Blocking the thoughts"it's all a joke"
I want to go running for the danger.
"You know you need it"
I shake the thoughts away.
"your not really strong"
I turn my music up.
"Go ahead and grab it"
I throw it across my room.
"The pain is your medicine"
I turn the music up louder.
I pick my phone up,
And remember what i know is true.
Watching You LeaveYou announced where you were goingWatching You Leave3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
my heart stopped and tears like a waterfall were flowing
I didn't want you to go that far away
I was not ready for this to come into play...
You told me that you'll visit as much as you can
This wasn't what I had in mind, not this plan!
I hated watching you when you were packing,
it only reminded me over and over you were leaving.
You spend lots of time with friends and family
you might be leaving, but you're still a Rockey.
I love you to death, but you need to fly away
yet I know I'm not the only one who wished you'd stay.
I grew up my whole life looking up to you,
and now you have left me feeling blue.
I keep thinking you'll turn up at home,
but I'm not the only one thinking this, I'm not alone.
I want to hug you again and see you smile,
but I can't do any of that for a while.
I am glad you're doing just fine,
and I will get to see you in time.
I don't know exactly when I'll see you,
but I know that when I do
I probably won't stop talking
Not enough for herWhy won't the tears go away?Not enough for her3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Expecialy at this time of the day,
Where is the sharp friend when i need it?
Why can't i stop?
I wish she'd stop yelling at me.
And leave me be.
I wish i could be happy.
"He dosn't deserve you."
Yeah he does, that's your opinion.
"He used to do drugs."
He has been sober for 5 years.
"You do nothing right"
I know you tell me every night.
Unfamiliar FeelingThe mirror and I meet,Unfamiliar Feeling3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's quiet and I can hear my heart beat.
In my heart is a feeling that is unfamiliar,
I don't think it's something a doctor can cure.
It's actually very pleasing,
It's something I never thought I'd hear myself saying.
You will look delighted,
It's something some people may have pleaded.
In the past I would have made the feeling leave,
But lately I've started to believe.
It's made me cheerful,
So out loud i have to admit "I'm beautiful."
I can't breathe in your presenceMy heart stops beating,I can't breathe in your presence3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As he walks by,
I don't think I'm breathing,
I realized we never said goodbye.
I close my eyes,
And I walk away,
And hold my head up and try not to cry,
I tell myself "everything's going to be okay."
I need to move on,
I need to understand that there is nothing more,
To him I am gone,
That's it, nothing more.
VerilyVerily must I reconcile to the foreboding boundaries of hypocrisyVerily3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To dwindle in the insubordination of the damned souls of corrupted men
For their goals to reshape the utopia we have all been brought up to believe
To show we have gratitude past the groveling beggar, or the traveling conman
To men tucked away within gold-plated structures, who grow fat on the plight of others
Leaving their mark of their existence through towering statues, and clean-cut stone
The memories will fade when these are torn form established society
The walls shall not hold
The near and dear purchased objects worth nothing more than ash
Not a cent in hand when faced to pay the ferryman
Statues mean nothing with diminished barricades
The merciless killer softened against the mental and physical torment of now crumbling worldly desires
Men are no longer men
They are savages
Earning command, earning worthless privileges
Only respect lasts amongst self-gratifying souls
To be gained by the man fighting the good figh
The DamnedSlowly stepping, past the dayThe Damned2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Plagued in darkness, I will stay
For good and evil battling within the perdition land
Creeping past the scorched floor
Missing bliss found nevermore
Defiant, against our Father and Lord I will stand
Seeing insanities continuing spite
Its hands, pulling me from the light
Under only evils plight, and unbreakable command
Grinning softly in my presents
Brings forth a darkened essence
To only such my adolescence can withstand
With its long and fickle fingers
Sharpened tips, gently lingers
Upon my frail fragile figure, the darkness spans
With be it such an evil way
To not see the light of day
For only he to stay under such command
I asked of thee past a caught tongue
"Why let it be? Why the young?"
For he to look at me "To send the Damned."
With such retort, I reply
"Such evil shall be nigh."
Presenting blackened eyes "Said such with no command."
Forming a potent felicity
As bliss threatens insanity
To find bliss found nevermore in such a land
For good and evil
Solace [Levi x Reader]Solace [Levi x Reader]1 year ago in Drama More Like This
It was with a detached sort of yearning that Levi thought of you. You were a constant in his life, a constant he felt he had perhaps taken for granted all these years.
He stared solemnly down into the dark dregs circling the inside of his teacup. The taste was still in his mouth; the dull tang of black tea, with the faint aroma of bergamot. It was how you always prepared his tea, every single day. But it tasted bad now, like there was a sour bitterness that he couldn't quite place.
It seems that, too, was something he had taken for granted.
The breath that passed his lips was shallow and tired, like the last breath of a dying man who had nothing left to live for. He let the tilted china cup fall back in it's saucer with a light tink, before allowing the dull throb of silence to slowly press onto his ear drums.
Several sharp raps came from the door.
'Levi!' It was Hanji, and her godforsaken voice on the other side. 'Meeti
Crash LandingI had a heart,Crash Landing4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I had a key.
I didn't entrust it
I thought this
so my wings,
But i took
to come and
I crashed to the floor,
my heart breaking.
I will wait for you"I will wait for you"I will wait for you3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A whisper from him
His dieing sentence
Said to her
A love's promise
She watches in horror
As his eyes leak bleakness
His chest vibrates no movement
His mouth echoes no breath
"I love you"
She whispers silently
To the love she has lost
To the life she must live
Forever without him
Forever thinking of him
Don't Give me a Reason to Sell My SoulDon't give me a reason to sell my soul, she should have said.Don't Give me a Reason to Sell My Soul5 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
Instead, she just stared at the man on the screen in front of her, the man with his long, drooping skin, tired eyes, haggard face and balding head. He was hardly the admiral we had once known. She said "I don't have any desire to do it," and then quickly, "but I'll follow my orders, if you give them to me."
There was fright in her eyes. She gripped the edges of the captain's chair and bit her cheek, fighting off inevitable tears. But not here. She couldn't cry now. People relied on her to be strong. What people she wasn’t sure, but someone, somewhere, surely. She had to believe that.
"Those are your orders," the man said, sinking heavily into his chair. "I trust you'll carry them out."
She snapped off communications with ill-hid despair. Her blonde hair, thin and almost colorless, hung around her face like a fallen halo, fading with every sin. Her lips were tight, her cheeks drawn, and her eyes stared out of bru
Monster called MandyWhat is this?Monster called Mandy3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Who have i become?
I am a monster.
You ask for the old me,
I don't know what happened to her,
hidden in a black hole.
You scream at me,
Asking why i'd do such a thing,
All i can say is hurt has built me up,
Into this unknown person i call Mandy.
Only Fooling MyselfOnly Fooling Myself3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Who am I kidding,
It's not gonna turn out.
I mean, what was I thinking?
My idiocy makes me want to shout.
I want to make things like they were,
But now I see that will never happen.
Of his choice, he is so sure.
And my thoughts now flattened.
I still wish I could go back,
Maybe change how it all went down.
Now the past is colored in shades of grey and black,
I must forget, bury everything deep inside the ground.
I'm only hurting myself
By thinking I could make things right.
But this is all just damaging to oneself,
Because nothing can change it, try as I might.
Let's be honest here,
You have moved on to bigger and better things.
Despite all my fear,
I just have to go with what life brings.
It's time to face the fact,
Nothing I say or do will change how he acts.
The only way to stop him from hurting himself
Is for me to suck it up and finally quit fooling myself.
Daddy! Levi x Mommy! Reader - Trick or TreatDaddy! Levi x Mommy! Reader - Trick or Treat 1 year ago in Romance More Like This
"Mommy! I need your help!"
You smiled as you turned around and saw your daughter running up to you, her costume half on, half off. "I thought Daddy was helping you get ready?"
"He was," she pouted, "But he doesn't know what hes doing!"
"Its not exactly my forte..." your husband stood in the doorway to the bedroom, arms folded over his chest, his usual bored expression painted on his face.
"Wait, your telling me that you've never put a dress on before?? But I thought you were a princess in a past life??" you giggled, joking at his expense.
His face darkened into a glare, "Don't test me, woman."
"Daddies a princess?!" your little girl gasped, taking what you'd said to be truth.
"Oh god damnit." Levi face palmed, turning around and storming off into the bedroom.
You just laughed at your daughters innocence as you helped put the rest of her costume on.
"Are you gonna get alot of candy?" you asked her,smoothing out her hair.
"Yeah! Ten bags full!!" she raised her arms in the air, ge
Can everything still be alright?Can things stil be alright?Can everything still be alright?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's makin me think all night.
"you dont need them" she says,
i know its a lie.
The tears run down as i cry.
Mother laughs as it is a joke,
It makes me want to give her a little choke.
I press the razor down to cut deep,
but not deep enough.
Blood comes as fast as a bullet,
The bittersweet feeling i get,
maybe i should cool it,
before my parents start to fret.
It's running down my hip.
I want to run away,
"i love you" she begins to say.
Nothing close to the truth.
She knows nothing of todays youth.
Nothing can make me love her,
Not even a stupid cure.
Therapy wont help me,
She will never make me happy.
She never seems to care.
I cant breathe in her air.
My hair covers my blue eye,
Hiding the tears i cry,
All she ever tells me is a lie.
Bleeding outOh woe is me,Bleeding out3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
This heart beats in my chest blackened,
The scar tissue showing clearly,
The cuts lie deep in the fabric of its being,
Emotion like blood pours forth through the open wound,
Oh woe is me,
How does a shattered heart still beat?
I feel the calluses forming,
They turn my heart to stone,
Oh woe is me,
This venom in my veins,
The dark clouds of fate hang overheard,
I bleed out
Daddy's Little GirlDaddy's little girl is getting put away; in the ground is now where she laysDaddy's Little Girl3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
He can't hold back the tears as they pour out from his eyes
As he thinks of all the reasons his daughters not alive
He jumps into her grave and cradles her in his arms
He didn't want this world to cause her any bit of harm
His little girl's not breathing, her heart now doesn't beat
He's holding her tight knowing, he'll never be complete
Everyone watches him cradle his dead girl,
Knowing he won't survive much longer in this world
It takes all of his strength to get out of her grave
And to listen to all the support all of his friends gave
He just couldn't believe he'd never see her happy face again
And he felt his life has come to a sudden end
He watched them close the coffin and pile the dirt up high
And inside every feeling wanted him to die
When everyone had left and he was on his own
He thought of all the days he was going to be alone
He missed his daughter so much; it hurt to take a single breath
And he cou
[Daddy!Levi x Mommy!Reader] Tricksy?Today was your son's first day at school. You want everything to be perfect so you woke up at around 4 a.m. to prepare. You double-checked everything he needed; lunch, school stuffs like his uniform, pencils, paper, etc. You also cooked bacons, eggs, franks and burgers so that he could choose whatever he wants for breakfast.[Daddy!Levi x Mommy!Reader] Tricksy?1 year ago in General Fiction More Like This
"Breakfast is ready!"
Levi was the first to come down. He placed his hand on the small of you back, pulling you to him and pressing his lips onto yours. When he pulled back, he rested his forehead to yours and mumbled a "good morning".
"Mom. How do I put this on?" You looked behind Levi to see your son, Eren, the tie on his neck was a complete disaster.
You smiled at him. "Aw. Come here, baby."
Eren approached you. A pout can be seen on his small lips. "Don't call me baby, mommy. What would Mikasa think if she heard you calling me your baby? I'm all grown-up now."
"You'll always be my baby." You said, grinning at the adorable face your son was making.
He groaned in
Darkness (2)Darkness (2)3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I softly stepped past the glimmering water and into the moonlight, causing my view to become clear.
Revealing the true evil around me.
“You have piqued my curiosity.”
I turned to the darkest corner of the forest to see nothing.
Is it hiding from me?
What am I of a threat?
Laughter echoed through the dark forest, shaking the tree roots.
Stay strong. I told myself. This place is fabricated, as real as a nightmare.
I stepped out of the moonlight, and recited over and over in my mind;
Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.
There was no laughter,
no wales of agony,
no menacing eyes staring at me through the adjacent bush.
The silence was, unsettling.
Surely a forest will have some reply.
The melody of the setting night.
I looked back to the moon, to see it became suppressed by a nearing cloud.
Before hearing another voice.
“Let it be known to all, your God has turned a blind eye to this place.
And as you will scream in agony, they will fall on deaf ears.
Thy rod and thy s
Beaten AnimalI'm a dog that's been beaten..Beaten Animal3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
An animal, so long neglected
extend your hand to help
and I'll more likely bite it
than take it in good faith.
Because a beaten animal
knows only it's past
and you can't run from that.
A beaten animal cannot forget
because the wrongs are engraved
in it's soul.
I'll always flinch
when a hand moves too fast
I'll always growl
when something gets too close
I am a broken animal at the core.
And so I smiled for you today but..
never forget the teeth behind them
never forget the high voltage,
unstable mind sparking away inside.
In my head it'll be a war
a war to give you my trust
but in the depths
lies an internal law
that screams all trust is false.
All trust is illusion.
All trust is a lie.
And we know lies.
I'll be moody
I'll be volatile
And give a look to kill.
I'm high maintenance and I know it
I try my hardest, I truly do.
but it's hard to trust those
who've beaten you before
And you have, haven't you?