Lesson from some kids. //life.I'm just going to get right into this.Lesson from some kids. //life.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
The other day I was sitting in class rather frustrated with everything and the people around me. I'm in a split class with grade 10's, 11's and us... the 12's, so there was about 15 minutes left in class and i had noticed this grade 11 boy glance over at me every so often.. thinking it was strange i finally exchanged a long look with him, it caught me off guard when all he did was smile at me then turned to leave. Now i've never talked to him, and i know he didn't mean anything with the smile. But the look he gave me almost said: "you look upset today but thats ok, smile with me?" So i smiled back.
That actually changed my outlook on my entire day. Something as small as some kid sharing a smile with me, It kinda made me think about how simple the whole thing was.
Sorry i'm just blabbering my feels towards the world.
Then today a little girl in my other art program was just talking about how excited she is to grow up and graduate and move out an
My name.My name.My name.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
This is something that has been bothering me for a while now.
My name on Deviantart is Dorian (as you would know if you looked on my page)
Now i don't like openly talking about this because everyone has their different views on the world, though most people i know in real life/ and here on the internet are very open with who I am and what I'm about to go through.
/I actually don't think I've ever really said this officially by telling you guys... for the reasons of (1. I dislike having a lot of attention drawn to it and (2. because i have always had you people refer to me as a guy / male / boy / so it has never been a problem.
So to cut it a bit shorter (as most of you know)
I am a Trasman /or/ Transgendered // Gender identity disorder.
please don't ask me a million questions, but i am happy to help if anyone needs someone to talk to about it
I came out to my mom over seven months ago fully and now I am starting to get treatment for it.
SO THE REASON FOR POSTING ALL
tumblrmemelifewhatdon'treadthisahh |Di was bored. whatever. meme. from tumblr. what am i doing with my lifetumblrmemelifewhatdon'treadthisahh |D3 years ago in Personal More Like This
A: Are you a virgin, and who did you loose it too?
nope. and uh... thats personal but kodee .__.
B: 3 biggest pet peeves
1. When people leave windows open at night (unless there is something pretty to look at) 2. When people in the house forget dishes in random places. 3. When i'm spending time with someone and they play on their phone every 5 seconds. 4. I have LOTS more but I don't want to come across as an OCD freak.
C: Celebrity crush?
Adam Lavine, Jony depp, Milla Jovovich, Tom hiddleston and Robert Downey Jr. (I can't even-) PRETTY MUCH EVERY ACTOR IN AVENGERS. JUST.
D: If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
I wouldn't have changed a thing.
E: Do you smoke?
attempted once. gross
F: Do you drink?
ehh... not very often
G: If you had to rank yourself on a scale of 1 to 10, what would you be?
oh god.... uh... what am i ra
Glitter toilet. What is life.I've been working on this toilet project for like 5 hours now.Glitter toilet. What is life.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
What is my life.
Painting my toilet.
It's for a school project but my teacher did a crappy job telling what she wanted from the work so to be a smartass I did a toilet. With fucking sparkles on it.
because I have no actual inspiration to do something serious.
And the last poll I did: Sorry me and Kodee didn't re-do the Q&A video this past weekend. We were busy the whole time. .____. yup. super busy. Though I am trying to get him to do one with me soon.
But just for the record WE DID actually do it, but the sound got fucked up and didn't work QAQ
Yup and submitting art here and there. I am trying to put stuff up I promise.
I have a legit reason for not posting everyday anymore though, it's called: I'm trying to graduate highschool so i can finally go to collage
less than six months to go.
I'm so excited.
- - - - - - - -
K. a quick update on stuff.
so very tired.
KOO WHY 8I tagOHNOES. :iconkkooccaatt:KOO WHY 8I tag3 years ago in Personal More Like This
fufu whyy x'D
I don't really know how to tell you this, but i'm selling myself. I think I realized it when you put cuffs on me in your apartment and I saw you sit on bill clinton. I'm sure you're senile enough to understand That I get turned on by garbage men. I'm returning Your contact book to you, but I'll keep The oil stocks as a memory. You should also know that I Never openly mocked A new life as a clone.
Greetings to your freaky family, Dori. ♥
:iconxxx-styl-fly-xxx: :ICONVampiric-Massacre::iconstringsonabunny: :iconceli-bean: :iconStars-On-The-Ceiling: :iconskyheartx: /
Dear (person who tagged you)
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll ke
It's been awhile.It's been a VERY long time since I made a journal (so i'll sum everything up in a few short simple sentences:It's been awhile.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Went to endocrinologist/ talked about testosterone.
Got pills to stop any other development and to stop periods forever.
Going to see one more doctor next week to confirm I'm ready and want to move forward with testosterone.
Got over being sick. Only to get sick again.
Spent all my weekends at my boyfriends house. (we watched movies, cuddled, ect.)
Did school stuff.
Life hasn't been super exciting |D //but i try.
And I missed one of my pills on saturday night, so i had to take two yesterday.
I've learned now that it is a guarantee that i'm going to throw up at least twice the next day from taking two or more.
DON'T MISS YOUR MEDICATION.
I JUST GOT back from the bathroom actually.
Weird that throwing up inspires me to make a journal.
//thats why i'm still home this morning but i'll go in after first block wh
legasp1. The meaning behind my user namelegasp3 years ago in Personal More Like This
3. Why I love my bestfriend
4. Last time I cried and why
5. Piercings I have
6. Favorite Band
7. Biggest turn off(s)
8. Top 5 (insert subject)
9. Tattoos I want
10. Biggest turn on(s)
12. Ideas of a perfect date
13. Life goal(s)
14. Piercings I want
15. Relationship status
16. Favorite movie
17. A fact about my life
19. Middle name
20. Anything you want to ask
1. My user name? I like sharks alot and 'bites' because my art can be kinda bright and 'in your face' sometimes. Like a bite into your attention XD i don't even-
2. Weakness... Well i actually have alot but the main ones are: being left alone for a long time, being pushed away, and being ignored.
3. Why do i love my best friends? Because they are fucking awesome. //i don't have just one best friend
4. The last time i cryed was because i missed someone really dearly and had a fear that they didn't miss me back.
5. Percings.. //i want moreee/ I have my nose peirc
This journal does and doesn't belongOh my god I want one.This journal does and doesn't belong3 years ago in Personal More Like This
first 2d animationgo to this link to see the little 2D animation I did in school of a sack of flour jumping.first 2d animation3 years ago in Personal More Like This
It took 3 1/2 hours of drawing for about 2 seconds of animation :iconheaddeskplz:
Moment of yo time pls~Hey guys;Moment of yo time pls~3 years ago in Personal More Like This
So after a very long and eye opening conversation with my big sister, it came to my realization that I could seriously help her out with a few things.
My sister Jessica actually had a huge impact on where my art is today, when I was younger I always looked up to her,wanted her approval,
and wanted to make her proud of me as far as art went. But lately as we've been talking and coming to terms with each other, it's come to my attention
that she really needs some motivation and recognition for her own work. She's really good with painting, pencil work,
and on top of that she's REALLY good at crafting with woods, glass, sculptures, etc etc. So I've decided that I should give her a shout out so just
maybe she'll be able to break a little from her shy bubble and
have an audience and so then she could start drawing again!
I care about her alot and know just how much her work means to her, she hasn't posted that much on the internet from what she's don
To start..So the last few days i have been talking to everybody about my transition buisnessTo start.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
what their thoughts and opinions were, since so many people ask me questions and send me notes on here i feel i should talk about this subject again. I do plan on documenting it over another site, maby youtube or tumblr... i don't really know yet.
I really don't want to do it over Deviantart though because i feel that this isn't the place for it, this is just for posting my artwork. Though I will be officially starting T in the next couple months and starting my treatment.
Now my feelings on this subject are;
I don't really feel like i need to draw the attention of the world to this, truthfully i wish i could just do this and no one would know. But the questions and intrest of other people is why i'm posting this journal. I want to help people with my experiences in anyway i can, So when i have everything set up i will post a link to my updates for anyone intrested in asking me questions or t
Oh my god I scare myselfWhen I was little, whenever I saw snow on the ground I'd like have a mini spaz attack and like lose my shit by getting so fucking excited about maybe the chance of stupid Oregon schools thinking that it was too much to drive on. (half an inch, I shit you not.)Oh my god I scare myself3 years ago in Personal More Like This
And now my mum is like "omg Kyul look ders snow outside derp" and I'm just like,
:iconduudewtf: "Cool mam, make me coffee."
So long, inner snow child. You stupid fuck who thought it was a brilliant idea to go run out in the snow naked.
Please read.Back whenever I started hitting the front page of DeviantArt, abit after I'd turned fourteen I admit that my ego popped up a notch. And not just one, mind you. No I was both surprised and in awe that some kid like me could end up taking up space in a place where only masterpieces and loved pieces were seen. And honestly, it stuck out like a sore thumb because seriously, My art isn't that good. I was blindfolded by pride in belief that I could actually go somewhere with what I had. But after awhile, pressure began to set in and I felt that more was expected of me and I couldn't meet those expectations. I'd never been exposed to constructive or negative criticism before that point; so I admit full heartedly that I acted out of line and childishly. Which led to people being angry and hurt by my stupidity, and I am sorry. It should have never happened, and I promise that it won't ever again.Please read.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
So as time pressed on, I began to get desperate,
long day.Had a very long day today, driving out to North Vancouver to see another doctor. (There are so many for what i'm doing it's crazy)long day.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Anyway it went really well, he is in a way my last step before I go back to the endocrinologist.
My mom, him and I talked for about two hours, In that time he basically got my whole back story.... so medical history and family history.
He was very friendly and wanted to get to know me more, So he made another appointment for next thursday.
I'm excited to be able to talk to him again.
I like it when they are easy to talk to. ;n;
Besides that nothing cool has happend to me. I'm not cool enough for cool things. "I'm not cool enough" oh lolololol
Life has been a little bit of pleasent, a pinch of casual, and some slight depression thrown in (because of the time of year and the weather) ANNDD christmas is coming (I am SO putting up a tree this weekend.)
I was just sitting alone on the couch drawing doodles of stuff. things.
then i crawled onl
holy shit"every single one of your favourite characters is trans, each and every last one"holy shit10 months ago in Personal More Like This
what the fuck does this mean
people need to stop acting like being trans is some kind of happy fun fad
because it fucking isnt, its not cool. im trans and i fucking struggle to even look at or think about my body every single day. some days i question why the fuck im letting myself even live like this. im starting weekly injections (im scared of needles too) over the summer of testoserone just so i can feel like MYSELF and so i can feel like i actually HAVE A LIFE because right now i barely feel like i exist as a real person outside of this temporary phase. does this sound like fun to you? i sure fucking hope not.
ive seen so many people that use those pronouns other than the binaries and they/them going around screaming about how theyre "VERIFIED TRANS UWU TRANSPHOBES STAY AWAY! HEHE!" im sorry but imo youre not trans, youre just not within the binary. a non-binary person does not feel as if they shouldv
WoofffaaahI'm happy to say i finally made a tumblr. :'DWoofffaaah3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Yes. Now before some of you freak out i just want to say;
That i'm using my tumblr to post my art //and some uncensord// stuff ALONG with all my Transition updates.
So videos, journalish things, stuff like that.
(SOOO you can get to know me better mabye :'D ask me stuff about my art, about my Transition and stuff in general?
Follow at your own risk,
I might get annoying.
OH AND i'm new to tumblr so ignore my noob-ish-ness
I still need to figure it out. OTL.
http://-sharkbites.tumblr.com/ SO THERE.
So nothing new besides that :I
saw Kodee on the weekend :'D
now it's sunday.
Oh my goodness.It's happened.Oh my goodness.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Thankyou Buck3tBuck3t, this needed to be done. :iconhappytearplz:
AWWEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!THANKS TOO :iconalinoravanity: for this awesome/cute/ bootiful journal skin QuQAWWEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!3 years ago in Personal More Like This
so much love
check them out.
THAT IS ALL.
//stealing this pass-it-on because feelsI rarely do this anymore, but oh my god it hit me right in the feels; via Dashing-Tophat//stealing this pass-it-on because feels2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this.
You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time.
A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don't answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you're asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing,
MY HUGE-ASS DEVIANTART FAMILY.♥:iconxxx-styl-fly-xxx: My Husband/wife and my daughter / son. xDMY HUGE-ASS DEVIANTART FAMILY.4 years ago in Personal More Like This
:iconDementing: - MY CREEPY KOREAN UNCLE
:iconRaccoonFeathers: - MY LITTLE BROTHER
:iconSmaxel: My grandma
:iconMissCyrin: - My uncle
:iconVosska: THE CROTCHETY OLD GRAMPA THAT TELLS ALL THE KIDS INAPPROPRIATE WW2 STORIES AND THAT'S HOW HE MET MY GRAMMA
:iconkkooccaatt: - Adopted Child
:iconGhosted-Amber: - MY FATHER
:iconFluidSketch: - MY crazy cousin Hector (who has a tendency to bring norse gods home from time to time)
:iconDaxosaurus-Rex: - MY IDIOT COSUIN WHO THINKS HE'A A DINOSAUR
:iconFitzish: - My WEIRD SON IN LAW WITH BABY BLUE EYEBROWS
:iconDekira-The-Alpha: - MY SUPERCOLLOFRAGALISTICESPEALODOSHIS EPICALLY AMAZINGLY TROLLY SWAGG BROTHER
:ICONDURPASAURS: - my lovable pedophille father
:iconOtaniArtBackUp: - the little boy who has a crush on me and always trys to talk to me. (AWWWWW <3) *hugs*
:iconDemonLiza: - MY INTERNET MOTHER!
:iconSuicide-AEI: - pet dustbunny
:iconMaddyGriz: - the Pet Cat
Life's been good/ I don't have any other accounts.I haven't made a journal in..Life's been good/ I don't have any other accounts.3 years ago in Personal More Like This
//gosh who knows/
*updating my life quickly*
So to start off summer has been great, though i have only two more weeks until i start my last year of highschool c:
I've spent lots of time with Kodee and other close friends
(i wasn't a loner this summer yey :'D)
Life has generally been pretty good.
AND i'm going to add this in here for everyone just because i said i would:
I AM NOT :iconstringsonabunny: OR :iconxxx-styl-fly-xxx:
(I have no idea why some people would even think that...)
you bitches are crazy. But this is just a note to the people bothering my friends and my boyfriend
This is my only really active account that i use. There is no conspiracy. Really.
SO *SHARK-BITES IS THE ONLY ACCOUNT I POST ART TO.
My name is Dorian and i am just one person xD
I am not Kodee Styl-Fly
And i am not Daniel StringsOnABunny
Though they are both cool cats and you should go check them out. c:
SO. DO WE ALL HAVE THAT CLEAR?
SO YES. My
over 3,000 you wonderful people3,097 watchers....over 3,000 you wonderful people3 years ago in Personal More Like This
I think I just died alitte of happyness.
Alright so I'm just going to calmly write this journal and- OH MY GOSH THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH. That's crazy. I feels so loved thank you all a million times 8"D
I must draw a pretty thankful picture for all of you once I gain the power of my tablet back
(and I discovered I can write journals from my phone = YEY)
BUT AGAIN THANK YOU SO MUCH. :iconluvluvplz:
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And on another note. My cousin just had her baby afew hours ago :'D little baby Jackson. /Boy/
I can't wait to take pictures and hold him and love him forever. Ahh
It's 2:25 am Im sitting here in the dark hoping I'll get to see kodee tomorrow.
It's been over a week. If I wait another week I'll kill someone.
2:27am FULL OF EXCITED FEELS.... Or that just might be hunger....
But its too late to eat.... Is it? VEGETABLES
And ouch my ears (my mom's friend tanis gave me cool wood peg tribal earing things //that ma
CONTEST with hight point prizes!No art for prizes this time(have to finish todolist), 8D But points!CONTEST with hight point prizes!3 years ago in Personal More Like This
I wanted to hold a contest includingMizAmy's Garth Because she needs more love for being such a sweet friend <3
And garth is awesome!
You have to include sauce and garth.
Heres the size diffrence
- Do some kind of art of them having fun.
They are very good friends.
- I will judge together with MizAmy
- you can draw whatever, we will chose the ones we like the best.
- Contest EXTENDED, ends September the 7th
To see all the entries, go here http://griffsnuff.deviantart.com/favourites/51146066