HopelessI'm angry, I'm sad, I'm hopeless, are you glad!?!
I'm pitiful, and weak, I'm a selfish, spoiled freak.
Change yourself they say, if you don't like what you see,
It all starts with a thought, but not even that I can be.
When you tell me to work, why do I cry?
It's not because I'm lazy, it's because I hate me inside.
Gather the whips, gather the fire, string me to a pole, and hit me till I expire.
I am filled with self hate, and yet they can't see,
how close this razorblade is, and how my wrist will soon bleed.
How easy it would be, to let it all go astray, to finish my work, and work me away.
Kill me now, I beg you please,
kill me before I turn into that monster begging on it's knees.
Oh, is that a mirror?
PainDesire does burn inside my chest,Pain2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Sink that knife into my vest.
Hold it tight and don't let go,
Blood will spew and burn the rose.
Arctic ice runs through my veins,
The sun will rise and thaw my pains.
This knife will be my blessed sun,
And from it's love my pain will run.
DumbMy tongue does not rest in my mouth.Dumb2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
My eyes seem to rest on the ground.
My fingers clench my swollen wrist.
My life is a form of hellish bliss.
Music is bleeding in my deafened ears.
Your words seem to voice all of my fears.
I hold on tight despite the pain,
To a life unworthy of the friends I have gained.
I hate the tongue that rests on paper.
I hate my eyes with the sight that has tapered.
I hide the wrists were one scare is hold,
I live in bliss for the death that is foretold.
I will rhyme my days away,
For no one likes poetry anyway.
You can't read my secrets with a byes mind,
You might as well be a blind.
Tears of an AngelTears of an AngelTears of an Angel2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don’t know how much longer that I can be strong,
This storm is so great, I feel like I am coming undone,
Winds wrapping around me, I can hardly breathe,
The rains breaking me down, tearing at the seams,
Burning eyes I have, that don’t shed a tear,
The weight upon my shoulders, I can no longer bear
What once was strong and impenetrable, these walls of mine,
Are slowly crumbling around me, dust into the ground
No longer able to shield myself, from all that’s going on,
A heart slowly dying inside, no longer filled with joy,
Sadness and sorrow have engulfed my very soul,
Sometimes I truly wish that I wasn’t here anymore.
Wings battered and bruised, fail me as I fall to my knees,
No longer able to glide and fly, enjoying the breeze,
Dreams that were once so real, burning to nothing but ash,
Are blown away with the wind, floating by so fast,
I watch them as they fade, all my hope is gone,
A sad melody fills my ears, as my tears finally fall…
Nut CaseWho I am I truly hate,Nut Case2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I'm not happy or brave, just someone fake.
Can't you see how false my smile is,
Or how my wrists ache with cuts in it?
Are you blind to the most basic truth,
Or do you care for only you?
I could go on, but you've heard this before,
So tell me why you do nothing anymore?
Am I a lost case, or just a nut case?
Are you concerned, or is your heart burned?
Could you help me, would you try,
Or am I just another left to die?
Real problems - Not killing people.Bullied every day, in and out, my apathy is my best friend.Real problems - Not killing people.2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I never cared, the cuts would heal, broken bones would mend.
But every time it happened, there was a voice, whispering.
Kill them, you know you can, unleash your anger, give in.
That's the worst thing for me, about being bullied.
Not the pain, not the humiliation, but being restrained.
If I could unleash it all, I'd feel so much better...
Go on, unleash yourself, make yourself feel better!
No! I can't, and I honestly don't want to.
It's too much hassle after, being hated for what I do.
So yeah, call me a freak, call me a liar.
Come on, give in, they're just feeding the fire...
To quote my favourite song, I will not bow, I will not break.
"Hey, what you listening to? Oh, you're such an emo freak!"
I roll my eyes, apathetic, as they steal my iPod and smash it.
You're letting them?! Smash them l
Morbid HeartThese painful tears still fall downMorbid Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
For the suffering I never give in
Angel wings of mine covered in crimson
Had forgotten how to fly long time ago
This little piece of ice I hold in my hands
For it shows the coldness deep inside
These eyes now empty and merciless
No tears, no more tears I shed
In this forest of darkness I walk
As a deadly shadow of the night
I roam forevermore these paths
There is still lost beauty within
These morbid thoughts better hide
They have darkened innocent hearts
Once so warm, pure and loyal
Turned into the worst suffering
His vicious life
Ends as the dawn rises
This shattered heart of mine I give
... For freezing winter
For fallen leaves
For forsaken lands...
DepressionAnother useless morning dawns,Depression3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Another tiresome creature yawns.
Lost I am in the depth of thought,
People can't see the battle I've fought.
My scars are hidden by a harden face,
No smile has been found, I have no grace.
I look upon the work I've done,
And find that it is helpful to all of none.
I hate the flesh I'm bound to,
The words I weave I do but rue.
Rueful and spiteful I wish to cry,
But no tears will help me on the inside.
Who will help me to live without pain?
Will anyone try to keep me sane?
Am I lost to the grave?
VampireWithin what darkness do IVampire2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The light that shines within
Through what time has since begin
The blood lust from which I bear
A dark enthusiasm from there
The pale moonlight has become
A forever home that can't be undone
For I've lost the light you see
That is known as humanity
You may see me prowl the night
In search for a tasty fright
For whatever blood you spill
Will become a tasty meal
Good night to you I do say
And for your life you should pray
Soon may I find you there
Your life I end without a care
The ParasiteCreeping in the dark, clawing at my heart.The Parasite2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
A parasite in my soul, digging like a mole.
Suffocating thoughts, vision filled with dots.
Burred alive, burning inside.
Longing for death, longing for life,
It's finely time, it's you who decide.
WhispersYou are the blood that stains my hands,Whispers8 months ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
The insanity that will brake the bands,
The heat that starts to burn my chest,
The fear that dares to bring me death.
We are the tears that fill your eyes,
The hate you have of all mankind,
The darkness that the soul can grow,
The hope that you once had known.
You are the creature we all hate,
The monster that we try to paint,
The doubt of all we chose to care,
The thing that the demons call fair.
They are the sin that bring your shame,
The ones who attempt to keep you tame,
The ones who ignore all your pain,
The people that soon will hang.
My Masquerade.When I die, Masquerade will live on.My Masquerade.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
He will save me and find out what went wrong.
He has done it before, and he will do it again.
Yes, I've died before, and I can and may die again.
The Siberian white tiger, I have nine lives.
Even though I should have seen through all these lies.
"I would've thought you'd learned by now, but since you haven't yet.
I am the venom in your skin, riding in the blood you bled."
"After the lights go out on you.
After your worthless life is through.
I will remember how you died.
And you shall be revived."
This is his promise to me.
And it is all he can be.
His own saviour, his own protector, one and the same.
But he gives one more promise. "I can never be tamed."
Turning ColdTurning ColdTurning Cold2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She opened her heart once again
To the joys of love to one so dear
Believed in the beauty of his words
Felt his love so deep within
Then once again like before
They all turned to ashes
As she is left empty and alone
Watching as they burned away
A banchee cry falls from her lips
A curse to all men comes from within
As her heart turns into diamonds
As cold as ice and hard as stone
As crystal tears fall from her eyes
She turns her back on all mankind
False ThingsLooking at this rain, I wish it could wash everything away.False Things2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
For we seem to blind to see, there is nothing here, we aren't free.
Our lives are nothing but hate, we are false in everyway, by everyday.
We live on false streets, eating false meats.
We live in false hope, for false things to help us cope.
We have false eyes, to see all the false lies.
Our bodies are just as hidden, as emotions we are kidding.
Afraid of false things, we like to have false dreams.
It seems to much to think, that nothing is as it seems.
Hide from the night, 'cause you fear you might see.
We are absolutely nothing compared to everything.
I laugh at the stars, for they may be far.
But I know the truth, there is nothing here to lose.
We are a grain a false sand, for we have corrupted this land.
Floating in eternity, there's no reason to anything.
That's why everything matters.
Waltzing with ShadowsI waltz between hungary darkness and raging light, twirling with the breeze.Waltzing with Shadows1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Swaying and stepping, stepping and swaying, I'm blinded by both.
My eyes seem useless yet I refuse to close them, dreams will hinder my dance.
Both extremes hurt my sight, and so long for my path, clawing at the other to get to me.
All paths I refuse, I shall not stop my dance.
Stepping and swaying, swaying and stepping, I'm blinded by both.
I waltz between raging light and hungary darkness, twirling with the breeze.
So similar are these two paths, and yet, as I waltz between them, I can see.
The grey is such an odd path, one that I can only cross as I waltz.
I can not stand still, nor walk forward, for surely then the light or dark shall take me.
I waltz between hungary darkness and raging light,
Swaying and stepping, stepping and swaying, and just for a moment, I can see.
Cliff FaceBroken fingers grasp the now blood red glass,Cliff Face2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Held by the hand either numb or dead.
Desperation keeps the creature alive,
As the Holder climbs the jagged, sharpened rocks.
Wind grabs the Holders cloth, pulling him off the wall,
The sea weighs him down with each burst from below.
Ice freezes whatever feeling the Holder has left,
As a trail of red follow the Holder wherever he may tread.
Yet still he climbs, ever on and up,
Not even knowing if he has any hands or feet left.
As he reaches the top of Hell,
His freedom now awaits his call.
However, as he sees his domain so great,
He turns and jumps to escape his fate.
Broken bones and shattering pain,
All he wants is the grave.
Yet before he leaves there is a message on the glass that heids
In my place, you would have done the same.
That NightYou took away my passionThat Night3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You kicked me to the ground
Like I had just gone out of fashion
You didn't want me around
I watched you while you were sleeping
And gave you all you desired
The greed just took you over
And the gesture got so tired
I fed you when you were hungry
I gave you a family and a home
But your patience just grew weary
So I spent my nights alone
You pushed me to the limit
When you had affairs so much
I should have really seen it
That I would shiver at your touch
The useless fool you made me
Messing with my life
I couldn't take the last affair
It drove me to the knife
I was going to make you pay
And the girls you had seduced
Pick you off one by one
This anger you produced
I crept into your bedroom
And stole your secret book
I had to find the number
I had to have a look
I found the girl you had last
The one from down the street
I crept in through her window
Now her makers she will meet
Sleeping like a princess
With a teddy on her bed
I pulled out a plastic bin bag
Forever MoreForever MoreForever More2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's said true friendship is strong
A tree hundreds of years old
yet I saw a withered leaf falling
And the green begins to fade
Look beyond the withered leaf
See past the fading green
Look down into the soil
Where strong roots do grow.
I can hear dry branches cracking
And all the oncoming storms
Black clouds darkening the sky
Are we strong enough to prevail?
Though the branches may crack
As the winds bend them back
Look beyond the darkening clouds
The rays of the sun can be found.
I don't want to lose what we had.
I don't want to see it die.
But the wind takes the leaves away.
A barren skeleton is what is left.
You will not lose what is there
The beauty of nature will prevail
For beneath the soil the roots will grow
Blooming leaves that are forever more
When did we stop to care?
Hoping the tree's big enough
Our visits became rare
OvercomeOvercomeOvercome2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I do this...well...when it is needed.
I haven't written in so long
Yet tonight it is needed
For my emotions have been drawn
Like a fountain they pour
All that is inside of me
Silent words never spoken
The tears that are never seen
I am not sure if it will help
I am not sure of much at all
To many emotions
I wish it would stop
I want it all to go away
I wish I truly had wings
Maybe then I would be free
Maybe finding peace and serenity
Yet that is a childish thought
For the world we live in
It will always be a dream...
A Poem of Broken WordsThis blanket of words is broken and rotted,A Poem of Broken Words1 year ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
It’s filled with holes and the cloth is torn.
My needle is dull and the thread is knotted,
But the colors are fine, just left to be born.
My loom is busted, the pegs have shattered,
The wool is dirty and can’t be combed.
The water is poisoned and my soul is battered,
But even so the weather isn’t cold.
So even now as I fail again,
I look towards a future where the blanket is done.
But once again the darkness descends,
and I must spend another night with no word on my tongue.
Finding... Myself?Say goodbye to that man you know,Finding... Myself?2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
The one who was only there to make amends.
Say goodbye to the old me, as I go,
Because I suppose this is the way he ends.
Say goodbye to the cynical me,
The man who kept everything to himself,
Let him rest in peace, and welcome me.
For I am here still, and I am... Myself?
Say goodbye to the Cynicist,
Say goodbye to the anger and the hate,
Say hello to the Optimist.
Say hello to who you'll learn to hate.
Because that's just it, it's easily done.
I flick a switch, and I'm the old me,
I guess he was never really gone.
Say Hello to the Optimist.
For the writer of this piece is dead.
Echoing SilenceEchoing SilenceEchoing Silence2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Another set of feathers
Fall to the ground
I sit there and look
With a frown
Though not surprised
It happened again
Betrayal of the utmost
A very bitter pill
I swallow it whole
No emotions I show
Cool and calm
As I face eyes untold
I do not cry
I do not scream
What is the use
No one will hear
This echoing silence
Inside of me
Darkness Falls: Chapter 0Chapter 0 – Aisuru's Journal Entries (Prologue)Darkness Falls: Chapter 02 years ago in Settings More Like This
Sparky had been feeling very uncomfortable lately. Once every few weeks, she felt as if huge shockwaves rippled throughout all of the particles of her entire body, and it made her feel very uneasy and sorrowful every time. It wasn't often that it would happen; it only happened once every few weeks. Only the more it happened, the more she seemed worried. She had never experienced a feeling like this, and she couldn't explain why she was feeling them. No one else in the crew had seemed to feel them, and no one noticed her shake or react any other way when they occurred. She would just start to breathe heavily with her eyes shot wide open, and a hint of red gleaming in her eyes.
Sparky didn't know anything about what the shockwaves meant, but she could somehow feel that it was related to Aisuru's absence. She knew that anything the doctor or anyone else told her would be useless; the shockwave