AnxietiesHands over ears, screams hide the tearsAnxieties2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like monsters, they stand around, eerie and cruel
Grotesque and uncontrolled
They drive me to the point of collapse
So I do.
I’m the ground
I shake and tremble and tear everything down
I am the ground
I don’t understand how anyone stays around me
When I’m like this
I’m like a stone
Rolling out of control
Loud and predictable, we all know where I’m going
Down, as sure as water, I will fall
And as a boulder, I will tear down everything in my path
NothingI wanna feel nothing again,Nothing2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
bury myself in the fury of
my half-death, alive but not
feeling, muted and silent.
I wanna have nothing again,
free myself to the unending
scorn of those around me and
be able to not care.
I wanna feel nothing again,
I just don't want to be
confined to all of this
Only When I WriteThe drama unfurling in my lifeOnly When I Write2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Feels like the shadow of my hand
That grows as it comes ever closer
To the light perched on my bed stand
In that I can feel the darkest cloud
Ever such a menacing sight
In time I can reverse the feeling
But only when I write
Seclusion left me with nothing
Apart from creativity
Loneliness it turns out, my friends
Is quite the aperitif
For the feast that is awaiting me
If I make it through the night
Tomorrow always brings me new hope
But only when I write
You approach me on a good day
And I will offer you a smile
The same expression on the worst days
Because my manners are so mild
But don’t take me for a toothless fool
When cornered I’ve been known to bite
Fear not, those demons remain at bay
But only when I write
never thought I'd be like thisI never thoughtnever thought I'd be like this2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'd be like this,
with broekn smiles
and scarred up wrists.
No, I never thought
I'd be like this
back when my world
was filled with joy.
I would cry so much,
and have to remember
faded out scars.
I never thought
I would feel alone
when I was a little girl.
Back when days were simple
and cooties still existed.
When I'd smile and play,
and had such big dreams.
of reaching for the sky,
of singing on stage,
and becoming president.
but it never crossed my mind
that I'd feel pain,
and cry so much
and that my pleas would go unheard
I thought the world
was a happy place,
for me as a little girl,
and I never thought
I'd be this way.
all torn apart,
and hoping to be fixed.
never thought the
pain would last
I thought there'd atleast be someone there,
someone who loved me
and cared for me.
but never as a little girl.
had I thought
those dreams would be
and I'd be here
left in pain.
no I never thought
as a little girl
that i'd end up
the way I am...
Throw It AwayStop!Throw It Away2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Put the blade down
Don't you think it's time for something new?
A new attitude, a new way of dealing with
The things they put you through
A new way to survive
A new way to pull you through
You may not see it now
But if you hold on
It always gets better somehow
So throw your self-destructive tool
Away and join the fight
We'll show those in pain
That there's always a light
And I know you think that no one's there
And I know you think that no one cares
But the things they said, they're not true
They're only trying to hurt you
If you go through with this
It'll only get worse
So just throw it away
So just throw the guilt away
All the anger, all the pain
All the fear and all the shame
Just throw it all away
On the edge
There's a girl stood looking down
And she's so far up
She can see the whole town
Little did she know
The very next day
They'd take back all the things they say
But now she'll never find out
Wait it out
Just wait and see
It will get better for b
Me Against the WorldLost within a world of apathy;Me Against the World2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Practically sitting on the edge of tragedy;
such a catastrophe.
My mentality is such a calamity;
the audacity of that analogy.
Elaborately I express my insanity;
with such brutality.
And yet, ever so casually,
I sit on the fence of normality;
the formality of my mortality.
Yet again, it's all in vanity.
My life is such a travesty;
but still, such a fantasy.
My life perhaps is a rhapsody;
and I will patently, so valiantly,
live my life with majasty;
amnesty, lazily and happily.
Memories of the PastMemories of the PastMemories of the Past3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Do you remember the blue summer sky?
Free of clouds and full of dreams
Our lives were so wonderful
All day long together with friends free of all worries
Do you remember the bikes that we used to ride?
I remember riding till the very end of the sunlight
All those times we fall and then got back up again
I remember all of it all the fun that was to be together
Do you remember the nights?
Nights full of games of hide and seek
And the fireflies were the only thing that shined in the dark
Also the sound of the crickets that echoes till the dawn
I remember all of that with sorrow in my heart
The way we were young and carefree
All of those memories now rest in our heads or in pictures
But I shall never forget about them
Nor will you forget about our time of joy
You remember it right?
The time when we were kids of the province
When we didn't have all those shiny technology
When we used sticks as a sort of fun
And to tell you the truth it was more fun back then than now
KrystalOh, KrystalKrystal2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your eyes would light up the world
The things you'd do
The people you'd meet
They'd smile for your every heartbeat
I'm not going to describe your appearance
'Cause I know you'd be beautiful no matter what
Your smile would bring joy to my heart
And your kind heart would bring so much joy
Not just to me
But to every living thing
I'd hold you tight when you have nightmares
And stroke your hair until you sleep
I'd listen to your soft breath
And sing to you your favourite lullabies
I'd love you with every fibre of my being
I'd teach you to play beautiful music
And bring compassion to the earth
I'd teach you to respect the animals that surround us
And be grateful for nature's beauty
You would inspire people
To be strong when things are tough
You'd never lose hope
You'd never give up
You would never stop loving
You would be perfect in my eyes
You were everything I had ever hoped for
But my dream has been taken from me
The child I'll never have
The eyes I'll
Self-ImageIn the camera I'm prettySelf-Image3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But cameras depend
On the lighting
In the mirror I'm not perfect
But mirrors can lie
And magnify all
The blemishes we hide
In the shower I am talented
All the sadness and pain
Brought by the day
In the end I am human
While perfection I strive
Humans have faults
It's what makes our lives
A Poem of PoetryPoetry is like a drawingA Poem of Poetry2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A drawing made of words
A drawing not to be shown
But to be heard
Poetry is like the wind
For it can be soft and warm
And come in a graceful form
Or it can be swift and cold
Emanating fear and nothing bold
Words are meant
To be shared unbent
Not twisted full of lies
And should be without
Any sorrow or sighs
Poetry is beautiful
It's a song without instruments
Poetry is wonderful
A colourful collage of imagination
Poems are lovely
A poem is a story
And if you have never heard one
I shall feel very sorry
I Love You, DaddyDaddy, please don't touch me.I Love You, Daddy2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It doesn't feel good.
It makes me feel..
Daddy, please don't hit me.
I didn't mean to disappoint you.
When you hit me, it makes me feel...
Daddy, please don't hurt her.
Mommy didn't do anything.
When you hit her, it makes me feel..
Daddy, please don't say you love me.
I know you're lying.
When you say you still want me, it makes me feel...
Daddy, please stop screaming at her.
You already killed her.
When you scream at her, it makes me feel..
Daddy, stay there.
Let me sink the knife into your throat.
When you bleed, it makes me feel..
Daddy, aren't you happy now?
As you lie there, lifeless.
I'm only following your footsteps.
This makes me feel...
Daddy, please listen.
I know you can't hear me, but...
I still love you.
The same way you always loved me.
And it makes me feel...
It makes me feel..
Your Little DollControl my every moveYour Little Doll2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
my rise and my fall
everything at your command
like I was your little doll.
I have no choice
what else was I to do?
you say that you love me
so I'll believe that it's true.
Who knows what real love is?
maybe this is wrong
can't even control my own breath anymore
can only sing your song.
You tell me I must follow
what would happen if I don't?
"that's not an option" you say
with your hand around my throat.
I must get out of this god forsaken place
how did this go so far?
we were in love, we had it all
now there's shackles around my heart.
I'll run as fast as I can
finally out of your arms
bruised mind, scarred heart
but away from further harm.
Use to control my every move
my rise and my fall
no longer at your command
never again your little doll..
Love just for one nightBaby, I slowly whisperLove just for one night2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My lover of this night
My body shivers
And I know exactly why
You drive me crazy
But it feels perfectly fine
Candles are burning
And so am I
I feel you closely
Easily losing my mind
You're moving so slowly
Making me go wild
Baby, I'm pleading
Gently kissing your lips
Whatever I'm feeling
I want more of this
I want you to be mine
Even if just for tonight
Naked desire of mine
Burning flesh of yours
Heart instead of mind
Gain instead of loss
It feels good to love
It feels right in the core
I might have just sold my soul
But it was worth it after all
Addicted to a Certain Kind of Sadness...Addicted to a Certain Kind of Sadness...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The sadness in her eyes, makes me come alive.
This darkness in her veins, makes me feel insane.
Those pointless arguments, as she falls in disdain.
That chemical bond we break, as she falls over again.
She knows she's grown attached.
She knows she just won't last.
It's a disturbing mindset...
When you breathe and you regret.
Laugh, if her screams become shrill.
Deep down she feels this thrill...
I'm only her conscience speaking the truth.
As she lies to herself and to you.
ComplicateToo often in our livesComplicate3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
We complicate things,
Cluttering our minds and hearts
With useless worries and fears.
Instead of drinking in the Summer sun
Or becoming mesmerized by your coffee,
You worry about getting sunburnt
And consuming too much caffeine.
We forget to take pleasure
In a simple hello and goodbye;
A smile shared, an "I love you",
A hug given for no reason.
We analyse every look and smile
Since each syllable means something;
Even a tiny thing such as an emoticon
Has a deeper meaning these days.
A simple "how are you" or "why"
Can be seen as offensive,
As too intrusive, as nosy,
Too demanding and suspicious.
Just talking to someone of the opposite gender
For more than a few minutes
Will have people automatically assuming
The two of you are in a relationship.
Instead of enjoying the music,
We criticize the lyrics, discuss the tune,
Making the song so technical,
Sucking it dry of any emotion.
Just sitting alone on your bed
Listening to "Florence and the Machine"
Is an effective
One dose of glitterOne dose of glitter can light up the worldOne dose of glitter2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
One little thought can bring back little girls
Fairies and dragons and strong, worthy knights
One dose of glitter can shine through the night
Hush, little girl, for the stars in the sky
Shining so sweetly like your stunning eyes
Don't let the nightmares define what you'll be
Notice the beauty within every dream
Hush, little girl, there is no need to fight…
One dose of glitter to light up the night.
The End.Standing on the edge of reality and dreams,The End.2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Letting the world pass by, over me, around me, through me.
Sliding off like water, like rain, like tears.
Grazing my skin, then falling off, leaving me alone, in emptiness and silence.
Little drops, cast off into oblivion, splattered on the ground, impossible to recover.
No regret for their demise. No desire to go back.
I let everything go.
I will cry myself empty, until nothing is left.
I will sleep past doomsday. I will not rise with the dead.
Not until everything has passed completely away.
Not until I can open my eyes and stare into nothingness.
Pure, peaceful, nothingness.
Not until I can walk forever in void.
Pure, empty void.
Then, finally, I can leave reality behind completely.
I can fall over the edge.
With one final scream, one final burst of violence,
One final explosion of being,
I will cast myself down and let myself break.
I will lie there, so still and so alone,
Until I fade into the void that surrounds me.
AutumnEverything is dying,Autumn2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And it’s beautiful.
All the colours,
Make the world less dull.
It’s a bizarre idea,
That death is beautiful.
But death is beautiful.
It just means there will be another cycle of life.
You can feel the death all around you,
With the cold,
The trees that are becoming bare.
And its magnificent.
Soul CollectorBloody murdererSoul Collector3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Damned soul collector
Tell me, how could you extort the life out of those shiny, brown eyes?!
I'm vividly smiling as he slowly dies
Tell me, didn't you fell a thing while giving the poisonous kiss?
I feel every beating of his heart as we are immersing in the bliss
A soul collector, destroyer of the mind,
I'm about to extinguish his light, to leave him lost and blind
I'll encage his ripped soul,
Just after he'll lose the self-control
Don't drag another soul into your disgrace,
Just one more blanked face
Don't kill again with your breath-taking embrace,
I promise, just one more one more stolen core
You know you shouldn't, but your claws are digging already in his chest,
I'm spilling his blood, the flesh I wrest
Don't collect this soul, not this time,
I must capture his soul before he captures mine,
I promise, just
For HerSkin so pale and so innocent; yet warm and soft.For Her2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Bright is her eyes, always lit by day or by night.
Her warm embrace; like a maiden of the heavens taking the late life of a man.
The way I feel with her, is a way I have so little felt;
Tis love! The bittersweet fruit that drives an able bodied person;
To the very end of their sanity or to their discovery of true happiness!
Oh god who art in heaven, why must I love!
For she the vile woman that fate has bestowed upon my desires;
Feels not the same as I.
dark love poemI love you as the,dark love poem2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
dark summers eve
I hate the dark side
of you, like a vampire
hates the sun light
your eyes glitter as the
full moon shine so brightly
your scent is a bouquet of red
roses and your beautiful
smile make oh so less
painful for my heart
that been torn by dogs
your smooth silky skin
makes me warm and want
to hug you more by the day
DrugLove is a drugDrug2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Mixed between ecstasy & ruin
between pleasure & pain
Like the smell of blood
that pours out of my veins
It's a addictive
But it's destroying you
from the inside out
Hitting hard with every breath,
I guess, just like crystal meth
Love is so destructive
It really hurts
But it hurts so good
You just can't get enough
Yeah I know it's tough
Love is the drug
you can't get enough of
MonsterWaking up the monsterMonster2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Scared of what he'll do
But no way to prevent
That waking it, is what I'll do
Curious as I am
I take a step back
And watch its every move
Surprised by how it ends
The monster of who they spoke
Ain't no monster at all
It's just a lonely creature
Needed love, that's all
Do They Even Know? (Beautiful World Part II)After years and yearsDo They Even Know? (Beautiful World Part II)2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Of sitting in sorrow,
Watching the Beautiful World
Outside my window,
Feeling pain of separation
The great divide between me and them
It felt as though my heart were made of wood
And termites were slowly eating away,
But they would never finish
There was always more to consume.
I just wanted to die,
To escape torment
But for some cruel reason,
I was never given that option.
Now I just lie on the floor
The carapace of a person
Existing, but not really alive
All days blur together
I'm not even sure, exactly
How long I've been here
Scrunched up in a ball
With all my hope lost.
I just feel nothing,
I've become anesthetized.
And now all I do is wonder,
Does the world outside,
Even know I am here?