Shadows of Love 5The full moon rises
"Did I mention how much I hate you, Black?"
Lily's question spread between the hospital beds. James turned a page in the Evening Prophet and answered without looking at Lily: "Yes, you did. This was the fifty-second time."
"Still doesn't express the hatred I feel for him.", she grumbled and tried to sit up in the bed with several painful hisses coming from her mouth.
"You should be grateful, Evans", said Sirius from the opposite bed. "You don't have to study for a few days."
"I'll let you know if I want to burn as if I was in the ninth pit of hell again." She answered him with contempt.
Nr. 88746351 CRIMINAL FILE
LOCATION: United Kingdom, Scotland, Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, Charms classroom
INJURED: L. Evans, S. Black, P. Pettigrew, five Slytherin students, a Chinese vase, three windows, four benches, forty-six valuable books
CASUALTIES: a bunch of tulips
SUSPECT(S): S. Black
Shadows of Love 1Shadows of Love 12 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
The ones we love can hurt us the most
Lily was sitting in the common room on a couch in front of the fireplace. She was reading Hogwarts, A History for her next History of Magic lesson. She tried to concentrate on the legend of the Chamber of Secrets, but it wasn't that easy, as a loud applause and screaming started in the common room. Lily turned her head.
James Potter came down the stairs. There was a white little lily between his teeth. Lily rolled her eyes and returned to her book. After a few minutes, James stopped next to the couch. He stared at the girl without saying a word. Lily sighed angrily and glanced at him impatiently.
Lily's look changed from upset to shocked while James unbuttoned his shirt. He unfolded it, sticking his chest out. There was a writing on his skin with red ink under his tie, which read: 'WANNA DATE?'
James smiled with the flower in his mouth and looked questioningly at Lily.
"No." she said concisely.
Lily stood up with her book in her hand. She he
Shadows of Love 2Disguise of feelingsShadows of Love 22 years ago in Romance More Like This
Day came after day and Lily felt more and more miserable. James didn't talk to her and neither did he look at her. Their whole class knew about the incident five days ago since almost all of the sixth year gryffindors was present. On the one hand this was a pleasant thing, Lily thought, because no one had to interrogate her about it. But on the other hand, it was more than horrible.
James Potter was a Hogwarts-famous Quidditch player, a mischief-maker marauder and last but not least along with one of his best friends, the best-looking guy in the castle. Rumour spread like wildfire among female students that "that stupid idiot Lily Evans" rejected him. Again.
Lily started to be thinking about going back to the Muggle-world (although it wasn't a serious idea) where no one knows about her relationship with James. Generally, she didn't really care about rumours and lame girls who were jealous of her, but in this case it annoyed her. On Monday, as she was staring
Shadows of Love 6The blatant truthShadows of Love 62 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Lily was petrified as she caught a glimpse of the highly dangerous creature. The werewolf was slobbering about a foot from her. Its black eyes were shining with hunger.
Lily forced her heavily shaking leg to move a step backwards. The werewolf pushed out its tongue, then pulled it back in the split of a second. Only two steps, Lily thought, two steps were missing to reach the door.
Branches were crackling in the background, somewhere around the Forest. The werewolf turned its head to see what was interrupting it while hunting down the dinner. It was a now or never situation and Lily had no intention of staying. With her heart beating in her throat, she pressed the door handle. The werewolf turned back to her and stroke towards her with its clawed forefoot. Lily screamed and crouched to avoid of being slapped in the face.
She held her hand to the door handle again exactly at the moment when the stag and the dog jumped on the werewolf's back. She heard the dog ba
Shadows of Love 3The wind of deathShadows of Love 32 years ago in Romance More Like This
Black dots were dancing before Lily's eyes while Remus grabbed her right arm and pulled her about between the rows. They weren't the only ones to run around like crazy; everyone panicked and shouted James's name. Lily and Remus arrived to the bottom of the pitch but only some confused Ravenclaw students were there. Apparently, they didn't notice the accident and landed after James was taken away from the grass. One of them was as white as a corpse and tears were streaming down his face. Lily watched the beefy boy who seemed to be a Beater -- judging from the bat in his shaking left hand. She was so befuddled she lost the ability to keep in mind what to do in this critical situation.
Remus continued on his way with Lily's hand in his grip.
"He's not dead. He's got bumped in the head with a Bludger. They took him to the Hospital Wing.", he said while rushing towards the castle.
If Lily had kept her wits, she would have been relieved. But on this level of shock sh
Shadows of Love 4Unexpected giftsShadows of Love 42 years ago in Romance More Like This
Lily sent an owl with a huge box full of the presents she bought for her family on the 23rd of December. She wrote her parents she would definitely not go home for Christmas, since it was her sixth year at Hogwarts and that means a lot of studying -- especially during school breaks.
She was reading all night the day before Christmas. She was so excited because of the next day, she couldn't sleep. 'It's because it's Christmas tomorrow', she thought but a part of her common sense (a very shameful part of it) suggested it was because of James's return.
She woke up for a loud scream. "MERRY CHRISTMAAAS!" She jumped out of her bed frightened. Her D.A.D.A. textbook fell down from the bed. "Me-Merry Christmas" Lily yawned for Mary and went to the bathroom to wash herself awake.
"Aren't you excited for what you got?", Mary asked.
"I am", Lily mumbled, and then spit the toothpaste she had in her mouth to the sink. "But I don't want to have dental caries."
"You're such a
Shadows of Love 17And all the men and women merely playersShadows of Love 171 year ago in Drama More Like This
Where to hide?
This single question echoed in Lily’s head after her paralyzed legs could have been moved. She rushed over the floors and stairs, bumping into people. After the sound of the bell, almost everyone disappeared. Only a few, late students were running to their classes.
Lily had no intention of following them. She went up to the Gryffindor Tower and stepped into the Common Room. Just as she wished, no one was there. She climbed to the armchair in front of the fireplace.
Two cats appeared in the Common Room, the black Ragamuffin cat with the white vest of fur on its chest chasing the Russian Blue one. The black cat noticed her owner and stopped playing. She curled her long-haired tail as if she was asking what the problem was.
“Come here, Domino!”
The cat jumped on Lily’s lap. She mewed quietly and looked up at her. Lily looked at the beautiful, different coloured -- one of them blue, the other green -- ey
Shadows of Love 12Save your hideShadows of Love 122 years ago in Drama More Like This
The woman turned to them so quickly that only a blurry shadow could be seen. The man wasn't so fast, but he also looked at the four teenagers.
"Sirius!", Mrs. Black shouted, pointing at them with her wand so that she could examine them.
"James", whispered the woman on the floor.
Lily almost forgot about him, though his shoulder touched hers and he was constantly trembling -- either with anger or cold.
"Release them!", James shouted and lunged abruptly to the Blacks.
Two wands were raised at the same time. One of them was Mrs. Black's and red light jumped out of it. The other wand was Lily's who cried frightened: "PROTEGO!"
The shield spanned in front of James and the Full Body-Bind Curse glanced off of it.
"DON'T YOU DARE HURTING MY SON!", Mrs. Potter screamed and with one single kick, she floored Mrs. Black.
In that moment, all hell broke loose. Mr. Black slapped Mrs. Potter in the face with his bare hand. The thwack was terrifying.
The sound that came fro
Shadows of Love 9Birthday surpriseShadows of Love 92 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Padfoot, we have to talk."
Sirius narrowed his eyes perplexed as he looked at Remus. He stood up from the couch and turned back to his admirers. "Forgive me, ladies, I am a busy man." Lily rolled her eyes as the girls sighed and let him go. Sirius nodded to James, who was seemingly studying at one of the tables with Peter. They stood up and all five of them headed to the corner. They put their heads together. Although Lily couldn't examine him properly at breakfast, now she could see the dark shadows under James's eyes. He seemed extremely tired and worried at the same time, judging by the constant frown on his face.
"What's that, Moony?", Sirius asked. "Dumbledore told you something useful?"
"Yes.", Remus approved. "Something no one would like to hear."
"It was about Voldemort." Lily said rapidly. As if they had just noticed her, the boys turned their heads to her. "He said something about we, Prefects and Heads protecting the younger students, but the point
Shadows of Love 8Bad newsShadows of Love 82 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Something definitely had changed after Lily and Remus's talk. It was as intangible as the winter sunshine outside the castle. The only thing Lily knew about this feeling was that it was good. Sitting in the Great Hall, having lunch, she moved closer to the Marauders at the table. They didn't seem to dislike it, in fact, they often started conversations with her.
Remus looked at her with sincere admiration in his eyes. He was like a little orphan boy who tasted the life of loved children and he wanted more from the only one who gave him the sisterly love.
Sirius stayed the irritating, arrogant dork he has always been, but somehow, Lily felt that particular talk left its mark on both of them.
And there was James, who handled her with kid gloves since the morning he came back from St. Mungo's. No matter how comfortable James's about-turn was, it made Lily feel strangely. She felt like James was an unfamiliar yet obnoxious person.
Weeks passed and Lily's seventeenth birthda
Shadows of Love 16All the world’s a stageShadows of Love 162 years ago in Drama More Like This
When Isabella opened the door on them, she wasn’t the only one to see Lily and James in the intimate pose they sat on the bed. It’s true her hand was to press the handle down, but Slughorn and all the rest of the present guests were standing behind her. The stunned silence was broken by the tipsy professor:
“Well, well! I forgot to close the door of my bedroom! How silly I am!”
The petrified people seemed to move again all at once. Lily stood up holding up to James’s arm. She tried to avoid Isabella’s look.
“Who did not taste my crystallized pineapples yet?”, Slughorn bellowed. “They are the finest quality in Europe!”
The crowd understood the poorly disguised call. They dissolved in a minute, buzzing; only Isabella continued standing there frozen.
“Isabella…”, James started, but the Ravenclaw girl raised her free hand and silenced him.
Lily, still blinking at the floor, a
Shadows of Love 18What goes around comes aroundShadows of Love 181 year ago in Romance More Like This
Lily Evans felt like the happiest person in the world. She was sitting on a bench under a blooming oak tree. It was a sunny, warm day and she was reading a very exciting book. A slight spring breeze ruffled up her dark red hair. Soon a big, dark cloud came and it started raining cats and dogs. She couldn’t make it to the castle with dry clothes, but she didn’t even have to. Tall figure was jogging to her direction. He wore his uniforms which were wet from the rain. His black hair was sticked to his forehead. One second later he stood in front of Lily. He smiled brightly and Lily could see his hot chocolate-like brown eyes through his glasses full of raindrops. She smiled too, she knew he came for her and she was not mistaken: James leant to her, took her face in both of his hands and pushed his lips against hers. The rain was falling onto them but they didn’t deal with it, they were just kissing, kissing like two people who were co
Shadows of Love 19A Beginner’s Guide to HeartbreakingShadows of Love 191 year ago in Drama More Like This
It was four days ago that Lily overheard the conversation between James, Isabella and Sirius. Since then, she had nightmares. Nothing like her and James kissing, not at all. The main character was Isabella and every single time Lily imagined her as a veela. In her nightmares, Isabella wasn’t a regular, seductive and incredibly beautiful veela, but the frightening, furious type of it. She had pointed and dangerous fangs and she was rattling James’s name.
Lily was distracted every day and very sleepy because of the lack of sleep -- she didn’t dare closing her eyes again once she woke up from her nightmares. She had dark shadows under her eyes and her hair lost its shine.
“You look sick, Lily”, said Remus on Thursday, while they were studying in the library. At least, Lily tried to study. “You should go and see Madam Pomfrey.”
“I’m all right”, she glanced at him and smiled unconvin
Shadows of Love 14Bright daysShadows of Love 142 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
The alliance concluded silently between Lily and the boys became even tighter since that night, either because of the happenings or the detention they shared.
Remus behaved as kindly as before, only the hours spent together in the library turned into a bit more confidential pastimes. James started to be nicer and nicer to Lily, she formulated the thought several times that maybe, but only maybe he wasn’t so childish anymore. But whenever she raised this idea in her mind, he always did something stupid as if he had heard Lily’s thoughts and wanted to falsify them right away.
One of these occasions happened in the middle of breakfast. Sirius was telling blue jokes to James and so he almost spoilt Lily’s appetite. After a particularly indecorous one, James’s pumpkin juice flew out of his nose. Lily felt totally disgusted so she stood up from the table to go to Charms class. ‘At least, not he is the one to tell these stories’, L
Shadows of Love 10The plan is afootShadows of Love 102 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
"Couldn't we talk in a more hidden place?"
The hiss came from the half-length, black, greasy haired boy with the hooked nose. Lily frowned and crossed her arms in front of her chest.
"I want a single answer, Severus."
Severus released a furious breather and grasped Lily's right arm.
"Hey, what are you doing?!", she screamed angrily.
"If you want answers, you'll give me something in return", he answered, without any emotions reflecting on his waxy complexion.
He dragged Lily to a shadowy corner.
"Get off me!", she flailed.
Severus pushed Lily away. She lost her balance for a moment, but she looked at him with pure hatred in her eyes when she regained it.
"What do you want?", he barked.
"Where are the Potters?"
Severus gave her a surprised glance.
"What made you care about that ignorant moron so suddenly?" he tried to make a grin, but it turned out to rather be a snarl. "Maybe you should check your pumpkin juice in the mornings; Amortentia is a pre
Shadows of Love 11Night of the recklessShadows of Love 112 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Lily, James, Sirius and Remus huddled together under James's Invisibility Cloak.
"Where exactly did you get this Cloak?", Lily asked.
They were sneaking on the Hogwarts grounds, towards the Whomping Willow.
"It's inherited in our family.", James whispered.
"You wore it when… when we were in the Hospital, didn't you?", she inquired.
"Yes, we did, Evans, but would you stop questioning us when we're on such an important mission?", Sirius hissed.
Lily shut her mouth and mutely followed them under the Cloak. She had no idea how they would get through the Willow's flapping branches, but she didn't dare asking it -- they were still too close to the castle and the boys might have sent her back.
"I'll be right back", said Sirius, he slipped out of the protection of the Cloak and transformed into a large, black dog.
Lily watched him amazed while he ran under the branches of the tree. The plant suddenly froze as if Sirius immobilized it.
"C'mon", James whispered.
Shadows of Love 29If you’re in love, then you are the lucky oneShadows of Love 291 year ago in Drama More Like This
Lily froze. Her thoughts fell out of her head, she couldn’t think of anything but one word:
“You need to marry me”, James repeated, on a bit less commanding tone.
Lily still didn’t know what to say, so she said the first thing that came to her mind:
“No?”, James asked. He looked frightened.
“I mean…”, Lily started out with a deep sigh. “Why do you want me to marry you in the middle of the night?”
“Because… I was thinking.”
“Horrible thing, really, especially if it leads to asking people to marry you”, Lily replied automatically. She didn’t mean to be so rude, but sometimes she couldn’t help it.
James went to the couch with big footsteps. Lily followed him. James sat down and pulled Lily’s arm closer to him, so she also had to sit down.
“I was thinking about this whole th
Shadows of Love 13Always by your sideShadows of Love 132 years ago in Drama More Like This
Sound of approaching footsteps tore Lily and James apart. Mrs. Potter turned up in the basement again. She was followed by Sirius and Remus.
"James!", the woman screamed and sank on her knees next to his son. "Are you alright, sweetheart?"
"I'm fine", replied James and he sat up. "Is dad… he was just stupefied, was he?"
"Oh, yes", she sighed. "Rennervate!"
Mr. Potter batted his eyelids confused. He could slowly understand what was going on around him.
"Darling", he stammered, looking at his wife. "What happened?"
"I'll tell you everything at home", said Mrs. Potter and stood up.
"Where are the other Death Eaters?", Lily asked Remus.
"They Disapparated", he answered.
Lily glanced at Sirius. The boy was staring at his parents on the floor. James and his mother and father were too busy with reuniting, so only Lily and Remus could notice his conspicuous silence.
She stood up and stepped to him. She put her hand on his shoulder patronizingly.
"We should rev
Shadows of Love 15Slug scandalShadows of Love 152 years ago in Romance More Like This
On Saturday, at seven o’clock, Lily was ready to go to her Potions professor’s party. She wore the forest green, satin, frilly, short sleeved dress robes her mother bought for her during the summer holidays with a pair of green moccasin shoes. She pinned up half of her hair. She didn’t want to make a huge fuss about her clothes and look, but she didn’t want to look like she didn’t even care about them either.
Only at the middle of the way to Slughorn’s office did Lily notice the air was a bit chilly in her pretty robes. She didn’t want to be late so much so she continued on her way.
A lot of people were bustling in Slughorn’s office. Just as Lily assumed, there were a lot of couples. She squared her shoulders and raised her head proudly. Some people greeted her and she greeted back, but then Slughorn caught her:
“Miss Evans!”, he shouted. His nose was already a bit red from the amount of mead he had drunk s
Shadows of Love 23The dream foregoneShadows of Love 231 year ago in Romance More Like This
Is it worth a tear, is it worth an hour,
To think of things that are well outworn?
Of fruitless husk and fugitive flower,
The dream foregone and the deed forborne?
(Algernon Charles Swinburne: The Triumph of Time)
Lily was tossing and turning in the bed, still trying not to think about the secret. She turned her thoughts to another direction.
That was one thing she was currently at the Potters. And that was another thing, that she could hear the snoring from the room next to hers. Maybe it was Sirius or James.
Speaking of, what if she snores? Mary had never complained about it, but Petunia teased her several times with things like that. Almost none of these were true, but Lily couldn’t be sure Petunia always lied to her. She didn’t feel like listening to Sirius’s mocking comments about her loud sleep patterns, so she tried no to sleep at all.
Interestingly, when she waited for it, the dream didn’t came, but right at the time she
Shadows of Love 20Forgive me my trespassesShadows of Love 201 year ago in General Fiction More Like This
James Potter was an arrogant, boastful, stupid, hateful, disgusting cockroach.
At least, that’s what Lily wanted to think of him. But the more she was thinking about the awful happenings in the painfully near past, the more she thought the biggest victim of the whole thing was James. But looking at the matter as an outsider, he obviously wasn’t. No, it was Isabella and Lily tried to apologise her face to face, but the girl didn’t appear at meals and classes either after James broke up with her.
James was still upset because of what happened, but he didn’t avoid his friends anymore. Though he wouldn’t even have had to -- Sirius, Remus and Peter didn’t ask him why he was so gloomy, thus Lily assumed he told them about everything. At the table only James and Lily were quiet, the others were chattering in a carefree manner. No matter how he tried to hide his feelings, Lily could catch a few worried glimpses from Rem
Shadows of Love 7Friendship is the soul's heavenShadows of Love 72 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
"Wha-what did you say?"
Lily took her hands off her mouth. Her green eyes were quivering with shock.
"We learnt to be Animagi in order to protect the students and Remus himself during full moon", said James. "On some level we can control his strength and chase him to a safe place where he can ride the furry little problem out, should it occur he doesn't get to his hiding place in time."
"Furry little problem?", Lily echoed quietly.
"Yeah, Prongs doesn't like calling a spade a spade." Sirius replied.
"Prongs… Padfoot…" Lily muttered. "Moony… Wormtail..."
"We are proud to introduce you the Marauders." Sirius grinned.
Lily wasn't in such a good mood.
"Since when has Remus been a werewolf?"
"He was bitten when he was seven." James answered. "He didn't tell us, so we worked out the truth in second year."
"How do you protect him?" Lily inquired. "By separating him or what?"
"He spends the full moon in a safe place", said Sirius. "He gets Wolfsban
Shadows of Love 27I would never hurt youShadows of Love 271 year ago in Drama More Like This
Lily decided to start practicing for the forthcoming exams as soon as she got back to school. She kept the promise she made for herself, and so she reread her textbooks.
On Tuesday, she was on her way to lunch, just after she had received James’s letter from St. Mungo’s. He wrote he was going back to Hogwarts the next day, so Lily was in a very merry mood. She intended to share the source of her joy with Sirius and Remus too, because Sirius had been upset for those three days since school started, as James wasn’t there to practice for their match against Hufflepuff; and Remus was worried about his friend. Everyone seemed to be so sad and down around her at school that day, but she felt happy.
But before she could turn left on one of the corridors with a wide smile on her face, someone called her name:
She looked around, but no one seemed to be waiting for her. And then, behind a giant stone column, she caught the sight
Shadows of Love 28Mixed feelingsShadows of Love 281 year ago in Drama More Like This
The day when James came back was horrible.
Lily’s feelings were totally ambivalent: she was happy that James recovered but at the same time, she was mourning Isabella’s death and she had a huge remorse for what she had done in the near past. She knew Isabella’s death wasn’t her fault, but it still felt bad. She shouldn’t have had that quarrel with her and then she could have just felt the natural sadness. But it was different now.
Her stomach was as little as a pebble when she was waiting for James’s appearance in the Common Room. Sirius, Remus and Peter were sitting around her, all of them were rapt. It was nine o’clock, there were some students in the Common Room, hovering about. They were talking silently, as if they could have woken up the sleeping Isabella with their voices.
The portrait of the Fat Lady opened up ten minutes later. James stepped in and Lily stood up immediately. She wanted to hug him, but it didn