Are seen as abominations among humanity
I'm a another stereotype labeled by society
Even though I'm trying my best to just be me
I may not walk the same
But I still have my own path
I have my own footsteps to make
And my own happiness to grasp
You see me how you want to
I am who I am
You have your own narrow point of view
But I am just another human
So many words to be said / So much hate to be meant
Lash out towards the difference / Guilt trip my already-clouded conscience
I am not the one who is typical
I choose to look a different way
You need to look in the mirror
And ask what does a dictator always say?
I don't want to be like anyone else
Divide the bland similarities in between
I need not your help to be myself
Separate the judgments from belief
Will finally see
That I'm not a freak
I'm just unique
Dreaming Of TearsDreaming Of Tears1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Dreaming Of Tears
Weakened to the very core
I can't endure this anymore
I'm going to black out
And be transported to a realm
Where my screams don't make a sound
Hate keeps me bound while I leave my fears to drown
I loath the days without rest
I despise the nights of endless stress
Though I can't settle for anything less
Because lower than this is death
It's like living and sleeping within tortuous realities
Even though I'm unconscious- there is no such thing as rest for me
No one knows how powerful my dreams can be
No one knows all of the graphic images I've seen
Dive into the ocean! / Swim through the thorns!
Let your pain open! / Allow your skin to mourn!
The memories start to fill
Then time stands still
A level of this kind of guilt
Is more than enough to kill
I don't know whats worse- my dreams
Or all of the secrets that I keep
It's hard to believe
This is what I call 'sleep'
In these impure waters
I bathe in the pools
Those of a coward
StormwalkerStormwalker1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tread harshly on my nightmares
Make all my fears disappear
Hold me close, my rainstopper
So I won't be alone...anymore
A night like tonight-
It'll be alright
Tears seem to fly-
Within glistening light
Relieve thy tired heart
Put thy pain in my arms
Allow those woes to depart
The strong are the weak ones / Once the damage is finally done
Crack and shatter my soul / My protected tears are no more
Don't let my sympathy be wasted / My morals won't become faded
I'm leaving my heart open / Don't let yourself worsen
I will always care / I will always be here
This is what I will always be / The vanquisher of your agony
A day like today
You'll be okay
Bathe in this sunshine
Doubts will ignite
Recover thy power
You survived t
MessEverywhere I goMess1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Every single place
The troubles seem to grow
Every smiling face
Eventually frowns with woe
Why can't I do
I just screw
Up everything despite
The happiness I try to spew
Is it me
Am I the source of this ache
Does the pain flow free
Is this what I make
Should I go away and hide
Never to see others
Or the outside
But would I stop another's
Pain and be the only one that ever cried
What is a life with no grey
When everyone is sad
I'd give it all away
It wouldn't be that bad
I would finally be able to say
I saved a life
Im biMom i told you somethingIm bi2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
a long time ago
but you didnt believe me
except laugh in my face
I told you that i cut
I told you that i am bi
I love both girls and boys
but I had depression as well
why do you think of me as a different person?
Why dont you believe me when i said I am bi?
Why do you treat me differently than any other person?
It meant a lot to me
when i was open
but in the end
I was left with tears that fell
Mom do you understand me?
Dad do you know how I feel?
Why cant i be open to you
without getting hurt all the time?
It is true
I am bi
I love both boys and girls
I am attracted to both
I have been for a long time
but you guys dont believe me
You guys laughed in my face
and hurt me even more
I told you the truth
Yes i am different
I told you that i cut
I told you that Im bi
Why make fun of me?
I thought you guys cared
I thought you guys would love me
even if i am different?
So my question is
My Darkest HourMy Darkest Hour1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Darkest Hour
I've become lost
In my sundered reflection
I've finally crossed
The line of desperation
I sense something sinister
Something that is beyond cruel
My tears seem to hinder
Ready to break down soon
The darkness is always waiting
To rule / To conquer
To swallow / To devour
To return / To overpower
The shadows are always lurking
As I cry / As I weep
As I beg / As I plead
As I fall / As I grieve
The blinding fear is consuming
My anxiety-infected veins pour
I'm beyond weak
I don't want to be afraid anymore
Let me bleed
This is the only way out
A perfect exit for a coward
No longer am I bound
I couldn't survive my darkest hour
Becoming UnjudgedBecoming Unjudged1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
And engulfed society
It's hard to believe-
That some of us still have our humanity
And there are those who still cannot see
The damaged moralities-
That were bestowed from a corrupted creed
You don't know the heavy burden that each of us carries
As gray as gray can be
Told that the way I am is wrong
I was taught to fear the real me!
Learning to hate differentiality
Hearing whispers all around
I despised my own identity
Things need to change now!
Some of us don't even make it that far / It's not what you do- but who you are
None of us should ever live in the dark / There will always be a spark in our hearts
Heads held high
Let the true colors show
Revealed in the light
There's no reason to hide anymore!
Take control of life
Get rid of past remorse
Leave it all behind
Happiness is worth fighting for!
Conceals a lesson
One that's worth the cost
Each of us deserves a clear conscience-
The hope that we carr
My Invisible LifeMy Invisible Life1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Invisible Life
On the surface of anxiety
Getting used to this melancholy
They'd always be here to help
I've always only had myself
Opening the gates to this hell
And the screams are revealed
I let my sorrow and resolve meld
My desires are overtaken
I know this isn't right
But my lies weren't convincing
So this will always be my invisible life
Uncommonly BeautifulThe stars are coming out tonight. A million, billion sources of light, stretching into infinity. A million, billion suns, each shining down on their own worlds. The moon is full and uncommonly beautiful. It will wax and it will wane, going from a bold, brilliant source of light nearly as powerful as the sun to the barest wink of silver in the sky, and then disappearing. But it will always return.Uncommonly Beautiful1 year ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
Tomorrow morning, the sun will rise and paint the sky with color. It will give light and life to the world all day, as it has done for every day past and will do for every day still to come. Even if there are clouds and rain and storming, the sun will always be there, just behind it all, waiting to shine through again.
It will set in the night, going out in another blaze of beauty, and the the cycle will begin agian, and will continue to go on, no matter what happens to each of us, little souls going about our little lives of pain and pleasure on this little blue planet.
No matter what happens
The Peace SeekerThe Peace Seeker1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Peace Seeker
Whispers that no one hears
The world is deaf from despair
The sun becomes my throne
As I watch reality become undone
Someone can be another person's hero
If only love existed
Dusk will break with a darker tomorrow
Another day of being two-faced
Every second- a promise is broken
Every minute- a tear is taken
Every hour- a smile is forced
Every day- a child is born
I stitch my mouth shut / I finally had enough
Silence is my sin / Truth is my friend
Seal my eyes wide / Lies can finally hide
I will witness no evil / I will force another smile
Anyone can be someone's demon
Because greed insists it
Peace is not real to a planet of villains
Needs cannot be resisted
Every chance- wrongs replace rights
Every opportunity- delusions will ignite
Every wish- is for more of the same
Every hope- is for someone else to blame
Screams that will echo on
The voices of war will succumb
The moon becomes my beacon
As I await for the answers I'm seeking
My Choice.It does not matter,My Choice.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
That things will change to get better.
If I am not ready what is the point?
If my body happens to not be ruined then what is the point?
Yes I have lost the sparks in my eyes, but not my mind.
You act as if life is a race, rushing to find,
Myself and the part I lost.
To prove in life we live to form ourselves,
And this will not take a day...
Or even a month like you say.
Your battle is pointless.
This is my bod that I posses,
I being the host,
Should have the vote that counts the most.
My soul unaware of light,
Is amused by this fight,
It makes my life a bit more amusing.
I may seem like a confusing,
Fuck up to you,
But for me there is nothing else I can do,
I must continue on this path,
Do the math...
Nothing will ever change.
To Save Your LifeTo Save Your Life1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
To Save Your Life
Heroes are hard to come by
Especially in this day and age
Because of you- I am still alive
Hail, the vanquisher of pain
I fought as long as I could have
But I sank into the weakness below
And I felt my sorrow's wrath
The helplessness took over
My fists let go
Of the resistance
I fell from hope
The light faded in the distance
It was all a dream
A simple false belief
Hands dangled frantically / Tears dripped endlessly
I needed a hero to save me / I yearned to be set free
A hand reached out
I was finally found
I rose back to grace
And the darkness brightened
The savior I awaited
Lifted me up and triumphed
I prayed as much as I needed
Even when I was beyond drowning
I knew a kind soul would pay heed
Every mourning human deserves saving
When we are used to being alone
True kindness is difficult to find
But one day that hero will come
To save your life
ReflectionReflection1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
In the window...
In the ocean...
I see sorrow
I see confusion
I'll wake up tomorrow
And...forget my confessions
I regret every given sin
Replaying it all in my mind
Tattoos repent on my skin
They're serving a lifetime
Scars reveal past pain
And it's all mine
I see my eyes! / I fear my lies!
I scream inside! / I hide behind!
Tears won't fade! / Lost my faith!
I'm not okay! / It's too late!
I see through the cracks
Into my fallen reality
I put up a poor act
My transparent sanity
My soul finally snapped
Unleashed the real me
In the mirror...
In the destruction...
I see terror
I see justification
I'll wake up as an avenger
...Of my former reflection
Idle No MoreIdle No More1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Idle No More
Scattered bravery can and will unite!
Come together and let us stand up for our rights!
Let our voices ascend from this condescending lament!
Rise up and fight against the bitter injustice to the very end!
Generations have come and passed
But here has come a time
Where this bloodline may be the last
This is what we call life
Choked by the government's grasp
And abiding by the lies they hurl in a mass
Promises were disguised / Words were lies
We couldn't cross that line / A law where corruption aligns
A home that I can't call mine / A reservation to silence the mourning
A place for the shame they hide / A destruction that is considered fine
An agreement made into a mistake / Our relations were falsely created
Your smiles were feigned / For our own sake
There's countless victims of your crusade / Can't let history repeat this way
Rebuttal the decisions you made / reinvoke the culture you stripped away
Children that don't get to be
Exist inside of fe
Soul MateThese limbs trace foreign to my ownSoul Mate1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
but I will learn to love them beautiful
because the lines of your skeleton
and the curves of your heartbeat
hold a precious hollow rhythm
that echoes my embrace
UnsolidUnsolid1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Even when I'm at my weakest
I still lend you my strength
Even when my eyes are their darkest
I still look out for you the best way I can
I'm not the hero of the day
I just know what's right
I'm not some selfless saint
Someone has to bear the light
I don't expect any praise
All my deeds are of the same kind
I need not your thanks
No relief can fill this void in my life
No rest for the wicked / No love for the abandoned
No hope for the innocent / No pain for the departed
I'll give you my all / I'll rise while I fall
I'll answer your call / I'll serve until there's no pulse
I'm not looking for acknowledgment
Remember not my face
I don't consider labels an accomplishment
Forget to speak of my name
I will leave none a victim of relinquishment
You will not witness that pain
I'm merely here to cure the inhumane infections
For we are all one in the same
Even when all seems hopeless
I will come to turn the tides
Even when I'm left powerless
I will always be
Please (Don't) Hate MeIf I told you a liePlease (Don't) Hate Me1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
But it made you smile
Would it still be a sin?
If I opened the door
But turned you away
Would you still come in?
If I sliced my skin
But it didn't hurt
Would it still be wrong?
If I acted all brave
But couldn't face it
Would I still be strong?
If I tied my noose
Around a tree's open arms
Would it be an embrace?
If I left tonight
And begged you stay
Would you still give chase?
If I committed sin
But hurt nobody
Would I be welcome above?
If I do something you hate
But only for your good
Could it still be true love?
No More TherapyNo More Therapy2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No More Therapy
Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here
Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done
Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision
Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind
Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy
I am wrong
What am I living for?
All I know is this constant fear
What is the cure for a pain when life is the source?
You cannot break and repair what you didn't handle with care
I'm anything but loved / Let the mistakes be undone
I know what's right / This is my plight
No turning back / Hope won't last
Do or die / Choice was mine
CrushCrush1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's my world
These are my shoulders
It's my burden
These are my problems
It's my life
These are the tears I cry
It's my truth
These are my last moments with you
When you said those words
My vision got blurry
We couldn't be "us" anymore
It divides me
Double-edged love / I needed you so much
You're all I really got / Without you- I'm lost
When you walked away
I met the ground
I felt a ripping pain
A deafening sound
I won't get up again
This is my place now
This is me on my knees
Let me be weak
This is me breaking down
Let me cry out
This is me at my worst
Let me be hurt
This is me crushing my heart
Please...let me fall apart...in your arms
Between Heaven and HellEveryone has a story to tellBetween Heaven and Hell1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The time and place the falls from grace.
We all walk at our own pace
forever attempting to win the illusionary race.
So I took the time, to sit and rewind....
granted pause to the cause, reflections of the mind.
Years upon years slowly drifted on by...
Journeys left behind slumbering alongside the road of unknown,
collecting dirt and debris, anxiously awaiting to be set free,
but could not flee...no one to save me and turn the key.
Everything has a time and a place within the enchanted space.
A story to tell of heaven and hell...
Realise this upon states of bliss,
In the beginning we all fell--in the end we all shall fall.
Can no longer ignore the ancient call.
Leaving HeavenLeaving Heaven1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not fit for the title of saint
For...I thrive with guilt and shame
I feel related to the fallen
I'd...be better off forgotten
Because it's growing on me
This...abomination of self-centered pity
I beg for the removal of my existence
Father...I don't wish to be a disappointment
I can't stand my broken flaws
I'm unlike any other angel of god
A soldier, a warrior- is what I am not
So allow me to let go of my cross
Even though it's all I've really got
But I realize that I will always be a lost cause
Emptiness fills every single thought / Hopelessness is what I have wrought
A clouded path I now walk / Reassurance can not be sought
Sorrow enveloped me
The pain inside just got too heavy
And grief overpowered me completely
I've been feeling so disconnected lately
Haunted by my memories
If only you could see
These wings were too much to carry
Maybe...it was meant to be
I did everything I could have
With...the little courage I had
But I am one who really d
ForeverEveryday I die a little moreForever1 year ago in Emotional More Like This
the constant pain cuts to the core..
What once was lost
is still not found..
I can't rise up
if I'm always down..
Depression, a reality from which I cannot hide
I'll never feel alive without you by my side..
Only you can free me from this dark abyss
if only my lips could feel your sweetest kiss..
"Take me away from this wretched place!"
"Save my soul with your warm embrace!"
You are the one...to ease my pain
to make my life feel somewhat sane..
Without you I will wither, die and fade away
Stay with me - let's live forever and a day.
Shade Of BlueShade Of Blue1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Shade Of Blue
From a deep slumber...
I have awoken
To this cruel color...
That leaves me haunted
My eyes scream
As I opened the door to my soul
Those thoughts of you start to bleed
Reminding me that you're just a person I used to know
A dark ocean blue that I once knew
Leaked through my window
It matched this mood
Amplifying the sorrow
Sparking negative energy
It's the secret source of my core
The only element allowing me-
To survive another day, once more
Without a care
I can endure
Without a prayer
I push forward
So let this hue shower
With extreme hatred
Force the nostalgia to devour
And let my heart remain powerless
Wishing I was never left behind
I'm not baffled that you still bother me to this day
The reminders of you are such a beautiful sight
I'm sure the desires for you will never fade
The last of our memories aren't kind
It's haunting waking up without you...
I'm surrounded in my empty life
By this lovely shade of blue...
Shadow WorldShadow World1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's enveloping my heart
And tainting my soul
I've been corrupted by the dark
A new power to behold
I'm too far gone already
Just give in
Accepting my tragedy
A new path will begin
Transform into what I dreamed of
No longer afraid
The road to peace will be victorious
A triumph so great
I closed my eyes for the last time / I watched it all disappear
I left behind my old life / I've become what I've feared
I know this path is one that very few desire
But what's done is done
Never again will I look into a mirror
For my darkness and I have become one
It's what I've always wanted
So I tried to cast aside my guilt
But I will always be haunted
From the innocent hope I killed
It's blinding my morals
And embracing my greed
I left behind my sorrow
And gained a new kind of belief
I've done it, I've really done it
Dawning this new dusk
I've made it into the darkness
The light was never enough