Red ScreamsSmiling at me, shiny silver teeth
Begging my wrist
For one chaste
Grinning at me, that evil smirk
Making my heart pound
So sharp so
I know I
And really I
Arm’s too full of blood
From attempts to
Join the stars.
Photo album of
My diary of my
I am still
Free, Big Hero 6, and Another ExtractGood news; if/when I release The Girl Who Collected Dead Things as an e-book, it will be free for all! This is because my awesome aunt has very kindly agreed to buy me a notebook laptop, which was what I needed money for, and I have always said that I wouldn't write for profit unless I really needed to (this is because I want my writing to be accessible to everyone, and I think it's kinda rude/presumptuous of me to ask people to pay for my humble offerings). I just thought I'd keep you guys updated on that front. Currently, I am around three quarters of the way through the first draft. I'm so excited for you guys to read the finished thing!Free, Big Hero 6, and Another Extract6 months ago in Personal More Like This
Last night, I was feeling really kinda down and bored, so I went online and watched Disney's Big Hero 6. Oh my god, it was so cute I almost died. I know, I know; an eighteen-year-old should not be watching Disney cartoons, but seriously - it was actually fantastic. I cried in parts, I literally laughed out loud in parts, and the
Hiding/Showing Scars in PublicHello guys. This is my first topic of hopefully many to come.Hiding/Showing Scars in Public2 years ago in Personal More Like This
As a self harmer, hiding your scars/wounds can be the most annoying, but hardest thing. You always find yourself worrying about how to hide it, and finding ways to hide it. Especially in the summer, this can be a hard thing. Because you don't want to sweat your face off, but at the same time, you're too worried about someone seeing what you did to yourself.
Showing your scars and coming out of your shell can sometimes be overwhelming. You're so concerned about what others will think, but showing your scars could be awareness.
A lot of people still don't know what we go through and hiding it doesn't help. Your scars are a part of you, and they are in the past. You should be proud of what you survived. If people ask you about it, just stay calm and try to explain the best you can. If you don't want to talk about it, say that it's something that happened in the past and you don't want to talk about it. People
Taking a Break + Story PrologueI have decided that I am going to take a break from dA for a little while - I'm not precisely sure for how long, but I thought I ought to inform my family of watchers. The main reason behind this is that I've been lacking motivation recently; all I've been doing during the day is hiding under my duvet with my eyes shut and skipping a shit-tonne of college. I guess you could say that I'm feeling kinda depressed, but I'm okay. I just need a little break, that's all. The other reason behind my hiatus is that I want to focus on writing something novel length. My idea's working title is 'The Girl Who Collected Dead Things', and is told from the point of you of a naive, loyal sixteen-year-old who is trying to help her older, mentally ill best friend come into the world more, rather than obsessing over death and dead things. I've got a short prologue - take it as a farewell gift:Taking a Break + Story Prologue6 months ago in Personal More Like This
The Girl Who Collected Dead Things - Prologue
I met Viola Iris Morton shortly after she
Three Years, Possible e-book, and ExtractTomorrow is three years to the day that I lost my mother to cancer. To be honest, I'm really struggling with it. It's the first year that I have struggled with it, and I know that sounds cold, but I think it's because the first year I was too numb still to really register it (and I was on a million different anti-depressants/anti-anxiety pills), then last year I just tried to ignore it, but this year I'm trying to face it. I think this means I'm starting to heal. In fact, I know it does. Up until very recently, I couldn't even mention her name or look at photographs of her; now, I bring her up in conversation with my nan, and I have five framed photographs of her in my bedroom. My nan, aunt, and I are all going down to the town of Poole tomorrow, to be with my uncle for the day (all the family mentioned are on my mother's side), so that will be nice. My uncle always seems to make things seem less bad then they are - when my mum was in the hospice and I was crying hysterically, hThree Years, Possible e-book, and Extract6 months ago in Personal More Like This
The Unsung HeroCrucified and martyred by his people...The Unsung Hero2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Thank YouI am still very much on hiatus (and think I shall be until at least mid-March, when the anniversary of my mum's death and Mothers' Day are both well over), however I checked in today to see something quite remarkable; a piece I posted not too long ago has become a daily deviation! I'm not gonna lie - I cried. DeviantArt has been a part of my life for over three years, and has seen me through some of the hardest and brightest parts of my life. I've made lifelong friends here. And I can remember when I first started writing poetry on here at age fourteen, that it was my aim to one day get a DD - it was on my bucket list, in fact, and now it can be ticked off! The kindness and support that this website has shown me has overwhelmed me again and again, so thank you. All of my watchers, whether you've been watching me for three years or three minutes, thank you. I love you all; you are all a part of my online family.Thank You6 months ago in Personal More Like This
To say thank you, here is an extract from the first chapter of a stor
Coincidences, Walking and BatsYou'll never guess what I found out today! Link's dad was really good friends with my mum/aunt/uncle when they were growing up; like, they went to each other's birthday parties and hung out. Thus it turns out that when Link and I were toddlers we used to play up at the local park together. So really I've actually known him since I was a baby. Heh, it's a small world.Coincidences, Walking and Bats2 years ago in Personal More Like This
We walked his dog, Daisy, together today. The only downside was that when he was walking up to my front door my granddad saw him smoking and damn near flipped out at me. Other than that though, we had an awesome walk! I wore a baggy MCR t-shirt and leggings, with my Green Day hoodie tied around my waist. Of course, being the crafty fellow that he is, Link used the knot of my hoodie to pull me along a bench to be right up close to him so we could kiss and shit. At one point I complained about my fatness, to which he was just like, "are you fucking kidding me? You're beautiful." For some reason it came up in conversation tha
AMBER SNIPPY'S FATE?I've had that dream again.AMBER SNIPPY'S FATE?3 years ago in Personal More Like This
That strange place, so distant, yet so close to my heart. Buildings as tall as mountains.
Dead structures, watching with dead eyes. Empty, vast and endless honeycombs of stone and steel. Air filled with gray ashes, always fluttering from the cloudy sky.
The black vortex opens up in the sky, descending down to the city. The vortex spiral rips the city apart, bending the air itself, feasting on light, feasting on time.
There is a lonely figure standing in the street.
No matter how hard I try to make out his or her expression, I cannot. Is there no face there at all? Or perhaps there is a million human faces there, intertwined and flickering in unison, as bright as the light of ten thousand suns?
The being stares into the abyss of the vortex.
It takes another step towards it, into the horizon of nothingness, into a place where nothing can exist.
The stones of the roadway beneath its feet crumble and flutter in t
YOU'VE BEEN HUGGED!Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)YOU'VE BEEN HUGGED!7 months ago in Personal More Like This
JUST FOR YOU NERDS <3
Thanks For Reading! :iconrainbowsheepplz:
Tell me about yourselves!Tell me about yourselves!6 months ago in Personal More Like This
Uhh I don't even know how to start this off but it's nearly Sunday! Yay! Which means a day off for me aaaaand I've been thinking about how I want to get to know all of you guys a little better.
I feel like recently I haven't really had the time to stalk my watchers pages like I used to before.
So, tell me something about yourselves! What are your hopes and dreams? What are your plans for this year? What drawing are you working on atm? Your fandoms? YOUR SHIPS! What resolutions did you make but fell through already? Which one's haven't yet? Ask me anything and I will answer....as truthfully as I can
unless you ask me questions like where I hid the body, I'm afraid I won't be able to answer that...Anything at all! Or just say hi! I will respond ASAP until Sunday ends...after which my replies may be slightly delayed
Free!I JUST FUCKING FINISHED BOTH SEASONS OF FREEFree!6 months ago in Personal More Like This
IS IT OK THAT I'M SITTING IN A CORNER SILENTLY CRYING
I WAS ALL LIKE WHY CANT MY BABIES BE HAPPY
AND IN THE END THEY WERE ALL HAPPY
OH MY FUCKING GOD I'M CRYING I DON'T THINK THIS IS HEALTHY
MY BABIES MY PRECIOUS SWIMMING BABIES ARE ALL HAPPY AGAIN AND JUST YES TO EVERYTHING I FEEL HAPPY FOR THEM
EXCUSE ME WHILE I CONTINUE CRYING
EXPECT SOME FREE FICS SOON
//violently throws self out window//
Hope This Will Make You Smile!Okay so at school I have this awesome friend -I'll be referring to her as Fangirl and her name is probably gonna pop up a few times just to let you know- and so... we come up with like the dirtiest inside jokes and iT'S SO HILARIOUS BECAUSE MY OTHER FRIEND IS JUST SO CONFUSED WHILE WE'RE MAKING THESE REALLY INNOCENT HAND MOTIONS AND SOUNDS WITH DEEP MEANINGSHope This Will Make You Smile!6 months ago in Personal More Like This
So because I think it'll get a good laugh out of you, I'm gonna share the few we've come up with so far~
SO THIS BITCH OF A FRIEND FANGIRL FORCED ME I willingly did it to listen to an audio of Makoto's voice actor bASICALLY WHISPERING DIRTY STUFF IN YOUR EAR.
IT WAS FANTASTIC
But the whole time, while I was trying really hard not to drool in the middle of Social Studies, he kept making these noises that was like y'know him kissing and then hEAVY BREATHING and that's what really made me cringe and laugh loudly
So now out of the blue, Fangirl starts making suction noises sounding VERY FUCKING FAMILIAR
I'll Help YouIf you are ever lost please don't fretI'll Help You1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I'll help you find your way
Just follow my voice as it calls your name
And listen to my words
Don't be afraid or scared
I'll protect you with my life so don't you dare shed a tear
I'll take away your confusion
And I'll replace it with knowledge
But if you find yourself feeling lonely
Just call upon my name
And I'll accompany you
If you ever experience pain along the way
I won't let you suffer
I'll relieve you of it and put it in my own soul
So please don't ever hesitant
To call my name when you are lost
Because I won't betray you
Why My Science Teacher Thinks I'm a SlutToday, I very nearly died.Why My Science Teacher Thinks I'm a Slut3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Cause of death? Embarrassment.
I was sat next to Lookalike (my male best friend) and I was writing on his arm in bright red, the words, 'CHEAP MAN WHORE' in reference to a trip to the cinema a couple of days ago. Whilst this was happening we were having a delightful discussion about love bites and various other incriminating things, as we always do. What we didn't know was that your science teacher, a terrifying Scottish man with a horrific temper, was watching/listening in on the whole thing. He snapped when I yelled, 'WANKER' at Lookalike for the entire school to hear.
We were sent to his classroom. This is where the true embarrassment began.
Long story short, it kinda felt like he was giving us 'The Talk'. Here is probably the highlight quote from Mr Daly the Science Teacher:
"Don't be corrupted by teenage lust and smut."
And now my science teacher thinks that I am a) a dirty-talking slut and b) going out with my best friend. Oh the shame.
SkydoesMinecraft's Thought-provoking QuotesI feel like this guy needs some philosophical award...SkydoesMinecraft's Thought-provoking Quotes2 years ago in Personal More Like This
-"Cries for help often go unheard, drowned out by fake smiles and "I'm okay". Listen closely, and be there for others if you hear it."
-"Don't ever let a youtuber look down on you. No matter how "popular" treat us like you'd treat anyone else. We're nothing without you."
-"I'm not perfect, nobody is. We all make mistakes, some much worse then others. Learn from them, better yourself, and try not to make another"
-"Something that pisses me off are people who judge on looks. I've seen average people with beautiful hearts, and models with hearts of stone."
-"Those who judge a person on the actions they made in the past, are not looking towards the future. People change and forgiveness sparks it."
-"Falling in love is so easy, it's actually kind of funny. But notice falling out of it can be the hardest thing ever, the chuckles disappear."
-"The worst feeling in the world is having your life all planned out, within your reach, then fall
Spring Contest PrizesHi All!Spring Contest Prizes5 months ago in Personal More Like This
So, as the last journal said, ReadersInc is hosting a spring contest with the theme Love Grows in the Strangest Places I asked for donations for prizes and I got an awesome response! I have enough that I split them up so more people could get prizes I decided to put up a list with all the prizes so far, and I'll add to it as I get more.
An art request by :iconpearlthedragonair:
A pixel page doll from :iconSmexyLeviLover:
A pencil sketch from :iconbadapplegrell:
3 stories by :iconceader43:
1 one-shot by :iconFrozenCrystalRose:
1 one-shot by :iconMetricScenie:
1 one-shot by :iconRaelee96:
1 one-shot by :iconkokohanek:
Llamas from all the judges
Your story in the featured section permanently.
A Pencil sketch from :iconbadapplegrell:
2 stories by :iconceader43:
1 one-shot by :iconFrozenCrystalRose:
1 one-shot by :iconMetricScenie:
1 one-shot by :iconCrushberry:
Feeling Productive...So I feel like writing. I don't have a particular concept or feeling in mind right now. I just want to make things. No idea what those things are though. Drawing would be fine too, but as I said, the block is strong with this one. I might just put up some of my favourite poems. They're great to read. ^-^Feeling Productive...1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I Wish by Rayen-V-StormeMe by ElectricWeasleYes, I'm Depressed by ElectricWeasleMy Heart by AnaInTheStarsSuicide by xXWitherXxAbout Her. by InvokingThe Burden of Loss by ZakuFox-Kun
Listen by JohnwekaThe masks we wear by BattleBlisseyThe Girl Who Was Afraid To Be by UntamedUnwantedFive Truths I Never Spoke by SerenadeTheAsylum-BROKEN FRIENDSHIP- by AznAngel4everHappy... by dkenreeksUnder the Same Sky by ElectricWeasle Kill Time by cyanoticshade
FANARTIt's been a while since I've featured some fanart. I was gonna put more in a Random Journal but I can't think of anything to put in a Random Journal. Soooo fanart gets its own thing this time All fanart can be found here: http://kilala97.deviantart.com/favourites/58290287/Stuff-With-My-Characters?offsetFANART1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Tidra Siblings by starrynight32 Turquoise Blitz by maluny candyXdel by mlpdashie123 You look like me! by Dewdrop-210 ::GIFT ART:: Starburst Got The Groove by SuzioUwabami Annie ( colored version) by Emeraldy-Dust Children of Chaos by Faith-Wolff Annie and T by Bast13 :thumb465485585: Anthea by lMoustache Clarity by joycall3
My deviantART StoryC'mon now, I had to join in on this awesome opportunity to share my DA story with you guysMy deviantART Story1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Q: "How has deviantART helped you grow as an individual and/or as an artist? Tell us your story through an art feature Journal!"
Okay, well if you insist
It all started the day I met this talented & amazing girl named MingMingcoco 2 years ago. And wow, did we hit it off XD I remember it was 2nd period P.E. class & we talked... a lot. I felt blessed to have met someone who shared most of my passions! Art, Cartoons, Transformers... Time passed & she eventually asked if I had a DA account. Being the slightly sheltered individual I was then, of course, my answer was "No". But with some nagging, I eventually found my way to this fabulous website!
I had no idea how much DA would change me, after I created an account I started to take my art very seriously and became thoroughly inspired by other artists. I got this intense desire to impro
The Amazing World of GumballThis show is so addicting and entertaining.The Amazing World of Gumball6 months ago in Personal More Like This
Just finished Season 1.
I recommend it to absolutely everyone.
Expect fan comics from me.
Too Many Next Gen Ponies!Can't believe I missed this one! All the catch phrases are in there and they're adorableToo Many Next Gen Ponies!6 months ago in Personal More Like This
CONTEST WINNERS!!!!!!!!!!Hello everyone!!!! Hope you're having a great holiday season I'm finally gonna be announcing the winners!!! This was soooooooo freaking hard you guys. There were like TWENTY entries that I really wanted to win DX Anyways, here are the winning entries!!!CONTEST WINNERS!!!!!!!!!!8 months ago in Personal More Like This
When choosing the winners, there were just way too many fantastic dialogues and stories and I was going to narrow the winners down by the artwork itself but that didn't seem fair as I emphasized the importance of the dialogue and originality. SO, instead, I chose by looking at which pieces had interesting headcanons, unique character interactions and overall, ideas that I probably wouldn't have thought of myself.
Congrats Hawk-Pony, DeathRaeLea and Epona92!
Send me a note telling me what OC's you'd like drawn! Remember, they can be pony or non
Rantings Of An Angry BitchJust to let you know this is going to be a huge rant and it's in all caps okay have a good day my friendRantings Of An Angry Bitch6 months ago in Personal More Like This
DO YOU UNDERSTAND MY PAIN
LET ME RANT OVER THE GUYS THAT I KNOW IN MY SCHOOL-
ALL OF THEM ARE IMMATURE SHIT FACED FUCK TARDS WHO DON'T KNOW THE DIFFERENT BETWEEN 19 AND TWENTY ONE, AND WOULD NEVER ONCE IN THEIR LIFE CONTEMPLATE THE SERIOUSNESS OF REALITY AND WOULD RATHER SPEND THEIR PRECIOUS EDUCATIONAL TIME SCREECHING TO RAP SONGS THAT ENCOURAGE THEM TO DO NOTHING WITH THEIR SCHOOL LIFE AND TO SMOKE ILLEGAL DRUGS IN THE BATHROOM WHEN THEY COULD BE POSSIBLY LEARNING SOMETHING IN CLASS THAT COULD SAVE THEIR FUCKING LIVES WHEN REALLY IN THE FUTURE THEY'RE GOING TO BE WORKING AT A DRIVE THRU WHEN MY ASS IS BEING THE BEST I FUCKING CAN AT HARVARD STUDYING MY ASS OFF AND EITHER BEING A FUCKING WRITER OR AN ACTRESS AND ACTUALLY FOLLOWING MY DREAMS WHEN THESE ASSHOLES ARE STUCK DOING NOTHING IN THEIR PATHETIC LIVES
THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND