with wide eyes.
"Wow…" He whispered, Danni sharing the same, awestruck expression. "Ethan doesn't stand a chance!"
Black Rabbit - Part twelveA pale light poured into the dark apartment from a kitchen window, and covered the angsty resident. Casey sat in the grungy kitchen, looking at the rust covered refrigeration and inhaling death from his third cigarette of the morning. The air in the small space was a little bit foggy from this method of stress relief, but there was no way Casey was going to open a window. Since he barely made enough money from being a whore and stealing from his now four boyfriends to pay rent, he never turned the heat on and always wore several layers of clothing. He was barely ever home anyway, so it didn't matter. This was simply a place to keep his belongings in and bring the occasional client home.Black Rabbit - Part twelve3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Cigarette number three was soon diminished to the butt and once it was, the whore rubbed it on the bottom of his plain sage green ceramic ash tray. It was a housewarming gift from boyfriend #2; probably purchased at a garage sale for a dollar. The ash tray honestly looked like something you'd see in the
Black Rabbit - Part elevenNearly a month had passed and not many visits were made really.Black Rabbit - Part eleven3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
It was early December now and Shiloh had been at the library daily. Going there in the early morning and leaving in the late evening; studying had become a crucial thing for him ever since his auntie had come home for November and left a few days before now. She's always been so stern and concrete when it came to the boy's schooling and education. It took about fifteen minutes to get at least halfway home from the now closed library, which was cozy and an old white building, at least in daylight. Now, it would have looked more like a ghost house.
Shiloh said goodbye to the librarian before he left, his caution sign messenger bag shouldered and his mittens pulled over his dainty little fingers as he began walking home, hesitantly. It was soon too dark for him to see the ground anymore, and he could feel little droplets of water sprinkling down onto him. But he didn't take too much heed to it, just water.
Casey, of course, w
Black Rabbit - Part six"But... You said you loved me..." I whimper. He just looks at me with careless eyes; the same eyes that used to show me compassion and instill the greatest joy in me. The eyes that had just wandered across my naked virgin skin last night and took in every detail. He shrugs with the shoulders my arms used to perch on when we hugged.Black Rabbit - Part six3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Listen kid, I just wanted to bang you." He scoffs, almost in a laugh. I couldn't believe that it was the same voice that comforted me softly, saying it wouldn't hurt as he stole my innocence away from me.
I feel the tears come on, but everything else in me is numb. There is a lump in my throat, and I can't speak. It doesn't matter though, since I have no words to say. Without another word, he just walks away. It can't be though. I want to reach out and grab his shirt, maybe pull him back into my world.
"No!" I suddenly yelp. And he turns back. That moment right there was the last time I remember even seeing him. His blonde hair falling ever so perfectly in
If I kiss youWhat if I kiss you?If I kiss you3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What if I pull you close?
And whisper you the truth
Will you say “I love you”?
Because you shine light into this dark room
I wish I could turn the whole world to slow-mo
Just so I could see this beautiful flower bloom
Maybe then you’d see how much you mean to me
I go on my days with my heartfelt thoughts
Warmth is what you’ve brought into my feather heart
And all of this just feels like the start
I know that one day, we will never be set apart