DrowningDrowningDrowning8 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Im not drowning in water. Im drowning in the taunts and torments of my inner demon. My mind, my very refuge, no longer belongs to me. But no one notices. I just put on a fake smile and pretend to listen or watch or whatever it is they want me to do this time. Everyone thinks Im just fine. Maybe a little strange, but fine.
Innocence is something I barely remember. Im not normal, Im not okay. And no one can tell. Dont they ever see me leaving? Day in and day out, Ive been able to leave at any hour, and return at any hour. But nobody asks me where I was or what I was doing. I could just walk out and never return, just throw myself off some goddamn skyscraper and I dont think that theyll ever notice, until someone finds my cold, bloody body and tells them, "Hey did you know about that freak? He kicked the bucket." Yeah, I can already hear it.
Maybe I look fine on the outsi
My Problem Is...I've always been a friend of darkness..My Problem Is...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Darkness have found me.. Found me pieces
Gazed into me with big cloudy black holes..
Embraced me with cold thorny shadows..
Unclothed me from my virginity..
Wrapped me with shabby layer of shame..
Took away all the pulse..
Wiped off what I thought I owned..
Sucked out all the sanity..
Licked me and numbed me..
Injected me with a rough touch of evil..
Flooded me with sickness..
Shaped me with hate..
Adorned me with sharp spikes..
Broke me down in deep silence..
Smothered me into the unknown..
Sunken in endless emptiness..
No escape no salvation..
No resort no hope..
Regret and remorse..
Grief and agony..
Pain and suffer..
Tears and scars..
Is what darkness gave to me...
are my words poetic enough for you?maybe not.are my words poetic enough for you?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
because i will never be the fire-hearted girl with remedial stardust lips,
dancing with the astral wolves that hunt beneath her moon-kissed skin,
with the courage to plant wilting lilacs into every crippled soul she finds.
but what if they were?
then i would be the ink blots coating the archives of humankind,
the fractured jewel tucked away in a catastrophic dragon's chest,
and the lyric every mismatched bone engraves into their marrow.
The voice called himI feel so cold,The voice called him2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
As she lashes out again,
A sharpness in her tone.
Why won't someone help?
My ears begin to ring.
I can't cry anymore.
The words lose their sting.
I know I am nothing.
I don't need her to say so.
I already want to leave.
I'm fighting the urge to go.
She can't hurt me.
The strongest hate is within.
The voice that loves to torture.
The voice I call "him"
He tells me to die,
that no one wants me here.
I know that he's right.
I shed another tear.
I'd leave but I'm afraid.
Afraid to go to hell.
So I listen to him,
and curl up in my shell.
Never Bow Down. (Failure In Denial)Your poisoned words are your weapon of choice,Never Bow Down. (Failure In Denial)2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Paralyzing me with just the sound of your voice.
Whispering your lies and getting under my skin,
But I can see right through you 'cause you're so paper thin!
Are you really so heartless?
Behind your lies is there any truth?
Can you tell I don't want this!?
I will never bow down to you!
You say across my skin is where my short comings compile,
And that my scars remind you I'm a failure in denial!
No matter what you've always had the upper hand,
Holding me under for reasons none understand!
Are you really so heartless?
Behind your lies is there any truth?
Can you tell I don't want this!?
And that I'll never
HeartbrokenI feel like Ive been brokenHeartbroken8 years ago in Teen More Like This
The water I can feel are now blurring my eyes
Tears . I let them fall, theres nothing I can do now
I cuddle myself in the dark corner; no one is going to notice me here
Im a loner, a loser no one likes me ..
The feel of being heartbroken was unexplainable
The pain, the sadness the love that is lost
I didnt want to live
I was heartbroken once I dont want to love anymore
Was it such a crime to love? Why was I tortured with such misery?
I feel so weak now, I wanna die
Theres no point of living
I feel so cold, like no life is through me
My heart is pumping slowly
I am heartbroken ..
I then curled myself to sleep
Im giving up now and thats the last of me.
myths and the things that really matterin a season of wavering willmyths and the things that really matter2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and ripe regret, I was born
too old - into a fragile world
of butterfly feathers and
springtime secrets, tied tenderly
around hollow hallucinations and
carefully called a "dream"
they promise you things
when you are too young to
understand the monsters under
your bed are really fragments
of you, left to disintegrate
in the dark. they say: you
will touch the world, you will
know the stars by name, you
will be our deliverance from
all the things we were not
you will be strong.
but they don't know, no,
I am a yard sale:
I sold my heart to a boy
with lilting lies and eyes
that looked human
I lent my bones to an
I whispered my wishes away
down empty wells, and only heard
the shallow echo of myself
I sent my lungs down the
river – gasping for forgiveness
and I gave my voice
to the ocean, in exchange
for a little sleep
when they finally see me, I say
with a sawdust screech, I am
not all these pieces of me--
I have to believe somewhere
behind the com
Life of a fallen angelI am a fallen angel,Life of a fallen angel2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I fell from the skies of
and landed on Hell.
I was lost,
until I met you,
you were a perfect weapon
You and I were unbroken,
we even decided to
set the world on fire.....
Until the day betrayed
I was so upset that
I even lost my wings,
In the end I realised
that you were using me,
and for that I will never
let you seal my coffin.
I hope you remember
my last goodbye,
because that is the last
good memory you will
I hope you burn in your home,
in the fires of Hell.
HeartbrokenI lent you my heartHeartbroken5 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
and you let it fall
It didnt bounce
like it was a ball
Sometimes I wonder:
how is it able to beat at all?
from so many times that I have
heard it fall
I hope you know
What you have done
That most of my love
is forever gone
To Die Without A NameDon't you think it's awfulTo Die Without A Name2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
To die without a name?
To have no one remember you
Because we're all the same?
You're just another dead body
In a large mass grave
Thousands upon thousands
And nobody was saved
You're nothing now
Just skin and bones
With a story
That no one knows
You're dust on the wind
Ash in the air
No one can see you
Not one person cares
Now you're gone
And no one can say
That you loathed and you loved
And you lived everyday
Heartbrokensilent tears cascade down my faceHeartbroken6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I breathe your name
A whisper, a sigh, i cry
How was i to know that kiss would be my last
How was i to know i would never again find sanctuary in your arms
I long for sleep but it never comes, no relief
The grasping, aching pain in my chest never subsides
I turn away
Closing my eyes to remember
then die a little inside
i thought we were meant to be together,
against all the odds
How wrong was i?
A pang of jealousy, a twisted smile
The trigger takes on many forms
All i really want to say is,
i love you.
HeartbrokenTears stain the pillowHeartbroken9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And a sad soul
Looks for comfort
Reading what was
The source of comfort
For other lost ones
She finds little comfort
She cries out
Begging for love
For human emotions
Begging to feel
Wrap around her tightly
Giving her comfort
In her tears
But arms of love,
Leaving her even more alone
Hiding from reality
She sits in her world
Wallowing in her tears
A heartbroken soul
Waiting for hope
To come back to her
Hades' OathO Persephone, Queen of my Shadows,Hades' Oath2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
my eternal yearning, my way out of the darkness.
Life blooms from your forest-green eyes.
Flowers open from each touch, each contact,
that your marvelous being has with Mother Earth.
How I long for this relation,
even my earlier bland blue eyes sees light.
My previously hollow and idle heart is now moving.
I'm parched with thirst for hearing your name come over my lips,
a thirst that not even the Oceans of the Underworld can slake.
My tree-headed guardian, nor my greedy ferryman,
can stop my hunt for life, ecstasy; you.
For you my love, I will leave my realm,
I will once again wander in the land of the mortal,
feel the burning sun and hear the harsh sound of man.
You will be my Queen,
and I your King.
Your zest for life has awakened the Lord of Death,
and your reward will be sweetened pomegranate pips.
O Persephone, Queen of my Shadows.
insanityI’m hollow, I’m brokeninsanity2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I’m bleeding, I’m dead.
My mind keeps on spinning
Something’s wrong with my head
Insanity maybe? Or maybe it’s more
I’m hurting, I’m dying
My heart’s become sore
I’m laughing, I’m pleading
I’m asking for help
I’m screaming, I’m yelling
I’m starting to yelp
Can you hear me? Am I here?
Am I still alive?
Am I scared? Am I in fear?
Will I somehow survive?
Is there something inside me?
Ripping me apart?
Is there something wrong?
Something wrong with my heart?
Is it beating? Is it even there?
Is my mind running off?
Do you even care?
Am I alone? Or can you see?
Can see my misery?
Why am I grinning,
When I am in pain?
Am I still me?
Am I still sane?
Do I know you? Do I not?
Who am I? Cause I forgot
Am I a loser? A nothing? Or even a zero?
Am I your friend? Your lover? Your hero?
Am I shadow? A figment? Or your imagination?
Am I the cause of all your frustration?
Do you hate me? Do
About HateWhen hate is a fire, then it's burning cold.About Hate2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
All consuming, raging uncontrolled.
Hot tears are burning in eyes and on skin,
Unable to calm the storm within.
The consumptive flame turns from red to white.
Burns down borders between wrong and right,
Disoriented reason leads astray.
Lined with ash and debris is the way.
Beneath the heat of raging fire is ice,
For firstly the cold did heat entice.
When freezing the heart in its icy grip.
The shell won't melt, won't break or rip.
Rise of the wish - Chapter 1Rise of the wish - Chapter 12 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
This life began with a wish.
The first breath into my lungs was like stardust, weaving its way through my lungs, and exhaling a shimmering power. My eyes snapped open and I sat up, blue hair falling in front of my vision as I gasped, my breath ragged as I took in my first initial breaths. After my heart as stopped pounding in my chest from the shook, I felt moonbeams hit my face and I looked up. The moon captured my gaze, and for a moment, I was lost in its light. It is strange thing, the moon. Shinning so brightly in the sky, it acted as the sun in the night. Although I could not remember the last time I had looked at the moon, I recognized it immediately.
A voice whispered a name, and I looked around, wondering if the voice was merely the wind, calling from one wisp to another. I stood up, suddenly noticing that there was light on my hands. Tiny stars danced across my arms and shoulders, emanating a pale glow on
Cerberus and SiriusIn the nighttime I were glancing,Cerberus and Sirius2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to the heavens, softly dancing,
where the starlight lay entrancing
thoughts within my mind.
Sirius, I spied in wonder,
the brightest light we live here under;
the Dog Star clad in wildest splendor.
Then there came again to enter,
another thought within my mind.
All the ground below is hiding,
shadow depths so filled with dying.
All those realms so secret sighing;
Hades' hound stirs with his crying:
Cerberus, that beast of thunder,
with three heads to tear asunder
any who might seek to wander
to that starless hidden realm.
Dwelling on these myths, I question'd
if in fable they were lessen'd,
in their act of giving lessons?
For, in truth, there is but this:
a choice betwix two canine myths.
Each journeys as inclines his pith,
to Cerberus or Sirius.
Shall we, our daylight seek to squander,
to succor Cerberus whole lies there under?
Or shall we forsake our fears to clamber;
surmount Sirius, and heavens plunder?
In which hard task shall we persist?
HeartbrokenHeartbroken.Heartbroken10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Millions of pieces,
Can I pick them up?
Do I want to?
I loved you.
I still do,
But it never would have worked.
In a dark room,
In a dark chair,
What have I done?
Watching my blood drain,
Dangerous and foreboding,
Red and black.
Please before its too late.
I miss you;
It will never be the same,
Will you see me in a different light?
Now that you've seen my darker side?
My blood drains slowly,
Now its time to say goodbye....