Blocking the thoughts"it's all a joke"
I want to go running for the danger.
"You know you need it"
I shake the thoughts away.
"your not really strong"
I turn my music up.
"Go ahead and grab it"
I throw it across my room.
"The pain is your medicine"
I turn the music up louder.
I pick my phone up,
And remember what i know is true.
Watching You LeaveYou announced where you were goingWatching You Leave3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
my heart stopped and tears like a waterfall were flowing
I didn't want you to go that far away
I was not ready for this to come into play...
You told me that you'll visit as much as you can
This wasn't what I had in mind, not this plan!
I hated watching you when you were packing,
it only reminded me over and over you were leaving.
You spend lots of time with friends and family
you might be leaving, but you're still a Rockey.
I love you to death, but you need to fly away
yet I know I'm not the only one who wished you'd stay.
I grew up my whole life looking up to you,
and now you have left me feeling blue.
I keep thinking you'll turn up at home,
but I'm not the only one thinking this, I'm not alone.
I want to hug you again and see you smile,
but I can't do any of that for a while.
I am glad you're doing just fine,
and I will get to see you in time.
I don't know exactly when I'll see you,
but I know that when I do
I probably won't stop talking
Unfamiliar FeelingThe mirror and I meet,Unfamiliar Feeling3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's quiet and I can hear my heart beat.
In my heart is a feeling that is unfamiliar,
I don't think it's something a doctor can cure.
It's actually very pleasing,
It's something I never thought I'd hear myself saying.
You will look delighted,
It's something some people may have pleaded.
In the past I would have made the feeling leave,
But lately I've started to believe.
It's made me cheerful,
So out loud i have to admit "I'm beautiful."
Not enough for herWhy won't the tears go away?Not enough for her3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Expecialy at this time of the day,
Where is the sharp friend when i need it?
Why can't i stop?
I wish she'd stop yelling at me.
And leave me be.
I wish i could be happy.
"He dosn't deserve you."
Yeah he does, that's your opinion.
"He used to do drugs."
He has been sober for 5 years.
"You do nothing right"
I know you tell me every night.
I can't breathe in your presenceMy heart stops beating,I can't breathe in your presence3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As he walks by,
I don't think I'm breathing,
I realized we never said goodbye.
I close my eyes,
And I walk away,
And hold my head up and try not to cry,
I tell myself "everything's going to be okay."
I need to move on,
I need to understand that there is nothing more,
To him I am gone,
That's it, nothing more.
VerilyVerily must I reconcile to the foreboding boundaries of hypocrisyVerily2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To dwindle in the insubordination of the damned souls of corrupted men
For their goals to reshape the utopia we have all been brought up to believe
To show we have gratitude past the groveling beggar, or the traveling conman
To men tucked away within gold-plated structures, who grow fat on the plight of others
Leaving their mark of their existence through towering statues, and clean-cut stone
The memories will fade when these are torn form established society
The walls shall not hold
The near and dear purchased objects worth nothing more than ash
Not a cent in hand when faced to pay the ferryman
Statues mean nothing with diminished barricades
The merciless killer softened against the mental and physical torment of now crumbling worldly desires
Men are no longer men
They are savages
Earning command, earning worthless privileges
Only respect lasts amongst self-gratifying souls
To be gained by the man fighting the good figh
The DamnedSlowly stepping, past the dayThe Damned2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Plagued in darkness, I will stay
For good and evil battling within the perdition land
Creeping past the scorched floor
Missing bliss found nevermore
Defiant, against our Father and Lord I will stand
Seeing insanities continuing spite
Its hands, pulling me from the light
Under only evils plight, and unbreakable command
Grinning softly in my presents
Brings forth a darkened essence
To only such my adolescence can withstand
With its long and fickle fingers
Sharpened tips, gently lingers
Upon my frail fragile figure, the darkness spans
With be it such an evil way
To not see the light of day
For only he to stay under such command
I asked of thee past a caught tongue
"Why let it be? Why the young?"
For he to look at me "To send the Damned."
With such retort, I reply
"Such evil shall be nigh."
Presenting blackened eyes "Said such with no command."
Forming a potent felicity
As bliss threatens insanity
To find bliss found nevermore in such a land
For good and evil
Crash LandingI had a heart,Crash Landing4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I had a key.
I didn't entrust it
I thought this
so my wings,
But i took
to come and
I crashed to the floor,
my heart breaking.
I will wait for you"I will wait for you"I will wait for you3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A whisper from him
His dieing sentence
Said to her
A love's promise
She watches in horror
As his eyes leak bleakness
His chest vibrates no movement
His mouth echoes no breath
"I love you"
She whispers silently
To the love she has lost
To the life she must live
Forever without him
Forever thinking of him
Monster called MandyWhat is this?Monster called Mandy3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Who have i become?
I am a monster.
You ask for the old me,
I don't know what happened to her,
hidden in a black hole.
You scream at me,
Asking why i'd do such a thing,
All i can say is hurt has built me up,
Into this unknown person i call Mandy.
Bleeding outOh woe is me,Bleeding out2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
This heart beats in my chest blackened,
The scar tissue showing clearly,
The cuts lie deep in the fabric of its being,
Emotion like blood pours forth through the open wound,
Oh woe is me,
How does a shattered heart still beat?
I feel the calluses forming,
They turn my heart to stone,
Oh woe is me,
This venom in my veins,
The dark clouds of fate hang overheard,
I bleed out
She has those hushed winter lungs"Silence equals Death"She has those hushed winter lungs3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Gash out my confessions,
push me to the edge of misery
so I can screech out the truth
before my voice attacks my essence.
I made my heart weak and left my
eyes stained on my shirt; I've
accumulated verses of agony, but
my vocals cords are tangled
You never stop sinking your
resistance into my neck and
now I've grown silent & frozen
because I murdered myself behind
walls of memories.
Darkness (2)Darkness (2)2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I softly stepped past the glimmering water and into the moonlight, causing my view to become clear.
Revealing the true evil around me.
“You have piqued my curiosity.”
I turned to the darkest corner of the forest to see nothing.
Is it hiding from me?
What am I of a threat?
Laughter echoed through the dark forest, shaking the tree roots.
Stay strong. I told myself. This place is fabricated, as real as a nightmare.
I stepped out of the moonlight, and recited over and over in my mind;
Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.
There was no laughter,
no wales of agony,
no menacing eyes staring at me through the adjacent bush.
The silence was, unsettling.
Surely a forest will have some reply.
The melody of the setting night.
I looked back to the moon, to see it became suppressed by a nearing cloud.
Before hearing another voice.
“Let it be known to all, your God has turned a blind eye to this place.
And as you will scream in agony, they will fall on deaf ears.
Thy rod and thy s
Beaten AnimalI'm a dog that's been beaten..Beaten Animal2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
An animal, so long neglected
extend your hand to help
and I'll more likely bite it
than take it in good faith.
Because a beaten animal
knows only it's past
and you can't run from that.
A beaten animal cannot forget
because the wrongs are engraved
in it's soul.
I'll always flinch
when a hand moves too fast
I'll always growl
when something gets too close
I am a broken animal at the core.
And so I smiled for you today but..
never forget the teeth behind them
never forget the high voltage,
unstable mind sparking away inside.
In my head it'll be a war
a war to give you my trust
but in the depths
lies an internal law
that screams all trust is false.
All trust is illusion.
All trust is a lie.
And we know lies.
I'll be moody
I'll be volatile
And give a look to kill.
I'm high maintenance and I know it
I try my hardest, I truly do.
but it's hard to trust those
who've beaten you before
And you have, haven't you?
Can everything still be alright?Can things stil be alright?Can everything still be alright?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's makin me think all night.
"you dont need them" she says,
i know its a lie.
The tears run down as i cry.
Mother laughs as it is a joke,
It makes me want to give her a little choke.
I press the razor down to cut deep,
but not deep enough.
Blood comes as fast as a bullet,
The bittersweet feeling i get,
maybe i should cool it,
before my parents start to fret.
It's running down my hip.
I want to run away,
"i love you" she begins to say.
Nothing close to the truth.
She knows nothing of todays youth.
Nothing can make me love her,
Not even a stupid cure.
Therapy wont help me,
She will never make me happy.
She never seems to care.
I cant breathe in her air.
My hair covers my blue eye,
Hiding the tears i cry,
All she ever tells me is a lie.
A LifeA life full of fearsA Life3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
a life full of hatred
what is the point on living....
this cruel life anyways
All the memories
haunt me in the night
the depression takes over
and the pain begins to rise
A life full of pain
a life full of hurt
a life i never enjoyed
a life that should end
Nothing to feel
No hope to go on
a life that I always wanted
was to end this Life altogether.....
Butterfly Kisses kiss my scars, babyButterfly Kisses3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
because i’m a bleeding heart
just promise me one thing,
please miss me when we’re apart.
Stay Strong~I need you...Stay Strong~3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Don't you see,
Without you I am nothing...
I am without purpose...
So Stay strong, for me...
Hold My Hand.We walk side by sideHold My Hand.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
down the sidewalk.
We're so close,
our hips brush together.
Out of the corner of my eye,
I see you staring
and I start to blush.
Our arms are dangling at our sides,
and I can feel the electric
jump back and forth
between our fingers.
I will you to reach for my hand
and hold it tight.
I glance over at you again,
but this time
I can't take my eyes off of you;
You're so perfect.
I take a leap of faith
and intertwine my fingers with yours.
You begin to blush,
and I know that I want to be here
for the rest of my life.