And engulfed society
It's hard to believe-
That some of us still have our humanity
And there are those who still cannot see
The damaged moralities-
That were bestowed from a corrupted creed
You don't know the heavy burden that each of us carries
As gray as gray can be
Told that the way I am is wrong
I was taught to fear the real me!
Learning to hate differentiality
Hearing whispers all around
I despised my own identity
Things need to change now!
Some of us don't even make it that far / It's not what you do- but who you are
None of us should ever live in the dark / There will always be a spark in our hearts
Heads held high
Let the true colors show
Revealed in the light
There's no reason to hide anymore!
Take control of life
Get rid of past remorse
Leave it all behind
Happiness is worth fighting for!
Conceals a lesson
One that's worth the cost
Each of us deserves a clear conscience-
The hope that we carr
LOVE IS LOVESome people are StraightLOVE IS LOVE2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
while others are Gay
Some believe that Gays are a Sin
while others call it Love
Others are Bisexual
Who love both of the sexes
Many people call it a Sin
while others believe it isn't fake
There is nothing wrong with it
We are here to love one another
So why do people call us a Sin?
When to be Honest Love is a Beautiful thing
Many will think its wrong
while others think it's perfectly fine
Not all girls love Men
and not all Men love Girls
So why can't we all be equal?
Why must there be a Fight?
Maybe I will go to Hell
Cause maybe it is a Sin
If loving someone is a issue
if loving the same sex is wrong
Then maybe I don't want to be right
Cause I am here to Love who ever I want to Love
Pansexuality"Pansexuals are bisexualsPansexuality2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
who are just fancy snobs
in need for a 'cooler' word
to fancily name their flaws"
I've heard this said so many times
and yet believe it be untrue
it's scared people telling lies
people scared of something new
First of all I'd like to say
sexuality isn't wrong
there is no need to point it out
and call it a flaw
It's a normal part of us
how nature let's us come
there's homosexuality in all living species
and homophobia in one
Now for there difference
of pansexual and bi
Bisexuals usually have tendencies
Pans give everyone a try
We don't care
if you're from here or there
don't mind the colour of your hair
or the kind of clothes you wear
Bisexuals say "boys and girls
but I prefer one side"
there's nothing wrong with saying that
there's nothing there to hide
All we pans really care about
Is who you are and have been
Is loving you for who you are
really such a sin?
My Invisible LifeMy Invisible Life1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Invisible Life
On the surface of anxiety
Getting used to this melancholy
They'd always be here to help
I've always only had myself
Opening the gates to this hell
And the screams are revealed
I let my sorrow and resolve meld
My desires are overtaken
I know this isn't right
But my lies weren't convincing
So this will always be my invisible life
Rain Of ColorRain Of Color2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rain Of Color
All of the struggles I had to endure
I always desperately held on
It was a day after day ritual
Learning to stay strong
Different advice from the wise
I had to fuse it all together
And make sense of every voice
I couldn't allow my hope to wither
Believe in the soul
Embrace the heart
It's what makes you whole
It defines who you really are
Envision the dreams
As if they're real
Remember where you've been
Know that every wound will heal
Every scar tells a story / Every step is towards glory
There's always a chance to triumph / There's always a time for resonance
We always pick ourselves back up / There's no such thing as enough
Born to live free / Alive to feel peace
Hold onto that spark
Even if it's not much
It'll guide you through the dark
It'll help you when you're lost
Compare not to others
Live at your own pace
It always gets better
Faith never really fades
I've made it to this place
Where finally I realize
I've journeyed through the pain
And I have
The ClosetI.The Closet2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I had a dream
that sprung legs and ran ahead into the closet in front of my bed;
the door swung shut behind it, and I fell asleep with my eyes wide
watching bright fantasies that were not mine to see.
The sun flushed into my room and swallowed me up in its light
sometime between me playing with my eyelashes and mumbling
to the walls. I leaped toward the closet door and tugged it open.
It was empty.
I had a dream that my closet was calling to me like a giant
with curious white eyes; I woke up asleep on its floor
with my blanket tucked into my arms. I stayed in there
all day and refused to leave even when the father
called for me. I wanted to hear her heart beat.
I had an idea,
but it only came weeks later when I sat down to dinner.
The parents avoided eye contact; I was the child who slept
on the closet floor, the one with the silly mind.
The idea was simple. I lied in bed as still as the moonlight,
my mind hummed like the creatures swarming beneath me.
When the lights were
Gay suicideHis mom is going up to the podium to speak. Everyone is so quiet that all I could hear was the piano softly playing "Amazing Grace." I think about him…I still can't believe it. My best friend. Dead. Just yesterday, he told me he was gay.Gay suicide2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I couldn't be gay, just like I couldn't have caused his death. When he told me, someone overheard and asked me how I could be his friend anymore and I just couldn't stand the embarrassment. So I said it. I said I couldn't be friends with a fag. I said that right to his face and I walked away.
He left early; someone said he wasn't feeling well. I never thought—he was always so happy, so kind to everyone. And look what happened. Kids took advantage of him and he couldn't handle it. Kids are cruel, my class is cruel…and he was, well, weak.
His mom is beginning to talk. "My son, Jaylen…he was always such a happy-go-lucky kid. He always found a way to make the worst things in the world disappear. He was always so nice to everyone. He stood up for his friend
Love AgainSome would tell me I love her too much:Love Again2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I need to feel special,
Wanted and desired.
As if I were your sun,
Because I'm your only one.
I spent a year giving my all,
In love with you I continued to fall!
Falling, not knowing I was actually crashing.
I survived; This time at least,
But my heart suffers for it.
It is fragile and petrified,
All night I had cried.
There is no he in lesbian,
So stick to me if you can.
But babes not only that,
"If you can," will not be good enough!
*Leave "he" far behind!!!*
Because to be with me it is a must,
Otherwise where's the trust?
No trust means no respect or true love,
Dash me to the rocks: be done.
If you cannot resist,
If temptation is stronger than love?
Don't make me suffer like you hate me,
Instead, let me go like you love me...
Dreaming Of TearsDreaming Of Tears1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Dreaming Of Tears
Weakened to the very core
I can't endure this anymore
I'm going to black out
And be transported to a realm
Where my screams don't make a sound
Hate keeps me bound while I leave my fears to drown
I loath the days without rest
I despise the nights of endless stress
Though I can't settle for anything less
Because lower than this is death
It's like living and sleeping within tortuous realities
Even though I'm unconscious- there is no such thing as rest for me
No one knows how powerful my dreams can be
No one knows all of the graphic images I've seen
Dive into the ocean! / Swim through the thorns!
Let your pain open! / Allow your skin to mourn!
The memories start to fill
Then time stands still
A level of this kind of guilt
Is more than enough to kill
I don't know whats worse- my dreams
Or all of the secrets that I keep
It's hard to believe
This is what I call 'sleep'
In these impure waters
I bathe in the pools
Those of a coward
FreakFreak2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Are seen as abominations among humanity
I'm a another stereotype labeled by society
Even though I'm trying my best to just be me
I may not walk the same
But I still have my own path
I have my own footsteps to make
And my own happiness to grasp
You see me how you want to
I am who I am
You have your own narrow point of view
But I am just another human
So many words to be said / So much hate to be meant
Lash out towards the difference / Guilt trip my already-clouded conscience
I am not the one who is typical
I choose to look a different way
You need to look in the mirror
And ask what does a dictator always say?
I don't want to be like anyone else
Divide the bland similarities in between
I need not your help to be myself
Separate the judgments from belief
Will finally see
That I'm not a freak
I'm just unique
Survival of the IllestAre those hints of lemon I detect?Survival of the Illest2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Look, I'm just here to get wasted, don't try
to make it more than that.
I'd drink motor oil if I thought
it could get me high; chase it with a shot
you can keep your survival instincts,
in that pretty velvet box (along with all
those other things
you thought you could convince yourself
you lived for). Instincts are the bare
bones of the impossibilities we wanted
to believe in,
those times you tried to tell me that
adrenaline was God's way
we were His chosen ones, we were
special, we were free.
I tried to tell you that instincts and God
can't exist side by side, but I was already
far gone, cornea constellations
spiraling and you looked at me with such pitiful
I just gave up the fight.
I told you once that my goal in life
is to kill myself slowly, immerse my organs
of whiskey and scotch
over a fifty-years-or-so period. "Just think,"
"it will be like an ocean, w
Life is a work of art.Words- etched into skin,Life is a work of art.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
like dipping pens on parchment,
exploiting crimson ink under frail paper,
painting pictures of untold stories;
the symphonies of emotion,
hidden somewhere between heart and soul.
The joys and pains of life can't be compromised to a children's picture book,
but are expressed by the colourful novels within your mind,
each brush stroke laid onto Life's canvas,
like the eternal mark you leave on Earth after death.
You hold the pencil to your future,
the instrument to your dreams.
You are the artist,
and life is your masterpiece.
Sobriety's RiseSobriety's Rise2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I exiled you from my veins
You will never affect me again
Take with you the very worst of me
I will no longer be a part of thee!
Too long have my eyes been closed
So many years have passed in vain
I couldn't let the road ahead get any worse
I'm no longer a victim of your taint
I dwell no more- in those old woes
Though I regret the pain I allowed myself to sustain
Mirrors don't snare / Family doesn't glare
This hope I bear / I've made it here
Cleansed my spirit away / Allowed scars to fade
Embraced the change / Unlocked the cage
My dreams no longer weep
The nightmares refuse to reimmerse
I can move forward if I really believe
I was able to get passed the hurt
'cause I forgave myself for being weak
I am not drowning myself anymore!
Deemed my recovered soul worthy
I accepted the gift of clarity
Today- I am alive
Watch me rise!
In The DistanceIn The Distance2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In The Distance
I've realized that nothing never truly ends
Because it's just the beginning of the emptiness
I want to take back my actions / I want to give you reasons
I said all of the words I've needed
And to the mirror
I wish those were silent confessions / I wish none of this had happened
I finally let out all of those feelings I hid
Beneath my surface
They're just emotions from a fallen / Because without you, I'm nothing
I meant every single tear I cried
My one true purpose
I'm feeling so goddamn faithless / To my world, you're everything
I couldn't hold on, I slowly let go of my grip
It took the best of me
All of our moments are worth remembering / This pain in my soul is worth keeping
I didn't stay silent forever, I let my cries slip
So I could weep pathetically
I hope you find the happiness you'
could i trust you? You asked me,could i trust you?2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Who has your key?
The key to your heart
I looked away &&&
When I didn't respond,
You asked me
Can I have the key?
But when I still was quiet,
And wouldn't look at you,
Please.. I really want to have it..
The truth is, I no longer hold the key.
I've trusted so many people with it,
I don't have it. Don't know where it went.
I've given it to so many people who have
Unlocked my heart
Just to hurt me. I don't have a key to give you.
But.. If I did, could I trust you,
To hold it safe?
Close to your heart,
Where no harm could come of it?
Could I trust you,
Not to walk away once I've let you in?
Once you've seen what I am?
I'm sorry. I can't....
To Save Your LifeTo Save Your Life2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To Save Your Life
Heroes are hard to come by
Especially in this day and age
Because of you- I am still alive
Hail, the vanquisher of pain
I fought as long as I could have
But I sank into the weakness below
And I felt my sorrow's wrath
The helplessness took over
My fists let go
Of the resistance
I fell from hope
The light faded in the distance
It was all a dream
A simple false belief
Hands dangled frantically / Tears dripped endlessly
I needed a hero to save me / I yearned to be set free
A hand reached out
I was finally found
I rose back to grace
And the darkness brightened
The savior I awaited
Lifted me up and triumphed
I prayed as much as I needed
Even when I was beyond drowning
I knew a kind soul would pay heed
Every mourning human deserves saving
Idle No MoreIdle No More2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Idle No More
Scattered bravery can and will unite!
Come together and let us stand up for our rights!
Let our voices ascend from this condescending lament!
Rise up and fight against the bitter injustice to the very end!
Generations have come and passed
But here has come a time
Where this bloodline may be the last
This is what we call life
Choked by the government's grasp
And abiding by the lies they hurl in a mass
Promises were disguised / Words were lies
We couldn't cross that line / A law where corruption aligns
A home that I can't call mine / A reservation to silence the mourning
A place for the shame they hide / A destruction that is considered fine
An agreement made into a mistake / Our relations were falsely created
Your smiles were feigned / For our own sake
There's countless victims of your crusade / Can't let history repeat this way
Rebuttal the decisions you made / reinvoke the culture you stripped away
Children that don't get to be
Exist inside of fe
In The RainfallIn The Rainfall1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
In The Rainfall
Dripping with blame
Bound by hate
I felt your anger
I held my pieces together
I always wait for the right moment-
To finally break down
I need the pain to flow perfect-
To let it all out
I'm reaching for my tainted core / I won't let you corrupt me anymore
You will not be a part of me / This is not how it's going to be
I always wait for the oncoming storm-
That's the only time
Endure it all until the promised calm-
Just to call it mine
I am myself again
You're gone with the rain
I am my own protection
I can rise above the destruction
Catch me if you canI’m the anorexic at the local gym whom everybody watches but nobody looks at.Catch me if you can2 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
I’m the bulimic at school whom everybody pretends not to know about.
I’m the girl in your gym class with too many scars to be telling the truth.
I’m the kid with her head down in the library who is always “fine.”
I’m the boy who 'fell down the stairs'...again.
I’m the child who doesn't show up for school lunch because it's too expensive.
I’m the teenager living a double life in front of your very eyes.
Catch me if you can.
How Does That Make You Feel?I'm sure you remember the "glory days,"How Does That Make You Feel?7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
when you wrote your name in cement,
and carved it into the bark of dead trees.
When you weren't too cold, you blanketed yourself in the snow
and made snow angels,
And when you weren't too hot, you were daring enough to dive into
the deep end, even though so many people had drowned before.
You were strong enough to pull a sleigh full of people,
but weak enough to fall apart when someone else took your place.
Don't you remember?
You always said that fate and love and anything in between was a pile of bullshit,
but secretly, in the wrinkles of your noggin, you believed.
You were childish enough to say that Santa was real,
but mature enough to know that life was a cruel place, and a lot of people were great fiction writers.
You found long nights with the fireflies appealing, and kept them (like your dreams) in a tiny glass jar.
when you realized fate and love really was a pile of bullshit.
When you loved reading the fiction you warned me
I Need You.What if I need you to stop me?I Need You.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What if I need you to stop me making myself sick for the fifth time today?
What if I need you to stop me running that razor across my wrist tonight?
But I've got to not need you anymore...
Where are you?
Where are you when I swallow all those pills?
Where are you when I run out of a classroom bursting into tears?
But you're not here for me anymore...
Who can I talk to?
Who can I talk to when I don't want to eat for four days?
Who can I talk to when I can't take things anymore?
But you don't really care anymore....
Who can give me that support?
Who's going to tell me it's okay to be scared?
Who's going to give me that hug when I'm shaking?
But not you, because my problems aren't your responsibility anymore...
But now I am alone.
And I can't feel this way.... Not anymore.
The Changing TideThe Changing Tide2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The era is now passed through which I lived and favored,
and my patience then packs its bags for hiatus,
with which to remind me that perhaps
brighter days lie in sunny hammocks ahead.
Here and alas lays the road to that sunny setting,
upon which I walk and tread the changing tide.
The next item on the list of Fates agenda and her passionate affair with time...
the seconds will carry on like the beats of my undying heart.
The fire that burns in my eyes, through which I see is only assuaged
by the tears they produce...
the tears I produce in my longing for some peace of some sort.
Yet those tears shall only accompany the sweat of my efforts.
Once upon a time, in the dream come true through which I slept,
did a fairy tale once exist…
that tale of my tale through endless times of a dream come true
and gone by in the era that I once lived and favored.
My coming out story (part two)Hey guys, Its me Nathan again! I'm sorry I'm so damn late! I had A very odd week and some stuff in the home was happening which prevented me from getting online for too long. so hopefully you'll all forgive me and continue to read ^_^My coming out story (part two)1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Well, lets get started.
First Entry (Part One): http://lgbt-youth-america.deviantart.com/journal/My-coming-out-story-as-it-happens-353639037
So in the next few days after I came out to the first person ever things were very difficult for me. I had no idea what I was gonna do and so ultimately I decided to get up the courage to tell my best friend and so maybe I could talk to her about it. so in the middle of October in 2012 I got on facebook and started talking to her, I was acting really nervous and I started shivering a lot. and so when I finally decided to tell her I said that I needed to tell her something and that as my best friend she needed to know. she said to go ahead and so I told her that I thought I was bi (at that point I was still thinking I