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BullyShh.Bully5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Shut up.
Don't
Say
Anything.
Run.
Faster.
Faster.
Faster.
Stop.
Scream.
Fear.
Die.
Demons in the shadows
Twisting
Turning
Staring.
Watch yourself
Bleeding.
Quiet now.
Hush, child.
They'll find a way
To get you.
Beatings, swallowing you.
Scars, defining you.
You.
Breaking.
Crying.
Dying.
After all
You know you're weak.
You can't fight a bully
When the bully's inside of you.
Nobody Told MeNobody told me,Nobody Told Me5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
How to act.
I wish I knew how much was too much,
or when too little was not enough.
If somebody told me,
that the small things meant the most,
and the big things were forgettable;
Where would I be today?
Nobody told me,
Who to love.
What came of the people I knew
and who were the people I would have known?
If somebody told me,
that I HAD the perfect person,
or that I am with the wrong one;
Would I be able to live with myself?
Nobody told me,
How to feel.
Is what I am feeling right or wrong,
and which should I act upon?
If somebody told me,
that I was being overly obsessive,
or that I should have let go:
CancerFeel the pain aching through your bonesCancer5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your flesh, seemingly fading to dust
Your mind, burning
Your thoughts, racing.
Dying.
Breaking.
"It'll be okay."
No it won't.
"I know."
Fight the tears, your father can't see you cry.
After all
You're a fighter.
Right?
"You can do this."
No, I can't.
"Thank you."
Breathe.
Slower.
Slower.
No.
Faster.
Stop.
Shut up.
You
Can't
Win.
After all
You don't have cancer.
Cancer
Is who you are.
Please Kindly Leave My Brain"LEAVE ME ALONE!"Please Kindly Leave My Brain4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
That's what I want to say.
I don't mean it.
I need you.
"I'm Fine,"
That's what I say.
I don't mean it.
I'm dying from the inside out.
Tired.
Nervous.
Scared.
Jealous.
Angry.
Mad.
Insane.
Feel like shit... again...
"I'm just not hungry,"
I say.
Which is true. But with a deeper meaning...
No Food.
I'll starve my body into death.
"I'm sure I'll live,"
Please.
Please don't say that.
What if your not sure?
You die. I die.
That's the situation.
How can I be happy, If I know you're not?
It's immpossible.
I need you're hugs too much...
My Week...I...My Week...3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't know where to start.
I've been feeling very alone.
I've been feeling physically ill.
Head rushes, stomach aches, headaches...
Maybe my body is finally giving up.
I've had such bad urges and wants to self harm.
And that constant feeling of wanting to die,
It never goes away.
I just get distracted...
I've been paranoid and anxious,
after being in the house for two days.
Scrubbing my hands and freaking out about complete strangers.
I haven't been sickened by my day or feelings.
I've been cold and in need of energy.
Food has comforted me in the final days of the week.
I haven't seen a single friend.
Nor had a good conversat
Awesome HugToday I needed a hug.Awesome Hug4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
But had no one there.
I needed a hug so much,
There wouldn't have been a hug spare.
I'll still need a hug.
Because I've told you all that's caused me pain.
An hour long hug.
Because I need to store it in my memory, incase I need a hug again.
Even though you haven't replied.
Normally I'd wonder.
But I don't mind tonight.
As I was about to lie.
But you caught me before I could.
How could I lie to you?
I knew you'd make this harder than it should.
Words.../////////////Warning/////////// TriggersWords...2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have no words to say.
I haven't got the will to.
I haven't got the will to say the words.
Calories.
Cut.
I haven't got a clue what to do........
Starving myself to death is a long way...
But thoughts of death run down the drain with the blood from my cuts.
The pain has washed over my days for weeks. Months. Years.
It never goes.
I have no way to help myself.
Nor can I save those around me.
As I try to stop someone from touching the flame. I burn myself.
We both burn ourselves.
Should we just estinguish life?
Is that what we should be doing?
I don't understand as messed up as they are how can
Day 107School stress is not a good mixture with suicidal thoughts.Day 1073 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Today has be amazing but I've now in a load of shit.
I got a C. And a B. and I can't help but feel shit.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
Two people asked about my bruise on my leg.
So two lies I've said.
Maybe I should just give up?
I helped a friend today because she was stressed, and worried.
Locked herself in the toilets.
I had to help.
I couldn't not help.
Because the way I am and how unstable my shit is.
I could very well be in that locked toilet.
Could be tomorrow?Could be a month?
Only I'd either be there with a badge or a blade.
Or my fist or nail.
Or a plastic bag. And hoodie chord
suicide (revised)She’s trying to breathsuicide (revised)2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Gasping for air
A bloody hand print grabs a wall
A sign that someone’s in there
She kept it all secret
Nobody knew
It became too much for her
No one had a clue
Her breath is short
Her death is near
The clock has stopped
She has nothing to fear
Someone was in there
Behind those walls
Someone was dying
Taking it all
You cry for her now
She’s already gone
She finally gave up
She suffered to long
She’s had this pain now
For so many years
It’s too late to care now
So dry up your tears
Destroy MeHe was beautiful.Destroy Me2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Scars and all.
She was beautiful.
Scars and all.
Their love was undefiable.
There was no way to explain it.
They held hands as they walked,
Arm to arm,
Relfecting scars.
Neither tried to stop nor help the other.
How could they?
Hypocrite wouldn't be the word.
But they comforted each other and did what ever the other asked them to do.
If she was upset and ready to relapse.
He hand her a red pen and kiss her on her forehead.
If he was close to punching himself.
She'd kiss his hand and hand him a stress ball.
They both listened as they spilled there feelings.
As they sobbed.
They shared sleepless nights lying together.
I Saw This On TUMBLRThe Girls I Babysit:I Saw This On TUMBLR8 months ago in Emotional More Like This
Carly: What are those? (pointing to my scars on my wrist)
Me: They're battle scars.
Anna: Cool! Can I have some?
Me: Please don't ever get some okay? But when you see someone with them like the ones I have on their wrists go hug them. Don't ever make fun of them okay?
As we're walking around Wal Mart with both of them holding my hands, a young girl walks by us. Carly and Anna go and hug her. She hugs these two adorable little girls back
Girl: Why are you hugging me?
Carly: You have battle scars. *points to her wrists*
And through her tears she looks up at me and smiles.
Two-FaceSuch a pretty smile,Two-Face2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Who'd you steal it from?
Such beautiful eyes,
Who's missing them?
Such elegant cheekbones,
Whose skeleton did you copy?
Such a petite nose,
Whose was it before?
So, pare you the politician,
Or the prep?
The genius,
Or the gullible?
The skeptic,
Or the stupid?
The jock,
Or the joker?
What face are you hiding behind?
Whose eyes am I looking into?
I want to see your eyes,
YOUR smile,
YOUR face,
I don't want Two-Face.
I want you.
My GhostOn a gruesome Halloween night,My Ghost2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I encountered a little boy.
"Miss!" He cried.
"Oh miss!
You seem to have dropped your toy."
In his hand,
He held a dagger.
In surprise,
I cried,
"Not mine!"
"But look," he said.
"Look here.
This is the grand design."
My name was there,
In blood red letters,
The pattern elegant and neat.
With a sigh and splash,
The boy was a puddle at my feet.
As I gazed into the water,
I thought I saw an eye.
But with a blink of mine,
It was gone.
I feared the hallucination,
So I just moved on.
But as I turned around,
And went to walk away,
I could swear that a heard,
A little boy's voice say,
"You can run, Claire,
Screamed NoYou said no,Screamed No3 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
but he said yes.
How were you to know
what would happen next?
How could you know
that he'd push you down?
How could you know
you'd hit the ground?
How could you know
he'd rip off your shirt?
Tossed it away,
covered in dirt.
You didn't know
he'd have you pinned.
Because how could you know
that this would happen?
That your shirt would come off,
jeans un-zip.
That your heart would falter
with the rhythm of his hips.
That you would scream no,
as he groaned yes.
Magic WandDragons fly through poison skies, their whispers in the windMagic Wand6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Ladybugs in black sandcastles, scratches on your skin
Hopscotch over quicksand, and a castle made of dirt
Shining silver crowns and dancing 'round in spinning skirts
Bloody, ruined princesses locked up in towers tall
Watching as the prince quickly begins to fall
Slowly, as the innocence does take her darling life
Please do watch now, as the magic wand becomes a knife...
Shattered MemoryFrozen with noShattered Memory3 months ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Warmth at all,
Nothing to warm
The scarred soul....
Listening to the
Passing ticks of
Time pass by in
The circumference
Of the world.....
Scream shout
Till the light went
Out, only till eyes
Were to open up...
Mattered not nobody
To hear the perplexed
Cry’s out......
Hidden in darkness
With a faint light
To see, going off and
On whenever it pleased.....
Black and blue like
The remembrance of
The suppressed night sky.....
Not to think as a dream,
But a nightmare that’s ever
So real and is now just
A shattered memory in the
Mind.....
Filled With NothingsNothing is writtenFilled With Nothings6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Of the emptiness now
I have told you of sensations
But its different somehow
And we go through so much
But I can't stand to say
That I dont know if its felt
In a similar painful way
Because the ache in my chest
Is a pumping living heart
But if feels so broken
Like a swollen useless part
My mind is never clear
Yet nothing is ever thought
Emptiness overwhelms me
And its functions are left to rot
Even this sense of pain
Is as sharp as it could be
But dulled beyond recognition
Because my fake is even empty
Body ExchangeHello, again my old friendBody Exchange6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Glad to see you've returned
Smoke a little, drink a lot
Fill your lungs - get burned
Smile, its all okay, you're fine.
Its safe to be far from you
Body exchange. Mind exchange.
Now there's nothing you can do.
I'll keep you safe, listen to me.
I am the you, you want to see
I watch your back, keep you from stress
To me you are a beautiful mess
A razor is your savior
A drink calms your nerves
And maybe I am wrong, but
I give you what you deserve.
It will become too much for you
Let me have control, my dear...
We will switch, body exchange.
Let's face your fears
Give me control. Give me it all.
I will keep you. I will
MemoriesThe words may live for but a nightMemories7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
But they will always whisper
To awaken you drenched and screaming
With an unforgettable blast
In the dead of silence
To leave you in darkness with nothing
But the sound of your weeping
To repeat the horrors until you beg for mercy
If only you could forget..
I Promise You..I know you're hurting… and I'm hurting tooI Promise You..1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
But just look at me, and all we've been through.
Together we've stayed, at the other's side
To wipe away the tears we've cried.
The pain at times is hard to bear,
And furious screams fill the air
With the bloodiest hate…
When everyone talks of our mistake.
Radiant skin ceases to glow
As it survives blow after blow
Of their savage abuse,
Until you're cast like sour refuse.
It's going to hurt, but what do they know?
They don't see us, taking it slow…
Don't listen to their fallacious lies.
No, love… look into my eyes.
Look at me.
And forget all the worry
As you hold
Love is a suicideWhy do we seek toLove is a suicide3 months ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Find love and fall under
Its spell, when love is
Just a suicide, waiting
For its next moment to
Strike you down…..
Feelings so precious
Then can fade to sudden
Darkness, just for one’s
Pursuit of momentary
Happiness…..
Love is everlasting
How can that be
Said is that really
A devoted promise
To tell….
Love is a scandal,
Can cut like a knife
Can just cause a
Person to run and hide…..
The LashbackDo you know this feeling?The Lashback6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
It comes in different ways...
Can you imagine it
Clawing inside for days
Sometimes it barely lingers
Usually I feel its force
Last night was no question
Its chosen my course
I have no say in actions
I am now afraid to speak
Ripping open untouched skin
Is how it makes me weak
This anxiety...This panic
I dont want you back
I guess you've been sleeping
You never loosened your grasp
So do you know this feeling?
Do you feel the same?
No I feel worse
With each and every day.
Do you feel sick?
Yes, and I feel gone
Stop asking these questions
You already know whats wrong!
The Battle Between Heart and MindThe heart is funnyThe Battle Between Heart and Mind3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
It likes to wonder and sing
Of love and hate
The most bizzare things
My mind cannot reason
What's truly inside
The facts don't add up
But perhaps I just hide
My heart has feelings
That conflict with thought
What I want to be
Isn't who I ought
I block these things out
As it brushes my legs
Until its crawls up my shirt
And stares in my face
We look at each other
And it goes for a kiss
I quickly shy away
But aren't I curious?
My head screams no
I'm not that way
While the begging whispers
Are pushed away
But there comes a night
With calm, restful breathing,
Me and myself
While my conscious is sleeping
The whispers come back
Broken ManBroken heart and broken bonesBroken Man1 month ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Broke apart these broken stones
The broken man's a broken soul
Broken hopes and broken goals
Broken down and broke within
Broken frowns and broken grins
The broken man's broke inside
Broken deep and broken wide
Broken will and broken pride
The broken man broke and died
Sta.sh
